>be glim glam
>that’s what Anon used to call you
>he has been a filly for a while but lately he is freaking you out
>ever since he found out that Twilight always wanted a filly he started to act like one and fuck her up
>that was like... 3, 4 months ago?
>damn he is an asshole
>thank Celestia you are not Twilight
>but he is acting good, too good
>there he lies on the floor crying after Twilight kicked him (..or her?) out
>yep you are definitely going to visit the Crystal Empire this week
>don’t want to be here while Twilight prepares for her exam or presentation
>whatever Celestia assigned to her
>all you know is that she has been freaking out about it the past month
>and if Anon continues with this shit, the week is going to be hell
>you want nothing of it
>walking closer to Anon you see that …Twilight hit her?!
>wow
“Woah, Anon you should really stop pretending to be a little filly. I think that triggers her badly.”
>this filly
>you wonder if he gets off to making her angry
>whatever, you need sleep
>looking at him makes you feel sad, this just looks too real
>”C-can I sleep with you?” 
>why does he have to include you in his bullshit
“Sorry Anon but I am not into fillies.”
>”I don’t want you to b-be in me. Just on me when we c-cuddle?”
>you laugh
>there he is again
>you almost started to believe he is actually a filly
>but again he is making his sexual jokes
”Maybe when you turn human again”
>probably not, but you like teasing
>“h-human?”
>you walk away to your bedroom
>today was a anon-is-a-damn-good-actor kind of day

>be Starlight Glimmer
>it’s morning and you have to get up, better leave quickly before shit happens
>things are packed already
>you look outside your room
>nobody is there
>good
>rush to the main room
>door is in sight
>”Where are you going?”
>It’s Twilight, of course
> celestiawhyme
“I-I will be in the Crystal Empire this week, didn’t I tell you?”
>you give a fake smile
>”Oh good, could you take Anon with you I can’t stand this little faggot any longer”
>nope.exe
>this is exactly what you have been afraid of
>you need an excuse, a pretty good one
“uhmm..”
>not good, NOT GOOD
>Spike: ”We are on important friendship business there, Anon would leave a bad impression, we cannot risk that”
>suddenly Spike
>you look at Twilight, hopefully she will believe it
>”Friendship business, how come I have not heard of this?”
>shit she is not buying it
>Spike: “Celestia didn’t want to bother you, after all..you got a big assignment”
>he has a grin on his face
>Twilight freezes as she hears this
>good work Spike
>Spike: “Alright we gotta go, you better get back to your stuff too”
>he drags you outside
>wait we??
“Ohhh I see…clever”
>Spike: ”I know right”
“Fine you can come with me, but only because you saved my ass back there”
>Spike: “You are welcome”
>he grins again, devious little dragon.
>freedom here you come

>be Twilight Sparkle
>friendship business your ass, they are just trying to get away
>and who can blame them
>you had no good sleep in weeks and losing it over Anons bullshit
>she is probably not awake yet
>it always bothered her when you used female terms
>sadly it seems she got used to it
>won’t stop you, maybe it still drives her crazy inside
>you hope so
>better get to work
>one more week left and you only got half of your things done
>you make your way to the library
>as long as that idiot is not awake yet you can work in peace
>after an hour of work your stomach starts to grumble
>haven’t had breakfast yet
>Anon is usually also awake at this time
>you hope she hasn’t already started to cause chaos
>you make your way to the kitchen
>time for some…
>there she sits
>ugggghhhhhhhhhh
>”Mom?”
>you try to not show how it bothers you that she calls you mom, but she knows
>you have long ago concluded that this human cannot be helped
>she thinks you are still searching for a way to turn her back
>fuck that
>would only be worse if she is human again
>”Mom? I am hungry”
>she looks at you with that sad filly look
>usually Spike prepares food and it would be done by now
“Spike and Starlight went to the Crystal Empire for the week”
>”Can you make me something to eat?”
>what
>that fuck wants you to be her personal maid
”I am not your fucking maid, make your own food”
>you take a sandwich from yesterday out of the fridge and slam the door shut
>calm down, just ignore her
>you get out of the kitchen
>Anon won’t ruin this day too
>no not today

