2014-12-24 06:34:06     wesley  i can help u tho
2014-12-24 06:34:15     wesley  why do u wanna an hero
2014-12-24 06:34:28     Sandy   personel shit i'd rather not talk about
2014-12-24 06:34:44     Sandy   i'm just worried about fucking it up though :/
2014-12-24 06:34:44     wesley  well
2014-12-24 06:34:53     wesley  i can help you with that
2014-12-24 06:35:14     Sandy   i'm planning on doing it with an exit bag but i'm getting kind of worried it might not work and just end in brain damage
2014-12-24 06:35:33     Sandy   are you as well, or?
2014-12-24 06:35:38     wesley  Yes, that is a concern
2014-12-24 06:35:41     wesley  I was considering it
2014-12-24 06:35:49     wesley  Do you have any guns?
2014-12-24 06:35:52     Sandy   no
2014-12-24 06:36:00     Sandy   well, not here anyways
2014-12-24 06:36:12     wesley  well then the exit bag is the best way
2014-12-24 06:36:30     Sandy   i'd rather not do it that way either since it leaves a giant mess
2014-12-24 06:37:07     wesley  Just make sure nobody is home or coming home and make sure the bag or mask is secure
2014-12-24 06:37:20     Sandy   yeah
2014-12-24 06:37:41     Sandy   i'm just worried about leaks or something, idk
2014-12-24 06:37:52     Sandy   or if theres not enough helium, but idk
2014-12-24 06:38:04     Sandy   i've tried it before and it's obviously failed
2014-12-24 06:38:41     Sandy   http://alt.suicide.methods.narkive.com/  reading through this atm
2014-12-24 06:39:06     wesley  Yeah
2014-12-24 06:39:13     wesley  That is a concern
2014-12-24 06:39:29     wesley  A hospital mask would be best
2014-12-24 06:39:36     wesley  And large tank of helium
2014-12-24 06:39:38     Sandy   CPAP mask?
2014-12-24 06:39:54     Sandy   was thinking about that, those things are expensive as fuck tho
2014-12-24 06:39:57     wesley  Make sure the pressure isnt too high or you'll just collapse your lung. No more than how much you'd breath
2014-12-24 06:40:04     Sandy   yeah
2014-12-24 06:40:15     wesley  $150 doesn't matter if you're killing yourself m8
2014-12-24 06:40:18     Sandy   i should probably buy a gas regulator
2014-12-24 06:40:50     wesley  Are you sure you are planning on suicide, or just attention seeking? Because suicidal people generally don't care about a few dollars
2014-12-24 06:40:59     Sandy   sure about it
2014-12-24 06:41:31     Sandy   im just worried if it fails then it's failed *and* i'd be out $150 or what ever
2014-12-24 06:42:01     wesley  It wont fail if you make sure nobody comes home and you get a big tank of helium
2014-12-24 06:42:24     Sandy   i've heard that before
2014-12-24 06:47:27     wesley  u shouldnt kill urself tho
2014-12-24 06:51:22     Sandy   i've already decided on it
2014-12-24 06:51:46     Sandy   i don't want anyone trying to talk me out of it either which is why i was kind of afraid to ask about it on irc :/
2014-12-24 06:54:57     wesley  fair enough
2014-12-24 06:55:13     wesley  well go with helium
2014-12-24 06:55:27     Sandy   yeah, i've already got the tank
2014-12-24 07:02:20     wesley  well get to it then
2014-12-24 07:07:17     Sandy   Lol
2014-12-24 07:07:28     Sandy   well im waiting on the plastic tubing to arrive
2014-12-24 07:07:43     Sandy   i was planning on doing it next friday wanyways
2014-12-24 07:10:35     Sandy   were you thinking about doing it with an exit bag too, or just a gun?
