Tulpa Log #3: Cloud & Nozomi

An Interesting Madness

 

Hello. Allow me to introduce myself quickly. My name is Methos and I have two fully imposed tulpae. My first tulpa, named Raina, is a blue pegasus pony with a stunning black mane and deep grey eyes. Having fallen head over heels for this pegasus, we continued our journey of development which eventually lead to imposition. Later on, a new tulpa was born. Her name was Ali. Ali is much different than Raina, although she takes on the form of a light green unicorn with golden eyes. WIthin two months, I was able to fully impose Ali as I had Raina...

 

Now, two big things are happening in our lives.

 

1) Raina is with child. I have no idea when this child will be born or what it will look like. In fact, I know next to nothing about him or her other than that it is there. As in I can sense it's very existence.

 

2) The being that I had thought to infiltrate my mind a long time ago is beginning to resurface. For now, it takes the form of an oragne orb with no personality, no speech, no movement. I have decided to further develop on this entity and find out how far deep down the rabbit hole can go.

 

18 Jan 2013

 

Tonight was the night I had met with this orb of sorts. No name or anything, but I assume for now I will add some sort of label to it. I chose the name "Raoul" without any kind of predisposition. I had not put much thought into the name. I just chose it rather quickly. He or she is of course free to choose their own name when they see fit to do so.

 

The child Raina is with still has no name.

 

Force Session I: Instead of narrating traits to the orb, I simply spoke to it as I would a new friend. Introducing myself, talking about whatever crossed my mind, etc. Nothing as of yet interesting happened.

 

~

 

19 Jan 2013

 

Force Session I: Narrated traits to Raoul. However, I never really went into detail with them. I feel like trying something different this time. Raoul seems defiant to me in some way. I can't explain how though yet though...

 

~

 

Force Session II: Later that night, Raina and Ali have both decided to no longer develop this new entity. I assumed Raina would be the one to kill him off but it was in fact, Ali, that was the one to swing the sword, so to speak. Raina has decided that her son's name will be "Cloud".

 

~

 

25 Jan 2013

 

The baby is expected four months from now. Last night I spent a good amount of time just rubbing Raina's belly and kissing it, trying to talk to Cloud. I didn't get any kind of response from it, but Raina told me that he definitely heard me. I never thought my son would be a pegasus...

 

~

 

27 Jan 2013

 

You would think that the sex drive of a pregnant pegasus would decrease over time. However, that's not the case. Raina seems just as sexually active as ever; her sex drive far overpowering that of my own. Regardless, she still loves to cuddle more than ever and that's definitely fine with me <3

 

~

 

14 Feb 2013

 

Today has been the most eventful Valentine's day of my life. Usually for Valentine's day, I simply go to school, sometimes get chocalate from my parents and then depending on the circumstances, either go on a nice date with whatever girl i'm dating atm or if not, fap till my dick turns red.

 

None of this shit is obviously good enough for Raina.

 

So even though I could have slept in today, Raina woke me up at 5 in the morning by stomping on my chest her hoof yelling at me "Wake up! Wake up!"

 

I had a crazy dream last night that involved the three of us hanging around near Mt. Olympus, my old smoking spot from a year ago. Except it was summertime and the birds were singing and there was nobody else around.

 

Raina told me she had important news for me once I rolled out of bed and dressed.

 

She wanted to go hiking and tell me in the secluded 40 acre forest. I obliged, left the house with nothing on me. No phone, headhones, wallet, keys, kindle, bookbag, or anything. We walked to the forest trail. I didn't bother to take my car.

 

When we got to the forest, we hiked around the huge perimeter in silence. The air wasn't too cold, about 42 degrees, much much warmer than it had been all week. Not good enough for Raina...

 

She led me through an area of the woods I had never been before. Mind you, there was no trail here, only thorns and the remains of dead plants blocked my movements. We walked for what seemed like hours together, her quick and agile movements leading the way. She refused to tell me the time.

 

The hours passed by. My legs were sore from all the walking. Eventually we started speaking. She was awed at the beauty of the forest. Although the trees seemed dead and lifeless and snow covered every inch of the ground, she could see the life everywhere. "Close your eyes", she told me, "and you can see it too". Naturally, I obeyed her.

