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# Anon - The colors of the moths

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1. 1. A Golden Date
2. 2. A Sepia Colored Console
3. 3. A Blue Evening
4. 4. A Meisa Colored Accident
5. 5. A Peaceful Color
8. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
9. A Golden Date
11. >You are Anonymous and you are currently feeling very nervous
12. >You're on a date
13. >You guess it’s a date, you hope it’s a date
14. “Why are you so stiff today Anon?”
15. >You jolt in surprise as Golden Corral speaks to you
16. >”No reason, no reason at all”
17. >You’re accompanying Golden Corral, who does not know of your feelings for her
18. >And today you're going to tell her
19. >The two of you arrive at your destination, the local fashion shop that just opened up
20. >As the two of you walk in you notice that Meisa and Sepia are inside as well, and Meisa is fussing about around Sepia while picking outfits for her
21. >The two of them notice you and Golden Corral and Goldie rushes to join them with you slowly walking in tow
22. >You're not good with women, and especially with groups of them
23. >As you join the group they have already exchanged their hellos and they are going on and on about clothes
24. “...and I thought she'd need at least one absolutely stunning cocktail dress for herself, she said she’d rather not since she does not think she'd look that good in it, can you believe it?”
25. >Sepia blushes and looks at the floor while feeling a bit embarrassed at Meisas words
26. “You won't look good in one, hah, once Meisa chooses a dress for you you’ll be the hottest thing in town Sepia”
27. >The three of them keep on talking about choosing a dress for Sepia and you look around the shop while feeling a bit left out
28. >But it brings a smile to your face to see them interacting so friendly for some reason, but then you focus back to them as you hear them mention you
29. “So what brings you and Anonymous here?”
30. >As you close in into the group of three Goldie rises into flight and pats you on the back
32. “Anon here offered to give a male point of view on some stuff I’ve had in mind, and I’m sure he’ll enjoy the view~”
33. >You blush at Goldies suggestive remark as the three of them share a laugh
34. “So Anonymous, want to give your opinion on these fancy dresses I have chosen for Sepia? We could use your male point of view”
35. >You look at Meisa and Sepia who are both looking at you, and Sepia offers you a small smile
36. >You can’t say no to that
37. >”Yeah, sure, let’s get to it”
38. >You sit down near the dressing rooms with Goldie as Meisa pulls Sepia into the dressing room with her with a bunch of evening dresses in her hooves
39. >And then the curtains close and the two of you sit and wait
40. >”So...”
41. >Golden Corral turns to you and waits for you to continue
42. >But you find yourself unable to
43. >Your mind draws blanks and Golden Corral raises an eyebrow at you
44. “You feeling ok? You’ve been awfully quiet today”
45. >You resist the urge to do a sarcastic remark on how you did not realize you had romantic feelings for her before but you don’t actually have the courage to do it
46. >”Yeah, I’m fine, just feeling a bit out of it I guess”
47. >That is an understatement
48. >You’re an absolute mess on the inside, here you are, spending time with a mare you befriended some time ago and then you realized you had feelings for her
49. >You tried to ignore them but it did not work out so well so you decided that today you’d find out once and for all if she could even be interested in the idea of going out with you
50. >But before your musings could proceed further the curtains come to open and Meisa gives out a ta-daa
51. >You and Goldie turn to look
52. >Sepia stands there, looking a bit embarrassed while sporting a black evening dress
53. “What do you think?”
55. >You stay silent as you take in the sight
56. >The black dress is closely hugging her curves, and while being a petite mare you have to say this is the first time you have seen Sepia looking this gorgeous
57. >It’s the textbook example of a perfect match
58. >Goldie giggles a bit next to you
59. “Well, he sure seems to love it”
60. >You close your mouth that you had no idea was hanging open
61. “You really think I look pretty in it?”
62. >”Y-yeah, you look absolutely stunning”
63. >Sepia offers you a smile and you can’t help but to feel a bit happy at that
64. “Well, just wait once you’ll see option number two”
65. >Meisa once again pulls Sepia behind the curtains and you wait with Golden Corral
66. “So, Sepias an attractive mare”
67. >You look up at Goldie
68. >”Yeah, I guess she’s cute”
69. >Golden Corral looks at you with a slight smirk
70. “She’s the mare you've got feelings for?”
71. >”N-no the one I like i-“
72. >You stop talking and cover your mouth comically as Golden Corrals smirk grows larger
73. “So you do have the hots for somepony then?”
74. >You clamp up and stare at your shoes as your face reddens
75. >Golden Corral comes up to you
76. “So, who’s the lucky mare?”
77. >You can pick up a hint of friendly teasing in her voice
78. >You swallow and reply nervously
79. >”I-I’ll tell you after this...”
80. >You are luckily saved by the curtains once again as Meisa presents Sepia with another dress on her
81. >This one’s black as well, but it’s different than the one before
82. >It looks... a bit more daring
83. >It makes Sepia look a bit more raunchier and wilder than she is
84. >If you'd have to categorize them you’d say the first one was gorgeous and this one is sexy
85. “Well?”
86. >Meisa looks at you expectedly, like does Golden Corral as well
88. >Sepia also seems to be looking forward to your opinion
89. >”It looks really good, a bit more daring than the one before, but still really nice. Makes her look even a bit wild”
90. >You feel your own cheeks blush a bit as Sepia averts her gaze and blushes herself
91. >Meisa and Goldie both seem to be satisfied with your answer as they nod along, until Meisa asks the deciding question
92. “So, which one do you like more?”
93. >”I think the first one is more better”
94. >Meisa seems triumphant and Goldie seems a bit defeated
95. >Sepia lifts her gaze and turns to Meisa
96. “I think I’ll take the first one”
97. >Sepia goes back into the dressing room and removes the dress as Meisa brings the second one back to the shelf with Goldie
98. >You just stay seated, unsure what else to do
99. >Meisa and Golden Corral seem to be now debating on how Sepia needs or does not need sexier clothing into her wardrobe
100. >Soon Sepia emerges from the dressing room and as she notices that Meisa and Golden Corral are busy she makes her way to you
101. “Sorry about Meisa making you stick around Anon”
102. >You give Sepia a smile
103. >”No worries, it’s not a bother and it keeps me distracted”
104. >Sepia tilts her head
105. “Distracts you from what?”
106. >”That I need to tell Goldie I love he-“
107. >You gasp and quickly cover your mouth and turn to look at Sepia in shock
108. >Did that just honestly escape your mouth?
109. >Sepias surprised face suggests you that yes, it did
110. “You like Go-“
111. >You quickly cover Sepias mouth with your hand at lightning speed
112. >You glance at Meisa and Goldie and notice that the two of them have not noticed nor heard anything
113. >”Sepia, please don't tell anybody, please!”
114. >Sepia looks at you with surprise on her face and then gives you a few quick nods
115. >Then her eyes shift to look down and you remember that you’re covering her mouth
116. >You quickly pull your hand back and start to rub the back of your neck while feeling like a doofus
117. “Don’t worry, I won’t say a word”
119. >You look at Sepia with surprise and she’s offering you a smile
120. >”T-thanks, and sorry about the hand thing...”
121. >Sepia shakes her head
122. “No need to apologize. I’ll root for you, I’m sure it will go well”
123. >You now look at Sepia with some mild surprise of your own
124. >”Y-you really think so?”
125. “Yeah, you’re a great guy Anon”
126. >You almost feel tearful at the kind words Sepia is giving you
127. >But then Goldie and Meisa make their way to the two of you
128. “Hey Anon, me and Meisa were talking and mind if we go out and join them for some tea and nectar before resuming the clothes shopping?”
