Oct. 8
Another day, another resisted good morning. We had all those talks when we were together. What will happen
if it doesn't work out? Will we stay friends? Will we still talk? You always told me yes. But since we split you have said a total of eight words to me. Its not like you really cant... you talk all day in the MB chat but when I try to start a conversation with you it just tanks because you put not effort into it. To be honest, you seem better off. Without me I mean. Near the end of us you weren't like the person I fell in love with. You didn't play vidya anymore, almost no chats with anyone. You told me you just sat there and stared at your monitor.
 
Now you've started chatting again, playing vidya. Hell, you are even looking for a new job. It seems pretty selfish to want you back, to have you throw away all of that just for me. I think I'm going to start jotting notes on my phone as well now, maybe I'll have too much typed. Heh, we always joked about how I would turn into Yukki someday... I still have that Azu pic as my phones background. I just cant bring myself to change it. I've never even seen K-On!, I guess she just meant that much to you she meant something to me as well. Right now I'm done with my morning classes, this is about when I would actually start to send you messages for the day. When we would start to really talk.
 
I want to tell you everything, but it would just make things worse, I think so at least... It's funny, I always thought if we broke up, it would be you who would be doing the... idiotic... things. You've done it before, I couldn't help but wonder if you would try again. But, its me who's having those thoughts. Just wrap my truck around something solid. You stopped me from shooting myself with unloaded firearms, you didn't like it one bit, so I stopped.
But who knows if it will be loaded next time I try it. I hope not. You would be crushed. I know I would if you did.
 
So I stay strong for you.