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  My name is Kevin Randle. 
          Moving back home after several years was tough. I had set up a decent office job after
 I'd gotten out of college and had what I thought was a
 pretty happy life. I had money in the bank, a nice car,
 a decent condo and a girlfriend I thought I was madly
 in love with. It's funny how things change.
 I just recently broke up with 
          my girlfriend, Sarah. She'd be cheating on me with her personal trainer and
 had been doing so for almost six months. We'd only been
 together for a year and she was cheating on me for half
 of that time.
 I was suspicious of her activities 
          for most of those six months. Unbeknownst to me, all my suspicions had
 been right. The late night cell phone calls for Sarah,
 the girls' night outs that she supposedly had with her
 friends, the change in attitude and behavior. It didn't
 take a genius to figure out something was going on. I
 happened to go by her parents' house one day when they
 were away when I couldn't get a hold of Sarah on her
 phone. She had told me she was going to the gym but I
 saw her car outside her parents' house along with a car
 I had recognized as her trainer's. I knew what was
 going on inside and didn't bother to push the matter
 any further.
 I went back to our place and 
          packed up as much of my belongings I could fit in my Suburban and decided to
 call my parents to see if I could come home for awhile
 to figure out what I was going to do over the next few
 months to get back on my feet. They were ecstatic. They
 were out of the country on an extended vacation and had
 left my younger sister, Katie, at home where she'd been
 for the last two months.
 They actually gave a nineteen 
          year old girl access to a joint checking account with them and gave her a monthly
 allowance to live off of. My parents were well off
 financially so that really wasn't a big surprise, nor
 was it a surprise they trusted Katie so much. I knew
 her all my life and she was as trustworthy as a person
 could get. You could leave a truck full of money parked
 outside the house and if Katie were to find it, she'd
 call the police instead of pocketing the loot.
 My parents thought it would 
          be great that I could come home to give Katie some company as well as keep an eye
 on her and make sure she was safe. I agreed to
 accommodate them as they wholeheartedly agreed to let
 me come back home and stay as long as I wanted. In the
 middle of packing my stuff away, Sarah happened to come
 back home, sans her walking penis, AKA her trainer. I
 guess he was all fucked out and decided to go home.
 Sarah was, obviously, stunned 
          by what she found. She ran up to me as I was tossing in a suitcase, my car
 already almost full, and hysterically asked for an
 explanation. Surprisingly, I was completely calm. I
 simply told her that I knew what was happening and that
 it was alright. I knew she didn't need it by now, since
 her affair had been going on for many months, but I
 gave her my blessing.
 By now she was in tears and 
          begged me not to leave, but I could practically smell the sex on her, even if she'd
 probably showered thoroughly after her recent session,
 which couldn't have been longer than a few hours ago. I
 couldn't let that pass and had to stay adamant and
 strong. I kept packing the car, looking for the last
 bits of things I had yet to pack.
 As I went back into the house, 
          Sarah tailed me closely, still crying and desperately trying to keep me from
 leaving. Still calm as the wind, I just put my hand on
 her cheek and told her that we'd be alright and that I
 hope she'd be happy from then on. My heart sank when I
 said those words but I knew they had to be said. By
 now, I'm sure she was thinking back to every time she
 had been fucked by her trainer, every time she'd
 knowingly deceived me and kept her secrets, and how all
 those secrets were now coming to the surface and that
 she couldn't hide from them.
 Sarah hadn't a clue where my 
          parents' house was, which was about 150 miles from our condo. I had already
 changed my cell phone number and given it only to my
 closest friends I'd made in town in the two years I'd
 lived there. I knew that once I left, she wouldn't be
 able to contact me. She still begged and pleaded but I
 knew the ultimate truth: I'd found a pregnancy test
 that she'd cleverly buried deep in the trash. It was
 positive.
 I knew that I wasn't the result 
          of that positive because we'd only had sex maybe twice in the last few
 months and I'd worn a condom both times and she'd had
 her period after the last time we had sex, so she had
 to have had sex with her trainer after her last period
 and didn't bother to make the guy wear protection.
 Either that or she fucked someone else I don't know
 about without protection. It wasn't my problem, though,
 thankfully and was completely guilt-free.
 I told her that I knew she was 
          pregnant and that made her freeze up immediately. Her eyes became sharp and
 focused, her breathing stopped, her trembling and
 crying halted. She just stared at me, knowing she
 wouldn't be able to talk her way out of it. I placed my
 hand on her face again and wished her luck with the
 father and hoped that the baby would be healthy.