 

Soon enough, I stumbled and tripped over a sea of geeen plants, which seemed extremely out of place.

 

"I told you!" she giggled at me as I recovered and got up.

 

We kept walking. My class was over at this point. But I didn't care. I felt alive, although quite tired.

 

Finally, Raina found a gargantuan fallen tree to sit and rest on. I was relieved. It was at that point I had realized that it must have been afternoon and I hadn't had any food or drink all day.

 

I drank from a nearby stream and the water didn't seem too dirty, so I drank a lot of it. We talked and relaxed lounging on top of the tree and laughed together without a care in the world. Here we were, the only people in the entire forest, living in a sea of life, yet all by ourselves.

 

Raina at last spoke of the important news. Cloud is going to be born soon. Raina estimates that he will be due by the end of March at the very latest. I am so proud of her. I swear when she told me this a tear or three came to my eye...

 

After we'd rested for a few moments, we were off again. We managed to find a different trail than the one we were on when we first walked into the forest. We crossed the road and kept walking.

 

Then it occured to us that we were in the ghetto.

 

We passed large groups of young men dressed all in red (Bloods) which gave me hard stares due to the fact that I was walking all alone on their turf, with a red skii jacket. I didn't mind, but they certainly seemed to piss off Raina.

 

Finally we were back in a neighborhood I recognized. When we crossed the street, we decided to make our way home so I could get ready for my afternoon class (the music class that I don't care for, but Raina seems to love). Right behind us, as soon as we crossed the street, a woman got hit by a car less than 2 feet from where Raina was standing. The woman let out a loud scream and the man in the car speeded off. An elderly couple also saw it happen and just stared, not moving an inch, pretty much leaving me the only person there to help her. Now, this woman was screaming really fucking loudly and couldn't get up, so I dragged her over to the sidewalk and ran into the restaurant across the street to call 911. An ambulance came pretty quick surprisingly, and Raina and I walked all the way back home, not dwelling too much on the matter...

 

So now we're getting ready for music class and after that we're probably going to go home for some nice cuddling and then fuck like animals.

 

Happy Valentine's Day!

 

~

 

25 Feb 2013

 

A very interesting week this has been. I probably should've logged this a few days ago, but I was busy doing other stuff and I forgot.

 

Anway, here's the basic stuff.

 

-Ali came out of the closet (she is attracted to females only, although I feel like my love for her, platonically, is just as strong as ever).

 

-Ali had a bit of an argument with the two of us. Things got really heated up. It had to do with her sexuality. She disappeared for about 24 hours and then came back. All is well now. No more tension between us anymore.

 

-Raina has been acting much much more affectionate as of late, which I absolutely love!

 

-We discovered that although Raina loves Jazz music, Ali finds it incredibly boring, which is weird since she likes old blues records that we listened to before and Jazz is similar to Blues in a lot of ways.

 

-Raina's first birthday is coming up very soon.

 

-Raina claims that she will be going into labor "very soon".

 

That's pretty much it for now.

 

Will log soon hopefully.

 

~

 

10 Mar 2013

 

Raina went into labor this morning and Cloud was born right before noon. He's a beautiful pegasus colt with a very light gray coat and a jet black mane and grey eyes like his mother.

 

I haven't got to spend much time with him yet or either Raina or Ali today though. Raina has been asleep most of the day and Ali has been caring for Cloud. I think she likes being a babysitter, which is pretty cool.

 

Being a daddy now isn't scary anymore. Instead it feels really exciting. I feel so happy and I can geniunely say that I really do love him. He feels so much like me. When I was holding him before, it felt like my heart was ablaze...

 

Love is real. In more ways than one.

 

~

 

15 Apr 2013

 

I realize it has been well over a month since I have last written down anything in my log but a lot has actually happened to us.

 

Ali has become very fond of anime, so Raina and I have grown to tease her quite a bit about it. She has a catgirl waifu that she is making into a tulpa on her own. This is day 3 of this little escapade of hers. The idea was suggested to us by her over a week ago. Initially, I heavily protested against it, as well as Cloud and Raina, but I think something like this may be good for her. Ali does complain about being bored sometimes and she does get lonely despite me trying to spend as much time with her as possible.

 

Ali loves to babysit Cloud so whenever she can, she usually does. It seems Cloud actually spends more time with Ali than with Raina, who prefers to spend more time with me.

