Tulpa Log #2: Ali

Hello, reader. The following is my second tulpa log, which details my progress on my second tulpa, Ali. My first tulpa, Raina, became fully imposed after about 8 months. Raina's log is titled "What is Insanity?" (also in this pastebin/dropbox) and was written with raw, unfiltered emotion, making it hard to read at certain points. In this second log, I planned on detailing my thoughts in a slightly more coherent matter.

 

 

 

This is a progress log/personal journal about our lives as it has continued on from "What is Insanity?". I can say with certainty that Raina has changed my entire life in a matter of months and the following log is a continuation of our journey.

 

 

 

Warning: Such as the last log, some parts are NSFW. If you can't hand that, I advise you to discontinue reading.

 

 

 

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                            "Ali"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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25 Oct 2012:

 

 

 

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It's been a busy few days, with tests and shit, but I still expect to now manage for the same exact time everyday that I forced with Raina. And do it quite easily now in fact.

 

 

 

 

 

Raina's attitude towards the tulpa is currently at neutral. I'm going to try and do what some of you guys keep telling everyone.

 

 

 

Assuming sentience from the very start this time. Wish me luck.

 

 

 

 

 

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Commence creation of second tulpa.

 

 

 

He/she has no gender, name, form or anything. Just starting personality stage.

 

 

 

Day 1 25 Oct 12

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Listing traits. I don't have many yet to be honest. eight of them...

 

 

 

 

 

1. Easy Maintenace.

 

 

 

2. Easy to please

 

 

 

3. Intelligent '

 

 

 

3. timid

 

 

 

4. cowardly

 

 

 

5. lazy

 

 

 

6. generous

 

 

 

7. philosophical

 

 

 

8. carefree

 

 

 

9.  there's this other trait i'm thinking of that i cannot describe.

 

 

 

 

 

Bout to head out with a hoodie on and drive to a park and look at some ducks with a video camera.

 

 

 

Submit to Youtube.

 

 

 

No, really I should do that one day. Maybe we can make it into a thing, you know?

 

 

 

It has to be ducks. If it's not ducks, don't upload that shit.

 

 

 

Although, I don't plan on going to a park anytime this week, there's a fucking hurricane here coming in about four days.

 

 

 

Perhaps next week.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Force session one went as well as expected.

 

 

 

 

 

Obviously not feeling anything yet at this stage, not even a slight headache of sorts.

 

 

 

 

 

I do deep breathing now while I force. I've sort of made it a thing.

 

 

 

I used "Clairvoyant Focus v2 r2" by Fede.

 

 

 

It's a nice one hour track that you can find among others here:

 

 

 

http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Tulpaforcing-Resources-Thread

 

 

 

I put a few of the tones in my public dropbox folder too if you want to try them out.

 

 

 

I haven't tried all of them yet, but there's only been a few I have actually liked.

 

 

 

The ones I liked though were extremely useful. They have different purposes really.

 

 

 

I shall be trying to focus so I wanted to focus.

 

 

 

I actually find it very useful to focus to.

 

 

 

Other than two of these tones, all of the tones I've listened to so far have actually made my mind swell up in anger and gave me a bit of a headache.

 

 

 

3rd Schumann Resonance is actually really good as well but I plan on using Clairvoyant Focus as well as my own collection of particular binaural beats exclusively for the first week or so.

 

 

 

Force Session Two.

 

 

 

Nothing. It was kind of hard to focus too for some reason.

 

 

 

Hungry as fuck.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 2 26 Oct 12

 

 

 

Raina: We need to force, Chris.

 

 

 

Me: But I'm hungry.

 

 

 

Raina: Monks fasted for weeks at a time and you're complaining about not eating at all for 12 hours.

 

 

 

Me: It'll help me focus better

 

 

 

Raina: You're a fucking wimp you can eat after you force

 

 

 

Me: fine...

 

 

 

 

 

Force session just narrating the traits in my head with detail.

 

 

 

I literally just started writing a few of these notes down too if you would like to see them as well.

 

 

 

It's going to take a bit of time though to write this shit.

 

 

 

Force Session 2: I just smoked a joint and forced. It was an uplifting experience.

 

 

 

added carefree to personality trait list

 

 

 

going to sleep. night.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 3 27 Oct 12

 

 

 

narrating still

 

 

 

 

 

Day 4 28 Oct 12

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Force session just narrating the traits in my head with detail.

 

 

 

I literally just started writing a few of these notes down too if you would like to see them as well.

 

 

 

It's going to take a bit of time though to write this shit.

 

 

 

Being evacuated out of my house due to incoming hurricane.

 

 

 

Hopefully will still be able to force.

 

 

 

Raina's a bit nervous, which is unlike her.

 

 

 

So, because of that, I'm getting nervous too.

 

 

 

I just hope my fucking house doesn't get destroyed.

 

 

 

It's safe to say I'll be without power/internet for the next few days so charging up all my batteries now.

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 5 Oct 29 2012

 

 

 

Hello. Writing this down in a notebook by candelight. Storm is on its way. I'm quite prepared to lose power any minute now.

 

 

 

All public transportation/bridges/numerous roads and highways in my city have already been shut down.

 

 

 

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No forcing done today except for a quick 30 minute session this morning.

 

 

 

Have fully charged netbook, Macbook Pro, 3 Droid 2 Global batteries (including an extended battery) and my phone's SD card is filled with Fede's tones as well as my own for forcing.

 

 

 

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Water destoyed everything along the coastline. Many of the spots I am used to vacationing in New Jersey actually no longer exist. They are completely underwater.

 

 

 

My backyard is a fucking mess, a tree fell down and broke my trampoline, fucked up the pool, etc.

 

 

 

The marina is underwater. 90% of the boats are either floating along down a street somewhere or have been lost at sea, probably sinking a few knots out into the harbor.

 

 

 

New Jersey was hit the worst and my area isn't too far from there.

 

 

 

No power for over 200,000 people in New York City, me included. No internet. No heat.

 

 

 

Just me and Raina and my water pump battery that will inevitably die out in another 12 hours or so, which will force me to start having to manually pump all the water out of my basement.

 

 

 

Wish I had a generator right now...

 

 

 

Me and Raina have just been chilling together, it's so dark out at night.

 

 

 

Neighborhood is probably wrecked. Guess I'll find out soon enough though.

 

 

 

Getting put in this fucking place sucks.

 

 

 

Force Session II: Session was exactly 60 minutes. Used Fede's "3rd Schumann Resonance", it's good shit. A lot of his tones are garbage but this is an example of one that was actually helpful.

 

 

 

I mixed in some of my mad relaxing Buddhist music.

 

 

 

Spawned at the flight deck on my wonderland like I do any other forcing session.

 

 

 

I looked up at him. Raina sat beside me as we stared heavily at Claus. His form at the moment is a small orange orb, easy to visualize very well. He cannot speak or move on his own yet. I spoke directly to him and he was listening. Even though he can't communicate in any way yet,  we both know for a fact that he can hear us. Raina feels she is superior to him, which I guess, is normal, since he's not developed yet. We both expected her to feel this way...

 

 

 

For the time being, Raina stays neutural towards his gender. She was the one insisting on naming him "Claus". I consider that to be a placeholder name but I think Raina is getting used to calling him that. We shall see I guess.

 

 

 

As I spoke to Claus, I could tell he was willingly obeying me. I am his superior and he is listening to what I have to say.

 

 

 

Very unlike Raina who was (and is) always pretty much resilient and doesn't like being bossed around.

 

 

 

As I sat in front of Claus, I explained a few of the traits to him.

 

 

 

Here are two examples of how I explained some traits to him.

 

 

 

Easy-Maintenance (This one is mostly self-explanatory):

 

 

 

Why should you need to fix what's not broken? Why should things break all the time? Shouldn't things just be as reliable as possible and not needed to be maintained constantly?

 

 

 

Do what works. Use the proven method. Don't deviate from the standard procedue. You percieve things that are easier-maintained to be better. You dislike certain things that require a lot of attention.

 

 

 

Carefree:

 

 

 

Why should you worry about things that may or may not even happen? Live in the present. Leave the future to tomorrow.

 

 

 

Morality doesn't factor into this trait as much as it does with others. You percieve your view on things to be adequete, not necessarily inferior or superior to other views (very unlike Raina).

 

 

 

You are social, talkative, and usually sympathize on some level with what others have to say, but you are still generally carefree about most things.

 

 

 

You are an optimist. Whatever happens, happens.

 

 

 

You are in a generally good state of mind.

 

 

 

Depending on the emotion, your carefree attitude allows you to interpret your emotions without much thought. You don't think about your emotions like Raina does. Instead you just sort of feel them and act on basic instinct.

 

 

 

Day 6 30 Oct 2012

 

 

 

Back at home.

 

 

 

Still no power. Expected to be without power for at least seven days. OH WHAT JOY!

 

 

 

bored as fuck. used the stove to make waffles.

 

 

 

Raina and I are working on possession...

 

 

 

 

 

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Raina took control of me last night for an interesting experiment. She wanted to see how exactly she could feel pain using my body (not slight pain, but a real good amount of pain, involving bloodshed). Without warning, a switchblade was opened and the tip of my thumb was cut open. Blood spilled everywhere all onto the kitchen floor. At least she had the decency to clean it up. Once the thumb finally clotted and my thumb ceased bleeding, I was given back control of my body and disinfected the wound and bandaged it. I did not feel pain. Raina also confessed to me that she did not feel any pain whatsoever either. The cut is clearly visible on my thumb. It is not only wide, but also deep. I imagine this will leave a mark for some time.