129. >You really would just like to get things over with so you could get the weight off of your chest, but of course you agree to Goldies idea
130. >”No, that’s a wonderful idea”
131. >The three moths go up to pay for Sepias dress as you make your way outside to catch some fresh air
132. >It was kind of stuffy there in the shop and all that blushing and nervousness has gotten you a bit sweaty
133. >Soon the three of them come out and the four of you start to walk towards the local café
134. >As you are walking you pass a mothpony stallion you do not recognize
135. >He notices Golden Corral and the two of them greet each other
136. “You guys go on, I’ll be right behind you”
137. >Goldie stays to talk with the stallion and you can’t help but to take a worried glance behind at her as you walk towards the café with Sepia and Meisa
138. >Golden Corral joins the party after a while
139. >You and the two mothponies were already seated as she rushed to your table looking extremely happy
140. >Before any of you can open your mouths Goldie lets out a squee of delight
141. “He asked me out!”
142. >A chill shoots through you
143. >Goldie seems overjoyed and hugs Meisa suddenly
144. “Was that him? The stallion you’ve been talking about?”
145. >Golden Corral nods as Meisa returns the hug
146. “Oh I’m so happy for you!”
147. >You... sit there
148. >Just what is going on?
150. “Anon, Anon!”
151. >You are suddenly snapped back to reality by Goldies hooves around you as she hugs you
152. >As she lets go and goes for Sepia you struggle to get some words out from your throat
153. >”What’s... exactly going on?”
154. >Golden Corral turns to you and either you are doing a good job at hiding the shock or she’s too happy to take notice
155. “I just got asked out by a stallion that I’ve had my eyes set on for a while now. Ohhh he’s so handsome!”
156. >Your brain feels like it freezes up as you process that
157. >But then Goldie’s hugging you again
158. “Oh this is the happiest day of my life!”
159. >Shakily you move your hand and give her a pat on the back
160. >You feel like crying
161. >”W-wow, I’m so happy for you!”
162. >You feel sick in your stomach
163. >Sepia takes a look at you and she seems worried
164. >You struggle to keep your face looking happy
165. >Golden Corral let’s go of you and finally sits down
166. >She’s talking about something to Meisa but you can't hear anything
167. >It feels like your whole world is crumbling
168. “Anonymous...”
169. >You snap back to reality and take a glance at Sepia
170. >She’s looking at you with some sadness on her face
171. >It’s too much to bear
172. >Suddenly you jolt up
173. >All eyes are on you now
175. >”Oh no, I completely forgot I had a doctors appointment today!”
176. >Before any of them can say anything you deepen your lie
177. >”It’s something about the monthly check up on how my body is handling Equestria so I really can’t miss it, I’m really really sorry Goldie”
178. “Well that sucks, but since it’s something like that you really can’t miss it. I’ll have Meisa and Sepia help me with my clothes so don’t worry Anon”
179. >You rub the back of your head embarrassedly while doing your best to hold all of the feelings within you inside
180. >”Sorry about that, it completely slipped my mind. See you!”
181. “Ano-“
182. >Before Sepia can finish whatever she was going to say you turn around and start walking
183. >You feel like you have forgotten how to walk
184. >You also feel almost like you are coming down with a cold
185. >You hear Meisas voice as you are leaving
186. “We need to pick up something sexy for your date tomorrow, you’ll swoon him off his hooves!”
187. >You pick up the pace as you feel the moistness gather into your eyes as the two of them keep talking and laughing
188. >Once you are certain they can no longer see you you take off and run towards your house as you feel awful
192. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
193. A Sepia Colored Console
195. >2 days
196. >It’s been 2 days now since your heart got broken
197. >And you still feel like crap
198. >Yesterday was the worst though since Goldie came to visit and tell you, her buddy, at how well the date went and how happy she is
199. >You breathed out a sign of relaxation at that, you had worried Sepia would spill the beans
200. >You played that old cold trick and told her you were a bit sick today, so she wouldn’t get suspicious
201. >Lying there on the sofa, wrapped in a blanket while Goldie went on and on was one of the most difficult time you have ever had
202. >Who knew forcing a smile and acting you were ok was so difficult?
203. >Thankfully she left soon enough and you could get back to wallowing in despair
204. >Ugh, your stomach turns again
205. >You’ve not been feeling that good since that day, and you have yet to even shower
206. >You sigh as you sit on your sofa, wrapped in a blanket and sweaty sleepwear
207. >You should eat something, not that you are hungry but just to keep your body sustained
208. >There is a knock on the door which breaks your musings
209. >You turn to look at the direction of the door slowly
210. >You really do not feel like answering it
211. >Another knock
212. >Groggily you rise up and start to slouch towards the door
213. >Maybe it’s something that gets your mind off of things
214. >Maybe it’s Goldie coming to tell you that she broke up...
215. >It’s not a nice thought, but you can’t help yourself
216. >You grasp the handle and open the door
217. >The sunlight assaults your eyes and makes you squint as you feel a slight pang of migraine
218. >After your eyes adjust you notice non other than Sepia before you
219. >”...”
220. >Sepia looks at you, most likely surprised at how much crap you look, and then she notices he’s staring at you
222. “...I came to see how you’re doing Anonymous...”
223. >...
224. >”Come in...”
225. >Lazily you move back into your house and sit on the sofa
226. >As Sepia is making her way to you you already start to think this was a bad idea, you really do not feel like talking to anyone
227. >She settles down next to you on the couch, not too close but not too far away
228. “You haven’t been out in a few days... are you allright?”
229. >You sit there and stare at the floor
230. >Are you allright? No, not really..
231. >You feel like crap
232. >You start to fee la bit better that the one who asked you that was Sepia since she knows the truth, so she’ll most likely be the only pony with whom you can talk about this
233. >”I’m... just trying to deal with all of this”
234. “With Goldie?”
235. >”Yeah...”
236. >Sepia seems worried now. You can bet she does not have that much experience with this sort of stuff
237. >You need to at least make her feel at ease
238. >”Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy for her, she seems very happy, it’s just... difficult to be around her now”
239. >Sepia keeps looking at the floor, unsure what to reply to you
240. >You rest against the sofa and look at the ceiling now while forcing a smile onto your face
241. >”Don’t worry, things will return to normal soon enough”
242. >That’s a big lie but no need to make Sepia worry
243. >You’re not that familiar with her after all so you need to make sure she does not worry about you needlessly
244. >Out of all the ponies Golden Corral’s the one with whom you have bonded the most
245. >As sad as it is for you to admit you are not that good at making new friends so most of the other moths are nothing but acquaints to you
246. “You’re ok with letting her go?”
247. >You hope that Sepia was not looking at your face since your smile falters for a few seconds
248. >”Y-yeah, I’m fine...”
249. >...
250. “You’re lying...”
251. >You sigh
253. >”I can’t tell her of my feelings now, since I never did let her in on them. Her having a crush and getting it fulfilled was nothing but bad luck on my part. If the guy would be a dick it would be a different matter, but Goldie seems to be overjoyed... I can’t find it in myself to make things difficult for her.”
254. >Sepia turns to look at you
255. “So you’re ok with hurting yourself but not her?”
256. >Damn, when did she get so smart this one
257. >”W-well, I mean... I’m just trying to figure this whole thing out myself”
258. >maybe you should put an end to this for now, you really feel like lying around aimlessly for the rest of the day again
259. >”You don’t need to worry about that Sepia, I’ll deal with it on my own, there’s no need fore you to bother thinking about my welfare”
260. “But isn’t that what friends do?”
261. >You turn to look at Sepia with mild shock
262. >She’s looking at you with concern written on her face
263. >Friends? She thinks of you as her friend?