 Tears were streaming down her 
          face as she looked down, sinking in shame. I still loved her but her crimes
 against me were unforgivable. I had to stay the course
 and sever ties between us.
 My car fully packed and almost 
          nothing left behind, anything of importance anyways. I turned away from
 Sarah for the last time and got into my car and drove
 away. As I drove away, I glanced at my rearview mirror
 and saw her standing in the driveway, face still aimed
 at the ground. I could tell already she was increasing
 in weight from the child that was growing inside her,
 the child that wasn't mine.
 I have to admit that I cried 
          on the way home. The nearly three-hour drive was arduous emotionally. I
 spent the whole time thinking of the year I'd spent
 with Sarah. All of the good times and bad, all of the
 times we'd made love, and argued, then made up by
 making love. All the movies we watched together, all
 the meals we shared, the conversations. It was all
 over.
 Then I realized that about half 
          of the memories I'd had of us were during the time she had spent a good time of
 time on her back, another man pleasuring her and
 eventually filling her womb with his child. All the
 memories I'd ever shared with Sarah were tainted and no
 longer contained any sentiment. It would take time, but
 I knew that emotionally, I could be free of her.
 On the way home, I also thought 
          of mom and dad, and of Katie and how they were going to be as big a part of my
 life as they were before I left home for college. My
 parents, who were retired, had done well in the stock
 market and, because of this, traveled. They traveled a
 lot. It was pretty pointless that they even owned a
 house. The vacation rentals they stayed at when they
 were away were more permanent than the house that just
 seemed to serve as their 'rest home' or 'temporary
 transition zone' before jetting off to a new adventure.
 Coming back home at twenty-two 
          could be something to be ashamed of, but I didn't feel ashamed. Everyone faces
 situations beyond their control and sometimes need help
 and I was no different. Thankfully, my parents were
 painfully and eternally generous people and would
 always be willing to open their doors again, even if
 they had to open them from many thousands of miles
 away, to their son.
 I'd felt a bit guilty at asking 
          for help, but then I realized how well off my parents were and how little
 use they were getting out of the house and how much
 their state of financial security allowed them to
 encourage me to come home again. This helped the folks
 two-fold. Firstly, it made them feel better that their
 son was safe and sound, and secondly it made it
 convenient that someone, namely me, could now be around
 more to keep an eye on my sister, Katie.
 It was weird because Katie and 
          I were brother and sister, had the same parents, were both half Asian/half
 Caucasian, but we didn't really look alike. If you had
 to pick us out of a crowd, you'd never think we were
 related. My hair was naturally light brown, my skin a
 bit naturally tanned, and I kind of looked like a mix
 of mom and dad, facial feature-wise, whereas Katie had
 lighter skin, much darker hair and didn't really look
 like mom or dad.
 She looked considerably more 
          Asian than I did. Her eyes were darker, whereas mine were like my hair, light
 brown, even though we were of the same ethnic makeup.
 She could probably pass as full-blooded to someone who
 didn't know her. To sum her up physically, if actress
 Rachel Leigh Cook gained about ten pounds and was
 Asian, she'd be Katie. She was super cute.
 We were always pretty close 
          growing up. Strangely, we never were really at odds for any extended period of
 time. It was actually kind of boring because we never
 fought. We were always congenial and comfortable around
 each other. She never really got on my nerves and I can
 only assume I never got on hers. She was always in a
 cheerful, yet reserved mood around me. Pleasant,
 upbeat, yet not overly enthusiastic, possibly even shy.
 It always seemed like when she was force a smile, she
 actually wanted to smile, but was shy to let on that
 she wanted to smile. It was sometimes strange to
 behold, albeit cute and adorable.
 Katie was a bit of a homebody. 
          She had friends and talked on the phone occasionally but she was so far
 from the atypical teenaged girl. You'd never catch her
 rolling around on her bed, chewing loudly on gum while
 yakking nonsensically on the phone about unimportant
 bullshit with some equally typical teenaged girl about
 what boys they thought were cute.
 She was usually pretty quiet 
          and kept to herself but when she did speak up, she was always soft-spoken, kind
 and sincere and as if she was generally interested in
 everything you had to say. It was quite refreshing to
 talk to someone who made you feel like you existed. I
 think that's why I always got along with Katie. She was
 hard not to get along with.
 Strangely, even though she was 
          quite cute, she never seemed to bring a lot of attention out of other men.
 Just on looks alone, she could definitely be the kind
 of girl that got guys looking but she never seemed
 interested in that kind of attention. She was a bit
 shorter than me, around 5'2" and was a bit shapely, she
 had a few extra pounds of baby fat on her, but that
 sort of added to her personality of not being overtly
 provocative. She was like a shadow, blending in with
 her background, never drawing attention to herself.
