"To Amber Scott from a trans woman"
By robblu (https://pastebin.com/u/robblu)

URL: https://pastebin.com/ky3T8A4R
Created on: Friday 15th of July 2016 08:45:17 PM CDT
Retrieved on: Saturday 31 of October 2020 03:32:05 AM UTC


To Amber Scott from a trans woman
Thank you so much from a trans gamer for painting a target on our backs once again so you can virtue signal how progressive you are. It wouldn't be enough to just, I don't know, put a trans person in a game and have them there as a character. No, it has to be a political statement and you have to just let everyone know it. Otherwise how would people know how great you are as a person, and isn't that what social justice is really about? ... No, seriously, I'm actually starting to wonder that. This is the bloody Samus Aran thing all over again. It can't just be; "here's a fun fan theory make of it what you will," it's we're redefining samus' gender, and all of you can deal with it. Then the trans community gets painted as ???????s for trying to change a venorited IP while you guys get to dance off to the warm glow of praise from your ideological peers. Everytime you paint us as this 'other' you are putting in a game so people can be 'enlightened', and every time attitudes towards trans people are made just that much worse for the effort. YAY! Someone please save us from our so called saviors.

Edited: to correct the mortal sin of mispelling of one gaming's greatest female icon's name. 'Aaron' WTF was going on in my head

Edited 2: for my brain garbling up terminology in a strange and misleading way. 

Edited 3: A couple people have accused me of being fake and at first it didn't bug me but now I'm actually pretty upset so I'm going to lay down some personal history here. Believe it or don't. do with it what you will I don't care I'll have said enough to feel clear on this. Just a warning it'll get a little dark. 

First yes this is an alt account which I am using for two fairly obvious reasons. One, people on both sides of these things can be vindictive and evil and two, I have no intention on outing myself and you'll see why in a second.

I've know I was trans since as far back as I could remember. I always wanted to play the girl character. Penny from inspector gadget and Pippy Longstalking were my heros as a young kid and I wanted to grow up to be just like them. It made sense that I would be like them because that's how I felt I should be. When I was eleven I actually made this whole elaborate pen and paper RPG to explore it further. I didn't do much about it at the time practically because I honestly didn't even think it was possible, but I kept at it in my own little world. At the time I was dealing with a lot of social problems, though It wouldn't be until actually only a few weeks ago that I would actually be diagnosed with mild to moderate autism or aspergers. Since I was diagnosed I was left feeling wrong but not knowing why add to this my feelings about my gender and I was a mess. It didn't stop there of course because the universe seemed to want to make sure I was really screwed so I was also dealing with some very serious domestic abuse that carried on for over ten years. Being threatened at knife point was a common occurance and the few times I got up the nerve to threaten to go to the police I was told that I was too crazy and no one would believe me and I'd be locked away instead. Because of everything else going on at the time I believed him. Needless to say I tried to kill myself multiple times. After a while I finally got free and persued an acting/writing degree at college which was a world I fell in love with. Through out this time my feelings on my gender never changed but I was still so unsure of myself and frankly terrified of other people I could never bring myself to do anything about it. After college things got worse again. I was completely inept at the socializing neccissary to actually have a career and being seperated from the one thing I loved left me profoundly depressed. I tried making a go of it with a more convinctional degree but ultimately I ended up haveing a breakdown and staying voluntarily in a mental health hospital for a month. Since then I've been unable to work or even be around large groups of people for any length of time. The virtual world became the only link I have to something out of my house and through it I've been able to explore my gender and work on improving my mental health. It's been about five years since then and I've gradually gotten better - stronger about who I am and who I want to be though I feel I still have a long way to go. I've come out to a few people about my gender and my sexuality (I'm bisexual) but ultimately I'm still so fragile and terrified about being socially isolated that I haven't been able to do more then that. I don't dress like a woman because without the rest it feels superficial to me though I respect those who disagree. It's simply a personal choice. I am also weary of hormones because of my mental state and because it's a point of no return, though I'm on the gender reassignment surgery waitlist simply because it takes so long though I don't know if I'll ever be ready for it. However in the virtual world I actually get to be who I am. I can be myself and I love this and thank gaming so much for the opportunity to just have that one thing. That connection to my true self. Maybe I'm not trans enough for some people I don't know. But I know for me it's who I am and hopefully it's something I'll be able to be one day. To those denying who I am for petty political bickering know that you are no better then those you claim to fight against and it's because of actions like yours that I can't be free to be who I am. That's the whole long and short of it. Do with it what you will.