"Untitled" By I_wesley125 (https://pastebin.com/u/I_wesley125) URL: https://pastebin.com/Kmfj8u6s Created on: Thursday 8th of January 2015 09:43:49 PM CDT Retrieved on: Friday 30 of October 2020 11:42:08 AM UTC 2014-12-24 06:34:06 wesley i can help u tho 2014-12-24 06:34:15 wesley why do u wanna an hero 2014-12-24 06:34:28 Sandy personel shit i'd rather not talk about 2014-12-24 06:34:44 Sandy i'm just worried about fucking it up though :/ 2014-12-24 06:34:44 wesley well 2014-12-24 06:34:53 wesley i can help you with that 2014-12-24 06:35:14 Sandy i'm planning on doing it with an exit bag but i'm getting kind of worried it might not work and just end in brain damage 2014-12-24 06:35:33 Sandy are you as well, or? 2014-12-24 06:35:38 wesley Yes, that is a concern 2014-12-24 06:35:41 wesley I was considering it 2014-12-24 06:35:49 wesley Do you have any guns? 2014-12-24 06:35:52 Sandy no 2014-12-24 06:36:00 Sandy well, not here anyways 2014-12-24 06:36:12 wesley well then the exit bag is the best way 2014-12-24 06:36:30 Sandy i'd rather not do it that way either since it leaves a giant mess 2014-12-24 06:37:07 wesley Just make sure nobody is home or coming home and make sure the bag or mask is secure 2014-12-24 06:37:20 Sandy yeah 2014-12-24 06:37:41 Sandy i'm just worried about leaks or something, idk 2014-12-24 06:37:52 Sandy or if theres not enough helium, but idk 2014-12-24 06:38:04 Sandy i've tried it before and it's obviously failed 2014-12-24 06:38:41 Sandy http://alt.suicide.methods.narkive.com/ reading through this atm 2014-12-24 06:39:06 wesley Yeah 2014-12-24 06:39:13 wesley That is a concern 2014-12-24 06:39:29 wesley A hospital mask would be best 2014-12-24 06:39:36 wesley And large tank of helium 2014-12-24 06:39:38 Sandy CPAP mask? 2014-12-24 06:39:54 Sandy was thinking about that, those things are expensive as fuck tho 2014-12-24 06:39:57 wesley Make sure the pressure isnt too high or you'll just collapse your lung. No more than how much you'd breath 2014-12-24 06:40:04 Sandy yeah 2014-12-24 06:40:15 wesley $150 doesn't matter if you're killing yourself m8 2014-12-24 06:40:18 Sandy i should probably buy a gas regulator 2014-12-24 06:40:50 wesley Are you sure you are planning on suicide, or just attention seeking? Because suicidal people generally don't care about a few dollars 2014-12-24 06:40:59 Sandy sure about it 2014-12-24 06:41:31 Sandy im just worried if it fails then it's failed *and* i'd be out $150 or what ever 2014-12-24 06:42:01 wesley It wont fail if you make sure nobody comes home and you get a big tank of helium 2014-12-24 06:42:24 Sandy i've heard that before 2014-12-24 06:47:27 wesley u shouldnt kill urself tho 2014-12-24 06:51:22 Sandy i've already decided on it 2014-12-24 06:51:46 Sandy i don't want anyone trying to talk me out of it either which is why i was kind of afraid to ask about it on irc :/ 2014-12-24 06:54:57 wesley fair enough 2014-12-24 06:55:13 wesley well go with helium 2014-12-24 06:55:27 Sandy yeah, i've already got the tank 2014-12-24 07:02:20 wesley well get to it then 2014-12-24 07:07:17 Sandy Lol 2014-12-24 07:07:28 Sandy well im waiting on the plastic tubing to arrive 2014-12-24 07:07:43 Sandy i was planning on doing it next friday wanyways 2014-12-24 07:10:35 Sandy were you thinking about doing it with an exit bag too, or just a gun? 2014-12-24 07:11:44 wesley i was gonna take some kikes out 2014-12-24 07:11:57 Sandy Lol 2014-12-24 07:12:01 wesley kek 2014-12-24 07:12:51 Sandy i dont want to do it in anyway that messes with others, otherwise id just point a gun at a cop or jump in front of a train 2014-12-24 07:13:02 Sandy trying to go quiet and non dramatic though 2014-12-24 07:13:18 wesley fair enough 2014-12-24 07:22:11 Sandy only other thing ive seen would be cyanide and idk where to get that 2014-12-24 07:22:16 Sandy you have any idea? 2014-12-24 07:22:20 wesley yeah that can be hard to get 2014-12-24 07:22:29 wesley not really 2014-12-24 07:22:44 wesley someone who's in chemistry might be able to hook you up 2014-12-24 07:23:14 Sandy ive heard watch shops use it for cleaning watches but none ive visited have ever heard of that 2014-12-24 07:24:30 wesley yeah never heard of that 2014-12-24 07:24:37 wesley u should talk to alghazi tho 2014-12-24 07:24:52 Sandy is he a chemist? 