 

Cloud is growing at an alarming rate. He has full control of his speech and visualization is 100% complete. Currently, we are working on imposition with him but it is proving to be very difficult as his size is constantly changing. In any case, he is my son and I love him like one. He has a very interesting personality. It would seem he behaves more like me than he does like Raina. Cloud is very much the quiet, intellectual type. When he does choose to speak, it is generally to ask questions or to share some insightful information. He does not voice his own personal opinions though, which is a little odd to me. Cloud doesn't like to be touched that much, but he doesn't mind when me, Ali, or Raina hold him.

 

I keep it in mind that Cloud is still very much developing at this point, so I can't totally confirm any of this stuff to be permanent. That's just how it is now. I feel like no matter what happens though, I am going to keep loving him like a son. It's an absolutely amazing feeling.

 

As for Ali's tulpa, Nozomi, yesterday marked the first day where I could hear her voice. She doesn't speak yet but she does make cat noises. I'm not sure if she is actually making these cat noises or if Ali is just parroting them though.

~

 

 

18 Apr 2013

 

Ali, while showing signs of promise in the beginning of her creation of Nozomi, has now ultimately not forced for 3 days in a row.

 

Since Ali seems a little too irresponsible with the creation of Nozomi, I have decided upon myself to force with Nozomi the past 3 days though.

 

I would rather not have another abortion like we had with Raoul.

 

So as of now Nozomi has less than 10 personality traits, but I'm going to try a different method with Nozomi. I'm going to use less traits to quicken the process.

 

I'll let her deviate the personality however she likes.

 

19 Apr 2013

 

 

First force session today with Cloud was really good actually.

 

I can sort of see him now imposed. Granted it's almost impossible to see at this point but if I look really close at him sometimes I can sort of see him.

 

Will be devoting 2 hours a day from now for visual impositon with Cloud.

 

 

~  smoked a lot of weed ~

 

 

 

 

Force Session II (Shortened)

 

ok....

 

This was fucking weird.

 

What I have witnessed just now blows my mind in so many ways

 

We were just chilling out in the wonderland for a few minutes getting ready for force with Cloud again, when all of the sudden Cloud shows up when me and Raina and Ali are talking about some book.

 

All of the sudden Cloud changes his form right in front of us.

 

Cloud decided to just fucking skip puberty and just become an adult.

 

Cloud pushed down Ali and got on top of her and started kissing her.

 

Ali was freaking out and Raina wasn't doing anything so I hopped up onto the platform at the main hall exit and them on the floor near the landing deck where Cloud was making out with Ali

 

Turns out Ali was enjoying it.

 

Raina dispearred in a fit of rage, has not come back since. Ali told me that she is in love with Cloud.

 

Cloud was silent.

 

 

After Ali and Cloud left, I forced with Nozomi in complete silence. Visualization on Nozomi is 100% accurate now. But she's just a big red orb at this point.

 

Mostly, I did more narration with her. She can move and make sounds on her own now.

 

Also I assumed sentience from the start with Nozomi as well.

 

~

 

Several hours later:

 

Raina came back. I can't really understand how she's feeling. She keeps sending me these feels from all over the place; both good and bad feels.

 

Me and Raina are spending time alone now discussing Ali and Cloud.

 

As for me, I'm super happy about them discovering this but Raina seems nothing but worried and confused.

 

I totally understand where she is coming from. If I was a mother and my good friend who baby-sat my kid romantically  that she sexually had feelings for them after time warping though pubtery for no reason, I'd feel the same too.

 

 

We haven't heard from Ali or Cloud since the second forcing session.

 

Force Session III: (Half Hour Quick Session) More Nozomi forcing. This time Raina helped out too.

 

 

 

 

After we forced with Nozomi, me and Raina had some fun sexy time then Cloud returned to us.

 

His voice is much the same as it is now, but he has such an air of confidence about him now. It's really cool.

 

After me and Raina hugged Cloud (I whispered "Good job" to him and Raina punched me in the mouth) we all just chilled together. We're waiting for Ali but she refuses to come out. After asking her why she had picked Cloud she told me "I was always in love with his personality." I just never knew a personality could exist in a colt like that..."