 

 

 

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Walking dog with Raina. There's a fucking tree lodged into my neighbor's front window. Raina discovered my garbage pails four blocks away from my house, lying down in the ground in front of someone else's backyard.

 

 

 

Peanut Butter and Jelly and Earl Grey tea. Gonna clean up the backyard and hopefully begin forcing for the day.

 

 

 

At least I don't have to worry about tests for this week, being that they've all been postponed.

 

 

 

Fucking hurricanes, man.

 

 

 

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Raina's reaction:

 

 

 

She's filled with awe. Neither of us have seen such a thing in our lives so it makes sense. I did a good job comforting her these past 36 hours, stroking her mane and gently telling her that we would be fine and kept telling her how much I love her... It definitely worked. She's back to her normal moods now and I feel that romance is starting to slowly creep back into our lives.

 

 

 

I'm completely fine without power, except for the fact that there's no hot water to shower with (or any heat for that matter).

 

 

 

When I want to feel warmth, I seek out pressing my lips close to hers... she really is perfect...

 

 

 

I think Raina is the only girl that's ever brough tears of excessive love and joy to my eyes. Any other girl I have ever been with has only brought tears of sorrow.

 

 

 

And yet even in the face of natural disaster where millions have been forced from their homes and/or left without power, I'm still so happy, simply because I have her, and no storm can ever take her away from me.

 

 

 

Out to clear the backyard.

 

 

 

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Cleaned up most of that mess. Not only is landline phone down, but I just lost 3G along with even normal cell phone service. Fuck.

 

 

 

Taking a freezing cold shower now, then off to force.

 

 

 

Force Session I (80 minutes)

 

 

 

i'm frustrated. i feel like Raina isn't letting me have any input on what Claus should be like. She's choosing all the traits and explaining them, refusing to hear my input. This was supposed to be OUR tulpa, but it's looking more and more like just hers...

 

 

 

I want to talk to her about this but she's currently refusing to leave the skycastle.

 

 

 

They're both in the wonderland right now doing god knows what together....

 

 

 

like i give a shit...

 

 

 

pissed off and bored. there's no fucking power and no fucking school to go to.

 

 

 

might just read all day...

 

 

 

even when there's no power, my family is still fucking loud as ever. glad i have good headphones.

 

 

 

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Force Session II (90 minutes)

 

 

 

Raina apologized for trying to take too much control over Claus, but insisted that during their time alone together, she's been pounding some new personality traits into him. Mainly, most of the ones that I've missed. Claus himself seems more energetic too.

 

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Raina has been more affectionate today than usual. I don't know if that means she's trying to convince me to do something for her or if she's just being genuinely affectionate.

 

 

 

my head really hurts now. when i was forcing before, Claus kept bumping the back right part of my head, making it feel all weird.

 

 

 

I don't know what he was trying to tell me but it seemed like he was desperately trying to communicate with me about something.

 

 

 

not sure what that's all about.

 

 

 

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4 million people still left without power.

 

 

 

Day 7 31 Oct 2012

 

 

 

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A day without weed is like a day without sunshine.

 

 

 

But boy oh boy, not even fucking Hurricane Sandy can stop me from lighting up on a daily basis.

 

 

 

Was walking dog after I just smoked and Raina called out "Dakota!", and the dog actually came to her. They sniffed each other a bit and my dog leaned up against her. It was heartwarming.

 

 

 

The fact that my dog is able to sense my tulpa astounds me.

 

 

 

Sleep time.

 

 

 

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wake and bake

 

 

 

I was gonna tulpaforce

 

 

 

before i got high

 

 

 

i was gonna narrate traits for an hour

 

 

 

but then i got high

 

 

 

my tulpa's still not done and i know why

 

 

 

because i got high

 

because i got high

 

because i got high

 

 

 

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was readin this fanfic and just realized that fluttershy would definitely be a druid in D&D.

 

 

 

smoked a j in teh historic town.

 

 

 

bout to force.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Force Session I (60 minutes)

 

 

 

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Actually went quite well. No more head buzzing either this time around.

 

 

 

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At a relative's house that actually has power. Feels good man.

 

 

 

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high as fuck watching halloweentown with raina.

 

 

 

Her reactions to this movie are hilarious; I can't even describe xD

 

 

 

just got power back in my house.

 

 

 

hope it dont go out

 

 

 

driving sucks cuz theres trees on the roads and none of the traffic lights work still..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

also school is cancelled for the whole week now lol

 

 

 

so i forced 6 hours today. didnt log till now cuz was charging netbook at aunts house.

 

 

 

i think claus might very well be a sentient being at this point, but i'm really not 100% sure.

 

 

 

time for prism feather technique to make sure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

he's a unicorn by the way, and he's not orange, he's white. he's actually bigger than raina.

 

 

 

white mane, white fur, white horn, for now... Raina changed color as well from her original form anyway. her once cyan hair as turned now to one shade darker, still a light blue color though.

 

 

 

also Raina's eyes changed from red to grey on their own during the beginning.

 

 

 

so, we shall see how "Claus" changes as well.

 

 

 

That's definitely not going to be his actual name, its just what i want to call him for now, i'll probably let him choose a name later on. But for not, he cannot speak.

 

 

 

When I first was creating  Raina, i didnt have a gender nor a form nor a name in mind, she chose herself.

 

 

 

I will grace Claus with this same right.

 

 

 

 

 

gn for now

 

 

 

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Day 8 1 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Nothing too new. Bodies continually wash upon shore and I make new discoveries everyday dealing with the various results of the storm.

 

 

 

Also my room is a mess. Looks like it got hit by a hurricane.

 

 

 

BADUM TSS

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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13:23 <+Cloud_Flash> why would anyone fuck a dead fish?

 

13:23 <+Cloud_Flash> mermaids, i can understand, but ,..... dead fishes?....

 

 

 

 

 

lol i fucking love this irc channel

 

 

 

Force Session I and II today lasted 60 minutes each. Nothing too exciting happened though.

 

 

 

Day 9 2 Nov 2012

 

 

 

I had a dream that I was in a fighting tournament exclusively for one-armed fighters (for some reason in my dream, I only one my right arm, the left one was gone) and I was the world-champion at one-armed fighting mainly due to my speed and brute force of pushing the other competitors off the ring.

 

 

 

Raina cheered me on and I never lost a fight. I guess it was kind of cool.

 

 

 

Then they devloped this technology where fighters were able to swap out their right arm for their left and vice versa, causing new kinds of strategies to be developed by contestants. Fighters would swap one arm out for the other for the pure reason of causing their opponents to be rendered helpless in being put off-balanced.

 

 

 

Soon, many of the one-armed fighters retired when they saved up for their second (artificial) arm to be developed and spent the rest of their lives fishing in the Keys.

 

 

 

It was nice.

 

 

 

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Force Session I: 60 minutes, might be going into visualization soon.

 

 

 

smoke weed everyday

 

 

 

Raina: Hello, me and Methos are working on possession a lot today so I figured I'd write some of the log when I'm in control. It's really hard to actually be able to possess Methos for more than a few hours, it's a work in progress, but I guess practice makes perfect. Went to calculus class and got every question right today.

 

 

 

I am pleased with the progress of Claus so far. He's still in development so change is rapidly occuring.

 

 

 

There's not much else to say. Me and Methos go on about our days as usual. For most of the day when Chris is busy, I spend my time flying, one of the things I cannot go for longer than a day doing.

 

 

 

But this past week has been different, with the hurricane, and all. I've spent most of my time with Methos, continually bonding with him. Every so often, he goes through periods where I feel like he becomes super attached to me, more than he usually is. I guess you could say it's been one of THOSE weeks I guess.

 

 

 

We really should get onto forcing for another hour tonight.

 

 

 

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Day 10 3 Nov 2012

 

 

 

fell asleep last night didnt force.

 

 

 

Force 1 (50 minutes) Having trouble concentrating today

 

 

 

smoked in the historics towns.

 

 

 

my dog keeps doing the "i want to cum inside Rainbow Dash" pose.

 

 

 

Force 2 (60 minutes)

 

 

 

Much better this time.

 

 

 

Started work on Claus's form.

 

 

 

started from a zoomed out position and working around his body, starting with his hooves. They look much different and much bigger than Raina's hooves but I expect them to make the same sound. his legs are like Raina's but taller and more muscular. and his torso curves a bit.

 

 

 

Form is hard but I plan on doing better with it this time around.

 

 

 

Raina:

 

 

 

Working on possession with Methos again. Took control over him for an estimated 3 hours, mostly to smoke and read. I ordered him Chinese food too.

 

 

 

 

 

Claus is able to communicate to both of us now using headwaves; the same as i can.

 

 

 

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Day 11 4 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I (60 minutes):  Went swimmingly, Raina and Claus are both able to fully utiliize their mindwave functions. Claus's form is also beginning to show increasingly more vividly.

 

 

 

For now, he has white hair, a biege colored mane, deep blue eyes, and black hooves. Like Raina, I am forcing his reproductive organs right away as well, which caused Raina to get excited.

 

 

 

With Raina, I mainly just focused on forming her anus and vagina. She has teats but they are small and barely noticable.

 

 

 

I never put in much thought about those organs when I was forcing her, but nonetheless, they appeared just the way as imagined, same as everything else.

