Title:           Day 5, Saturday Feb 2nd
Author:          QuestionsGuy
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First Edit:      Saturday 2nd of February 2013 04:54:15 PM CDT
Last Edit:       Saturday 2nd of February 2013 04:54:15 PM CDT

I guess this day is one of those days were you're past the initial excitement of starting something new, and it becomes a whole lot more difficult all of a sudden. I've just gotten up from 15 minutes of attempting to clear my mind and relax and was met with utter failure. While I can attribute this in part to loud neighbors, I also find it troubling that when I let the back of my mind be it continues to rattle on a chain of thought, hoping it will pass, it continues on it's way unwavering, and once I do try to remove it, the thought of removing the steady rattle just prompts a new one to begin, it's frustrating.
 
I'm once again questioning the best way to continue forward, do I follow through with my initial idea and continue to try and work on my lack of visualization skill, or do I attempt to proceed without it, knowing that my brother also cannot produce a wonderland like visualization and that there are other tulpamancers who are unable to produce a wonderland either, yet still manage success with their tuppers.
 
I'm also contemplating another possible solution, something quite experimental, and that is to create my wonderland through lucid dreaming. My little experience with lucid dreaming in the past has been overall positive, and the end result should be somewhat similar to being able to visualize a wonderland, just with the restriction of sleep. The largest advantages for doing the would be the extra time spent with my tupper, the extra hours of dream time each night would add up quickly, but there is a considerable disadvantage of not being able to access it during the day or at times when I would need to be without my tupper or require privacy, but perhaps they would be able to access it still, just not me, I wouldn't know until the time came. For the time being I'll continue my attempts at visualization, and begin pursuing the possibility of using a dreamland as an alternative to a wonderland