>you are Anon and Mom is shouting at you again
>fear and sadness is taking over your body
>tears follow soon
>she doesn’t like it when you cry
>you try your best to hold the tears back in hope to not anger her further
>a sudden noise startles you
>Mom slammed the door of the fridge shut, she must be really angry with you
>but you should have known better
>Mom was right
>you know she is busy now and you are not allowed to bother her
>why did you have to bother her?
>she has left
>time to be a big filly and make food
>Mom always wants you to be a big filly
>whenever you can’t use the grown up words she gets angry
>now you will proof to her that you are no longer a child
>you will cook for Mommy and then she will love you
>sounds like a good plan
>Mommy likes to make plans, she is very smart
>one day you want to be as smart as her
>but first you have to make food
>searching through all that is available, you can’t find much in the first place
>but there is noodles and you know how to make them
>put them in hot water and wait a little
>you can do that
>the stove is quite high but if you stand on your hooves you can reach it just enough to put the pot on it
>Mommy would be disappointed in you already
>you haven’t planned this out good enough
>how will you put the noodles in or the water for that matter
>chair it is

>you won’t be able to carry the pot from the sink back here though
>but you have thought about that as well
>filling up a glass, taking it to the pot, filling up another…
>this is starting to bore you, but that’s ok, it’s worth it
>eventually the pot is full and the time has come to turn on the stove
>a couple numbers are available, you know that the higher number means hotter
>you want it very hot and fast, so the highest number it is
>you put the noodles in, or was it after it is hot? It probably doesn’t matter
>now it is time to wait
>every minute you take a look in the pot
>still nothing, this is incredible boring
>you could prepare the table in the meanwhile, yes!
>glasses, plates, forks, you put them all on the table, this is going to be great
>zish~ zish~
>wait what’s that?
>the water is splashing on the stove
>oh no, oh no, quickly you turn it off and all seems to go well
>crisis averted
>the noodles must be ready, time to take them to the sink and….
>ohhhhh no, you didn’t think about that, you can’t carry the pot away


>ask Mommy?
>No she would get angry again, also it would ruin the surprise
>you can do this on your own, you are a big filly after all
>you crawl up the seat once more and slowly move the pot to the edge of the stove
>carefully you try to lift it up and to your surprise it is not as heavy as you expected
>finally you managed to accomplish something
>proudly you present your chestfluff to the world like a pegasus would
>this would be a great moment if it wasn’t for the burning sensation that grew stronger on your hooves
>you underestimated how hot the pot would be and it quickly gets too painful to handle
“AH!”
>you let go of the pot and watch as it falls on the edge of the stove and crash on the ground below you
>the sudden crash startles you and makes you stumble back
>just like the pot before, you fall to the ground
>another scream fills the air as your flank hits the burning hot water
>with a quick jump you make your way to safety
>tears forming in your eyes as the burning pain on your flank continues 
>but your mind has its interest on something way worse than the pain
>you hear Mom coming, she must have heard you screaming
>no, no, no, NO

>”What is goin-“
>she is standing at the door with a shocked expression on her face
>all you can do is return it
>Mommy will hurt you…you close your eyes in fear of what is to come
>”WHAT IN THE NAME OF CELESTIA DID YOU DO”
“I..I wanted t-to cook l..l..like you said”
>don’t cry
>don’t cry
>you are crying
>”Oh fucking great! So that’s your idea of punishing me for not making your food!?”
>Mom starts cleaning up the mess you made with her magic
“I-I am sorry”
>”Yeah you better fucking be”
>you need to explain it, maybe she will understand
“I t-tried to- b-but it was hot and then i-it fell and..and-“
>she is ignoring you
>you keep silent with your head lowered in shame as you watch Mommy clean

