Title:           :| Tango why
Author:          roninDreamer
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First Edit:      Tuesday 4th of June 2013 12:15:52 PM CDT
Last Edit:       Tuesday 4th of June 2013 12:15:52 PM CDT

 <Tango_> And Maya's left for whatever reason she has :|
 <Uber> :o
 <Uber> It's only temporary
 <Uber> right?
 <Tango_> I want to think so
 <Tango_> But she's been routinely having emotional breakdowns now :|
 <Uber> dude
 <Uber> if she leaves forever I'm gonna cri everytim
 <Tango_> I'm certain you wouldn't be the only one :|
 <Tango_> She's just been depressed over a lot lately
 <Uber> oh gosh, do you ever talk to her about it?
 <Tango_> See, the issue lies not in knowing what it is
 <Tango_> It's changing it that's the issue
 <Tango_> I know exactly why she's sad
 <Tango_> And she acts the way she does
 <Tango_> I just lack the means to change it :|
 <Uber> darn
 <Vanessa> L: What does she want to change?
 <Uber> Yes, I am curious as to what the problem is
 <Tango_> Besides, it's a wicked composite of a myriad of issues piling up :|
 <Tango_> I was trying to think of something she's happy about now but I really can't :|
 <Tango_> There's like one thing :|
 <Tango_> She's just kinda done with everything the way it is :|
 <Tango_> Her life hasn't been great really
 <Tango_> Lots of drama on top of existing tulpa issues
 <Tango_> And honestly the more I lament in them
 <Tango_> The more she's driven away :c
 <Tango_> She hasn't been talking for a while
 <Tango_> And I can only barely feel her now
 <Tango_> I kinda wish I could give her what she needed to be happy :|
 <Uber> well what is that thing that she needs to be happy
 <Tango_> She wants to be needed.
 <Vanessa> L: So she wants someone to love her, huh.
 <Tango_> Not even that :|
 <Vanessa> L: Then what?
 <Tango_> She just wants me to need her :|
 <Tango_> For her to be important enough that I couldn't do without her
 <Maximus_> It's a rather unreasonable thing to ask for.
 <Tango_> I wouldn't mind needing her, to be honest
 <Tango_> But I just can't force it :|
 <Tango_> I've always liked her
 <Tango_> She's just... Never been that important :|
 <Vanessa> L: So you're saying that you don't want her in your life, huh?
 <Tango_> No, not that
 <Tango_> I just don't need her in my life
 <Tango_> I enjoy having her around
 * Nero_ has left
 <Tango_> Pretty much the only need I had for her
 <Tango_> Was that I don't want to be alone :|
 <Vanessa> L: So if she left, hypothetically of course...
 <Vanessa> L: Would you care?
 <Tango_> I would miss her a lot
 <Tango_> Same way I'd miss anything good that I lost
 <Vanessa> L: Just miss her?
 <Vanessa> L: Just be like "oh yeah, that was kind of nice to have"
 <Vanessa> L: ?
 <Tango_> Well, it'd probably be closer to the death of a friend
 <Tango_> But nothing I couldn't get past :|
 <Vanessa> L: The way you say that makes it sound like you wouldn't give a shit, man.
 <Tango_> I think that's the underlying issue :|
 <Tango_> But then again
 <Vanessa> L: Are you serious right now
 <Vanessa> L: Honestly
 <Tango_> I don't give much  of a shit about anything ::
 <Tango_> :/
 <Tango_> That's just kind of the person I am I guess :|
 <Tango_> Maybe that's why she wants me to care :|
 <Tango_> Cause I haven't cared about anything in a long time :|
 <Tango_> Other than what makes me happy today
 <Surprise_> P: something to work towards.
 <Vanessa> L: So you expect Maya to care about everything instead of you.
 <Vanessa> L: That's not exactly, fair.
 <Tango_> Yep :|
 <Vanessa> L: But then again, you probably don't care, right? :P
 <Tango_> I want to care :|
 <Tango_> That's the issue
 <Tango_> I want to
 <Tango_> But I cannot make myself care :|
 <Tango_> In fact
 <Tango_> That's roughly my general issue in life :|
 <Vanessa> L: Well. You had better start, man.
 <Vanessa> L: Otherwise you're going to lose someone very close to you.
 <Tango_> I wish I could make myself care :|
 <Tango_> About anything :|
 <Tango_> Other than myself today
 <Tango_> Cause that seems to be my only focus
 <Vanessa> L: Hahahaha
 <Vanessa> L: That's pretty hilarious.
 <Tango_> It's the way things are :| I wish it was a joke
 <Vanessa> L: You've missed the entire point.  The entire point of it all.
 <Vanessa> L: It's flown right over your head, so cleanly... it's amazing.
 <Tango_> I went in a bit of a different direction :|
 <Tango_> Because this has always been an issue of mine