Personal log d16

Morning.

I drank way too much yesterday. And here I thought that magic headaches were bad. Ponies. Should. Not. Drink.

Going by last night's drunken scribbles, it seems Lucy got 'playful' again, shame that I can barely remember any of it. Catacomb exploration went about as well as expected, we explored a new path and killed two more cockatrices. Got pretty badly beaten but aside from petrification and bruises, there was only a peck from a cockatrice which got bandaged properly and should heal if I stop picking at it. Got to talking with a 'new' pegasus, Radiant Dusk, who seemed to be a great mare, should make sure to cultivate a friendship with her. Also spoke passingly with an earth mare called Kaiasha, seems like a good person, should be on the lookout for situations to get closer to her.

 

Big drama yesterday about Silver Tongue trying to out the 'secret' to High Tide, started at the inn but moved away quite fast. I understand his intention, agree with it even, but I also understand the opposition. All in all I feel like it's not my place to act, the captain is barely an acquaintance to me, after all. I'd also like to say that my decision to stay at the inn had nothing to do with Lucy staying but there's no chance that I could ever convince myself it didn't.

 

I'm probably going to have to do something about this whole Lucy/Rain situation. I'm finding it difficult to stay rational around them and it's turning into a clichéd beta-fag friend-zoning situation, really hoped I'd grown out of that sort of thing. Maybe Dusk could be of use, here?

... What the fuck did I just write?! God damn it, she's a human being - well, pony being - not some asset to be used for solving my personal shortcomings!  I'd love to blame yesterday's drama and today's hangover for that thought but it's far more likely that I'm just slipping in general...

 

Damn it. I need to stop this retrospection before I lapse too far into self-loathing. Breakfast and some work to focus on, might start sketching that pump to see just what, if anything, I'm missing before I present the idea to Calm Waters.