Title: Breakfast - Shattered ice Author: mothpone Pastebin link: http://pastebin.com/wWVfEewJ First Edit: Thursday 15th of May 2014 02:10:48 AM CDT Last Edit: Thursday 15th of May 2014 02:10:48 AM CDT >You are Shimmer Light. >The week of storms is over. >None of your other journeys required saving, thank goodness. >The winds weren't nearly as horrendous as... that day... >You made a smoothie. >The same smoothie she made for you. >... Yours didn't hold a light to hers. >You did everything the same way she did. >Yours just didn't taste good. >Once again, she's bested you. >You're starting to lose faith in yourself. >... You don't understand. >You're the only one you've ever trusted. >You're the only one you've ever cared about. >You're the only one... >You... >... >Hexferry is walking next to you. >She seems to be talking, but you can't hear her. >You aren't actively trying to ignore her, you're just too lost in thought. >That's the only good thing to come out of this. >You're ignoring her without even trying. >It serves her right; she's the one who did this to you. >... How could you let her do this? >She's destroyed you. >She's the one who made you lose yourself. >You've lost who you are. >... You doubt she even cares. >She's having fun killing you. >... You wonder how long you have bottle yourself up in your home before you fade from the living. >No, you aren't giving up. You just... have to find who you are. >Once you do, you'll be back to your usual self. >... Whoever that is... >... >You feel a hoof on your back. >Well, through all of your jackets. >It's probably Hexferry. >You try to keep moving forward, but the hoof pulls you back. >... Are you really this weak? >"Shimmer, what's wrong with you?!" >Wrong? There's nothing right with you at the moment. >You struggle against her grip. >... Pathetic... >She probably isn't even putting up a valiant effort. >You can't get away. >"You passed your house." >... Did you? >Sure enough, when you turn to look, your home is behind you now. >You adjust yourself and head toward your home. >... Hexferry stands in your way.   >Once again, she wears that same concerned look on her stupid, ugly face. "M-move..." >Is that your voice?! >That sounded like a stray who got kicked too many times trying to stand up for itself. >You need to get away. >Now. >... She noticed too. >"Shimmer, what's wrong with you?" >Her tone drips with pity. >... No more. >You've had far too much of this. >You do your best to glare straight into her eyes. >Give her the pain she's given you. "You are!" >Hexferry recoils back. "I don't want friendship, I want solitude. I don't care about your stupid stories, I don't care about anything you do, and I don't care about yo-" >You choke. >... What? >What?! >You weren't even finished with your tirade! >... It feels like something is caught in your throat. >Like you're trying to swallow something but there's nothing there. >You look down. >She can't see you struggle. >You cough a couple of times. >"Shimmer!" >Come on! You were so close, but she still won't leave you alone... >... Your eyes feel... weird. >Your vision is blurry, but not the same blurry you get when you think of the cold. >The blurring moves with your trembling body. >... You're trembling?! >You feel the need to blink. >Hexferry puts her hoof under your head and slowly lifts it to make you look at her. >The blurring moved with gravity. >Now, only the bottom of your vision is blurry. >Very blurry. >She has tears in her eyes. >... Even through what you said, she still looks concerned. >You try to start your last sentence again, but you can't even get a sound out. >Your glare is almost nonexistent now. >... Your face feels weird... >It feels contorted. >You can't control it. >Luckily, your scarves are covering most of it. >But... >... You blink. >Suddenly, the blurriness is gone, but you feel something stream from your eyes. >It's not raining. >... Your eyes widen. >Your heart beats harder. >It hurts. >... You're crying. >You... never cry. >Hexferry isn't even fully crying!   >She only has tears in her eyes! >You're... >Hexferry moves your head to her chest. >Her fur is so soft... >It's unfortunate you're staining it with your tears. >... You're the worst. >You put a hoof on her back to try lifting yourself away from her. >Instead, you hang on to her. >... You're using her for support. >You are a wreck. >... You are weak... >Hexferry puts her head on yours. >She seems to be pulling you somewhere. >Your legs blindly follow her lead. >You hear some sounds, but you can't pinpoint what they are. >If you were in a better state of mind, you could. >... >You feel your leg bump into something soft. >"Shimmer, lay down here." >... You don't take orders from... >You slowly pull away from her chest. >That's your couch. >Probably. >Your sight is still very blurry. >You can only imaging how soaked her fur is... >Hexferry helps you onto the couch. >... You bury your face in a pillow. >Never in your life have you felt this... >Useless. >Pathetic. >... Hurt... >Hexferry gently grabs one of your hooves. >You slowly look up from your pillow. >She looks the same as before... but also hurt. >Your words did get to her. >... Unfortunately, they don't have much weight behind them by now. >You're just a crying mess. >... You turn back to the pillow. >At least it doesn't pity you. >It doesn't think your a sniveling pile of filth. >It doesn't... >... >Eventually, your crying stops. >You inhale deeply. >... Then let it out. >Slowly... >You take off your layers of clothing one by one. >Every sock, scarf, hat, jacket... >Everything. >You just toss them to the floor next to Hexferry. >... You assume. >Your face is still in the pillow, so you obviously can't see. >She must have let go at some point, because you don't feel her anymore. >You look up. >... She's gone. >You close your eyes and sigh. >So badly... you just want to die.