>Oh, this is embarrassing. Im sorry you misunderstood our friendship, Anon, but I like guys who are a bit more.. in shape. And.. outgoing. You understand, right?
"I understand," you say.
>You turn around and start to head for the door.
>While you do so, there is a pain in your heart as you accept what was said.
>The realization that you have now fucked over your friendship with Twilight is apparent in your mind
>As the door to the castle become closer, you say one last thing before you depart.
"I guess this will be the last time we shall be know as friends since it would be awkward for this friendship to continue with what has been said in here."
"Farewell Twilight," you say.
>The door opens easily as you walk away dejectedly back to your home.
>Maybe you don't deserve to be loved.
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>It has been over two weeks since anyone has seen Anon.
>Ever since the little incident that occurred between the both of you, he simply vanished.
>You feel kinda bad about what you said to him.
>Not all of the things you said were true, however,when he said that he had feelings for you, you got nervous and panicked.
>When you rejected him you saw the pain in his eyes.
>It looked like he tried to mask his emotions.
>He managed to hide it physically for the most part, but you could see through it.
>The worst part about it is that you lost a good friend.
>You and the girls were becoming worried that something bad had happened to Anon.
>They all decided that it would be a good idea to check his home to see if he was there.
>That leads you to where you all are now: Anon's home.
>It was a small cottage on the outskirts of Ponyville that was custom built just for Anon.
>Nobody has seen the inside of his house since Pinkie threw him a housewarming party a year ago.
>Applejack knocked on the door.
>"Hay Anon, ya in there?" she asked.
>There was no response to the question, so you concluded that he might not be there.
>You decided that it wouldn't hurt to look inside Anon's home.
"Come on girls lets check this place out. Anon might be in danger, and need our help." You say.
>The six of you cautiously enter the house.
>To your surprise everything is neatly organized.
>The cottage had a cozy feeling to it, and it seemed to be cleaned regularly.
>It only had four rooms, so searching it would be easy.
>You have Rarity and Fluttershy check the kitchen/living room while Applejack and Rainbow check the guest bedroom.
>Pinkie checks the bathroom, so you check his bedroom.
>The first things that you notice is that the room smells like lavender, and there are two boxes next to the bed.
>You open the box that is close to you and find that it is full of sheet music.
>All the names songs sound unfamiliar to you.
>The next box is full of photos.
>Some of them are with you and the girls while the other ones are of humans.
>One photo has Anon with a group of humans that look like they're his family.
>The background of it looks like a farm.
>You look at some more of the pictures.
>They all vary from his family to him with several musical instruments.
>Nobody knew anything about Anon's life before he came to Equestria.
>He never wanted to talk about it because he said that it brought back painful memories.
>You finish looking through the boxes and look around the room some more.
>There is a case underneath the bed that was opened a little bit.
>Deciding to look inside of it, you pick it up and put it on the bed.
>It was cello that was expertly crafted a long time ago.
>It was beautiful.
>Not wanting to somehow damage it, you close the case and put it back under the bed.
>After putting it back, you check the small closet in the room.
>It has a saxophone lying in its case.
>You never knew Anon played any instruments.
>Concluding that you and the girls have searched the house, you decide to leave.
"Come on girls, we have to still find Anon." You say.
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>You have looked for hours to find Anon, but still there have been no results to where he is.
>After the six of you checked his house, you decided to look all over Ponyville
>It was nearing dusk, so you decide that it is time to call it quits for the day.
"We can pick up the search tommorow. For now lets get some rest." You say.
>The others agree, and the six of you start to head back to your homes.
>As the sky slowly turns dark, your five friends go their seperate ways.
>You get lost in your thoughts as you begin the long walk back to the castle.
>For some reason all you can think about is Anon.
>And how it might be your fault if something happened to him.
>He is a kind person, and you could always have intelligent conversations.
>Its a shame that you lost him as a friend.
>You reminisce about all the good times you had together.
>Then you relized how much pain he is probably going through right now because of you.
>Without realizing it, you completely walked past the castle and were heading to Anon's home.
>As you slowly approach it, the sound of talking can be heard.