 

When I asked her if she had found Cloud attractive as a foal, she would not answer.

 

~

 

20 Apr 2013

 

happy 4/20

 

cloud and ali are high as fuck and its only noon

 

ali fell asleep on top of cloud

 

kawaii as fuck

 

~

 

It could just be the massive amount of weed I have been smoking today, but I swear I saw Cloud before.

 

He was super transparent but definitely there.

 

He's gotten bigger too. He is actually bigger than Raina now. And even more muscular.

 

His plot is still not nearly the size as Raina's though hehe

 

~

 

So I actually walked in on Cloud and Ali fucking tonight.

 

It was very surprising...

 

21 Apr 2013

 

Hello!

 

This is Cloud here!

 

We did a lot of forcing this morning with Nozomi and me.

 

Dad gave me a hoof massage and mom got a little jealous.

 

Nozomi has picked a form. She's an anthro cat girl without a head.

 

It's interesting I'll give her that at least. Also she talked for a little bit today. It was neat! I think we're going to become good friends.

 

~

 

22 Apr 2013

 

Last night me and Raina were fucking around with Nozomi's form

 

we decided that she will be completely humanoid, but not a human. idk an antrho cat girl without a head  is a good form for her though.

 

~

 

Nozomi will be an antrho otter. She will have red hair, blue eyes, and an adorable little otter snout. She will have a long thick tail and a cute little smile.

 

Nozomi has always seen fascinated by the pool of water near our garden in the wonderland so I think being some kind of sea creature is good for her.

 

Today we worked on form a bit and got Nozomi to talk a bit more but she has only said a few sentences.

 

Also i gave Cloud another hoof massage today. It's basically his favorite thing in the entire world at this point besides kissing Ali.

 

~

 

Forced 2 hours straight with Nozomi today.

 

Coaxed her into talking more, but her voice is still very hard to hear sometimes.

 

~

 

23 Apr 2013

 

It's really hard for me to believe sometimes how much Ali and Cloud love each other. I mean besides acting all lovey, dovey to each other, they spend so much time together and they share all the same music. Cloud doesn't care for anime too much but when Ali watches her shows, he always cuddles close by her and watches them. Whenever Ali gets sad or something, Cloud always cheers her up almost instantly.

 

~

 

Forced more with Nozomi today. She's definitely talkative now.

 

The things she was saying to me though...

 

Alright, i'll just say it. Nozomi is super attracted to me.

 

Besides calling me master and groping me and wrapping her legs around my body she keeps telling me that she wants me and of course I have to decline.

 

I can't deny that she is rather attractive and I probably wouldn't mind fucking her but I just can't. That would be really fucked up.

 

I love Raina too much to ever betray her.

 

Still, Nozomi is constantly trying to seduce me.

 

Eventually, she will get the point and cut it out.

 

I hope...

 

~

 

Raina finds it cute but is still in the same boat as me. If Nozomi tries to grab my dick or anything like that, Raina is gonna kick her in the face...

 

Ali and Cloud think of Nozomi as a pet and nothing more.

 

They basically consider her a cute little plaything that they can babytalk and pet.

 

Seems like Nozomi is just super submissive to everyone, not just me.

 

~

 

Raina is kinda hostile towards Nozomi, but if I was her I would be too. In any case, I still find Raina 100x more beautiful than Nozomi, as hard as it may be to imagine that.

 

I swore to Raina that I would never betray her no matter what and I mean to keep to that promise.

 

~

 

26 April 2013

 

Nozomi is my maid.

 

I don't mean this in a metaphorical way, I actually mean she greets me in the morning when I wake up and have breakfast and she's calling me "Master"

 

Any objection to stop this has failed at this point.

 

I don't really mind though.

 

~

 

I've not been forcing as much as I used to.

 

 

I used to force 2 hours a day. Now I am only doing 1 hour a day if that.

 

 

I alternate days between forcing Nozomi or Cloud but sometimes I force both.

 

 

I'm gonna be busy with finals too soon so the lengths of our forcing sessions probably won't increase for a while.

 

~

 

6 May 2013

 

It has been an interesting week.

 

Lots has happened.

 

Ali is practicing femdom with Cloud.

 

Nozomi changed her voice and the color of her fur.

