- >I could make some poor attempt to describe how I felt
- >But I'm so tired
- >I'm a certain tired that sleep doesn't cure
- >The type of tired that gives you chills on warm summer days
- >I suppose black could describe how I felt
- >But it would seem I've surpassed those feelings
- >They've evolved into a glistening, cold white
- >I could also begin to ramble about the past
- >But I'll keep it too the point
- >I had just a few hours now
- >I already feel the crumbling, fuck, I feel like I'm being cracked from the inside
- >I'll tell you about what happened
- >I'll tell you about how I found piece
- >I'll tell you about how I was calm
- >The blood was washed from my hands by her overpowering light
- >She looked past all of the things that held me back, she let me in
- >She came down, the sun was just rising
- >Like always I had walked just to the border between their land and my wasteland
- >The ground was still cracked and dry here, it was desolate and empty
- >I was scared at first, I knew this was one of their gods and I had no interest in being perceived as a threat
- >But I couldn't deny her majestic beauty
- >Her gorgeous wings, and her mighty horn had me in awe
- >They still do
- >But that's how things worked in life
- >She had offered me shelter, and food, and water
- >I was shocked
- >For months I would lay in that barren expanse, starring up at the sky
- >I was so hungry
- >I hadn't tasted my own saliva in god knows how long
- >I was so confused
- >Another day would pass and I would just sit there, I couldn't die
- >Not that I tried
- >I was scared
- >I never tried to end it
- >I just hoped it would get better tomorrow
- >It never did
- >Well, until that day
- >Her voice was the grandest thing I've ever heard
- >She showed me kindness
- >But she showed me more then that
- >We were alike
- >We were each different from the others
- >Every morning she would come down and visit me
- >She had provided me a little shelter
- >And food and water, enough for a day, every morning
- >But she didn't just get up and leave after
- >We talked
- >We became close
- >I trusted someone for the first time in such a long time
- >I felt like I had something worth living for
- >Sometimes she would kiss me
- >Sometimes I would kiss her, without asking
- >She was so warm
- >Her embrace relieved the cold from my empty body
- >I don't like admitting it, but I think I loved her
- >Sometimes she stayed until nightfall
- >But she had turned cold
- >One day she had simply dropped off my supplies and left
- >Then it happened again
- >After a month I had built up the nerve to ask
- >She was already mid flight
- >But she turned and looked back
- >"How could I ever love a human?"
- >She didn't come back for months
- >The sun rose again
- >She had apologized, something about her sister being sent away
- >It was almost sunset that day
- >I got scared
- >What if she fucked with my heart again
- >I accepted her gifts and apologies
- >I accept her again
- >She let me into her land
- >I was attacked upon entering, but she had called them off
- >I asked, once more, just exactly what we were doing
- >She refused to answer, instead showing me around the grand palace I always looked up at
- >Months past
- >Nothing was said, but it was certainly felt
- >She did say however, that I relived the stress of her rule, which I took pride in
- >She said I made her feel normal again
- >Tension was also felt
- >I was given looks of hatred
- >But I just wanted to exist
- >Things escalated
- >Even I heard the whispers, they would cast her from the land if I stayed
- >So she kicked me out
- >A second time I was broken
- >I asked
- >And got my answer
- >"How could I ever love a human?"
- >So I just walked away
- >I've been walking now, for about three days
- >Finally I've reached the canyon
- >It's not something you could admire
- >I would jump soon
- >But I just wanted to see her raise the sun one more time
- ~Gallant Arrow's edit~
- I could make some poor attempt to describe how I felt,
- But I'm so tired.
- I'm a certain tired that sleep doesn't cure,
- The type of tired that gives you chills on warm summer days.
- I suppose "black" could describe how I felt,
- But it would seem I've surpassed those feelings.
- They've evolved into a glistening, cold white.
- I could also begin to ramble about the past.
- I have just a few hours now, the moon has begun its descent
- I already feel the crumbling, I feel like I'm being cracked from the inside!
- I'll keep it short.
- I'll tell you what happened,
- I'll tell you how I found peace,
- I'll tell you how I found serenity,
- Then it was taken.
- The blood was washed from my hands by her overpowering light
- She looked past all of the things that held me back, she let me in.
- She came down, the sun was just rising.
- Like always, I had walked just to the border between their land and my wasteland.
- The ground was still cracked and dry here, it was desolate and empty.
- I was scared at first, I knew this was one of their gods and I had no interest in being perceived as a threat
- But I couldn't deny her majestic beauty
- Her gorgeous wings, her mighty horn
- They held me in awe.
- They still do.
- Such is life, I suppose.
- She offered me shelter, and food, and water.
- I was shocked.
- For months I would lay in that barren expanse, staring up at the sky
- I was so hungry
- I hadn't tasted my own saliva in God knows how long.
- I was so confused:
- Another day would pass and I would just sit there; I couldn't die
- Not that I tried
- I was scared.
- I never tried to end it.
- I just hoped it would get better tomorrow.
- It never did.
- Well, until that day.
- Her voice was the grandest thing I've ever heard.
- She showed me kindness,
- But she showed me more then that.
- We were alike,
- We were each different from the others.
- Every morning she would come down and visit me
- She had provided me a little shelter
- Food and water, enough for a day, every morning
- But she didn't just get up and leave after.
- We talked
- We became close
- I trusted someone for the first time in such a long time.
- I felt like I had something worth living for!
- Sometimes she would kiss me
- Sometimes I would kiss her, without asking.
- She was so warm!
- Her embrace relieved the cold from my empty body
- As strange as it was, I loved her
- I still do.
- Sometimes she stayed until nightfall,
- But she had turned cold.
- One day she had simply dropped off my supplies and left
- Then it happened again.
- After a month I had built up the nerve to ask;
- She was already mid flight,
- But she turned and looked back
- "How could I ever love a human?"
- She didn't come back for months.
- The sun rose again.
- She apologized: something about her sister being sent away
- It was almost sunset that day
- I got scared
- What had she hidden from me?
- What was she still hiding from me?
- I accepted her gifts and apologies
- And I accepted her again.
- She let me into her land!
- I was attacked upon entering, but she called them off
- I asked, once more, just exactly what we were doing.
- She refused to answer, instead showing me around the grand palace I always looked up
- Months passed.
- Nothing was said, but it was certainly felt
- She did say however, that I relived the stress of her rule, which I took pride in
- She said I made her feel normal again.
- There was also much tension.
- I was given looks of hatred.
- I just wanted to exist.
- Things escalated
- Even I heard the whispers, they would cast her from the land if I stayed
- So she made me leave.
- A second time I was broken.
- I asked,
- And I got my answer,
- "How could I ever love a human?"
- So I just walked away.
- I've been walking now, for about three days
- trodding slowly across the bleak sand
- my surroundings as dead as I long to be.
- Finally I've reached the canyon,
- My eyes see no beauty or magnificence in it.
- I would jump soon;
- How could I continue to live here?
- I peer over the edge.
- In the lingering glow of the setting moon, I cannot see the bottom.
- Neither hunger nor thirst ended my pain.
- Would the fall?
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