02-05-14
 
Resh and Star decided to spar again earlier today, first time I’ve seen them at it since Star got hurt. This ended worse than that time, though.
 
Star did something that fucked Resh up. After everything was done, he still lost, and Resh got repeatedly asking him what he was saying. Then we saw the blood coming from his ears. We managed to communicate that he may have busted eardrums and got him to the clinic. I thought he was going to be alright…
 
Nope. His eardrums were most certainly ruptured and the clinic cannot do anything. Unless some miracle of pony regeneration happens, Resheph will be permanently deaf.
 
His and Hot Pot’s wedding is on Friday.
 
Later, while everyone was supposedly playing truth or dare as I was just sitting there pretending to be involved, he came over and hugged me and… I still remember the exact words:
 
"Do you know the things I'll never hear? I can never hear Hot Pot's voice again...the cries of my child, nothing..."
 
I took a stand. I got the notebook he was using for other people to communicate with him through and wrote in big bold letters “MIGHT”.  He seemed to look a little hopeful but… I don’t know.
 
Hot Pot found out later in the evening. You know when you look carefully at someone’s face just as something especially rough happens to them, you just know how deep it hits?
 
I swear, I felt dreadful in that moment. Like, in the time gearing up for a breakdown like on the day Starlight died dreadful. It barely even impacts my life – I love everyone, but I’m not so close the just get crippled when they are, but I still feel something and it just accumulates into a pathetic mound of pent up angst or something.
 
Gotta find a way to vent.
 
How I regret leaving that job at the mines…