First page.
 
"Sometimes I like to think that what I did wasn't really bad. It was just a step to become what I'm meant to be. Big rewards come with big sacrifices"
 
Dim insists on me learning that language, and of course I won't disappoint him! I still don't understand why he speaks in such an odd way when expressing himself in Equestrian. His voice is unpleasant almost all the time, but when speaking on his language, it sounds almost soothing... in a creepy way. His eyes shine all the time, I wonder if he ever sleeps... will I get to look like him as well? His hair is dirty all the time and his clothes reek of blood. Would he get mad at me if I ask him to take a bath?
 
words to learn today:
 
Village >>> Xukijo
Mother  >>> Nivos
Father  >>> Givos
Child   >>> Tug (tug-van for children)
Food    >>> Gahv
Water   >>> Ehvos
I       >>> Ut
You     >>> Uku
He      >>> Koh
She     >>> Toh
It      >>> Uve
They    >>> Doi
We      >>> Et
That    >>> Vit
This    >>> Vut
These   >>> Vute
Those   >>> Vite
 
It's surprisingly simple! At least to understand its basic structure. Dim even explained to me that even if this is an old language, at first it was just a code, then they started adding things and rules to it. However, I still can't get the symbols to write it, and the way he pronounces the vowels and some consonants are very different of how I do it... but I won't fail him. He's my only chance.
 
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Second page.
 
"I stopped caring about forgiveness the same second I followed him. I'm not stupid and I know what these cookies and his chants are doing to me, is not 'good' for others, but is good for me. When I stopped caring, everything stopped being good or bad. It's all the business of life and death, like he said. We are full of the coins of life. It flows through our veins."
 
Tonight he found that I was writing this journal. Somehow, I think he wasn't mad, but he warned me to stop doing it in Equestrian. I guess he wants my studies to be more intense so I learn his language soon.
 
Today's words:
 
Friendship
Love         >>> Kato
Hate         >>> Kivo
Distrust     >>> Netset
Harmony      >>> Khisnapu
Disharmony   >>> Futhisnapu
Blood        >>> Kavh
Heart        >>> Koith
Head         >>> Koivh
Marrow       >>> Niza
 
The pronunciation is the only damn thing giving me troubles, is almost nothing like how the letters are supposed to be! If my mother had only let me go to an academy like I wanted I would know better... and none of this would have happened. I guess that serves her well.
I wonder if she's still alive, but I no longer care.
 
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From the third page on, everything is written in nukaf.