264. >...this, this is news to you
265. >You never thought you’d be so familiar with any of the other mothponies that they’d consider you as their friend
266. >You’re left speechless and your shock must now be well written on your face since Sepia offers you a small, sincere smile
267. >You feel like crying again for some reason
268. >”I-I see, that’s...”
269. >Vrap, you really do not want her to see you crying, crying in front of other people, no, ponies, is unsightly and weak
270. >Your eyes feel wet
271. >Sepia offers you a kind smile
272. >Before you even know it you’re crying against her shoulder, or whatever you call that part on a pony
273. >Sepia is patting your back with her hooves
274. >You let yourself be consoled without restraint
275. >After that the two of you had some tea and talked for a bit more
276. >It made you feel a lot better
277. >After Sepia left you finally took that shower and shaved
279. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
280. A Blue Evening
282. >How did things come to this?
283. >Golden Corral is crying against your shoulder
284. >Your hands are not touching her since you are unsure if you should console her by petting her back just like Sepia did to you
285. >Things did not work out between her and the stallion she had a crush on
286. >They had been going out for a week and then suddenly this happened
287. >You were enjoying a quiet evening at home when there was a knock on the door and when you opened it you came across a heart-wrenching sight
288. >Golden Corral was standing there, looking as miserable as she could look
289. >The rain outside had made her mane and tail soggy
290. >She had asked you if she could come in and you took her in right away
291. >There is no way you could tell her no, even if you have been trying to stop having feelings for her you care for her
292. >The two of you discussed things and before you knew it she was crying against you
293. >Seems like she was really starting to like that stallion
294. >As your hands make contact with her form you can’t help but to feel yourself get a bit nervous
295. >It’s the pony who you loved and most likely still love
296. >You pat Goldies back
297. >It seems to do the trick as she’d been already done with most of the crying
298. >The two of you stay like this for a while
299. >Even if Goldie is wet from the rain she feels pleasant against you
300. >Golden Corral pulls away from you and wipes her eyes
301. “Sorry about that Anon, I don’t know what came over me”
302. >Golden Coral gives you a sad smile and flops down next to you on your couch
303. “Haaaah... I’m starting to wonder if there are any good stallions in this village at all...”
304. >You stay silent
306. “I’m really sorry about coming to your house so late. I just couldn’t help but to feel like I needed a good shoulder to cry on, and before I knew it I was at your house”
307. >”Glad to be of help I guess...”
308. >You give Golden Corral a weak smile
309. >Honestly you’re still feeling a bit awkward around her, just like you have for the past week
310. >You and Sepia have gotten a bit closer as friends and you have not had the chance to spend that much time with Goldie since she’d been head over heels for that stallion
311. >You’re sure you’ve heard his name a lot of times now but honestly you did not even bother to remember it
312. >Goldie gives you a big hug
313. “I’m really lucky to have made such a good friend like you Anonymous. You’re a great friend”
314. >The word friend is still like the lick of a sharp knife
315. “By the way, I never did get to hear who the mare was who you had a rush on? Might I know it now? I could do with a change of subject to take my mind off of things...”
316. >You tense up
317. >”Y-yeah, about that... I got turned down”
318. >You rub the back of your head embarrassedly
319. >You decided to save yourself with a lie
320. >You’re not prepared to tell her anything yet, and you do not want to make things even more complicated for her
321. >Golden Corral seems shocked
322. “You did? Wow, that sucks, who’s the mare who could not appreciate such a good man like you?”
323. >You keep your game face on
324. >”I’d rather not tell... it's kinda embarrassing”
325. >Your game face must not be working once again since Goldie seems to pick up your reluctance to tell and drops the subject
326. “Well, it’s getting late and I need to go home anyway, don’t let being turned down keep you down too long Anon”
327. >”You too Goldie, don’t try to play yourself too though when you’re hurting”
328. >Golden Corral seems surprised at this and then some wetness returns to her eyes
329. “...W-well, I’ll get going now, see you around Anon”
330. >You give her a wave as she leaves in a hurry
332. >She just needs time to heal her heart, this is just day 1 for her after all
333. >You walk Goldie over to the door and give her one of your umbrellas so she does not get too wet in the rain
334. >As Golden Coral closes the door you decide to not tell her anything about your feelings so she does not get too overwhelmed
335. >No... it’s more deeper than that
336. >You sit down onto the sofa and stare at the ceiling
337. >Honestly, you are not sure if it was even just a childish crush or actual love you felt for her
338. >Talking with Sepia about various things made you realize it
339. >Mot to mention you’ve been getting along pretty well with her lately
340. >You roll around on your sofa aimlessly
341. >Why must emotions be this complicated
342. >Golden Corral is the mare who you like very much, but in the end you are not sure if you want to risk her friendship by telling her you have feelings for her
343. >Not to mention you’ve done a very good job to push those feelings aside for the past week so they won’t be
344. >Before you can think any further you hear a knock on the door
345. >Golden Corral must have forgotten something
346. >You get up and rush to the door
347. >But behind it is not Golden Corral, but Sepia
348. >”Sepia? What brings you here so late in the evening?”
349. “Sorry for coming to visit since it’s so late and all...”
350. >She sounds a bit more... melancholic than usual...
352. “It’s just that I had to come and tell you something, it’s been eating me inside and I just don’t know how to deal with it at all...”
353. >Sepia seems somewhat...afraid? What could this be about?
354. >”Want to come in?”
355. >Sepia shakes her head
356. “Anon, the thing I wanted to tell you...”
357. >You stay silent and wait for more as Sepia struggles to speak
358. “The thing is...”
359. >You tilt your head a bit in confusion as you start to grow a bit worried
360. >Did something happen to her? You want to be able to help her at least
361. “I’ve... I have feelings for you...”
362. >You stand there in shock as Sepia stares at the ground
363. “That’s what I wanted to tell you. I know that it’s most likely bothersome since you already like Golden Coral and...”
364. >Sepia struggles more and more to get words out of her mouth
365. “I’m not really good at this sort of stuff but it was starting to get so difficult to stay silent about it that I...”
366. >Sepias eyes seem to water a bit now
367. “N-nevermind!”
368. >And with that Sepia takes off
369. >”Se-“
370. >She’s already long gone
371. >You stand at your doorway for a while
372. >That...
373. >You close the door and collapse onto your couch
374. >You are at a complete loss at what to do now
375. >You throw one of the pillows at a wall
376. >Why must everything concerning love and liking another be so difficult and complicated!
378. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
379. A Meisa Colored Accident
381. >It’s been 2 days since Goldies breakup and Sepias confession
382. >You’ve have not been seeing them around that much thanks to your work, and quite frankly you are really grateful for it
383. >Not to mention Sepia’s been avoiding you and Goldies been staying at home most of the time
384. >You have no idea what to do now
385. >Thinking about it has been keeping you up at night so as you walk home from work you feel like absolute crap
386. “Anonymous, hi~”
387. >You lift your gaze from the ground
388. >Meisa’s standing right before you
389. >”Hi Meisa”
390. “You look horrible Anonymous, been busy at work?”
391. >”You could say that...”
392. >Truthfully your job is Childs play compared to dealing with all of your current torrent of emotions
393. “Or is it about Sepia and Golden Corral?”
394. >If you would have been drinking something this would have been the part where you would spit it all out in shock
395. “That shock written on your face seems to hint I’m correct. Sepia told me everything”
396. >”O-oh...”
397. >you’re unsure what to say
398. >Meisa offers you a kind smile
399. “How about you join me for a while, I’m just about to visit the café and by the looks of it you need somepony to talk to”
400. >”Sure...”
401. >You’re not that enthusiastic about this but you don’t want to deny Meisas offer
402. >The two of you make your way to the local café
403. >After getting seated and making your orders Meisa speaks up
404. “So, what are you going to do?”
