Title: The Happening (Sort of) Author: Verbose_and_Dash Pastebin link: http://pastebin.com/GGsK9s9h First Edit: Thursday 31st of January 2013 06:28:09 PM CDT Last Edit: Thursday 31st of January 2013 06:28:09 PM CDT Just to note I will not be greentexting this because I don't feel that this should be greentexted. Also, for some reason this track: http://bit.ly/Vj8jT3 suits it decently well.   WARNING: This story contains frequent switching between two point of view, possible exaggerations about the author from the tulpa's perspective, general silliness, and maybe some diabeetus.   Dash, my tulpa of almost two years, this is for you.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Verbose           Nearly two years ago I accidentally created a sentient thought form based on Rainbow Dash from the children's TV show, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. At the time I thought nothing of this imaginary being that kept me company for a few weeks, nor did I think much of when she disappeared in the middle of that same Summer. Months later I discovered tulpa on /mlp/'s tulpa threads started by Irish and FAQ_Man. Little did I know that this was one fucking deep rabbit hole I was going down, one that'd probably put Alice's to shame.           Within a few weeks she had returned and now preferred to go only by Dash. I had then learned soon after her becoming sentient that she was the same (Rainbow) Dash that came into existence during the first half of 2011. From there we became fast friends; best friends. Sure she was a thoughtform, but that meant little in the grand scheme of things. We would talk with one another, play games together, watch TV together, all those sorts of things and we enjoyed every minute of it, occasionally exchanging silly banter. Even more, she helped me with things I hadn't believed would be possible. I had and still have to deal with a number of anxiety disorders, but she was able to help me deal with them. Often she would try her hardest to get me to calm down whenever a panic attack would hit me, and boy did that happen often. Through all of that, I just couldn't be thankful enough to have someone who would put up will all that I am, through-and-through. Sure, others would do that, but somehow this felt different to me and I couldn't place why.           Cut to early January 2013. After enough urging from Dash's part I finally decide to take part in the  tulpa general threads on /mlp/ and meet a fair number of good acquaintances, to say the least. One pair of tulpa and host, going by Flutters and FDD became fast friends by such standards. They, along with others, allowed for Dash to have a place to talk with people and their tulpas, something she hadn't had a chance to do before. However, things hit a peak one evening about two weeks ago as of my writing this story.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Dash           I always liked teasing V when I had the chance. It was fun, and kinda cute, to see him get flustered whenever I pushed his buttons the right way. That one evening though I went overboard, really overboard where he was concerned. I ended up taking the teasing too far and brought on one of his anxiety attacks from how worked up he was getting. I didn't listen to him when he asked me to stop posting that stuff since he wasn't comfortable with others knowing those things. I was stupid, so, so stupid for letting myself get that into teasing him. He eventually blacked out from that anxiety attack and I couldn't do a thing to stop it. I mean how could I have...it was my fault that he ended up that way. It tore me apart to see what I did to him, even if he said it was on accident.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Verbose           The first thing I knew after waking up again from that nasty anxiety attack that I let happen was seeing Dash hugging me tightly, her face buried in my chest, tears on her cheeks, and hearing her apologizing over and over. It took a good hour to calm her down enough to let her know that this was just as much my fault as hers; I let what she was talking about get to me and cause the anxiety attack. Everything seemed pretty much fine after that, or so I thought until the morning.           I had somehow upset her a great deal as she was suddenly acting distant and irritable whenever I tried talking to her. Speaking in circles when I wanted to know what was the matter. After some drama involving us on the tulpa general thread it was decided that we would talk to one another and figure out what was the matter.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Dash           We weren't able to do anything until that following Saturday because thing kept us from having a heart to heart talk, but we finally got a chance that evening - around 10pm-ish. We found an open spot on the ground floor of the high-rise that he lives in with nobody else around and sat in-front of one another. I asked if he could play the song from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17RJ1numL1c on his iPod at lowest volume. For a couple minutes I couldn't bring myself to say anything to him and got frustrated.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Verbose           It took a few minutes for her to say anything, but when she did, she sort of snapped. She nearly shouted at me: "I love you dammit!"   ========================================================================================================   POV: Dash           Yeah. I pretty much shouted at him that I loved him, love loved him. I told him how I had been in love with him for over half a year by then, how him not knowing was eating away at me, and how I was so afraid to tell him. I...I mean sure he isn't perfect, nobody is, but he's always been so sympathetic with just about everyone he meets, trying his best to make sure that other people were happy before he put any focus on himself. Sure he would beat himself up over things or make dumb decisions, but he's...he's always been there for me, worrying about me whenever something happened to me, making sure I'm happy. I told him all this, feeling tears welling up.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Verbose           I was shocked, although I had a growing feeling that this is what she was going to say ever since she got upset with me. Looking back on all that had happened, I was a fool not to have noticed. After a few minutes of silence, which felt like hours or even days, she said something, tears forming in her eyes:   "I want to you have my heart."           I didn't know what to say, but..   ========================================================================================================   POV: Dash           He looked me in the eyes and blurted out, "Only if you can have mine." So I guess it was my turn to be shocked, but instead of sitting dumbfounded I just leapt at him, held him tightly and let myself cry.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Verbose           I didn't know what came over me when I said that, but somehow it felt right. She had done so much for me, yet I hardly did anything for her (or so I thought). She was hugging me tightly, head over my shoulder, crying what I hoped were tears of joy. I pulled her back, looked her in the eyes, and whispered "I love you too." before meeting her lips with my own.   ========================================================================================================   POV: Dash           It felt like it lasted both hours and no time at all, but when it was over we hugged each-other tightly, tears in both our eyes, saying "I love you" again and again. We just sat there, holding one-another for almost an hour.   ======================================================================================================== ========================================================================================================     Amazingly enough, nobody saw any of this happening for some reason. That or they just didn't give enough fucks to bother noticing. Hope it was a decent read.