Title:           Luna Feels
Author:          auag
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First Edit:      Thursday 13th of February 2014 02:08:20 AM CDT
Last Edit:       Thursday 13th of February 2014 02:08:20 AM CDT

>you're married to Luna
>you used to be happy as fuck
>Celestia is next to you on the balcony
>She places a hoof on your shoulder
>Your eyes are drawn to the moon
>You shake it off, she doesn't try again
>The two of you stand in silence for several minutes
>"How do you feel?"
>her speech is informal
>that just insults you
>you're not her family
>law be damned, you don't want to be related to her
>you let her words linger, not sure how to answer
"What do you think?"
>your fists are clenched in rage
>she's untouchable, but just for once
>you wish all the magic was gone from the world so you could hurt her
 
>"You hate me."
>Luna's rooms and buildings are yours
>Bound by marriage, you inherited it all
>but they're empty without her
>and they're forbidden by Equestrian law
>"It was not for me to choose."
>you still remember how sweet she was
>how you would spend the nights together
>curled up under her moon, admiring the sky
>"It was hard for me as well, anon."
>she was always talking about how no one admired her night like you did
>you always loved the night, loved the chill air
>and this monster took her away
"To send your only sister away? Instead of help?"
>you're trying to keep your voice even
>it's not working, you know she can tell
>"There were...other forces at work."
>always blaming
>it was never her fault, and it will never be
>all the histories will reflect that
>and soil your sweet wife's name
 
"Ego? Pride? Megalomania!?"
>you don't care, you're shouting now
>you've turned to look at her, and there's tears
>crocadile tears no doubt
>she'll never get your pity
>but you can tell she's hurt by your words
>and it feels good
>you can never touch her physically
>but she can't block words
>"You don't know how far she fell, anon."
"No I don't, she was right there with me last week!"
>eternal darkness, monsters in the dark, all in one day
>the most uncreative lie her beloved highness ever made
"All you do is keep lying to justify yourself, there is _no_ justification for your crime."
>it feels cathartic, yelling at the princess
>you never want to stop
 
"Sending a hurt sister away so you don't have to deal with her."
>she's looking away, there's no more eye contact
"A tyrant masquerading as a princess, you just want the moon to yourself."
>you jab a finger at the perfect glowing circle
"That's _hers_ and it will never be yours."
>she's turning away, she's walking away from you
"What, jealous? That ponies can look at the moon but not your sun?"
>you're panting, blood rushing from the rage and shouting
>there's no answer from her
>she's walking away
>you glare at her in rage as she leaves Luna's - your - room
>you return to the balcony, looking up at her
>staring at your wife's pride and prison, you fall asleep
>head on the balcony, hands hung over
 
>"Do you feel better, anon?"
>You don't know how you managed to not fall
>it's morning, sunrise
>and the tyrant is beside you again
"Get out."
>"They want you gone."
>as expected, her fearmongering worked
>they're afraid of you
>you don't know why the princess hasn't killed you yet
>but you won't have her soil your wife's name
>"I can't help but oblige."
>so this is it, you're going to be stripped of everything
>not that there was much left
>all you had was destroyed in the "battle" Celestia had
>even this room was temporary
 
>her guards are beside you, you're outside Canterlot
>she looks pained, she's probably faking
>she reads off a scroll
>"For collaboration with a traitor and high treason, thou art hereby exiled from Equestria."
>your carriage arrives
>all you have are your clothes and a bag of items
>among them a locket you had given to your wife
>for better or worse, she left it behind
>it was the only nonessential thing you were allowed to bring to Canterlot
>everything else was property of the government
>now it's the only thing you're allowed to bring out
>you're shoved unceremoniously into the carriage
>the butts of their spears are just for humiliation
>they could've easily magicked you in
>the carriage starts moving and you fall asleep
 
>you wake up, you're in front of the abandoned castle
>a sick joke, technically outside of Equestrian borders now
>you don't want to look at it, it's too painful
>forest surrounds you, it's dark and you're hungry
>the castle is empty, you had to admit it was fast
>moving out in just a week, relocating the capital
>your stomach rumbles, but you know the castle has no food
>you've never hunted in your life, living like royalty for so long
>you clutch your locket tightly, it wasn't long enough
>you start heading towards it
>soon you're lost
>this was stupid
>you passed some blue flowers on the way
>they didn't look at all edible
>you did feel a little weird after encountering them
 
>everything seems a little darker now
>the ground seems to have gotten a little gray
>you hear some growlings from behind a tree
>you start scrambing up a nearby tree in fear
>you don't even have a weapon
>and of course you fall because you haven't climbed a tree in your life
>and for some reason the tree disappears
>now you're confused
>everything looks flat for some reason, the sky is black
>and the ground looks gray
>like the moon
>the growling subsides away
>there's nothing to carry the sound
>you always loved the moon
>you lean down, picking up some dust
>was that blue flower some hallucinogen?
>you can still breathe
>maybe your wife brought you here
>something brings you down
>it's Luna
 
>you've never been so happy in your life
>she's giggling, her familiar blue form warm against your body
"I've missed you."
>"And I you, my love."
>you look her in those gorgeous eyes
>the moment seems to hold still forever
>the same magic when you first met
>a hand runs over her face just for a reality check
>she smiles at your touch
>it's really her
>she leans down, you lean forward
>one more kiss
 
[spoiler]>the timberwolf finishes its meal, satisfied, and moves on[/spoiler]
 
>you're Luna
>it's been several months since you've returned home
>everything's as it's been before
>in Canterlot at home, at least
>minus the most important part of your life
>the nights are quiet as always
>some stargazing ponies every now and then
>your sister still keeps a close eye on you
>she keeps you away from ponies as much as possible
>telling you that you're not to be seen too often
>it's just the same as it was before
>it's night again, you're looking at your moon
>from the same balcony you and anon stayed and chat all night
>it's not the same without him, and you take flight
>you just felt like it, it's a full moon, the landscape is illuminated
>you're flying for several hours, you enjoy the wind through your mane
>you haven't had wind for years
>just a joyride through the night again
>but this time with no extra weight on your back
>you fly over a forest, landing on a nearby tree
 
>it's isolated
>ponies seem to avoid here
>you can see a view of your old castle
>bitter memories flood your mind
>you can't help but feel something draw you to this spot
>you dive through the treetops
>something glitters in the dirt
>you approach it, it's golden, but covered with dirt
>you unearth it and your heart cries
>it's a locket, the one anon gave you
>you never found it, and you thought it lost forever
>Celestia told you anon had left the new capital in frustration
>maybe he ended here, trying to get back to the castle
>and left it
>you pick it up
>"Luna, my love" engraved on it
>the scratch where he accidentally stumbled giving it to you
>you sit down, tears in your eyes
>memories of a time that'll never return come flooding in
>the only one who appreciated your night
>your only friend
>your love
>you spend the night mourning anon