406. >You cup your face into your hands and let out a long sigh
407. >”I don’t know... I mean I don’t want to hurt Sepias feelings, but I’m not sure if I could also answer them since I’m still hung up about Golden Corral. I don’t want to be half-assed about this towards neither of them...”
408. >You could have sworn that Meisa just gave a small smile like her opinion of you just improved tenfold
409. “I can see you’ve been struggling with this Anonymous”
410. >”Yeah no shit”
411. >Meisa ignores your snarky reply
412. “In my opinion, the first thing you need to do is deal with Sepia since out of the two, she’s the one who told you she likes you. Even if you have feelings for Goldie you-“
413. >There is a gasp
414. >You and Meisa turn to look in it’s direction, and then you suddenly feel very, very screwed
415. >It’s Golden Corral, looking at you with shock written on her face
416. >Your mouth opens, but nothing comes out
417. >Meisa stares at Golden Corral in shock
418. “Y-you have... feelings for me?”
419. >You don’t reply to Golden Corral but your face blushes deep red
420. >Meisa seems to be searching for something to say as well, but just like you she can’t find anything to say
421. “Since when?”
422. >You feel...
423. >You...
424. >You decide to finally tell her the truth
425. >”Three weeks ago...”
426. >Golden Corrals face is still one with shock and it hurts you
427. >You’re unsure what you expected, for her to give you a kind smile? To embrace you and tell her she likes you too?
428. “All this time you’ve...”
429. >You start to feel a bit frustrated
430. >Why won’t she say something else, try to play it off so everyone would not feel so awkward, or at least outright tell you it can never be
431. >Why that shocked face...
433. >You can no longer bear with it and you just take off
434. >Nopony yells after you as you just escape the situation
435. >Thoughts enter your head as you run towards your house
436. >Of course she would be more troubled by it, you’re her friend, a good friend, there’s no way she would want to risk that, and now you went and ruined that
437. >She’ll most likely start to be around you less and less for now
438. >You’ll loose a friend you cared deeply for
439. >If this is how bad it felt you should not have ever fallen for her in the first place and just stayed as her good fr-
440. >Your train of thought is interrupted as you collide with something
441. >It let’s out a surprised yelp as you stumble down
442. >You accidently ran against a mothpony
443. >”S-sorry about that I was in a hu-“
444. >As the dust settles you see who you ran against
445. >It’s Sepia
446. >She looks at you with shock
447. “E-excuse me!”
448. >And she darts off
449. >You look at the ground
450. >Yeah, even she feels awkward around you now
451. >You feel like crying
452. >This is too cruel, making friends after such a long time and then loosing them like that
453. “Y-you ok?”
454. >You turn your head in surprise
455. >It’s Sepia, she’s coming back towards you, blushing and looking a bit unsure
456. “You’re not looking that good, so... or then you are just looking a bit different and I’m just misunderstanding...”
457. >You’re unsure what you feel anymore, but you decide to tell her
458. >”Goldie found out...”
459. >Sepia stares at you in shock
460. “S-so, how did she take it?”
461. >You let out a weak little laugh
462. >”Can’t you tell by looking?”
463. >Sepia frowns and then looks at the ground with sadness on her face
464. >You get up and start to walk towards your home
465. >”I’ve, I need to go...”
466. >You walk to your home as you start to feel as miserable as you were on the day Goldie started to go out with the stallion
468. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
469. A Peaceful Color
471. >It’s the evening now
472. >After you came home you just, lounged around and stuff
473. >Thinking about everything
474. >Remembering Goldies reaction...
475. >You feel like you can not leave your house in a while
476. >You don’t want to come face to face with any of the two
477. >Meisa came by earlier and apologized
478. >You told her that she should not worry since it was not her fault, she could not have known Golden Corral was walking by
479. >You told her that you’d like to be left alone for now and she understood
480. >And here you are, in your house, feeling as awful as ever
481. >Words can’t even begin to describe
482. >There is a knock at the door
483. >You don’t even bother to go and answer that
484. >But seems like you do not even need to, you hear the door opening
485. “Anon?”
486. >You freeze up
487. >It’s Golden Corrals voice
488. >You quickly look around for a place to hide but then notice that she’s already at the living room entrance
489. >She seems sad
490. >You feel doomed and you say nothing
491. “About earlier...”
492. >You feel nauseas and nervous
493. >”L-let’s sit down...”
494. >Your voice does well to portray your nervousness
495. >Honestly you are panicking, you fear what she might say
496. >Your body is breaking out in cold sweat as you sit on the sofa and so does Goldie
497. >You can’t really read anything from her expression other than sadness
498. “Anon, I’m going to just come out and say it...”
499. >You swallow and clench and unclench your sweaty hands in panic and give Golden Corral a nod
500. “I don’t see you that way...”
501. >You don’t really feel any more horrible than before but her words seem to make time stand still as you process them
502. >Goldie keeps talking and you listen as it’s the only thing you can do, you could not say anything to her even if she was expecting for you to say something
503. “It’s not that you’re not a great guy, heck, I sometimes find myself wishing some stallions were like you, but you’re a human and I’m a pony, and you’re my friend...”
505. >Goldie turns to look at you and you give her a little nod right away and avert your gaze from hers
506. >You can’t bear to look her in her striking eyes
507. “And I don’t want to loose you as my friend...”
508. >Golden Corral seems to grow sadder now
509. “Although I totally understand if you don’t want to be friends with me anymore after this...”
510. >Before you can even think about that you shake your head
511. >”N-no...”
512. >Golden Coral looks at you like she’s begging for you to continue
513. >”I’ve been thinking about... I’ve been thinking about a lot of things... and I do not want to stop being your friend even if you would not like me back... I admit it’ll be awkward and stuff and...”
514. >You rub the back of your head, unsure what to say next
515. >Golden Corral seems unsure herself
516. “I guess we will just have to see how things will go...”
517. >”Yeah...”
518. “And I’m sorry”
519. >You shake your head and give out a big fake smile to Golden Corral
520. >”N-no, don’t be. I’m glad that we talked and did not just leave things to hang”
521. >Golden Corral gives you a small smile, but she still seems melancholic
522. “I think I’ll go home for now”
523. >”Yeah...so uh, bye for now...”
524. >Golden Coral gets up and leaves
525. >You give her a little wave and with that she’s off
526. >You lie on the couch and let out another long sigh
527. >You were turned down
528. >But for some reason, you’re not feeling as awful as before
529. >Sure it’s not nice that you’re love will not be answered, but still, for some reason, you feel a bit relieved you got to talk to Golden Corral
530. >All those images of her not wanting to have anything to do with you start to clear out from your mind
531. >You feel...relieved? It’s a somewhat bittersweet emotion
532. >There is another knock on the door
533. >This time you get up and answer it
534. >Behind your door you find Sepia
536. “I came to see how you’re doing... you looked awful when you ran into me...”
537. >She’s not looking at you
538. >You suddenly feel like giving her a pat on the head for gaining the courage to come and see you
539. >You could not have done it if you would be in her shoes
540. >...or hooves
541. >”I’m...fine... I think...”
542. >Sepia lifts her gaze from the ground
543. >You can see concern shining in her eyes
544. >”Come in”
545. >You shall talk to her as well
546. >Sepia walks in behind you and you plop down onto the couch
547. >Seem like it’s the only place you sit on in your house
548. >Sepia settles down next to you on the couch
549. >Before she can say anything you speak up
550. >”Goldie came by”
551. >Sepia gulps and her concern grows
552. >”I got turned down...”
553. >You give Sepia a smile
554. >You do not know why, but your heart does not feel that heavy anymore
555. “I’m sorry to hear that...”