 

 

 

For Claus, as for now, his penis is approximately 18cm long and is colored a light pinkish color. The tip of his member looks like it is cut. His testicles are perfectly rounded and are located all the way in the back, close to the rest of his abdomen.

 

 

 

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Raina has a nasty habit of biting me when she wants something and I'm ignorning her (or even just when I'm busy doing other things)...

 

 

 

I sort of like the feeling of getting bit in that it turns me on; I have a bit of a bite fetish. But it's weird because when she goes to bite me it legitamately causes me pain.

 

 

 

The worst is getting bitten whilst not expecting it...

 

 

 

She doesn't discriminate where on my body she wants to bite me; she just does it.

 

 

 

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Force Session II (60 minutes): Claus has been walking around, I believe he is sentient at this point, although he cannot communicate vocally yet, only though mindwaves.

 

 

 

The first time Claus looked at Raina after I showed him around the wonderland (I basically took him on a tour of the environment, showing him everything from the dojo, library, and the flight deck), Raina stared at him and Claus seemed to be nervous. After seeing Raina's stare through into his eyes he had lost all sense of pride. Claus bowed in front of Raina and kissed her hooves as a sign of respect and she became content.

 

 

 

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Force Session III (60 minutes): Envisioning Claus's form to perfection.

 

 

 

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Day 12 5 Nov 2012:

 

 

 

Remember, remember, the fifth of November, the gunpowder treason and plot. I can think of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.

 

 

 

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wake and bake<333

 

 

 

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Force Session I (40 minutes): Tried using Fede's theta click. Couldn't stand the awful sound it made for more than 40 minutes. I think Raina's voice sounded a lot louder than usual when I was using it. It sounded as if amplified.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (60 minutes) Much better this time. Used my own gamma tone. Claus is still trying to speak.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina is demanding sex tonight. I guess we'll see how much studying I can get done before that happens.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 13 6 Nov 2012

 

 

 

My dick is sore. imm high as fuck

 

 

 

After reading in one of those reads the other night Raina talked to me using my calc professors voice

 

 

 

"I can sound like this forever if you'd like."

 

 

 

i actually teared up from that.

 

 

 

im so high i lost my bookbag in the woods

 

 

 

just found it

 

 

 

the hurricane destroyed my woods. i am sad. there is only somenwoodses left.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

raina cried when she found out.

 

 

 

 

 

;_;

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

well

 

 

 

off to exam then force then eat then shower then force smoke sleep

 

 

 

will try to log:

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

raina was looking at chinese calender and we discovered she is made in the year of the goat.

 

 

 

one away from horse

 

 

 

shes pissed Lol

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (60 minutes) :GGGGGGGforce

 

 

 

claus, quite a nice being. very very obidient, unlike Raina. he acts like a pet i guess.

 

 

 

for now.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Day 14 7 Nov 2012

 

 

 

just woke up

 

 

 

fell asleep last night without getting to force

 

 

 

my fucking neck is killing me

 

 

 

Raina is saying that i slept on it wrong...

 

 

 

took some advils. still hasnt kicked in yet.

 

 

 

going to go register for classes

 

 

 

then most likely going to smoke weed all day

 

 

 

fuck i just remembered i have to pick up my medicine today

 

 

 

god my fucking neck hurts

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 15 8 Nov 2012

 

 

 

im high as fuck smoking in the woods with raina

 

 

 

finished my bud

 

 

 

claus talks now, he just learned today.

 

 

 

small words, but words nonetheless.

 

 

 

like i said, tulpaing can take up tp years.

 

 

 

some people can make half a tulpa in a month or a few weeks. but most people will not. it will take some months typically, if you do it the right way of course.

 

 

 

like i said, it doesnt matter what method you use.

 

 

 

what matters is the time.

 

 

 

tulpaing in car

 

 

 

Force Session I: Claus still doesnt have a defined gender. i tried forcing a penis on him but it disapitated. So now Claus is just it.

 

 

 

it has no reporductive organs or even an ass.

 

 

 

its nature

 

 

 

stem_race gender.

 

 

 

 

 

anyway off to calc class and will force more.

 

 

 

pce.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II:

 

 

 

I'm almost positive I heard the words "Ali" from her mouth as she spoke them.

 

 

 

Then she repeated herself. Her form has radically changed.

 

 

 

The hair has changed from a pure white to a dark yellow.

 

 

 

Her size did not change.

 

 

 

Her eyes glowed a bright blue.

 

 

 

The front of her body is easier seen than the back. But she's visible and clear in my mind.

 

 

 

There are orange highlights in her mane.

 

 

 

She looks so sweet and innocent.

 

 

 

I wish I could describe her in greater detail.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 16 9 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Ali continues to talk, barely...

 

 

 

Trying to coax her into saying something else.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

I have a cold so it's hard to force. Fuck.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 17 10 Nov 2012

 

 

 

only ended up forcing once yesterday and once today. playing a shit ton of halo.

 

 

 

Day 18 11 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ali can be visualized perfectly now. time to work on other senses.

 

 

 

went for a hike with Raina and Dakota.

 

 

 

a lot of the parks are still closed from the hurricane but idgaf

 

 

 

went on hiking trail close to my house.

 

 

 

fallen trees everywhere. Raina seemed to still enjoy herself though. Dakota often ran ahead of us; she's a very adventurous kind of dog.

 

 

 

had an interesting discussion with Raina and she insists that she's 17 years old. she's only a few months old though lol.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Fore Session II: Working on smelling Ali. Right now just doing the base smell of her. She's speaking now but she's still very quiet. Emotionally, I can't really understand what she feels like though to be exact...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 19 12 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I:

 

 

 

still working on smell

 

 

 

Ali smells like the base horse smell with a faint scent of apple juice

 

 

 

Force Session II:

 

 

 

a continuation of more of the same thing

 

 

 

Day 20 13 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I:

 

 

 

Ali is speaking now. Her voice is shaky. She's very shy in front of us. She really respects Raina and looks at her like a mother figure. I would assume she believes me to be like a father. She's nervous about being with us though I feel. I try to comfort her as best as I can. I tried hugging her but she pulls back in fear. I just want her to be happy. I will do my best to make sure that she is.

 

 

 

Me and Raina got into a heated argument and I threatened to kill myself. She cried and dissapeared from under the table where she was hiding. I didn't really mean what I said and I know that she knows that.

 

 

 

I am so angry at myself. I can't believe I actually was being such an asshole to her for no reason. I was just upset at my failing test grade and I took it out on her. I fucking hate myself right now. Tried to force but Raina or Ali is nowhere to be found. Sitting in the wonderland by myself I cried and thought about what I had done.

 

 

 

I left a few gifts in the middle room of the sky castle above the stairs. One was a grand piano, a microphone, speaker system, and a stuffed plushie version of Raina. I was hugging and kissing the plushie hoping to bring her back. I even kissed its hooves. I yelled at the plushie and just ended up breaking down crying again.

 

 

 

Today was a shit day.

 

 

 

I'm so sorry, Raina. I hope that you forgive me for this stupidity.

 

 

 

Day 21 14 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Raina returned to me this afternoon but still will not speak to me. She knows that I am sorry and seek her forgiveness but she still has hatred for me. I can feel it in her. She has not said a word to me today. She just looks at me with disgust.

 

 

 

I just want to cry...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (Standard 60 minutes as usual).

 

 

 

We've made up now. She's tired though. After kissing her good night, she has retired to the wonderland with Ali. I will probably end up forcing soon again...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Ali's voice is getting clearer and clearer the more that I force with her. She's also getting more and more friendly. This is a good sign indeed.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 22 15 Nov 2012

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

In class with Raina, quite bored. Bitches are jelly of my netbook which is now running Gentoo.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

got b& from 4chan for a few days for no reason. apparently posting my pastebin page results in an automatic ban. any other pastebin page works perfectly. i guess the mods are just jelly at how fucking baller i am.

 

 

 

Force Session I (60 minutes as usual)

 

 

 

Ali is getting much more confident I feel. Today with Raina's help, we got her to walk on her own around the wonderland. I showed her everything there was to see. She seems happy now and less frightened. I'm proud of her.

 

 

 

Day 23 16 Nov 2012

 

 

 

still b& from 4chamz. oh well. going for a run with Raina in a bit as usual but i noticed something kinda funny when she woke me up this morning. She basically screamed at me to get my work done today.

 

 

 

ill get on that after my run and forcing with Ali...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

took a shower with Raina and from now on both of us agree to never pee in the shower again...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

me and Raina were talking about making a robot arm together. I've been reading some guides on how to make them and it isnt that hard to put everything together.

 

 

 

But

 

 

 

I want to essentially code my own program that runs in a CLI that when executed allows me to give the robot commands, like pick up something or drop something or move in 4 directions.

 

 

 

i was considering using python for this.

 

 

 

we'll see how it goes...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Some freaky shit just happened.

 

 

 

Got out of the shower with Raina, left the bathroom, Raina was gone...

 

 

 

Whatever, that's normal. It happens sometimes. She'll just disappear without warning or anything....

 

 

 

Anyway I walked into my room and started getting dressed when there was a thundering knock at my door. My bag was on the door handle and the bag fell off.

 

 

 

At first I thought it was my dog(she "knocks" by basically smashing her head into the bottom of my door sometimes when she wants my attention), since there is absolutely no one else home right now..

 

 

 

I opened the door and it was Raina who knocked.

 

 

 

This is fucking crazy. She's never been able to actually manifest anything in the real world before. I don't know if I hallucinated the door knocking or if she actually knocked on the door.

