Title:           Verina EDIT/ Appology to Verina
Author:          NoLongerDivided
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First Edit:      Monday 26th of November 2012 09:29:51 AM CDT
Last Edit:       Monday 26th of November 2012 09:29:51 AM CDT

I was wrong.
 
Almost everything in Verina's section was wrong.
 
The only reason she even acted this way was because I did something I'd never done before with Luna or Eris: I was afraid of her.
 
I denied her form for an hour at the least.
 
I was wrong.
 
Wrong is the only word aside from stupid I can think of to describe myself right now.
 
I broke one of the ground rules of tulpaforcing: don't try and force the tulpa to have a certain personality.
 
I did that, and I paid dearly for it.
 
But, even after all of that... she forgave me.
 
She knew.
 
But she wanted to please me, to meet my expectations.
 
I was wrong.
 
God I can't stop typing that, but I won't because it's true.
 
I was wrong.
 
Now I think she's confused; she keeps her distance even now...
 
...With good reason.
 
Eris wouldn't talk to me yesterday either.
 
I know why now:
 
I'm a hypocrite.
 
One of the reasons Eris was attracted to me was because of the fact I DIDN'T judge her by her appearance.
 
She noticed this before I did with Verina.
 
She won't speak to me because I'm not the same person.
 
I'm fine with this for now; I dug my grave.
 
I've betrayed Verina and Eris.
 
I might not be able to speak to any of my tulpae for a while.
 
Could be an hour, could be a week or more.
 
All I know is I made a fatal mistake.
 
No amount of "I'm sorry" will ever make amends for the wrongs I did to Verina.
 
Her name means to fear or to respect; I chose the former, and paid the price.
 
I'm going to leave the situation in Eris's... claws.. for now.
 
She seems to know what's going on.