 In public she was always quiet, 
          reserved and never dressed provocatively. She was a jeans and t-shirt kind
 of girl and it was equally nice to know that on top of
 being genuinely sweet, she wasn't a whore, like
 millions of other girls her age. I had respect for her
 and cared for her not just as her brother, but as a
 human being.
 Secretly though, I always had 
          this strange thought that would float into my mind that I would question later,
 then feel guilty about the honestly inquisitive nature
 of the question, which was thinking of how 'hot' she
 could look if she wore some short shorts and a small
 top, along with some makeup. Then the voice in my head
 would do a double take, be aghast at the thought, slap
 itself, slap me, and pull my mind out of the strange
 haze that was the state of mind where I would
 pontificate about such things.
 I don't think it was a thought 
          of sexual curiosity; it was more about me being puzzled how a girl that was
 really a diamond in the rough hadn't caught the
 attention of bunches of guys who would fight for her
 affections. She was really almost too good to be true,
 and then I realized how glad I was to be her brother
 and to have her in my life.
 When I pulled up to the house, 
          it looked the same way it did the last time I visited. I went up and rung the
 doorbell, Katie opened the door. I was greeted by that
 cute smile and a big, firm hug. She looked like she'd
 just got out of bed, wearing pajama pants and a
 tanktop, but was still unbearably cute. She helped me
 unload my car and after several hours of unpacking, I
 settled in.
 *** After a few days, the pain of 
          my separation from Sarah had really settled in. I was pretty much drowning in
 depression. I didn't want to feel that way but I
 couldn't help it. Even through all of the things she'd
 made me endure, the loss of our relationship was
 painful. I found myself moping around the house
 constantly. I ate little, slept less and spent most of
 my time lying in bed.
 I think Katie noticed it because 
          I was less social than usual. I don't know if she expected me to be all smiles
 and bouncing-off-the-walls-playful with her when I came
 back but I was hardly cheerful. I tried to be, but it
 was hard. I couldn't mask the pain as much as I wanted
 to, so I figured if I couldn't mask the pain fully, I
 wouldn't bother trying at all.
 Shy as she was, Katie couldn't 
          bear to confront me about it. She would walk past my door sometimes and
 peek in at me, but timidly keep walking without
 uttering a word. Or she'd be in the kitchen getting
 something to eat and I'd be at the kitchen table
 nibbling on a sandwich, my mind focused on thoughts of
 Sarah and she'd walk by and sneak a peek at my face,
 but she could tell my body was present but my mind was
 elsewhere.
 I glanced up at her just quickly 
          enough to gauge that she was concerned, but didn't make any effort to make
 it clear that I was emotionally distraught. I'd simply
 glance up, not flashing a fake smile or any discernible
 emotion and would return to pecking at my meal. She
 usually seemed disappointed in my lack of initiative
 and would turn her eyes to the ground as she made her
 way past me and into her room.
 Finally, one morning, I was 
          sitting at the breakfast table eating cereal when Katie shuffled over in her
 slightly-too-long PJs and sat down across from me with
 a bowl of cereal of her own. I smiled politely at her
 in an artificially genuine way and she smiled back,
 hers was one of concern and warmth.
 "So, did you sleep well?" 
          she asked softly. I felt like my body was creaking, 
          my joints tight and tense from my growingly depressed state that I was
 afraid to move, afraid that Katie would hear my muscles
 wrench and would be alerted to my shoddy physical
 condition. I shrugged my shoulders slightly and tried
 my hardest to answer without my voice cracking. "I
 slept ok. You?"
 "I slept good." 
          She answered awkwardly, tucking a tuft of hair behind her ear while slouching over her bowl of
 cereal.
 Several minutes slowly rolled 
          by when Katie abruptly spoke again, breaching the dead silence. "So, what's
 been up your butt since you came home?"
 I looked up at her, knowing 
          my cover had been blown. It was no use to try and dance around the issue or play it
 out as if she'd never make the initiative to coax the
 truth out of me, because she had. "What do you mean?"
 She still came off as harmless, 
          never making a sudden movement as she prodded me, still hovering over her
 bowl of cereal, her eyes alternating from the table, to
 mine. Even though I should've felt nervous, I didn't.
 She was too innocent to make my privacy feel
 threatened.
 "You know what I mean." 
          She said. "I don't, really." She seemed to struggle with 
          pushing forward in her attempt to draw the truth from me. She wasn't used to
 being assertive and it showed. She made a face like she
 was trying to figure out some deeply complex
 mathematical equation. "Well, you've been pretty much
 moping around the house ever since you got here. You
 haven't gone out or even talked to me much. I'm just
 worried for you, that's all."