556. >Sepias antennae and ears droop
557. >You ruffle Sepias mane and earn a little yelp from her
558. >”Don’t be, we talked about things. It did not go as I hoped but it went well.”
559. >You remove your hand and Sepia looks at you a bit questionably
560. >Your feel good must shine through pretty heavily
561. >”There’s something I need to tell you too”
562. >Sepia stays silent and waits for you to continue
563. >”I can’t respond to your emotions right now. I’m still confused about the whole Goldie thing and I do not want to be half assed about stuff like this. So, I’m sorry but I need time to deal with all of this.”
564. >Sepia gives you a sad little smile
565. “I understand... kind of, and I’m sorry about troubling you with telling you about my emotions when you were struggling with this”
567. >You shake your head
568. >”Don’t be, it cheered me up. You’re a very pretty mare Sepia and you’re nice to hang out with”
569. >Sepia blushes now
570. >”If I would not have fallen for Goldie in the first place I’d be head over feels for you now”
571. >Sepia blushes even more now
572. >”But I’ll have to ask you to wait until I get my head sorted out with all of this. I’m really sorry”
573. >Sepia gives you a sad yet happy little smile and nods her head
574. “I thought I’d find you in an even more horrible condition than before Anon. I just had to come and make sure you were not feeling awful”
575. >You do not know what it is that made you do it, but you embrace Sepia in a hug
576. >She hugs you back and the two of you stay like that for a short while
577. >It’s not an overly intimate hug, more like a hug between two good friends
578. >As the two of you break the hug Sepia is looking a bit better as well
579. “It’s getting kind of late, I think I should go”
580. >You walk Sepia to the door and the two of you say your farewells and then you return to your couch
581. >You fall down on it and you feel exhausted
582. >But... the torrent of emotions is gone
583. >You’re actually feeling a bit glad
584. >Things finally had some closure instead of guessing what if’s and letting horrible scenarios run trough your head
585. >Truthfully you did not resolve that much tonight, both the Sepia thing and the Goldie thing are still only at the beginning, there’s a lot of things to cover and resolve there
586. >But you can’t shake a weird peaceful feeling in your chest
587. >For the first time in a while, things feel like they will be ok

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1. A Golden Date 2. A Sepia Colored Console 3. A Blue Evening 4. A Meisa Colored Accident 5. A Peaceful Color ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ A Golden Date >You are Anonymous and you are currently feeling very nervous >You're on a date >You guess it’s a date, you hope it’s a date “Why are you so stiff today Anon?” >You jolt in surprise as Golden Corral speaks to you >”No reason, no reason at all” >You’re accompanying Golden Corral, who does not know of your feelings for her >And today you're going to tell her >The two of you arrive at your destination, the local fashion shop that just opened up >As the two of you walk in you notice that Meisa and Sepia are inside as well, and Meisa is fussing about around Sepia while picking outfits for her >The two of them notice you and Golden Corral and Goldie rushes to join them with you slowly walking in tow >You're not good with women, and especially with groups of them >As you join the group they have already exchanged their hellos and they are going on and on about clothes “...and I thought she'd need at least one absolutely stunning cocktail dress for herself, she said she’d rather not since she does not think she'd look that good in it, can you believe it?” >Sepia blushes and looks at the floor while feeling a bit embarrassed at Meisas words “You won't look good in one, hah, once Meisa chooses a dress for you you’ll be the hottest thing in town Sepia” >The three of them keep on talking about choosing a dress for Sepia and you look around the shop while feeling a bit left out >But it brings a smile to your face to see them interacting so friendly for some reason, but then you focus back to them as you hear them mention you “So what brings you and Anonymous here?” >As you close in into the group of three Goldie rises into flight and pats you on the back “Anon here offered to give a male point of view on some stuff I’ve had in mind, and I’m sure he’ll enjoy the view~” >You blush at Goldies suggestive remark as the three of them share a laugh “So Anonymous, want to give your opinion on these fancy dresses I have chosen for Sepia? We could use your male point of view” >You look at Meisa and Sepia who are both looking at you, and Sepia offers you a small smile >You can’t say no to that >”Yeah, sure, let’s get to it” >You sit down near the dressing rooms with Goldie as Meisa pulls Sepia into the dressing room with her with a bunch of evening dresses in her hooves >And then the curtains close and the two of you sit and wait >”So...” >Golden Corral turns to you and waits for you to continue >But you find yourself unable to >Your mind draws blanks and Golden Corral raises an eyebrow at you “You feeling ok? You’ve been awfully quiet today” >You resist the urge to do a sarcastic remark on how you did not realize you had romantic feelings for her before but you don’t actually have the courage to do it >”Yeah, I’m fine, just feeling a bit out of it I guess” >That is an understatement >You’re an absolute mess on the inside, here you are, spending time with a mare you befriended some time ago and then you realized you had feelings for her >You tried to ignore them but it did not work out so well so you decided that today you’d find out once and for all if she could even be interested in the idea of going out with you >But before your musings could proceed further the curtains come to open and Meisa gives out a ta-daa >You and Goldie turn to look >Sepia stands there, looking a bit embarrassed while sporting a black evening dress “What do you think?” >You stay silent as you take in the sight >The black dress is closely hugging her curves, and while being a petite mare you have to say this is the first time you have seen Sepia looking this gorgeous >It’s the textbook example of a perfect match >Goldie giggles a bit next to you “Well, he sure seems to love it” >You close your mouth that you had no idea was hanging open “You really think I look pretty in it?” >”Y-yeah, you look absolutely stunning” >Sepia offers you a smile and you can’t help but to feel a bit happy at that “Well, just wait once you’ll see option number two” >Meisa once again pulls Sepia behind the curtains and you wait with Golden Corral “So, Sepias an attractive mare” >You look up at Goldie >”Yeah, I guess she’s cute” >Golden Corral looks at you with a slight smirk “She’s the mare you've got feelings for?” >”N-no the one I like i-“ >You stop talking and cover your mouth comically as Golden Corrals smirk grows larger “So you do have the hots for somepony then?” >You clamp up and stare at your shoes as your face reddens >Golden Corral comes up to you “So, who’s the lucky mare?” >You can pick up a hint of friendly teasing in her voice >You swallow and reply nervously >”I-I’ll tell you after this...” >You are luckily saved by the curtains once again as Meisa presents Sepia with another dress on her >This one’s black as well, but it’s different than the one before >It looks... a bit more daring >It makes Sepia look a bit more raunchier and wilder than she is >If you'd have to categorize them you’d say the first one was gorgeous and this one is sexy “Well?” >Meisa looks at you expectedly, like does Golden Corral as well >Sepia also seems to be looking forward to your opinion >”It looks really good, a bit more daring than the one before, but still really nice. Makes her look even a bit wild” >You feel your own cheeks blush a bit as Sepia averts her gaze and blushes herself >Meisa and Goldie both seem to be satisfied with your answer as they nod along, until Meisa asks the deciding question “So, which one do you like more?” >”I think the first one is more better” >Meisa seems triumphant and Goldie seems a bit defeated >Sepia lifts her gaze and turns to Meisa “I think I’ll take the first one” >Sepia goes back into the dressing room and removes the dress as Meisa brings the second one back to the shelf with Goldie >You just stay seated, unsure what else to do >Meisa and Golden Corral seem to be now debating on how Sepia needs or does not need sexier clothing into her wardrobe >Soon Sepia emerges from the dressing room and as she notices that Meisa and Golden Corral are busy she makes her way to you “Sorry about Meisa making you stick around Anon” >You give Sepia a smile >”No worries, it’s not a bother and it keeps me distracted” >Sepia tilts her head “Distracts you from what?” >”That I need to tell Goldie I love he-“ >You gasp and quickly cover your mouth and turn to look at Sepia in shock >Did that just honestly escape your mouth? >Sepias surprised face suggests you that yes, it did “You like Go-“ >You quickly cover Sepias mouth with your hand at lightning speed >You glance at Meisa and Goldie and notice