Title:           As I March (Poem)
Author:          Chimeragoose
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First Edit:      Monday 25th of August 2014 05:12:21 PM CDT
Last Edit:       Monday 25th of August 2014 05:12:21 PM CDT

As I march with the rejects,
I find company in the defects.
Those who are not cool enough.
Not pretty enough.
Not strong enough.
Not enough
To fit in.
So I made
This charade
That you see me livin
The new me
Devoid of beauty,
Forged from a memory,
Will incite a mutiny
In all that you see,
So just leave me be.
Told I was wrong,
I kept it hidden for so long.
Everyone telling me I should be hitting the bong,
But I just want to get along.
Want to make sure everyone is happy,
So I'm sorry if I get snappy,
But this world tends to get slap-happy
While I'm fighting everyone else's battles, my own life gets a bit crappy.
I know my story ain't gonna have a happy
Ending,
But I'm done pretending
Done defending
Those that are constantly offending
Because they know that I'll back them up,
And when the time comes, I'm the one to get fucked up.
I know I'm messed up,
But it's time you fessed up.
Time you stepped up.
Now man up.
Stop bitching
And be the change you want to see
But don't listen to me.
The boy who wants to be free.
There's no terminology
For what I want to be.
I'm a poet
I know it.
And I'm gonna show it.
Go ahead and throw your fit.
Tell me I don't mean shit.
That I might as well quit.
And I'll tell you to suck it.
Fuck it.
This is a war.
And I know just what I'm standing for.
That I'm sick of being treated like I have before.
I stand for the boy called fag and the girl called whore.
Just because they were a bore.
To their accusers.
That's right. I'm talking to you, sir.
Don't abuse her, or You're gonna lose your life.
And you, boy.
Cut loose
That noose
'Round you neck.
'Cause I respect
You.
So take a second or two
And think through what you were about to do.
Tell me if it's worth it.
Help me take this person
And nurse him
Back to health and the wealth
That is friends.
A relationship that never ends.
That heals and mends
The scars on your arms
And the scars on your heart.
Help me take this shattered girl and hold her.
Long enough to put the pieces back together.
Never leave her.
Withdrawn and hidden
I've found this hell you live in
Where wrongs are never forgiven
Where thanks are never given.
Awake from your nightmare.
Take a big breath of air,
And become aware
That we all care.
Look to me should you ever need guidance
As we form this permanent alliance.
And we'll show our defiance
To this world that shamed us
Named us
Not as people, but as numbers
As we grow number
To this illusion
This confusion.
Pardon my intrusion
Into this fake-ass dream,
But I'm here to scream
And rip it apart at the seams.
It seems that we've been living a lie
Born to eat, sleep, fuck, and die.
No time to laugh. No time to cry.
Deny me this life.
Call me Cloud Strife
Because this life is a lie
Created by those in charge
So they can be free to barge
In
And shower us in this sin.
I'll put them in my fist
And squish
And twist
With the wrist
As I wring the soul
Out of those who's goal
Is to put us down,
Bury us six feet underground.
Those that screw with out head
Make us wish we were dead
Leave us stuck on the words they said
Make us realize there's no one else in our bed.
But I won't be resigned to this fate.
I know I'm a little late
To the party,
But that's partly
Because your bouncer wanted to card me
Said "you have to be this cool"
I said "Fuck you, you tool.
You're just here to look scary and drool
As you stare at the people in the pool"
While guys like me stand against the wall,
Too nervous to move at all
While the couples are on the dance floor,
I edge closer to the door
Praying for
A way out
No need to shout.
Quit making out.
I'm about
To start running
Before they start gunning
Lined up in their sights
As the lights
Get dim
They almost had him.
By the cuts on his shoulder and the hair on his chinny chin chin.
But he's the only one out to get him.
He'd rather bleed himself dry than
Break down and cry.
His friends know how hard he tries
But have no idea how much he bottles up inside
Sometimes it just explodes
Asking for that which he is owed
But he can't have it.