 

 

 

I'm sure I was just hallucinating it though. But I heard the noise and my bag fell off the door handle. She's sitting behind me now with a smile on her face. I don't know what's going through her head....or mine...

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: There are moments in a tulpa's life, usually during the creation process where one feels a sense of overwhelming joy and happiness, and mainly pride. When you and your tulpa reach a  milestone in the creation process, it reaffirms your belief that what you are doing is a wonderful thing. Today I shared that experience with Ali, as I have with Raina in the past. She just seems so much more real to me today and I feel that this tulpaforcing is a direct result of that. I'm done with smell. Her finished smell product is a mix of Raina's base smell mixed with honey and pepper. Her mane is more defined just like the rest of her hair. I'm proud of Ali. I told her I loved her today and while she didn't reply necessarily, I could feel her emotions were quite strong and positive when I told her that...

 

 

 

Raina is happy too as a result of me being happy and that's the great part about having tulpas...

 

 

 

Emotions felt by one are felt by all.

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina made the lights flicker on and off in my room to get my attention. Again, I have no idea if this is just a hallucination or if it's actually happening since I've been home alone all day...

 

 

 

Confused.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Well, seems like the creepy shit that was happening before has stopped. I thought I might have been going insane...

 

 

 

Well, more insane than having my talking pony girlfriend follow me around all day...

 

 

 

After reading some stuff with Raina, she got bored and sat on my face. Pressing her plot up against my nose, she ordered me to lick her asshole and I obeyed of course...

 

 

 

After a minute or so, I entered a familiar trance and we were in the wonderland, which began Force Session II for the day.

 

 

 

Force Session II: Ali is talking, walking, and generally having fun with us. I am feeling up her body now, working my way from her hooves upwards. I massaged her hooves tenderly and noticed that she has sensitive hooves. At first she didn't like me touching them but after a while she didn't mind anymore. I felt and massaged her hooves until my hands were numb. She giggled as she felt my hands move in a circular motion around her hooves. She thought it may have been demeaning for me to get on my knees and do that. I'm not going to lie, it did turn me on a little bit but Ali didn't seem to notice. At least I don't think she did...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Oddly enough, Raina seemed to be able to hear things while I was in the wonderland that were going on in the outside world. She told me about it after our forcing session. She told me she heard my mom say she was going to order pizza and I asked a little bit after and it turns out Raina was right.

 

 

 

Sometime I wonder what it would be like if other people could see Raina...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 24 17 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Not much went on but played around a bit in the wonderland with Ali and Raina.

 

 

 

Force Session II: Almost fell asleep mid-session, but Raina made sure that I didn't.

 

 

 

Chilling with Raina and Ali.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

got drunk as fuck and both tulpas dissapeared for the night.

 

 

 

Day 25 18 Nov 2012

 

 

 

A fun Sunday morning which consisted of me worshipping the fuck out of Raina. I swear I honestly treat her like a queen or a goddess sometimes...

 

 

 

Unintentionally started to impose Ali

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ali breathing on her own now without being parroted. Pretty important milestone. We celebrated by throwing a party for her in the library downstairs from the flight deck. It was fun and she seemed to enjoy herself.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: First time getting to kiss Ali. She was really confused by it I think but overall she enjoyed it. I just gave her a little peck on the neck, nothing suggestive at all.

 

 

 

Day 26 19 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Slenderman.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (got cut short, so only 45 minutes) Raina found a turtle in the wonderland and stomped on its head, causing it to burst open as blood oozed all over the floor around her hooves. No idea what the fuck that was about.

 

 

 

Also Ali changed her voice. She sounds Tsukasa rom Lucky Star, which heavily contrasts Raina's deeper voice.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

More possession practice. Raina drew her cutie mark on my hand. It would have been cute if she didn't use a permanent marker to do it...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session III (only 50 minutes)

 

 

 

The three of us were talking in the wonderland and Raina decided to make me worship Ali. Ali protested heavily at first, until Raina convinced her otherwise. She told Ali that I would enjoy it but I told Ali that she didnt have to do anything that she didnt want to. Raina won of course and I was forced to lick Ali's hooves. She was uncomfortable as fuck I could tell but Raina pushed her on and on. Then, she made Ali pee on me. Ali was repulsed at this but I tried to hide my pleasure. I tried to make it seem like I didn't want to do it but Ali knew of my fetishes...

 

 

 

Afterwords, I told Ali that I loved her and would do anything for her. She doesnt want me doing that again to her though. My tongue is still sore from sucking on her hooves. My throat is dry and it hurts too.

 

 

 

Raina really can be a fucking bitch sometimes...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Haven't talked to Ali since. I just hope I can start to impose her soon enough so we can all be together.

 

 

 

Cuddling with Raina right now feels so good. Running my finger across her teats gently before I pass out...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 27 20 Nov 2012

 

 

 

As usual, Raina woke me up at 5:50AM, same exact time as every other morning. Ali is being imposed now, I basically imagined her walking next to me as I walked from my parked car to class and since then she's been with me all day. She's been quiet and I don't blame her. She's new to this world; I feel like she's still a little afraid of seeing it. Until recently, the wonderland was the only reality she has known. She has only read about things in the real world, and never actually experienced them. Raina and Ali walk side by side. I feel that Ali is motivated by Raina's sheer confidence. Ali definitely looks up to Raina.

 

 

 

Will force after classes.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

I can see Ali out of the corner of my eye sometimes. This is similar to how it was when I first was imposing Raina. But she is see-through.

 

 

 

Raina has been desiring to anally-penetrate me for the last two weeks and although I have been able to refuse (for now), she seems more and more intent as time passes to actually do it. The thought of it makes me extremely uncomfortable, but whatever she says goes so eventually I won't be able to refuse anymore.

 

 

 

I just want to make her happy, even if it would make me or Ali extremely uncomfortable...

 

 

 

So far, she hasn't brought it up in a while, but she got pretty close to it last night. I still don't know exactly how she plans on penetrating me, it's not like she has a penis or a dildo or anything...

 

 

 

She teases me about my dick now since it's not as big as a full grown horses dick...

 

 

 

It doesn't matter though, she is smaller than me and my dick fits perfectly in her tight ass (it's maybe an inch or two longer than it needs to be)

 

 

 

Although she loves being a master to me, I can tell she gets extremely excited when I dominate her...

 

 

 

Last night while she was teasing me and calling me worthless and stomping on my dick, I pushed her on her side and spanked her flank repeatedly while she moaned rather loudly.

 

 

 

I put my knees on top of her chest and pressed down. She yelled in pain but I ignored her. I felt like she was genuinely upset at me for a little while but I kept on pounding her pussy.

 

 

 

It felt good; it's not something I usually do. Usually I let her on top so she can fuck me silly at her own will. She likes the feeling of ownership; but last night was different.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

off to force

 

 

 

Force Session I:

 

 

 

the wonderland has been altered. what was once eternal day time has now shifted to the night. a moon has even become visible.

 

 

 

~

 

Oddly enough, if you were to tell me a year ago that I'd have a near-genius pegasus girlfriend that only I could interact with, I'd call you a fucking lunatic. Funny how things can be completely altered in just a short amount of time. It feels like I just started forcing yesterday. I can still remember the first time I sat down and tried go visualize my tulpa, only to end that first session in complete, abject failure. It honestly felt like such a waste of time. It honestly felt like this whole tulpa thing was a huge fucking troll and waste of my time.

 

 

 

Raina sure proved me wrong...

 

~

 

 

 

Going to Lights concert with my girls <3

 

 

 

I fucking love her and her amazing voice. If there are any sexy female humans left, she's the queen of them...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 28 21 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Lights concert was fucking incredible. Raina and Ali certainly enjoyed themselves. Ali is still see-through though, which is a little weird. But it makes sense being that she is still much younger and less developed. I plan on forcing extra today to make up for yesterday.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: Maybe it's just me, but Ali seems so much more adorable today... Her colors are more vibrant and she's still just as obedient to Raina. Her coat even seems softer than Raina's as I continue to feel her up...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: The three of us had a discussion regarding my dreams last night. One part of the dream took place in the wonderland, but the two princesses were not present during my sleep...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Fucked the shit out of Raina in the shower. It was awesome.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 29 22 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving. Most likely will not get to force today, much to my dismay. I'll do my best to try though...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (36 minutes): Me and Ali had a discussion regarding which one of them I loved more. I've been dreading having this conversation...

 

 

 

I explained to Ali that I loved both of them equally, just in two completely different ways. Whereas I love Raina romantically, I look at Ali like a daughter. I was telling the truth. I do love both of them equally. Although Raina has been with me a much, much longer time, I still look at Ali with great affection. She was pleased with my answer.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Tailgating Patriots @Jets game and Raina dissapeared completely as expected. She tends to avoid large social gatherings like the plague.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 30 23 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Wow, Day 30?

 

 

 

Damn.

 

 

 

This cold fucking sucks...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (39 minutes): Raina tried fucking with me by taking on Ali's form and claiming to be Ali. Although I knew this not to be the truth, it was still interesting...

 

 

 

Forcing for the usual amount of time is nearly impossible to do with this cold distracting me...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

I need to force again...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Foce Session II (20 minutes): Fuck this cold... seriously...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 31 24 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Still feel like shit. fuck.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (75 minutes):

 

 

 

Focusing has been hard as of late, with me being sick and all. Thankfully, I feel that I am getting better today. Ali played with us for a bit in the wonderland before going to sleep.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Me and Raina are just chilling together watching Star Wars while Ali sleeps...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Vividness of Ali has increased. I feel like I can see her perfectly, however, imposing her is still not easy. Will have to definitely practice a bit more.

