Oct 8. cont. ~ I had some other thoughts so I'm going to record them before heading to bed.
Its funny how humans need drive to do stuff. Very rare is it that someone will just do something because.
More times than not there is a drive,light at the end of the tunnel, some pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.You were my pot of gold. I didn't really have much going for me before you. It was just coasting from task to task.Day to day. Just doing the minimum to crawl by. Then you came into my life. You made me want to be better.
 
I wanted to be better for you. I still don't know what you saw in me at first, but I knew it wasn't good enough. Not for you. Grades started to improve, I started to pull more hours at work, started working on after school thoughts. I wanted to be able to care and support for you. Give you the life you deserved. You had by no means an easy one. Sure, working and school was tough with the hour or two of sleep each night. I was just too busy talking with you all night to really worry about sleep.
 
Even to this day I still think it was worth it.