 

Raina has basically made Nozomi into her pet

 

Me and Nozomi cuddled for the first time last night.

 

And we smoked a lot.

 

But, alas, finals week is upon us so the forcing will be kept to a minimum in the future.

 

I'm lucky enough to get an hour a day in right before bed.

 

I need to get the fuck off the internet so I can force more. ugh

 

Raina has been coming with me to the gym to lift.

 

She's also been running with me every morning due to the fact that I've sorta let myself go and have packed on a few fat pounds.

 

Raina hates fat with a passion and to be honest, I don't care for it much either.

 

I probably won't log again until the summer and at that point I want to revise my guide a little bit so I can add some more imposition exercises. I do not feel like I have enough of those.

 

We are in the woods now about to smoke. The air is windy and a bit cold (49 degress F) and i am wearing nothing but a tshirt but Raina is keeping me warm just by leaning on me as I type this from my phone.

 

After we smoke I have one more class today and then we will probably go to the gym again and get some food.

 

So yeah, pretty busy. I can't wait till finals are done.

 

I promised Cloud I would force with him 3 hours a day this summer and I mean to keep that promise.

 

~

 

 

Nozomi changed her form again. Her fur color went back to orange and brown. Also she has a cybernetic arm that attaches to her flesh, is wired to her brain via a small incision made behind her right ear. she also sports a visor googe glass-like device to connects to the same system.

 

Audio imposition for when she is walking now is done. I can hear every sound she makes as she walks. The sound of her paws padding up on something like grass or gravel. I can hear it very well.

 

~

 

We still have lots of work to do for visual though. She is 95% transparent at this point and sometimes not even there at all.

 

~

 

7 May 2013

 

Nozomi:

 

Hey, everyone. We've been studying and sleeping and relaxing, together me and Master. I do think he really likes me :3

 

We cuddled and smoked together and it's the best.

 

Master says that my paws are all filthy because they're caked in mud due to me laying down in mud before.

 

I like mud though.

 

Master says he has 50% visually imposed my head.

 

I can use almost anything as a pillow. right now i have using a fallen tree as a pillow.

 

So, um I guess this is my little random blog post.

 

~

 

8 May 2013

 

Nozomi changed her voice to that of a woman from Eastern Europe. She also has her own god she worships known to her as only "The Mother".

 

~

 

11 May 2013

 

Today Nozomi changed her form. She has now taken the form of a Pikachu. She retains her voice and personality but now stands at a height of 16 inches.

 

She's pretty adorable. She doesn't have reproductive organs or anything but will still consider her a girl.

 

The reason she switched her form was because she like that Ali suggested it. She wants a human form as well now, so I guess I'll get on making that soon enough.

 

~

 

Meanwhile, Cloud has been getting a lot of attention but doesn't give much back it seems. We have his mane completely visually imposed now and are making decent progress for forcing everyday.

 

~

 

Lots of forcing will be done today.

 

~

 

 

14 May 2013

 

Forcing every day still. Nozomi's new form is really easy to visualize. Cloud and Ali got their cutie marks.

 

Ali has a sun and Cloud has a black thunder cloud.

 

~

 

17 May 2013

 

Happy birthday, Raina! I love you so much, baby!

 

As promised, I am doing anything she wants for the day!

 

Plus I gotta study too.

 

~

 

19 May 2013

 

The events happened last night.

 

But here is an explanation from tonight.

 

23:20:41    Nero_ | What's going on? :/

23:21:01 GGMethos | raina broke up with me then i got pissed off at her and she ran away

23:21:20    Nero_ | She...broke up with you?

23:21:25    Nero_ | Why would she do that?

23:21:39 GGMethos | I don't even want to say the reason

23:22:08    Nero_ | It wouldn't ever leave this PM.

23:22:43 GGMethos | she said i don't satisfy her enough anymore, like i don't make her feel the same way she did ~1 year ago

23:22:51 GGMethos | so i feel horrible

23:22:55 GGMethos | like where the fuck did i go wrong

23:23:04        * | Nero_ hugs

23:23:09    Nero_ | I'm so sorry. :/

23:23:22 GGMethos | she said she was sorry too

23:23:46    Nero_ | Is it that she's become interested in someone else?

23:23:57 GGMethos | No, it's not even that.