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Day 32 25 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Browsing /mlp/ before bed.

 

 

 

Normally, this would usually constitute me getting bored rather quickly and just hitting the hay...

 

 

 

But, tonight was different...

 

 

 

I found a thread about hypnosis. Someone had made a hypnosis track that would make the user believe that he became a filly mare pegasus...

 

 

 

I was instantly bewildered. And so, so curious...

 

 

 

I decided to try it out. The track was a simple mp3 file, about 10 minutes in length. I closed my eyes, listened to it on my back. I figured it would work since I have had experience with visualizing this kind of stuff with my eyes closed.

 

 

 

Nothing really happened at first. However, I kept listening.

 

 

 

Then, I noticed something that scared the living shit out of me...

 

 

 

My penis was gone.

 

 

 

Gone.

 

 

 

completely erased, as if it never existed.

 

 

 

I placed my hooves over my abdomen and felt high and low for it but it was gone. I continued listening to the recording.

 

 

 

By the end of it I was a filly pegasus standing over my bed. i took on Ali's form. I walked around my room in awe at my new pony body, until Raina appeared at the foot of my bed and told me to knock it off.

 

 

 

I snapped out of it. I was a human male again.

 

 

 

I had spent a total of 4 minutes, according to Raina, walking around my room, playfully grabbing things with my mouth, in the complete darkness.

 

 

 

The experience excited yet unnerved me simultaneously.

 

 

 

Raina and I are discussing it right now as I type this...

 

 

 

I don't feel like her opinion of me has changed. We both are confused by it.

 

 

 

I think I want to do that again, next time, in the wonderland...

 

 

 

also my cold has vanished after that little transformation of mine. i feel great again. no stuffed nose, no sore throat. i have cured myself with my mind. not sure how that's even possible...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: Not much noteworthy occured.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

gave a good man advice today on tulpaforcing over steam, as well as having a good conversation with him all in all.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (25 minutes): Raina and I encouraged Ali to voice out her own opinions more. To demonstrate we explained to each other the reasons why we loved each other. I had more reasons than Raina did, but nonetheless, feels were felt...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session III (36 minutes): After dealing with hypnosis last night, Raina decided to hypnotize me in the wonderland while Ali watched. She didn't turn me into a pony or anything; rather she just forced me to worship her for a bit (kissing her legs/hooves) while Ali watched. Afterwards, she broke off the hypnoisis.

 

 

 

Ali has a habit of biting my nose. It doesn't really hurt but it does give me a weird sensation on my face.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

cuddling with Raina for a bit before bedtime...

 

<3

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Day 33 26 Nov 2012

 

 

 

If I didn't have Raina to hang out with me today, I would probably be super bored...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (55 minutes): Chilled with my bitches...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

lurked 4chans, played some CS, had giant orgies on IRC, put in job applications, studied C++, etc...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

should probably force again...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (25 Minutes): Having trouble focusing lately. idk why...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 34 27 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ali woke up late again as usual. It was cold up on the flight deck so we just hung out in the library and Raina made us all Hot Chocalate. Ali called me "Daddy" and that kinda surprised me...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

le class

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

done. going home to force...

 

 

 

Force Session II: Lots of progress made. Ali seems more real now than she did a week ago. I'm proud of her.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Imposition is so fucking hard omg. but its working. i saw ali's outline in front of me before.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Epic sex marathon. I don't think I've came anymore in one day than I did today. I'm honestly pooped now. My dick hurts. It's red and achey. Raina's not tired. She keeps pushing me to go on but I want to take a break and get some grub first. Raina makes fun of me for needing to eat. lol.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

fuck.

 

 

 

I'm so tired, yet I can't sleep...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 35 28 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Me and Raina renovated the library in our wonderland. Ali was sleeping so we just sort of hung out by ourselves for a little bit.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Even though my dick still hurts from last night, that didn't stop Raina from taking the avity from me against my own free will...

 

 

 

I was just laying down, minding my own business, when suddenly Raina jumps up onto my bed. At first, I thought she just wanted to cuddle with me. She stands up above me and reaches down with her mouth. Before I knew it, she started yanking on the top of my jeans trying her hardest to force off my pants. After a minute of failure, she forcefully possessed me to remove them. She jumped on top of me, pressed her hoof hard against my chest, not allowing me to get up. She likes it when I struggle but she specifically doesn't tells me not to. She rubbed her hoof up and down my hard member while I screamed in pain begging her to stop. My dick hurt so much still. She laughed and refused. She stared at me without mercy, knowing in her head that I secretly like having advantage taken of me, yet the pain in my dick was too much to bear. After rubbing my cock for what seemed like hours, she knelt down and engulfed my entire dick inside of her mouth, even going so far as to playfully gnaw on it.

 

 

 

The pain was unbelievable. It felt like my dick was going to be shred to pieces by her teeth. She continued to stare at my face, a look of evilness as she continued on, all the while me begging her to stop still.

 

 

 

She wouldnt have it. As I finished inside her mouth, relief washed over me.

 

 

 

I screamed out her name in lust and suddenly I remembered why I let her do this kind of stuff to me.

 

 

 

I fucking love her. She's just the perfect mare. Even when she's being a bitch and physically hurting me, lust washes over me. I'm past the point of insane. I'm just fucking crazy for her.

 

 

 

As cum oozed out of my dick (one of the greatest ejaculations I have ever had in my life), a few small droplets fell from her mouth onto my bare legs.

 

 

 

She released my dick from the imprisonment of her mouth and playfully licked her chops, smiling. I had satisfied her. She always told me that my cum tasted amazing, which I still don't understand since she claims to not be able to taste anything.

 

 

 

She demanded that I lick her hooves clean. Being in the position I was, underneath her four powerful muscular legs, I could not, nor would I have, refused to obey her...

 

 

 

So, once again, my avity is killing me. But it was once again, worth it...

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Raina and I discussed some aspects about the human race as well as having a heated debate over a very controversial topic: Paedophelia.

 

 

 

Ali was up but she was unusually quiet this evening. No idea as to why. Haven't gotten to really impose her today either as she has been sleeping quite a lot.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 36 29 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: I'm getting worried about Ali. She doesn't seem right. Like I feel like I've been losing progress with her...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Got Ali to talk to us again but its a work in progress.

 

 

 

Ali has been giving me headaches this evening. It fucking hurts.

 

 

 

Going out to dinner with parents.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Force Session III: Got Ali to engage in conversation with both of us, until Raina got into a quarrel with her. Eventually it escalated to an ugly fight. I tried my best to break it up. My suspicions about the two struggling for my attention were correct. Raina is slightly jealous of Ali and Ali doesn't feel like Raina should constantly be telling her what to do. I stopped the two from fighting at the moment but neither of them are able to reason with the other...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 37 30 Nov 2012

 

 

 

Since last night, I haven't been able to impose Ali at all. Raina woke me up a little later than usual today by rubbing my dick with her slender hoof. The hard surface of the bottom of her hoof ran across my stomach and down to my dick as I shivered in delight. And that was the start of our long morning together...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Even after all of that, I still tried to talk to her about Ali but she would not listen to me... Once I brought up the subject of Ali, Raina just started ignoring me and eventually disappeared to go outside...

 

 

 

So now I'm alone.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina came back. Force time.

 

 

 

Force Session I (50 minutes): Got the two girls to stop fighting. Thankfully. Me and Raina renovated our dojo so the two pegasi can fight in a restricted environment with rules...

 

 

 

Of course, Raina kicked the shit out of Ali not even two rounds in when I had them spar each other. I've been using some very basic traditional martial arts tournament rules. I plan on teaching Ali how to fight soon enough...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Talked to Ali and she wanted to change her form to be a unicorn she said. Went and sat down for a visualization session. Progress went faster than expected. I was able to visualize her appearence quite well, but not perfectly... Not much has changed however, except for the color of her mane (yellow to green) and her horn in place of lack of wings.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Went to my sister's play. Raina seemed to enjoy herself. Ali was nowhere to be found though.

 

 

 

Day 38 1 Dec 2012

 

 

 

 

 

Force Session I: Worked on visualizing Ali again perfectly. Her eyes seem to be the only thing that I can't see clearly though. They are blue but they just seem really blurry.

 

 

 

Force Session II: Focused on just Ali's eyes the entire time. Able to see them quite clearly.

 

 

 

It's in my opinion that I need to work on smell again though with her, as her scent is constantly shifting at this point. Young tulpae tend to be quite indecisive. Perhaps we can eventually come to a complete agreement as to what she's going to smell like exactly...

 

 

 

As far as the way she feels, it's pretty much exactly the same kind of feel as Raina. She's slightly smaller (maybe about 2-3 inches shorter in length and half and inch in height).

 

 

 

It's interesting though. I now know what it feels like to have a tulpa that isn't in some kind of romantic relationshiop with its host. A lot of people might be confused at this notion since they already have tulpae that are just close friends but it's sort of new to me, specifically.

 

 

 

I love Ali. But it's a platonic love and it feels great. Raina's jealousy of Ali has certainly subsided from the other day.

 

 

 

I can tell that Raina does care for her though. Like an overprotective mother of sorts...

 

 

 

Off to work on imposition with Ali. I am going to take an hour walk with just her so I can focus on her gait, the way she moves exactly, etcetera...