2014-12-24 07:11:44     wesley  i was gonna take some kikes out
2014-12-24 07:11:57     Sandy   Lol
2014-12-24 07:12:01     wesley  kek
2014-12-24 07:12:51     Sandy   i dont want to do it in anyway that messes with others, otherwise id just point a gun at a cop or jump in front of a train
2014-12-24 07:13:02     Sandy   trying to go quiet and non dramatic though
2014-12-24 07:13:18     wesley  fair enough
2014-12-24 07:22:11     Sandy   only other thing ive seen would be cyanide and idk where to get that
2014-12-24 07:22:16     Sandy   you have any idea?
2014-12-24 07:22:20     wesley  yeah that can be hard to get
2014-12-24 07:22:29     wesley  not really
2014-12-24 07:22:44     wesley  someone who's in chemistry might be able to hook you up
2014-12-24 07:23:14     Sandy   ive heard watch shops use it for cleaning watches but none ive visited have ever heard of that
2014-12-24 07:24:30     wesley  yeah never heard of that
2014-12-24 07:24:37     wesley  u should talk to alghazi tho
2014-12-24 07:24:52     Sandy   is he a chemist?
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2015-01-02 09:21:04     Sandy   wesley you here?
2015-01-02 11:43:04     wesley  Yes?
2015-01-02 11:43:31     Sandy   good timing, i just finished writing my note
2015-01-02 11:43:57     wesley  so whats up?
2015-01-02 11:44:00     Sandy   have you done a lot of research on using exit bags?
2015-01-02 11:44:15     wesley  Not terribly much no
2015-01-02 11:44:48     Sandy   im still planning on going through with it in an hour or 2 but admittedly im kind of terrified it might not work properly and i might just end up brain damaged
2015-01-02 11:45:12     Sandy   ive gone through and double checked everything and it looks fine, but still :/
2015-01-02 11:45:38     wesley  alright but you better be sure
2015-01-02 11:45:43     Sandy   yeah
2015-01-02 11:46:19     Sandy   do you think its a real possibility or am i just fretting for nothing?
2015-01-02 11:46:30     wesley  It'll probably work
2015-01-02 11:46:49     Sandy   yeah, that's what i hope
2015-01-02 11:46:51     wesley  i did read a story though, where one guy did it
2015-01-02 11:47:34     wesley  and it ended up paralyzing him so he couldn't pull the mask off (temporarily)
2015-01-02 11:47:59     wesley  someone ended up walking in I think but yeah
2015-01-02 11:48:14     wesley  just be certain
2015-01-02 11:48:21     Sandy   yeah, theres a brief hypoxia window where that happens
2015-01-02 11:48:28     wesley  mhmm
2015-01-02 11:49:56     wesley  Are you religious?
2015-01-02 11:50:10     Sandy   not really
2015-01-02 11:51:45     wesley  hmm
2015-01-02 11:51:54     wesley  Out of curiosity, why are you doing it?
2015-01-02 11:52:34     Sandy   personal shit i dont really want to talk about tbh
2015-01-02 11:53:02     Sandy   death of a close friend is the main reason but there are others
2015-01-02 11:53:27     wesley  aye, i've dealt with that
2015-01-02 11:54:23     Sandy   anyways i should probably get going
2015-01-02 11:54:29     wesley  i dont really want to try and stop you, it's your choice but it is a big decision.
2015-01-02 11:54:45     Sandy   there are still things i need to do, and i want to get this done before busy morning
2015-01-02 11:55:16     wesley  Alright, all I ask is you reflect upon this. If you died, would you want your friends to kill themselves?
2015-01-02 11:55:16     Sandy   ive been thinking about it for a month or 2, i really dont see any other option anymore
2015-01-02 11:55:32     Sandy   it's up to them really
2015-01-02 11:56:24     wesley  When are you going to do it?
2015-01-02 11:57:03     Sandy   next hour or so
2015-01-02 11:57:16     Sandy   already 6am, waiting for it to warm up a bit outside
2015-01-02 11:58:24     wesley  Well alright
2015-01-02 12:00:07     Sandy   anyways i need to be going
2015-01-02 12:00:21     Sandy   good luck and safe travels wherever life takes you
2015-01-02 12:00:38     wesley  Alright, thank you. Be careful nobody finds you
2015-01-02 12:01:04     Sandy   thanks
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