23:24:19 GGMethos | I don't know why she would say something like that since we were having such fun a couple of days ago

23:24:27 GGMethos | this is why i don't understand

23:24:37 GGMethos | what she was talking about

23:24:50    Nero_ | But... you seem like such a nice guy.. I can't imagine you would do anything less than your best to satisfy her every need.

23:24:55 GGMethos | I made Ali and Cloud leave me alone the whole day

23:24:57 GGMethos | no forcing

23:25:08 GGMethos | its not that

23:25:16 GGMethos | Its that she doesnt feel the same now

23:26:24    Nero_ | People fall out of love I suppose. Something I've learned the hard way.

23:27:06 GGMethos | I knew that too, but I would never imagine... Raina...

23:27:23 GGMethos | its just so fucking depressing for me...

23:28:00    Nero_ | I'm here for you. :/ I know that is utterly fucking useless. But I like the lot of you. I'll do anything and everything I can to make this

                  | easier.

23:28:28 GGMethos | idk man it feels like she ripped out a piece of me

23:28:55    Nero_ | She's still there. And I imagine you'll still be very good friends.

23:29:11 GGMethos | if she comes back...

23:29:28 GGMethos | I'm more sad that she ran away...

23:29:50    Nero_ | It's come back or die. Dying fucking sucks so I don't think that's the option she'll choose.

23:30:50 GGMethos | I really really hope not.

23:31:05 GGMethos | She would never do that to Cloud I know she wouldn't...

23:31:40    Nero_ | I hope not to. It would really suck if the first friend I ever really made never returned so we could hang out. :/

 

 

I can't stop crying....

 

~

 

20 May 2013

 

After my Physics final, Raina came back and we had a long talk together.

 

We're back together again.

 

I'm not mad at her anymore but she feels like a bitch for doing this to me.

 

She will feel better soon with my help.

 

There's a whole lot of drama that I don't feel like explaining right now so I won't...

 

~

 

 

22 May 2013

 

Life is good. Finals are over.

 

Nozomi went back to her old form. Cloud and Ali had a threesome with her. She still really loves being their pet.

 

Nozomi is probably hornier than my other 3 tulpas combined...

 

Forced a lot today and yesterday.

 

Might take a break tomorrow and continue as usual after that.

 

~

 

28 May 2013

 

Nozomi changed her form to a wolfgirl. Specifically, Holo from Spice and Wolf. Interestingly enough, Ali and Raina love it a lot. It's their favorite anime and part of me believes that Nozomi has only done this to make them happy. In addition to, of course, preferring this form over her antrho otter form...

 

Also we went to the beach yesterday. That was loads of fun for the whole family.

 

~

 

2 June 2013

 

Cloud changed his voice, Ali somehow got Raina into anime, and Nozomi again changed her form. She has taken the form of a Pikachu pony, while still altering between her pikachu form. She's really starting to be a pain in the ass but I'm doing my best to make her happy.

 

She's sort of in a state of depression, a minor existential crisis. It's really really hard to explain but we are all working on helping her out in the best way that we can...

 

Hopefully, it will all go well and this is just a minor phase she is going through or something.

 

~

 

3 Jun

 

holy fucking shit

 

managed to cheer up nozomi and force with her some more (turns out she didn't think i was forcing with her enough)

 

but

 

 

Cloud impregnated Ali.

 

They comfronted me this morning to tell me the news

 

 

As to how I feel about this, I can't really seem to make up my mind. Confused feelings. Raina and Nozomi seem happy for them but I'm just incredibly anxious about it.

 

We don't know anything about the child yet but Ali says it will be female.

 

 

I literally can't stop sweating.

 

idk.

 

i might force some more to help myself calm down.

 

 

also made incredible touch imposition progress on Cloud. I can feel the majority of his upper body. I just started working on his legs now.

 

I feel like I'm spoiling my son with massages but it's for his own good...

 

~

 

 

 

ok lmfao

 

Ali was just fucking with me. there is no baby. fucking lol...

 

 

~

 

7 Jun 2013

 

3 hours of forcing everyday this week

 

Really amazing imposition work on Cloud. I can feel his mane, tail, and most of his upper body. I had started working on the legs but was having difficulty so I put it off some.

 

WiLL work on them next week I suppose.

 

~