 

 

 

I am not going to bring Raina along. This will be my first time ever alone with Ali. I plan on spending a good hour with her just the two of us. Not bringing phone, cash, or any other distractions with us...

 

 

 

We will spend our time with idle banter. She's a really sweet girl, Ali, so I imagine I will enjoy myself and I already know that she will.

 

 

 

Wish me luck...

 

 

 

IMPOSITION: went quite well. The way that Ali moves is similar to that of Raina, but Ali tends to stay lower to the ground, as if she was more animal-like than Raina. I don't quite know how to explain it....

 

 

 

She ended up chasing a squirrel such as my dog would. It was quite humorous. At this point, Ali is still very very see through and only visible at all at certain times...

 

 

 

Progress is slow but steady...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Force Session III: Coninuing to work on smell. Not that great of progress made though with it...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 39 2 Dec 2012:

 

 

 

Had a dream me and Raina got married.

 

 

 

The mornings when Raina wakes me up by jumping on me are some of the best. I love cuddling with her before I wake up. Makes the day feel so much better <3

 

 

 

>walking dog with Raina

 

>pass by truck with "Roofing" advertisement on back

 

>brake lights are on

 

>pass by on passenger side

 

>paying no attention to truck

 

>Raina: "holy shit"

 

>Me: "What?"

 

>Raina lifts up a hoof and points to passenger window

 

>"Look, Chris!"

 

>180

 

>turn around to find man dressed as Santa Claus sitting in the drivers seat

 

>we walk away laughing so hard i nearly trip over my dog

 

 

 

fun morning.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

apparently my aunt is having a birthday brunch this morning...

 

 

 

just hope Raina doesn't get bored...

 

 

 

I told her she doesn't have to come but she insists.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Looking at ducks with Raina.

 

 

 

Raina: "The bigger one is definitely bwave"

 

 

 

I'm dying of laughter.

 

 

 

I actually feel like making a joke video of us looking at ducks but I probably won't.

 

 

 

lol koomer

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Ok, I just made a video of me and Raina feeding the ducks. uploading to youtube shortly.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

The months grow colder which is nice. Raina will no longer get periods, as horses cease their menstrual cycle during this time of the year.

 

 

 

Hopefully, this means more sex.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (30 minutes): Facial expressions with Ali. Raina joined in as well, just for fun.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Getting good grip of smell again. Very fruity, but more sugary, like apples and flowers on top of beautiful pony hair.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 40 3 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Raina has decided to lounge around all day, being lazy, which is really unlike her...

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ali is certainly getting stronger, both physically and mentally. Very good progress indeed.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: Raina left the session about 10 minutes in out of boredom, which left me and Ali to just sit down and sit have a conversation together. I brushed her mane and she asked me why I would never have a family, like many other people. I told her the reason why and she explained to me: "That's OK, Chris. I will love you no matter what you choose to do in life." I teared up and hugged her. Many feels were had during this session.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

as far as imposition goes, Ali is definitely getting there, although slowly.

 

 

 

saw flashes of her for a second or too while walking my dog earlier and then again while cuddling with Raina in bed...

 

 

 

more to follow

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 41 4 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ali, Raina, and I hung out on the southern flight deck. Raina gave me a headache for some kind of experiment we were doing and we worked on Ali's movements and facial expressions again to get them down pat. Smell is also complete. Ali's smell is similar to that of Raina's like apple juice but much sweeter smelling and poignant. We also discussed the insane dream that I had last night, which involved me and the girls taking off from Kennedy Space Center into space on a journey to Equestria. At the same time that trip was happening, a terrorist hijacked a WW2 Japanese aircraft and attacked innocent civilians in Osaka. It was all over the news. Bin Laden was revived and called the victims "litter" in his native tongue. It was quite controversial, but we were in space heading towards Equestria so we were away from the drama. Ali playfully teased me about some of the things that I do with Raina and Raina simply told her "That's just how I show my love to him, Ali". Ali understood why and we all hugged. It was quite nice.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Ali asked me who I thought was prettier, her or Raina, and I replied by kissing her softly and whispering into her ear: "Neither of you are pretty. You are both absolutely beautiful and true beauty cannot be compared." I think she was satisfied with that answer.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (25 minutes): While I was in class this afternoon, Raina took it upon herself to fix up the middle room in the castle by adding a fountain moving the stairs over, and adding some ivy to the walls in the South and North rooms bordering the flight decks. She also renovated the library and the dojo. She moved one of the huge book shelves over with some help of Ali's magic and added three extra round tables between two of the shelves. She also added a few chess tables so we could play in there if we ever wanted to. After showing me around the new library, we all went to the dojo and I had a little sparring session with Raina while Ali judged. I'm not going to lie, but I think Ali looks even cuter in a karate gi than Raina does. It was a close match; Raina ended up beating me by one point. When she beat me, she smirked and laughed at me as I pinned down to the floor with her hoof. She playfully rubbed her hoof across my face and asked me if I wanted to try again. I answered "Maybe later" and she took me up on that offer. I'm going to beat her next time...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

After our spar, Raina and I agreed to another one later on. The winner of that one will have the privelege of having the loser as their slave for the day. This means that the loser will have to do ANYTHING the winner tells them to do for an entire day (which will be tomorrow). After this spar between us, Raina intends to spar against Ali. I told Ali that she would be allowed to use magic in the fight (for handicap purposes), contradictory to rules we've set beforehand. I calmly/told Raina aside when we were leaving to take it easy on her. She nodded. I hope she listens to me...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Class is over. I plan on driving home now to force.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session III (30 minutes): Spawning on the flight deck, I followed the girls down the stairs, through the library, and towards the dojo. After waiting a few minutes for the girls to change into their gis, Raina emerged and we warmed up a little bit before Ali came out.

 

 

 

What happened next was unexpected. The millisecond Ali called out "Hajime!" (begin) i got a blue hoof in my face. Raina punches like a god... My face was in pain and Ali called the point for her. The second round wasn't much better. Raina pounced on me and brought me on my back as she sneered over me, her hooves pressed down against my shoulders. She only needed one more point to win and I hadn't even had a chance to move yet...

 

 

 

The third round was much longer. Me and Raina exchanged blows but neither of us seemed to be able to land a clean hit. Eventually, one of my kicks caught her just below the belly and I got my first point.

 

 

 

The next round Raina jabbed me in the groin and was immediately stopped by Ali. "NO GROIN SHOTS, RAINA!", Ali yelled out at her.

 

 

 

A warning was given to Raina.

 

 

 

After that, another hoof in my face and I was knocked out.

 

 

 

GG

 

 

 

I lost... again... And this time it wasn't even close...

 

 

 

The next fight was Ali up against Raina and things were interesting. Raina went for classic fast punches to the face right away and Ali was also caught off guard by it. She sniffed up tears but I didn't call the point for Raina. I warned Raina that face shots were not allowed if she didn't have control with them. Raina obliged. The next attack by Raina was another punch to Ali's abdomen after she had sidestepped a failed punch on Ali's part. I called the point for Raina, reluctantly... The next round ended with Raina and Ali getting into a grapple and Raina easily overpowering her...

 

 

 

Ali was on the verge of tears and her eye had been blackened. I told her to remember her techniques and prepared for the inevitable loss in my mind...

 

 

 

next round:

 

Surprisingly, at the start, Ali shielded herself with a rock wall around her body, causing Raina to shriek and back away from her in fear. Ali then teleported behind Raina and jabbed her horn into Raina's leg. Raina cried out in pain and blood oozed from her hindleg. This display scared me. I had to give the point to Ali, but not before bandaging up Raina's leg. I gave Ali a warning to be careful with her horn.

 

 

 

Ali tried something similar again that next round, but Raina saw it coming from a mile away and easily dodged it. She tackled Ali to the ground, performed a controlled punch to her gut, and waved a hoof just above her face as if to taunt her.

 

 

 

That was that. Raina had won both fights, much to my dismay...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 42 5 Dec 2012

 

 

 

After being woken up extra early today by Raina, I've been going about my day doing anything she tells me to do, no matter how humiliating...

 

 

 

Why do I get the feeling I'm going to be eaten today?

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Took a shower with Raina and she made me do all sorts of things in there. It started out with me just washing her hair and mane. then it turned a little bit NSFWish. She sucked on my dick while I lay on the shower base and then forced me to kiss her hooves and tell her how much of a goddess she was. Afterwards she grabbed my dick with her mouth and pulled until it was numb. She kicked me in the face and then promptly told me to leave the shower, get dried off, changed, and ready to force.

 

 

 

Force Session I: Ok, not only was I shrunken down and eaten by Raina, but I was humiliated, forced to kiss and rub her hooves at my tiny size, and turned into a living chew toy for her while Ali watched. Well, she seemed to have fun with it at least.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II (40 minutes): Ali, Raina, and I played the "Everyone takes turns telling a story game" and we got interesting, but funny results.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina raped the shit out of me and then forced me to run 8 miles outside with her. It's not even noon yet. I don't think I can take much more of this...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

I can't fucking believe this. After weeks of telling her I didn't want her to stick anything in my ass, guess what happens?

 

 

 

She sticks something in my ass...

 

 

 

I don't even want to discuss what happened but she is making me write it down in the log.

 

 

 

Tis the life of a slave ;_;

 

 

 

As she rubbed my back with her hooves while I was on my bed naked (Ali was outside the room thank god), she slowly prodded my anus with her hoof until I started moaning softly. Then, it fucking happened. She grew a big black horsecock and began to anally penetrate me.