that the two of them have not noticed nor heard anything >”Sepia, please don't tell anybody, please!” >Sepia looks at you with surprise on her face and then gives you a few quick nods >Then her eyes shift to look down and you remember that you’re covering her mouth >You quickly pull your hand back and start to rub the back of your neck while feeling like a doofus “Don’t worry, I won’t say a word” >You look at Sepia with surprise and she’s offering you a smile >”T-thanks, and sorry about the hand thing...” >Sepia shakes her head “No need to apologize. I’ll root for you, I’m sure it will go well” >You now look at Sepia with some mild surprise of your own >”Y-you really think so?” “Yeah, you’re a great guy Anon” >You almost feel tearful at the kind words Sepia is giving you >But then Goldie and Meisa make their way to the two of you “Hey Anon, me and Meisa were talking and mind if we go out and join them for some tea and nectar before resuming the clothes shopping?” >You really would just like to get things over with so you could get the weight off of your chest, but of course you agree to Goldies idea >”No, that’s a wonderful idea” >The three moths go up to pay for Sepias dress as you make your way outside to catch some fresh air >It was kind of stuffy there in the shop and all that blushing and nervousness has gotten you a bit sweaty >Soon the three of them come out and the four of you start to walk towards the local café >As you are walking you pass a mothpony stallion you do not recognize >He notices Golden Corral and the two of them greet each other “You guys go on, I’ll be right behind you” >Goldie stays to talk with the stallion and you can’t help but to take a worried glance behind at her as you walk towards the café with Sepia and Meisa >Golden Corral joins the party after a while >You and the two mothponies were already seated as she rushed to your table looking extremely happy >Before any of you can open your mouths Goldie lets out a squee of delight “He asked me out!” >A chill shoots through you >Goldie seems overjoyed and hugs Meisa suddenly “Was that him? The stallion you’ve been talking about?” >Golden Corral nods as Meisa returns the hug “Oh I’m so happy for you!” >You... sit there >Just what is going on? “Anon, Anon!” >You are suddenly snapped back to reality by Goldies hooves around you as she hugs you >As she lets go and goes for Sepia you struggle to get some words out from your throat >”What’s... exactly going on?” >Golden Corral turns to you and either you are doing a good job at hiding the shock or she’s too happy to take notice “I just got asked out by a stallion that I’ve had my eyes set on for a while now. Ohhh he’s so handsome!” >Your brain feels like it freezes up as you process that >But then Goldie’s hugging you again “Oh this is the happiest day of my life!” >Shakily you move your hand and give her a pat on the back >You feel like crying >”W-wow, I’m so happy for you!” >You feel sick in your stomach >Sepia takes a look at you and she seems worried >You struggle to keep your face looking happy >Golden Corral let’s go of you and finally sits down >She’s talking about something to Meisa but you can't hear anything >It feels like your whole world is crumbling “Anonymous...” >You snap back to reality and take a glance at Sepia >She’s looking at you with some sadness on her face >It’s too much to bear >Suddenly you jolt up >All eyes are on you now >”Oh no, I completely forgot I had a doctors appointment today!” >Before any of them can say anything you deepen your lie >”It’s something about the monthly check up on how my body is handling Equestria so I really can’t miss it, I’m really really sorry Goldie” “Well that sucks, but since it’s something like that you really can’t miss it. I’ll have Meisa and Sepia help me with my clothes so don’t worry Anon” >You rub the back of your head embarrassedly while doing your best to hold all of the feelings within you inside >”Sorry about that, it completely slipped my mind. See you!” “Ano-“ >Before Sepia can finish whatever she was going to say you turn around and start walking >You feel like you have forgotten how to walk >You also feel almost like you are coming down with a cold >You hear Meisas voice as you are leaving “We need to pick up something sexy for your date tomorrow, you’ll swoon him off his hooves!” >You pick up the pace as you feel the moistness gather into your eyes as the two of them keep talking and laughing >Once you are certain they can no longer see you you take off and run towards your house as you feel awful ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Sepia Colored Console >2 days >It’s been 2 days now since your heart got broken >And you still feel like crap >Yesterday was the worst though since Goldie came to visit and tell you, her buddy, at how well the date went and how happy she is >You breathed out a sign of relaxation at that, you had worried Sepia would spill the beans >You played that old cold trick and told her you were a bit sick today, so she wouldn’t get suspicious >Lying there on the sofa, wrapped in a blanket while Goldie went on and on was one of the most difficult time you have ever had >Who knew forcing a smile and acting you were ok was so difficult? >Thankfully she left soon enough and you could get back to wallowing in despair >Ugh, your stomach turns again >You’ve not been feeling that good since that day, and you have yet to even shower >You sigh as you sit on your sofa, wrapped in a blanket and sweaty sleepwear >You should eat something, not that you are hungry but just to keep your body sustained >There is a knock on the door which breaks your musings >You turn to look at the direction of the door slowly >You really do not feel like answering it >Another knock >Groggily you rise up and start to slouch towards the door >Maybe it’s something that gets your mind off of things >Maybe it’s Goldie coming to tell you that she broke up... >It’s not a nice thought, but you can’t help yourself >You grasp the handle and open the door >The sunlight assaults your eyes and makes you squint as you feel a slight pang of migraine >After your eyes adjust you notice non other than Sepia before you >”...” >Sepia looks at you, most likely surprised at how much crap you look, and then she notices he’s staring at you “...I came to see how you’re doing Anonymous...” >... >”Come in...” >Lazily you move back into your house and sit on the sofa >As Sepia is making her way to you you already start to think this was a bad idea, you really do not feel like talking to anyone >She settles down next to you on the couch, not too close but not too far away “You haven’t been out in a few days... are you allright?” >You sit there and stare at the floor >Are you allright? No, not really.. >You feel like crap >You start to fee la bit better that the one who asked you that was Sepia since she knows the truth, so she’ll most likely be the only pony with whom you can talk about this >”I’m... just trying to deal with all of this” “With Goldie?” >”Yeah...” >Sepia seems worried now. You can bet she does not have that much experience with this sort of stuff >You need to at least make her feel at ease >”Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy for her, she seems very happy, it’s just... difficult to be around her now” >Sepia keeps looking at the floor, unsure what to reply to you >You rest against the sofa and look at the ceiling now while forcing a smile onto your face >”Don’t worry, things will return to normal soon enough” >That’s a big lie but no need to make Sepia worry >You’re not that familiar with her after all so you need to make sure she does not worry about you needlessly >Out of all the ponies Golden Corral’s the one with whom you have bonded the most >As sad as it is for you to admit you are not that good at making new friends so most of the other moths are nothing but acquaints to you “You’re ok with letting her go?” >You hope that Sepia was not looking at your face since your smile falters for a few seconds >”Y-yeah, I’m fine...” >... “You’re lying...” >You sigh >”I can’t tell her of my feelings now, since I never did let her in on them. Her having a crush and getting it fulfilled was nothing but bad luck on my part. If the guy would be a dick it would be a different matter, but Goldie seems to be overjoyed... I can’t find it in myself to make things difficult for her.” >Sepia turns to look at you “So you’re ok with hurting yourself but not her?” >Damn, when did she get so smart this one >”W-well, I mean... I’m just trying to figure this whole thing out myself” >maybe you should put an end to this for now, you really feel like lying around aimlessly for the rest of the day again >”You don’t need to worry about that Sepia, I’ll deal with it on my own, there’s no need fore you to bother thinking about my welfare” “But isn’t that what friends do?” >You turn to look at Sepia with mild shock >She’s looking at you with concern written on her face >Friends? She thinks of you as her friend? >...this, this is news to you >You never thought you’d be so familiar with any of the other mothponies that they’d consider you as their friend >You’re left speechless and your shock must