The door slowly creeks open. I don’t turn around.
It’s probably Lilly.
There’s no one else it could have been.
I don’t know why it’s so important for her to pretend that I’m loved.
Even if she wasn’t lying me, she’s only one person, and she likes Akira better than me.
Understandable, I like Akira better than me too.
I wish Lilly could go away and leave me alone, if just for today.
Then she can keep pretending to be my friend again tomorrow.
It’s nice most of the time; she’s someone to be with.
And I’m someone to be there for for her.
I often think that it would be better if Lilly didn’t treat me like her baby.
But it wouldn’t, I’m even more horrible with people when they don’t.
Last week a girl from class tried to talk to me.
Tried.
I ran away, like always, and then spent the rest of the day wondering what could have been if I didn’t.
Everyone probably thinks I’m weird and weak.
They’re right.
But please Lilly
Go away.
Just for today.