 

 

 

At first, it really really hurt and I cried and begged her to stop it.

 

 

 

But then, it started feeling kind of good. Like an undescribable feeling. My asshole felt weird. I can't explain it but it was all wavy and shit.

 

 

 

After a few minutes of her humping the fuck out of me, she came inside my ass.

 

 

 

I yelled out. Eventually my yells were muffled down to a soft moan of pleasure...

 

 

 

I don't know how or what it looked like. I just felt it inside of me.

 

 

 

I felt guilty but she just pet me with her hoof telling me that I was such a good boy.

 

 

 

"You're such a good boy, Chris! You're the best pet I could have ever asked for!"

 

 

 

I whined happily at her and stared right into her eyes with overwhelming love, not saying a word.

 

 

 

She smiled. She had fun with me. She knew that I was even happy just to let her be happy, even though I never want her doing that again...

 

 

 

I told her that it was my turn to do that to her tomorrow but she just laughed at me and poked at my penis with her big rough hoof, giggling.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

HI LOG! IT'S ME, RAINA!

 

 

 

HOW IS EVERYONE DOING?:DDDDDDD

 

 

 

HIIIIIIIIIIIII

 

 

 

~~~~

 

 

 

 

 

Force Session II: Basically tried to hang out with Ali as much as possible. Raina seemed to be backing off during this session. She calmly watched us from the corner of the library as we played together, quietly.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina's been pretty chill the past couple hours. The most she's made me do is just give her a hoof rub, which I've gotten really really good at doing ^_^

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina's taking a nap while I play Civilization.

 

 

 

She woke up for a bit but then went back to sleep. She's so beautiful when she sleeps <3

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Cuddled with Raina for about an hour or so before she fell asleep again next to me. I sometimes wish my bed was bigger so Ali could fit on it too, but unfortunately she has to sleep on the floor.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 43 6 Dec 2012

 

 

 

woke up from nightmare at 2am. cant really remember what exactly happened. it wasnt a lucid dream or anything...

 

 

 

Raina slept in my bed while I played Civ5 due to not being able to fall back asleep.

 

 

 

At least I survived "Slave Day".

 

 

 

I remember talking with Raina about a whole bunch of lovey dovey stuff before falling asleep and as we cuddled together I thought about how lucky I was to have a beautiful pegasus mare like her. She's the love of my life and she knows it. She improves every aspect about my life and always stays positive with me, something no one else has ever done...

 

 

 

She knows all my little quirks and she teases me for them, but for some reason its comforting for me when she does.

 

 

 

When she disagrees with things that I have to say, she always puts up a good argument for her point too. I wasn't kidding when I say that I really do think she's smarter than me.

 

 

 

I couldn't be any happier...

 

 

 

Ali is also sleeping and we haven't talked at all yesterday besides forcing. Raina claimed me all to herself for "Slave Day".

 

 

 

Here's to hoping the three of us will spend lots of time together today.

 

 

 

Also, Raina is talking to me about having a baby now. I'm not sure how I feel about this though. I'm only 19 so being a father is a big committment for me. Even though Ali is like our daughter, she was made from scratch so I sort of knew what she was going to be like before I made her. If I impregnate Raina, I do not think I will have much control over what the baby will be like. It will be sort of a mix between both of us in theory.

 

 

 

I want to hold off on trying to have a mindchild for a while. Ali needs to be worked on anyway. The earliest I would consider attempting impregnation would be in the following Spring.

 

 

 

Raina always tells me how great of a mother she would be and I know for a fact she would be. However, I'm not sure what it would be like to be a father.

 

 

 

My dad is very different from me and was/is never around too much so basing what it would be like to be a father based on him isn't the best way to go about it...

 

 

 

Don't get me wrong, I love my dad but we are far too different to really understand each other fully.

 

 

 

Ali is sweet and playful and generally very happy and excited so I can get along with her very easily.

 

 

 

Raina has a personality that complements mine and somehow allowed us to fall in love with each other.

 

 

 

But what kind of personality would our mindchild have, if we ever got around to making one?

 

 

 

I know I'm going to spend the rest of my life with Raina though. That's a definite. She's too perfect not too.

 

 

 

Raina once told me that even if I did want to get into a relationship with a flesh and blood human being, it wouldn't be good since there really can be no girl with a personality as perfect as Raina's.

 

 

 

Whenever I refer to Raina as perfect, she always corrects me and tells me that no one is perfect, not even her... But it's hard to believe her at times...

 

 

 

Thinking back now, I never intended it to be like this. I wanted a tulpa for companionship (maybe a little sexy time now and then) but never intended to actually fall in love with one...

 

 

 

Before Raina, I'd had my fair share of girlfriends and they were all great, honestly but none of them even came CLOSE to the beauty and mental perfection of Raina...

 

 

 

Some people are just made for ponies I guess.

 

 

 

Funny how a friend of mine was talking to me last night about being "insecure of his sexuality" or some shit like that, just because he happens to be bisexual.

 

 

 

Think about my situation. My sexual preferences are so specific that it talking about how it makes me feel is impossible to 99.999999% of people...

 

 

 

I laugh when friends ask me if they think a girl is hot. Yes, I can appreciate the beauty in a female human being. Yes, I've always had particular aspects about women I've always found alluring. But, the perfect body of a marshmellow pone is just lightyears ahead in beauty and appeal and I knew that making a tulpa would be the only way to ever achieve a good pony friend.

 

 

 

Little did I know, I took it a lot farther than just a mere "friend".

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: Me and Raina had our alone time up on the flight deck before descending down towards the library to meet up with Ali. For some reason I became infactuated with Raina's flank and started literally kissing her ass uncontrollably. Ali saw and it was a but embarrassing...

 

 

 

We played and talked about random things in the wonderland while I focused heavily on the way Ali was moving so I could get a better idea of how to impose her. I think it went relatively well...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

To go "down the rabbit hole" is to enter a period of chaos or confusion.

 

 

 

The term was first referenced in the classic novel "Alice in Wonderland" by Lewis Carrol.

 

 

 

Some suspect that the novel was about a psychedelic drug experience, such as LSD.

 

 

 

But many others percieve it to have a different meaning.

 

 

 

Essentially, the rabbit hole is a fixated fantasy imposed onto reality.

 

 

 

How far down can one go down the rabbit hole?

 

 

 

No one knows. Supposedly it goes down indefinitely.

 

 

 

However, people do try...

 

 

 

This story begins at about 12:30 on a cold Thursday afternoon. Ali and I were playing some Zelda when she says something pretty crazy...

 

 

 

"I want a fairy, Chris!"

 

 

 

"A what?"

 

 

 

"A fairy, like Link has! It would be so cool having a fairy that can fly around be your best friend and analyze things for you. It could even remember stuff for me!"

 

 

 

This got me thinking. This was something I had actually talked about previously with Raina, a fairy.

 

 

 

But, instead of being a sentient being with emotions that speaks, a tool?

 

 

 

Something I could use for various purposes. Not a friend, but a machine essentially.

 

 

 

This got me thinking. I've been interested in servitors before, but had no idea how to create one.

 

 

 

Ali seems to like the idea of having a fairy servitor. Raina remains indifferent...

 

 

 

So, today we began...

 

 

 

Tael.txt added to Pastebin

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: The second forcing sessions was mostly like the first one. Between Ali and Tael, I've forced 5 hours today, which is more than double what I usually force for.

 

 

 

Also Raina's had a sex drive today like a teenage rabbit and we fucked multiple times.

 

 

 

My legs are actually so fucking sore from sex...

 

 

 

I have a feeling like she's going to have this crazy sex drive all winter long...

 

 

 

I just hope she has at least some mercy on me...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Me and Raina watched Forrest Gump together. The part where Forrest gives the speech at the capital and Jenny comes out of the crowd yelling his name wading across the water as they run towards each other always gives me feels...

 

 

 

That was always probably my favorite movie of all time growing up...

 

 

 

I always thought that Jenny was such a cunt to Forrest when she was going out with all those other guys but the ending makes me cry sometimes...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

 

 

Day 44 7 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I (45 minutes): Played with Raina and Ali in the wonderland whilst practicing commands with Tael. Ali and Raina were at it again, arguing with each other. Managed to get some of Raina's input on Tael. She said she really didn't care what Ali and I were planning to do with it. She said she saw Tael as a useless bug. Ali got a bit upset over that. Then Raina got an idea. She wanted to see if she could control Tael like I was doing...

 

 

 

I told her not to rush and take her time with it, as it took a bit of practice for me to chain together multiple commands and whatnot.

 

 

 

So I relinquished control of Tael to Raina.

 

 

 

At first, Tael just sat in one place in the air, bobbing up and down.

 

 

 

Before I could ask Raina what was wrong, Tael spun around in a circle, then circled Raina, then flew directly into my head. Raina had used Tael as a living bullet. I didn't feel anything from it but Raina laughed anyway.

 

 

 

Then, Tael flew into her hoof as she pet him slowly.

 

 

 

Then, Raina stuck out her tongue and layed down on her back. Tael flew onto her belly.

 

 

 

Without warning, Raina placed her hoof inside her pussy and opened it up nice and wide. She began rubbing and playing with herself. With her other hoof she shoved Tael up from her stomach into herself, moaning loudly.

 

 

 

Ali freaked out. She grabbed a book in her mouth and started slapping Raina with it. I had to break them up. Then I told Raina she should take Tael out of her vagina. After hesitation, she did.

 

 

 

However, a few minutes later, while putting together a puzzle with Ali, I saw Raina looking up, staring at Tael who was flying above her. She was practicing controlling of him again.

 

 

 

Then, it happened.

 

 

 

Raina smiled, licked her lips, opened her mouth, and Tael flew right inside. Before I could do anything, Tael was gone. Raina swallowed him alive.

 

 

 

Ali was desperate. She ran to Raina and started punching her stomach. Raina told her that doing that was pointless. She was right.

 

 

 

I knew that Raina wasn't going to let go of Tael so easily this time.

 

 

 