now be well written on your face since Sepia offers you a small, sincere smile >You feel like crying again for some reason >”I-I see, that’s...” >Vrap, you really do not want her to see you crying, crying in front of other people, no, ponies, is unsightly and weak >Your eyes feel wet >Sepia offers you a kind smile >Before you even know it you’re crying against her shoulder, or whatever you call that part on a pony >Sepia is patting your back with her hooves >You let yourself be consoled without restraint >After that the two of you had some tea and talked for a bit more >It made you feel a lot better >After Sepia left you finally took that shower and shaved ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Blue Evening >How did things come to this? >Golden Corral is crying against your shoulder >Your hands are not touching her since you are unsure if you should console her by petting her back just like Sepia did to you >Things did not work out between her and the stallion she had a crush on >They had been going out for a week and then suddenly this happened >You were enjoying a quiet evening at home when there was a knock on the door and when you opened it you came across a heart-wrenching sight >Golden Corral was standing there, looking as miserable as she could look >The rain outside had made her mane and tail soggy >She had asked you if she could come in and you took her in right away >There is no way you could tell her no, even if you have been trying to stop having feelings for her you care for her >The two of you discussed things and before you knew it she was crying against you >Seems like she was really starting to like that stallion >As your hands make contact with her form you can’t help but to feel yourself get a bit nervous >It’s the pony who you loved and most likely still love >You pat Goldies back >It seems to do the trick as she’d been already done with most of the crying >The two of you stay like this for a while >Even if Goldie is wet from the rain she feels pleasant against you >Golden Corral pulls away from you and wipes her eyes “Sorry about that Anon, I don’t know what came over me” >Golden Coral gives you a sad smile and flops down next to you on your couch “Haaaah... I’m starting to wonder if there are any good stallions in this village at all...” >You stay silent “I’m really sorry about coming to your house so late. I just couldn’t help but to feel like I needed a good shoulder to cry on, and before I knew it I was at your house” >”Glad to be of help I guess...” >You give Golden Corral a weak smile >Honestly you’re still feeling a bit awkward around her, just like you have for the past week >You and Sepia have gotten a bit closer as friends and you have not had the chance to spend that much time with Goldie since she’d been head over heels for that stallion >You’re sure you’ve heard his name a lot of times now but honestly you did not even bother to remember it >Goldie gives you a big hug “I’m really lucky to have made such a good friend like you Anonymous. You’re a great friend” >The word friend is still like the lick of a sharp knife “By the way, I never did get to hear who the mare was who you had a rush on? Might I know it now? I could do with a change of subject to take my mind off of things...” >You tense up >”Y-yeah, about that... I got turned down” >You rub the back of your head embarrassedly >You decided to save yourself with a lie >You’re not prepared to tell her anything yet, and you do not want to make things even more complicated for her >Golden Corral seems shocked “You did? Wow, that sucks, who’s the mare who could not appreciate such a good man like you?” >You keep your game face on >”I’d rather not tell... it's kinda embarrassing” >Your game face must not be working once again since Goldie seems to pick up your reluctance to tell and drops the subject “Well, it’s getting late and I need to go home anyway, don’t let being turned down keep you down too long Anon” >”You too Goldie, don’t try to play yourself too though when you’re hurting” >Golden Corral seems surprised at this and then some wetness returns to her eyes “...W-well, I’ll get going now, see you around Anon” >You give her a wave as she leaves in a hurry >She just needs time to heal her heart, this is just day 1 for her after all >You walk Goldie over to the door and give her one of your umbrellas so she does not get too wet in the rain >As Golden Coral closes the door you decide to not tell her anything about your feelings so she does not get too overwhelmed >No... it’s more deeper than that >You sit down onto the sofa and stare at the ceiling >Honestly, you are not sure if it was even just a childish crush or actual love you felt for her >Talking with Sepia about various things made you realize it >Mot to mention you’ve been getting along pretty well with her lately >You roll around on your sofa aimlessly >Why must emotions be this complicated >Golden Corral is the mare who you like very much, but in the end you are not sure if you want to risk her friendship by telling her you have feelings for her >Not to mention you’ve done a very good job to push those feelings aside for the past week so they won’t be >Before you can think any further you hear a knock on the door >Golden Corral must have forgotten something >You get up and rush to the door >But behind it is not Golden Corral, but Sepia >”Sepia? What brings you here so late in the evening?” “Sorry for coming to visit since it’s so late and all...” >She sounds a bit more... melancholic than usual... “It’s just that I had to come and tell you something, it’s been eating me inside and I just don’t know how to deal with it at all...” >Sepia seems somewhat...afraid? What could this be about? >”Want to come in?” >Sepia shakes her head “Anon, the thing I wanted to tell you...” >You stay silent and wait for more as Sepia struggles to speak “The thing is...” >You tilt your head a bit in confusion as you start to grow a bit worried >Did something happen to her? You want to be able to help her at least “I’ve... I have feelings for you...” >You stand there in shock as Sepia stares at the ground “That’s what I wanted to tell you. I know that it’s most likely bothersome since you already like Golden Coral and...” >Sepia struggles more and more to get words out of her mouth “I’m not really good at this sort of stuff but it was starting to get so difficult to stay silent about it that I...” >Sepias eyes seem to water a bit now “N-nevermind!” >And with that Sepia takes off >”Se-“ >She’s already long gone >You stand at your doorway for a while >That... >You close the door and collapse onto your couch >You are at a complete loss at what to do now >You throw one of the pillows at a wall >Why must everything concerning love and liking another be so difficult and complicated! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Meisa Colored Accident >It’s been 2 days since Goldies breakup and Sepias confession >You’ve have not been seeing them around that much thanks to your work, and quite frankly you are really grateful for it >Not to mention Sepia’s been avoiding you and Goldies been staying at home most of the time >You have no idea what to do now >Thinking about it has been keeping you up at night so as you walk home from work you feel like absolute crap “Anonymous, hi~” >You lift your gaze from the ground >Meisa’s standing right before you >”Hi Meisa” “You look horrible Anonymous, been busy at work?” >”You could say that...” >Truthfully your job is Childs play compared to dealing with all of your current torrent of emotions “Or is it about Sepia and Golden Corral?” >If you would have been drinking something this would have been the part where you would spit it all out in shock “That shock written on your face seems to hint I’m correct. Sepia told me everything” >”O-oh...” >you’re unsure what to say >Meisa offers you a kind smile “How about you join me for a while, I’m just about to visit the café and by the looks of it you need somepony to talk to” >”Sure...” >You’re not that enthusiastic about this but you don’t want to deny Meisas offer >The two of you make your way to the local café >After getting seated and making your orders Meisa speaks up “So, what are you going to do?” >You cup your face into your hands and let out a long sigh >”I don’t know... I mean I don’t want to hurt Sepias feelings, but I’m not sure if I could also answer them since I’m still hung up about Golden Corral. I don’t want to be half-assed about this towards neither of them...” >You could have sworn that Meisa just gave a small smile like her opinion of you just improved tenfold “I can see you’ve been struggling with this Anonymous” >”Yeah no shit” >Meisa ignores your snarky reply “In my opinion, the first thing you need to do is deal with Sepia since out of the two, she’s the one who told you she likes you. Even if you have feelings for Goldie you-“ >There is a gasp >You and Meisa turn to look in it’s direction, and then you suddenly feel very, very screwed >It’s Golden Corral, looking at you with shock written on her face >Your mouth opens, but nothing comes out >Meisa stares at Golden Corral in shock “Y-you have... feelings for me?” >You don’t reply