>a few minutes go by and you are surprised as to how calm she is
>maybe today won’t be so bad after all
>but you are still hungry and you surely won’t attempt another cooking
“M-Mom, could you maybe cook for us?”
>a strong slap to the face reminds you of one thing
>Do. Not. Bother. Mommy.
>Why did you have to bother her
>”YOU DON’T KNOW WHEN TO STOP ANON DO YOU?”
>you want to say something but fear keeps your mouth shut
>”You know what…if you think it is so funny to waste food just to have your way then you won’t get any at all”
>why did you have to be a stupid filly and bother her again, why why why
>Mom walks out of the kitchen, her magic pulling on your hair to force you with her
>your struggling against it made you fall and now you are being dragged on the floor by the magic
“It hurts! It hurts!”
>”That’s the point”
>thankfully you soon reach the destination that Mommy had in mind, your room
>she throws you inside and you can hear the door lock behind you

>you lay down on the bed, you just need to sleep, then the hunger will go away
>the sadness will go away
>sleep was the only time of the day you really looked forward to
>you could dream, dream of a world in which somepony loved you
>you hug your pillow close
>it feels good
>you wish somepony would hug you
>a tear falls on the pillow 
>anger is taking over where sadness once was
>you are getting angry at yourself for crying, just like mommy would
>why do you have to be sad, it is stupid, you have to be a strong filly
>you have to be strong like mommy wants you to be
>you do not need cuddles! you do not need hugs!
>the pillow flies across the room and hits the wall
>you don’t need this pillow
>it feels cold…empty
>anger fades away as quickly as it came and only sadness is left once more
>it was all lies…

>you need cuddles, you need hugs
>you press the bed sheet tight to your chest, pretending it to be the pillow
>all of your strength has left and only a sad, lonely filly remains
>silent sobs fill the room, your sheet slowly getting wet from your tears
>what have you done to deserve this
>you really try to be a good filly, you REALLY TRY
>but no matter what you do, mommy always hates you
>she always tells you how horrible you are and how you ruined her life
>you can’t take this anymore
>you wish you could just throw yourself in front of a truck and end it
>
>your mind goes blank for a moment
>your shake your head
>huh…? 
>…
>what is a truck?
>you give it no further thought and start to focus on your wonderful fantasies
>a world in which you have a mom that loves you
>where you can go to school like the other kids and play outside
>and get cuddles every day…
>*grumble*
>…and not be hungry

>you are Starlight Glimmer on your way to the Crystal Empire
>it has been a few hours and a few more to come until you will arrive
>the ride went well so far
>good thing you brought some books to read
>currently on your list: 101 spells with unforeseen side effects
>maybe you can impress Twilight with some of the knowledge
>so far you know most of it already
>but let’s see, after all you are only at spell 17
>”Starlight..?”
>you look up to see Spike with a strangely sad expression on his face
“Hmm?”
>”I think we shouldn’t have left”
>oh boy here we go
“Why do you think so?
>”We are supposed to be good friends to Twilight but we left her all alone even though she has important work”
>he has a point, unfortunately
>”We should have taken Anon with us, that’s what friends are supposed to do”
“Well…”
>he is right
>fuck
“we are already on our way, let’s stay at least a day or so..”
>what were you supposed to do now
>turn back?
>ugh why did he have to guilt trip you
“Couldn’t you have thought about that in the beginning…”
>you two keep staring at each other for a while
>both a face of disappointment at your own actions
>that means more friendship studies for you