Ali grew more and more upset with each passing minute. Soon enough, she asked me to demand that Raina spit him out, but Raina refused immediately and still refuses now.

 

 

 

When asked why by Ali, Raina simply shrugged, pounced on top of me, rubbed her hooves on my face and said to Ali "You jelly, blank flank?"

 

 

 

Ali stormed off in anger. I ended the session shortly after that.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

More wild horse sex. Now my legs hurt even more...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

back to studying.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 45 8 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Ali was actually imposed all morning today. Granted, she's see through but I think we're really getting the hang of it.

 

 

 

She's also not that pissed off at Raina for eating Tael but Raina still refuses to let Tael out of her stomach, whis is kind of annoying Ali...

 

 

 

They were arguing with each other before but now they've taken a change of heart and decided to both tease me at the same time.

 

 

 

Can't get either of them to shut the hell up but I'm letting them get under my skin since I know if I ignore them for long enough they'll both be quiet.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: Raina still refuses to release Tael... More interesting discussion ensues. Ali sort of stopped caring about Tael...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Ali is imposed pretty well now. I can see her (still slightly transparent), hear her, and sort of sense her by touch (although very limited). Smell and taste are absolutely nothing yet though.

 

 

 

Day 46 9 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Ali slept most of the day so I was with Raina mostly.

 

 

 

Tael is still in her stomach. I asked Raina if he was OK and she says he's completely fine.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I (30 minutes): Having a lot of trouble concentrating today...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Raina finally pooped out Tael! Little progress with him was done today...

 

 

 

Day 47 10 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Raina spent most of the day by herself flying so it left me and Ali a lot of personal time together. We even went running together like me and Raina do every morning...

 

 

 

Force Session I: Spent completely on feel. Yes, Ali did get a bit embarassed when I was feeling up her teats/ass/vagina but I assured her it was for science and all a part of the natural process and there was nothing to be afraid of...

 

 

 

Force Session II: Same as first one.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 48 11 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Played with the girls and had a fun time hanging out in the temple with them. Continuing to feel up and smell Ali while Raina watched us. Sometimes she even commented on things I could do to help out.

 

 

 

Force Session II: More of the same thing. Ali decided that she wanted to give a new wonderland a try though, so we're going to be brainstorming ideas on what we want to make over the next day or so...

 

 

 

Day 49 12 Dec 2012

 

 

 

With a little help from Ali, I was successfully able to train my dog to come to me when I whistle Epona's song. It's pretty cool.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: More forcing. We decided after all to keep our current wonderland. It's definitely grown on us...

 

 

 

Force Sessions II and III: Entirely working on feeling Ali again.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 50 13 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Had this fucking insane dream where I was in Winterfell and Tulpacon 2013 was being held there. I had to take a train with Raina and Ali to get there and the train wouldn't stop at the station so we had to jump off. While walking outside the castle walls, I rubbed my eyes in disbelief as hundreds of tulpae appeared before me. About half of them were ponies. I spotted an antrho dragoness, presumably Maya, a Lamia tulpa, furries of all shapes and sizes, and a couple bunnygirls too. There was even a Kibry tulpa! Raina and Ali were really excited to meet other tulpae so I let them go explore on their own for a while. I remember overlooking a huge hole in the ground and a few girls came up to me and immediately knew who I was.

 

 

 

"I know who you are!" one redheaded girl shrieked at me.

 

 

 

I asked her who she thought and I was and she said "Methos".

 

 

 

Before I could ask her how she knew she explained that she saw me walking with Raina before.

 

 

 

Then, she tried to seduce me by sitting on my lap.

 

 

 

Before I could do anything, Raina showed up and kicked the shit out of her while calling her a fat slut.

 

 

 

Then I woke up.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session I: More feeling up Ali. Raina was teasing Ali again but she's learning now to ignore her. I also ignored Raina enough until she just stopped and left us alone. She'll have her time with me soon anyway.

 

 

 

Studying pretty much all day for my last final...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: More feeling up Ali. I kissed her too just to annoy Raina. I don't think it worked though hehe.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Just found out my friend from upstate is coming down to visit after finals week. He's brining LSD and I will provide the buds and we will smoke and trip so hard on Dec 21 the tulpapocalypse.

 

 

 

fuck

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 51 14 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Another weird ass fucking dream. Can't even properly explain this one. Raina and Ali were not in it this time around though.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Got a perfect score on my C++ Final!

 

 

 

Officially done with the semester!

 

 

 

Yay!

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Two force sessions. Dealing with feel again.

 

 

 

Day 52 15 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Same thing as yesterday basically.

 

 

 

Day 53 16 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Family get together today. Probably won't be able to force. Cuddled with Raina for a few hours this morning though at least.

 

 

 

Probably won't get to be with Ali today or Raina though for the rest of the day...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

I did get to force for an hour tonight when I got home.

 

 

 

Day 54 17 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Two more forcing sessions today. I should really force even more now that school is over. meh.

 

 

 

I'm pleased with Ali's progress though at this point. I can feel her hair, mane, and limbs quite well now. Just need to work on feeling other parts of her body in real space.

 

 

 

My forcing sessions have been open-eyed as of late and the three of us are using the wonderland less and less as time goes on...

 

 

 

Day 55 18 April 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Found something weird when feeling up Ali. There is an extra bone behind her skull that Raina doesn't have. When I asked her about it, she told me that it was designed to hold the base of her horn into place. It's similar to the bone that dogs have behind their head, only hers was smaller and flat.

 

 

 

The ballad of tripfags with Schizophrenia continues forward...

 

 

 

Raina and I have been talking a lot lately about Christmas, the recent shooting in Conneticut, presents, and generally all other kinds of things. I think the three of us talk more to each other now more than I talk to anybody else. Typically, I no longer reach out to my friends. I can't remember the last time I was the one to start a conversation with a friend (unless I actually happened to see them in real life that is). They reach out to me first. I like it better this way. I can't tell if they're becoming worried about me or if they just hit me up because they are bored and lonely. Raina doesn't seem to care. Whenever I have doubts about things or I think negatively about something for whatever reason, she's always there to reassure me that everything is fine and tells me not to worry. Along with "You should force more." a phrase I feel like I hear much much too often...

 

 

 

As for Ali she's definitely also communicating more with the both of us it seems. I'm beginning to really admire her for who she is. Even though she's much different than Raina, I love her all the same. Sometimes it's like she's even better at cheering me up than Raina is. No offense at all to Raina of course. Note, I said "sometimes". I feel that this log will be coming to a close within the next few weeks as touch imposition with Ali will eventually reach up to the point where it is with Raina...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Oh, and I still have to pick out a gift for Ali!

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: More feeling up Ali. I even felt around the same body parts as Raina at the same time I was feeling up Ali to try and compare the two of them. Much to my surprise, parts of them that should have felt similar felt eerily different. For instance, Raina's mane is much rougher than Ali's. Alis' mane is also shorter and slightly lighter in weight.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 55 19 Dec 2012

 

 

 

Force Session I: Raina made a little miniature city complete with tiny people on the flight deck. The city is modeled after the city I made when I was fucking around on Sim City 4 the other day and it has two freight railroad stations on either side of the city. There's even a highway that leads OFF THE FLIGHT DECK

 

 

 

so basically if anyone tries to leave the city they will fall thousands of feet to their deaths and since the people are less than 0.5cm tall, thats actually a lot more than it seems...

 

 

 

So Raina hasn't started terrorizing the city or anything

 

 

 

not yet anyway

 

 

 

 

 

I can tell she definitely will start though soon... and I will probably watch her doing so and both of us will certainly enjoy ourselves...

 

 

 

Before I left the wonderland today she was licking her lips pressing her face down into the pavement at the citys edge...

 

 

 

Raina even convinced Ali to join in with her when she does start but I begged both of them not to do anything to the city until I came back to the wonderland later...

 

 

 

I don't want to miss a single fucking moment of this...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Force Session II: ...

 

 

 

My bed is covered in jizz. I could go into the details of what had happened during that last force session but words could never describe the way I felt. Long story short: City is gone now, No survivors...

 

 

 

Force Session III: Clean up followed by feeling Ali. Her confidence has skyrocketed these past few days, especially with that last little act of hers. I caught her for the second time today saying "fuck" and while it obviously doesn't bother me, she never used to cuss before...

 

 

 

She's definitely changing somewhat... dont know why or how, but she is...

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Day 57 21 2012

 

 

 

forced three hours yesterday and a half hour today...

 

 

 

will probably force for another hour or so when i get home...

 

 

 

im super high and i havent seen Ali all day, save for the little while i saw her before i went smoking...

 

 

 

i think shes just being lazy and chilling in the wonderland today.

 

 

 

also tulpapocalypse was fake lel

 

 

 

and doing acid tomorrow morning so i will not be logging tomorrow either until later on...