to Golden Corral but your face blushes deep red >Meisa seems to be searching for something to say as well, but just like you she can’t find anything to say “Since when?” >You feel... >You... >You decide to finally tell her the truth >”Three weeks ago...” >Golden Corrals face is still one with shock and it hurts you >You’re unsure what you expected, for her to give you a kind smile? To embrace you and tell her she likes you too? “All this time you’ve...” >You start to feel a bit frustrated >Why won’t she say something else, try to play it off so everyone would not feel so awkward, or at least outright tell you it can never be >Why that shocked face... >You can no longer bear with it and you just take off >Nopony yells after you as you just escape the situation >Thoughts enter your head as you run towards your house >Of course she would be more troubled by it, you’re her friend, a good friend, there’s no way she would want to risk that, and now you went and ruined that >She’ll most likely start to be around you less and less for now >You’ll loose a friend you cared deeply for >If this is how bad it felt you should not have ever fallen for her in the first place and just stayed as her good fr- >Your train of thought is interrupted as you collide with something >It let’s out a surprised yelp as you stumble down >You accidently ran against a mothpony >”S-sorry about that I was in a hu-“ >As the dust settles you see who you ran against >It’s Sepia >She looks at you with shock “E-excuse me!” >And she darts off >You look at the ground >Yeah, even she feels awkward around you now >You feel like crying >This is too cruel, making friends after such a long time and then loosing them like that “Y-you ok?” >You turn your head in surprise >It’s Sepia, she’s coming back towards you, blushing and looking a bit unsure “You’re not looking that good, so... or then you are just looking a bit different and I’m just misunderstanding...” >You’re unsure what you feel anymore, but you decide to tell her >”Goldie found out...” >Sepia stares at you in shock “S-so, how did she take it?” >You let out a weak little laugh >”Can’t you tell by looking?” >Sepia frowns and then looks at the ground with sadness on her face >You get up and start to walk towards your home >”I’ve, I need to go...” >You walk to your home as you start to feel as miserable as you were on the day Goldie started to go out with the stallion ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A Peaceful Color >It’s the evening now >After you came home you just, lounged around and stuff >Thinking about everything >Remembering Goldies reaction... >You feel like you can not leave your house in a while >You don’t want to come face to face with any of the two >Meisa came by earlier and apologized >You told her that she should not worry since it was not her fault, she could not have known Golden Corral was walking by >You told her that you’d like to be left alone for now and she understood >And here you are, in your house, feeling as awful as ever >Words can’t even begin to describe >There is a knock at the door >You don’t even bother to go and answer that >But seems like you do not even need to, you hear the door opening “Anon?” >You freeze up >It’s Golden Corrals voice >You quickly look around for a place to hide but then notice that she’s already at the living room entrance >She seems sad >You feel doomed and you say nothing “About earlier...” >You feel nauseas and nervous >”L-let’s sit down...” >Your voice does well to portray your nervousness >Honestly you are panicking, you fear what she might say >Your body is breaking out in cold sweat as you sit on the sofa and so does Goldie >You can’t really read anything from her expression other than sadness “Anon, I’m going to just come out and say it...” >You swallow and clench and unclench your sweaty hands in panic and give Golden Corral a nod “I don’t see you that way...” >You don’t really feel any more horrible than before but her words seem to make time stand still as you process them >Goldie keeps talking and you listen as it’s the only thing you can do, you could not say anything to her even if she was expecting for you to say something “It’s not that you’re not a great guy, heck, I sometimes find myself wishing some stallions were like you, but you’re a human and I’m a pony, and you’re my friend...” >Goldie turns to look at you and you give her a little nod right away and avert your gaze from hers >You can’t bear to look her in her striking eyes “And I don’t want to loose you as my friend...” >Golden Corral seems to grow sadder now “Although I totally understand if you don’t want to be friends with me anymore after this...” >Before you can even think about that you shake your head >”N-no...” >Golden Coral looks at you like she’s begging for you to continue >”I’ve been thinking about... I’ve been thinking about a lot of things... and I do not want to stop being your friend even if you would not like me back... I admit it’ll be awkward and stuff and...” >You rub the back of your head, unsure what to say next >Golden Corral seems unsure herself “I guess we will just have to see how things will go...” >”Yeah...” “And I’m sorry” >You shake your head and give out a big fake smile to Golden Corral >”N-no, don’t be. I’m glad that we talked and did not just leave things to hang” >Golden Corral gives you a small smile, but she still seems melancholic “I think I’ll go home for now” >”Yeah...so uh, bye for now...” >Golden Coral gets up and leaves >You give her a little wave and with that she’s off >You lie on the couch and let out another long sigh >You were turned down >But for some reason, you’re not feeling as awful as before >Sure it’s not nice that you’re love will not be answered, but still, for some reason, you feel a bit relieved you got to talk to Golden Corral >All those images of her not wanting to have anything to do with you start to clear out from your mind >You feel...relieved? It’s a somewhat bittersweet emotion >There is another knock on the door >This time you get up and answer it >Behind your door you find Sepia “I came to see how you’re doing... you looked awful when you ran into me...” >She’s not looking at you >You suddenly feel like giving her a pat on the head for gaining the courage to come and see you >You could not have done it if you would be in her shoes >...or hooves >”I’m...fine... I think...” >Sepia lifts her gaze from the ground >You can see concern shining in her eyes >”Come in” >You shall talk to her as well >Sepia walks in behind you and you plop down onto the couch >Seem like it’s the only place you sit on in your house >Sepia settles down next to you on the couch >Before she can say anything you speak up >”Goldie came by” >Sepia gulps and her concern grows >”I got turned down...” >You give Sepia a smile >You do not know why, but your heart does not feel that heavy anymore “I’m sorry to hear that...” >Sepias antennae and ears droop >You ruffle Sepias mane and earn a little yelp from her >”Don’t be, we talked about things. It did not go as I hoped but it went well.” >You remove your hand and Sepia looks at you a bit questionably >Your feel good must shine through pretty heavily >”There’s something I need to tell you too” >Sepia stays silent and waits for you to continue >”I can’t respond to your emotions right now. I’m still confused about the whole Goldie thing and I do not want to be half assed about stuff like this. So, I’m sorry but I need time to deal with all of this.” >Sepia gives you a sad little smile “I understand... kind of, and I’m sorry about troubling you with telling you about my emotions when you were struggling with this” >You shake your head >”Don’t be, it cheered me up. You’re a very pretty mare Sepia and you’re nice to hang out with” >Sepia blushes now >”If I would not have fallen for Goldie in the first place I’d be head over feels for you now” >Sepia blushes even more now >”But I’ll have to ask you to wait until I get my head sorted out with all of this. I’m really sorry” >Sepia gives you a sad yet happy little smile and nods her head “I thought I’d find you in an even more horrible condition than before Anon. I just had to come and make sure you were not feeling awful” >You do not know what it is that made you do it, but you embrace Sepia in a hug >She hugs you back and the two of you stay like that for a short while >It’s not an overly intimate hug, more like a hug between two good friends >As the two of you break the hug Sepia is looking a bit better as well “It’s getting kind of late, I think I should go” >You walk Sepia to the door and the two of you say your farewells and then you return to your couch >You fall down on it and you feel exhausted >But... the torrent of emotions is gone >You’re actually feeling a bit glad >Things finally had some closure instead of guessing what if’s and letting horrible scenarios run trough your head >Truthfully you did not resolve that much tonight, both the Sepia thing and the Goldie thing are still only at the beginning, there’s a lot of things to cover and resolve there >But you can’t shake a weird peaceful feeling in your chest >For the first time in a while, things feel like they will be ok