>hunger wakes you up
>you look out the window, still day
>no idea how long you have been asleep but you are painfully hungry
>hopefully Mommy unlocked the door
>you slowly make your way to the door, gently trying to open it
>better not let her hear or see you
>it’s open
>you feel relief but also fear
>now you have to go outside there
>Mommy would surely be angry if she saw you
>but you have to go, your stomach hurts too much from the hunger
>slowly, carefully, silently you make your way to the kitchen
>always checking your surroundings
>the kitchen is clean except some..FOOD!
>Mommy must have prepared something
>the clock reveals to you the reason why
>it is already past midday
>you slept through half of the day
>so tempting
>but you are not allowed food, that’s what Mommy said
>you have to apologize
>as you make your way to Mommy’s study room, fear begins to grow stronger and stronger
>what would you say, what if she didn’t like it
>you have learned it multiple times already
>never bother Mommy
>but the hunger…
>you come to a quick halt almost walking face first in the door
>you are here already
>standing there, thinking about what to say
>you heart racing, your body shacking
>you have to do it, now or never
>very gently you open the door, sneaking inside
>Mommy is not here
>the courage you had built up to go inside left and now you are scared again
>what should you do now?
>pen and paper…yes that’s it
>you will write an apology letter to her
>but you have to be quick before she comes back
>you take Mommy’s quill and put it in the ink
>your nervousness did the writing no good, it looks horrible
>but you can’t help it
>suddenly your ears catch noises from outside
>oh no, could that be Mommy?
>quick, you need to finish it
>no more ink on the quill
>put it in
>take it-
>*clank*
>it was at this moment that little filly knew
>she fucked up
>
>even if the universe lost all its heat, it would not be as frozen as you are right now
>the ink bottle fell over
>it’s running all over the desk
>over what seems to be…Mommy’s work?
>your heart skips a beat
>is that really the end of you?
>ink?
>you wanted to write an apology letter to Mommy
>instead you sealed a contract with death
>why? What universal force hated you so much?
>or was it simply you?
>is that why everyone hated you?
>are the things Mommy said true?
>you hear the door open
>you want to ask god why
>the fear you feel at this moment is much more than one filly should be capable of feeling
>even breathing is difficult at this point
>you want to run, cry, scream but all you do is stand there
>”What did you-“
>Mommy pushes you away and looks at what you did
>still frozen, all you can do is look at her, waiting for your punishment
>you need to say something, SOMETHING
“I-it-“
>before you can say even a word Mommy’s magic forces your mouth shut
>finally the tears start to form as your fear grows and grows
>now you have only your noise to breathe through and it is not pleasant
>”How could you do that..”
>Mommy’s voice is quiet, sad
>it scares the shit out of you
>you need to run, hide but her magic still has a grip on your muzzle
>she starts walking out of the room, taking you with her
>”you are the worst creature I have ever met, I tried to help you, teach you the magic of friendship and all you do is torture me”
>you both reach the front door
>she throws you out
>you can see tears in her eyes
>”I don’t care anymore what Celestia or anybody else thinks, you can burn in tartarus for all I care”
>”you are a disgusting, horrible, piece of shit, fuck off and don’t dare to come back”
>she slams the door shut

>”Next Stop…The Crystal Empire!”
>huh...what?
>apparently you fell asleep
>Spike shakes you
>”We are here Starlight!”
>that was quick
>you grab your things, and put the book-
>whoops! Almost forgot where you stopped.
>you take another look at it, Spell 50, halfway, nice
>you close it and put it in your bag
>time to visit your friends in the Crystal Empire