2014-12-24 09:00:43 <-- Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has quit (Ping timeout: 240 seconds) 2014-12-24 23:59:01 --> sandy (~sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) is back on server 2014-12-25 02:39:55 <-- sandy (~sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has quit (Quit: Shalom) 2014-12-25 03:20:05 -- irc: disconnected from server 2014-12-25 06:06:00 --> Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) is back on server 2014-12-25 10:50:04 <-- Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has quit (Quit: Au Revoir) 2014-12-26 00:03:36 --> sandy (~sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) is back on server 2014-12-26 02:19:59 <-- sandy (~sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has quit (Quit: Shalom) 2014-12-26 06:06:10 --> Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) is back on server 2014-12-26 06:15:13 <-- Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has 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2015-01-02 11:44:48 Sandy im still planning on going through with it in an hour or 2 but admittedly im kind of terrified it might not work properly and i might just end up brain damaged 2015-01-02 11:45:12 Sandy ive gone through and double checked everything and it looks fine, but still :/ 2015-01-02 11:45:38 wesley alright but you better be sure 2015-01-02 11:45:43 Sandy yeah 2015-01-02 11:46:19 Sandy do you think its a real possibility or am i just fretting for nothing? 2015-01-02 11:46:30 wesley It'll probably work 2015-01-02 11:46:49 Sandy yeah, that's what i hope 2015-01-02 11:46:51 wesley i did read a story though, where one guy did it 2015-01-02 11:47:34 wesley and it ended up paralyzing him so he couldn't pull the mask off (temporarily) 2015-01-02 11:47:59 wesley someone ended up walking in I think but yeah 2015-01-02 11:48:14 wesley just be certain 2015-01-02 11:48:21 Sandy yeah, theres a brief hypoxia window where that happens 2015-01-02 11:48:28 wesley mhmm 2015-01-02 11:49:56 wesley Are you religious? 2015-01-02 11:50:10 Sandy not really 2015-01-02 11:51:45 wesley hmm 2015-01-02 11:51:54 wesley Out of curiosity, why are you doing it? 2015-01-02 11:52:34 Sandy personal shit i dont really want to talk about tbh 2015-01-02 11:53:02 Sandy death of a close friend is the main reason but there are others 2015-01-02 11:53:27 wesley aye, i've dealt with that 2015-01-02 11:54:23 Sandy anyways i should probably get going 2015-01-02 11:54:29 wesley i dont really want to try and stop you, it's your choice but it is a big decision. 2015-01-02 11:54:45 Sandy there are still things i need to do, and i want to get this done before busy morning 2015-01-02 11:55:16 wesley Alright, all I ask is you reflect upon this. If you died, would you want your friends to kill themselves? 2015-01-02 11:55:16 Sandy ive been thinking about it for a month or 2, i really dont see any other option anymore 2015-01-02 11:55:32 Sandy it's up to them really 2015-01-02 11:56:24 wesley When are you going to do it? 2015-01-02 11:57:03 Sandy next hour or so 2015-01-02 11:57:16 Sandy already 6am, waiting for it to warm up a bit outside 2015-01-02 11:58:24 wesley Well alright 2015-01-02 12:00:07 Sandy anyways i need to be going 2015-01-02 12:00:21 Sandy good luck and safe travels wherever life takes you 2015-01-02 12:00:38 wesley Alright, thank you. Be careful nobody finds you 2015-01-02 12:01:04 Sandy thanks 2015-01-02 12:01:09 <-- Sandy (~Sandy@Rizon-7D6E016D.hfc.comcastbusiness.net) has quit (Quit: Au Revoir) 2015-01-03 01:58:09 -- irc: disconnected from server