>Its definitely Anon, but you can hear sadness in his voice.
>"Hello darkness, my old friend. It feels like I can no longer find happiness no matter what I try. To think that I actually thought I deserved to be loved was just stupid. The only thing I deserve is to suffer." He said solemnly.
>You then hear him drag a bow across the strings of his cello.
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>You begin serenading your surroundings with the song.
>It is one of your favorites from your true home.
>The memories of the past come back to you;
>Of all the things you left behind
>Your friends, your family, your dreams, and her.
>You were going to be a married man once however, your fiancee was not loyal to you and cheated on you.
>She said how much you were worthless, and that she only stayed with you out of pity because you were a pathetic excuse for a human being.
>You died that night.
>A single .45 round to the head.
>The pain of living was to much to bear for you, so you just ended it.
>The feeling that you get when you find out that you are not truly loved is a pain that no one deserves.
>The last thought you had was that you just wanted to be happy.
>Thats how you originally came to Equestria.
>You managed to forget about the incident over time , but it resurfaced when Twilight rejected you.
>You had been trying to recover from it all the past two weeks.
>You have accepted that you will always be alone in this land.
>You decide that you have had enough time to reminisce your memories and put more focus into the song you were playing.
>It sounds peaceful as it flows across the countryside.
>It looks like the rain has come early because you feel a dampness around your eyes.
>Eventually you finish the song.
>You sit there for a few moments just letting the tears flow.
>The tears slowly subside, and it takes a few moments to regain your posture.
>You decide you will play one more song before you head to sleep.
>As you are about to begin to play, but you here something moving behind you.
>Instinctively, you reach down to your hip for your gun, the same one you offed yourself with, to then realize that you left it in the safe under your bed.
>Not caring if whatever the thing is, you ask aloud.
"Who goes there?" You state.
>You turn around to see what is behind you, and to your surprise the mare who caused you to remember your painful past.
"What the hell do you want?" You tell her.
>She jumps back from your tone of voice.
>It is silent for a few moments until you break it.
"If you're not going to say anything then leave." You say coldly.
>You turn back around to start playing again, but she starts to say something.
>"Anon, look I'm sorry for the pain I caused you. When you said that you had feelings for me, I got nervous and panicked and just quickly spat out a response that I now regret saying." She says.
>You turn back around to face Twilight.
>Her apology sounded sincere enough, and you really can't stay mad at her even if she caused you to remember your past.
"It's alright Twilight, I forgive you." You say.
>"You shouldn't of forgiven me I don't believe I deserve to be for what I've done to you." She says.
"You did not hurt me that much. My memories hurt me more than your rejection did."
>"What do you mean by "my memories"?" She says.
"I guess it time to tell someone the truth. Do you know why I never talked about my past?" You say.
>You said it brought back painful memories." She replies.
"Not all of them were bad for the most part, but one incident put me though a lot of pain. It was one of the last things that happened to me before I came to Equestria. I was in a steady relationship with a woman. She meant the world to me. She made me feel genuinely happy."
>"What happened?" Twilight asked.
"She cheated on me and stabbed me in the back. The pain she inflicted on me was too much to bear, so I ended it all. That is how I truly got here." You state.
>"What did you mean by ending it all?"
"I killed myself." You flat out say.
>You notice tears starting to form in Twilight's eyes.
>"Why?" She asked.
"I couldn't handle the pain like I said. When I died, I just wanted to end my suffering."
>The next thing you notice is that there are a pair of hooves wrapping you in a hug.
>You return the embrace feeling the happiest you have been in weeks.
>"Don't you ever do something crazy like that again." Twilight says as she openly weeps on you.
"Don't worry Twi, I won't ever again.
>You hug her for what seems like an eternity, but all good things must come to an end.
>"Well its getting late. I need to get back to the castle." She says.
"Would you mind if I walk back with you?" You ask.
>"No, not at all." She smiles.
>The walk is not very long while you talk with Twilight.
>As the both approach the entrance to the castle ,you ask Twilight two questions.
"So how is this friendship going to work now that you know I like you? Would there be a possibility that this friendship could become something more?"
>"Only time will tell Anon." She says.
END