>another night, different castle
 >your sleep was wonderful and even though Spike made you feel bad yesterday for abandoning Twilight, today you will enjoy to the fullest
>no Anon, no Twilight, no friendship lessons, today will be all about you
>Cadence even had her own servants, so breakfast will be served
>but you still have one hour until that’s going to happen
>excellent time to learn more about magic
>picking up where you left off yesterday
>spell 51 wasn’t very interesting, nothing you didn’t know already
>spell 52, momentum obliviscimini, hey you know that one!
>it makes the affected one forget the last thing they saw
>Twilight used it on Anon some time ago when he accidentally walked into her room during one of her…private moments
>this spell has a side effect?
>an uneasiness fills the room as your brain flashes some thoughts into existence
>surely this is nothing Twilight wouldn’t know about, she knows everything
>your curiosity builds up quickly and you glance over the pages to find that one interesting part you are looking for
>’…in case the affected one’s appearance does not represent his own…’
>you gulp, this hopefully won’t say what you expect now
>yadda yadda…known cases…
>changelings transformed started to believe they are the pony..!?
>what what what
>there is no way that this is the fucking side effect, how could you not know that, how can Twilight not know that!?
>you continue reading as hundred thoughts rush through your brain, trying to warn you what the implication of that meant
>documented cases are only 3 and they all involve changelings, how could that be a side effect??
>and then you reached that one sentence that would give you what you felt was missing
>…only works if the affected plays the role on their own free will…
>Anon was pretending to be the little filly to get on Twilights nerves
>without knowing…he BECAME the little filly
>you close the book and lay it down
>your body trembling
>ok Starlight, you can do this, let’s not lose it now
>if Twilight truly didn’t know that and this is what you very much expect, then she will not take it easy
>this is not going to end well…
>first things first, you need to get back to ponyville as fast as possible.
>
>you had luck that you knew Cadence, with her help and a worried Spike you were on your way to Ponyville in no time but even the fastest train would take you a couple hours.
>a couple of long agonizing hours
>it gave you enough time to think about how you would approach this
>at least you would like to think that it was enough time
>unfortunately as you arrive in ponyville, you still don’t have a solid plan
>during your ride back you told Spike about your discovery, and made him contact Celestia just in case
>you have no idea how Twilight will react and you don’t want to deal with whatever happens alone
>once you find yourself infront of the castle though, nervousness rises and celestia still hasn’t arrived
>should you do it alone or wait for her to arrive? 
>”Uhh, Starlight?”
>You shake your thoughts off, no need to overthink this now
>You walk in, followed by Spike
> “Back so soon already?”
>Right away you are greeted by Twilight with a smug grin on her face and a cup of coffee floating next to her
>”The ‘friendship business’ all done?”
“Heh..yeah about that…”
“There wasn’t..really any friendship business”
>Twilight does nothing more than letting out a little chuckle
>”Yeah I figured, no big though, all forgiven. I get why you wanted to get out for a bit”
>she acts a lot calmer than usual, a bit too calm
“Yeah uh..about that, say where is Anon?”
>”I kicked her out”
>for a moment you can only do so much as to stand there in shock
“W-WHAT!?”
>”I had enough”
>the smile on her face is disturbing, what the fuck are you supposed to do now
“When? WHY?”

>you are gone for one fucking day and this happens
>Twilight gives you a brief explanation of what happened
>what you hear brings chills down your spine
>you give spike a little signal to leave the room and thankfully he gets it
>don’t want to have the poor guy in the middle of this
>now you just have to jump into the cold water
“Twilight…uhm..I was reading a book on my way to Canterlot, ‘101 spells with unforeseen side effects’”
>”Oh yeah I know that, it’s pretty good, isn’t it?”
>wait what
“Y-you know it?”
>she just gives you a friendly nod
“Do you remember spell 52? Momentum obliviscimini.”
>”Yes of course”
“And do you remember the side effect?”
>she gives it a little thought before replying
>”Hmm..the thing with the changelings, right? Why are you asking?”
“Do you remember when you used it on Anon?”
>”Yes but what does-“

>in an instant she freezes completely, the magic she had on the cup vanished, letting it fall to the ground
>the scene unfolding before you reminds you of those cliceé movies or badly written stories
>her body now visibly shacking, she takes a few steps backwards as if she was scared from you
>she falls on her back still slowly pushing herself away is if trying to flee from something
>”NO!”
>you can see tears forming and hear breath building up to a point you fear she might start hyperventilating
“Twilight…”
>”NO! IT’S NOT TRUE!”
>you run over to her and embrace her in a hug, in response she starts frantically struggling
>”ANON IS NOT A REAL FILLY!”
>she keeps repeating it over and over again as if in hope that it would eventually become the truth
>at some point she simply starts screaming
>Spike rushes in, alarmed by the noise but quickly understands what is happening
>you try your best to hold her as tight as possible but it turns out to be harder than you expect
>you are not sure if she is actually trying to free herself from you or just struggles for the sake of it
>all in a sudden Twilight stops and it startles you for a moment to have her be completely still
>”W..we must find her, s-she has been out there all night”
>her magic throws you back hard and she shoots out, you try your best to keep up but she eventually runs out of your sight and into town
>and just like that you sit alone in front of  the castle, not for long though as you can see Celestia walking up to you with 2 guards by her side