"Hidden Agony" By robblu (https://pastebin.com/u/robblu) URL: https://pastebin.com/XM8CEuCS Created on: Saturday 10th of June 2017 09:55:59 PM CDT Retrieved on: Saturday 31 of October 2020 03:20:35 AM UTC Hidden Agony By: Rainbow Pierrot Ichika crumbles under the weight of her pain. Set after the series ends. rated M to b safe, R&R please. Rated: Fiction M - English - Angst/Tragedy - Words: 575 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 5/29/2009 - Status: Complete - id: 5098021 + - Full 3/4 1/2 Expand Tighten Disclaimer: I do not own Uta Kata Enjoy and r&r Warnings: character death and lots of angst. Hidden Agony Everyone thought that Ichika was just so grown up. They all believed she had matured over the Summer she spent with Manatsu-chan and the truth is that she did. She had become more responsible and had opened her eyes to some of the world's hardships. Manatsu-chan's departure was something she pretended to handle well and not even the intuitive Michiru-chan sensed her inner pain and grief. If it wasn't bad enough that her precious friend was gone her life was made even more miserable by the fact that Kai-san was gone too along with Sei-san who was going away to study. Ichika would lay awake at night and remember all that had taken place that Summer, everything they had gone through together. Now all that only existed in a memory. It was heart-braking. God she missed her, missed her precious Manatsu, who had stuck by her again and again saving her from herself and from the deity's power even going so far as to sacrifice herself to save Ichika. She loved her. There was no mistake. She lay there and unavoidably the tears began to fall as they had so many other times before when she thought of all the loss she had to go through. Pain tore at her heart and if felt as if her very soul was drowning in grief. Her heart was broken, shattered the same day, same instant that they had said farewell for the last time on that cold winter night. It was unbearable. Just thinking of her brought it all back in a never ending torrent of memories. To never be able to see the one you love most ever again. It was pure agony, even if Manatsu was a part of her she still felt so empty. Hollow. A shell of the girl she once used to be. Ichika slowly crept out of her bed and walked softly towards her desk. She opened the drawer and after some digging, she removed the small, sharp little knife she kept in there. She looked down at the blade with no emotion evident on her face. Slowly, she brought the knife to her wrist and made a small cut. Manatsu. Another cut. Manatsu why? A bigger cut now. Oh Manatsu-chan why did it have to end like this? The tortured girl had tears streaming down her face but the cuts were becoming less painful. The blood ran freely down her arms and dripped onto the carpet but she paid it no heed. She had made her decision, it had been made for her the very day of her judgment. Her pain was so unreal. Even the pain of the kunai going through her hands and then the scythe going into her didn't hurt nearly as much as this harsh pain. She brought the knife to her wrist. I'm sorry everyone, mother, father please forgive me. Especially you, Manatsu-chan. She applied pressure to the knife and little dots of blood began to form. You were right Manatsu-chan, in the end, you did kill me. She brought the knife down hard and blood immediately began gushing out. The last thing she experienced before the darkness came was the feeling of someone's arms wrapped gently around her.