 I thought it was such a sweet 
          gesture. I felt ashamed that I couldn't trust her enough with my feelings to
 tell her before. I looked down, searching for a way to
 ease her an answer. "I don't know, just been thinking
 about a lot, that's all. Just had a lot on my mind."
 She seemed only partially content 
          by my vagueness. She wasn't completely satisfied but didn't seem to want to
 push the issue either. She didn't want to tread on
 ground I wasn't comfortable with. I saw the lack of
 total contentment on her face and knew I couldn't leave
 it at that. I hoped she'd find the courage to feed her
 curiosity.
 "I know I'm not a relationship 
          expert, but if something's wrong, you can talk to me about it. I am
 your sister." She said.
 "I didn't want to come 
          here and bother you with all my problems."
 "Hey..." she said. 
          "...I just don't want you to keep everything inside. You can talk to me."
 It felt nice to know that someone 
          cared about me. Actually cared about how I felt. "Just had some
 problems with Sarah..."
 "Oh..." she said 
          softly, fearing she'd forced me to confront something I wasn't strong enough for.
 I drummed up the courage to 
          tell her. "Umm, we kind of broke up. Well, I broke up with her..."
 Katie looked at me with eyes 
          so calming that I felt at home where nothing could hurt me, regardless of how
 painful the memories were. "...I found out she'd been
 cheating on me. She got pregnant too. She didn't know I
 knew. So I left."
 She looked almost as anguished 
          as I was. "I'm so sorry."
 "It's okay. Time heals 
          all wounds, right?" She smiled and I realized how 
          fortunate I was to have her in my life.
 I spent the next few days dragging 
          through the house, sluggish and anemic. I'd go from the kitchen to the
 bedroom, spending most of my day lying nearly comatose
 in bed, watching lackadaisical as infomercial after
 infomercial plugged along. I never cracked a smile or
 showed any evidence of consciousness, save for my open
 eyes.
 I noticed Katie walking by my 
          door every few hours and peeking in, but she never made the initiative to enter.
 Part of me felt guilty that I wasn't more hospitable
 and brotherly, but the rest of me was too emotionally
 and physically sapped to put forth the effort to
 apologize or invite her in.
 I was usually glad when I'd 
          notice her shadow stop momentarily at my door and then move away because I
 didn't have to face up to the questions she'd
 undoubtedly ask. Questions about Sarah, about what I
 was going to do next, about when I was going to snap
 out of my stupor. I just didn't feel like doing
 anything but soaking in my misery. I wasn't in the mood
 for any human interaction.
 It was a cool Wednesday night 
          and I was settled in my usual place: lying lazily on my bed, wrapped in
 blankets and staring listlessly at the television.
 Peripherally, I noticed Katie once more orbit past my
 door, checking in on me, no doubt, but this time,
 instead of leaving after a few moments, she wandered
 in.
 I laid there, giving no reaction 
          to her having entered. Without moving my head, I scanned my eyes over at her
 and found her standing there, inconspicuously watching
 my TV. After about a minute, though, she walked past
 the TV to the side of the bed my head was and sat
 Indian-style on the floor. She looked up at me and
 noticed my eyes were open. She seemed surprised.
 "Oh, I didn't know you 
          were awake. I thought I'd come in here and check in on you. I hope I didn't wake you
 up." She said.
 "No, you didn't. I've 
          been awake for awhile." "Every time I've walked 
          by your room, you've been in the same position. You've been laying like that since
 you woke up?" she chuckled.
 "Yeah." I said lazily, 
          no emotion on my face, eyes still trained on the TV.
 Katie seemed to think for a 
          few seconds, thoughts stirring in her head. "Do you want me to leave?"
 "It's ok, you can stay." 
          My voice sounded like I was ill, but I wasn't physically ill, but my emotional
 fatigue had shown and Katie realized it.
 "Is... is it ok if I sit 
          here?" she asked hesitantly. For the first time in hours, 
          I lifted my head and, feeling the muscles stretch and creak inside my body, I
 looked over my shoulder seeing the other side of the
 bed vacant, so I slid over to the vacant end. "You can
 sit on the bed if you want, since I don't have any
 chairs in here."
 Her eyes seemed to light up 
          as she slowly stood and carefully sat on the bed. "Ok, thanks. I'll try not to
 crowd you."
 "I don't see how you 
          could. You couldn't weight more than, what, 100?" I asked, my voice still stuffy and
 muffled, my eyes blank and humorless.
 She smiled nervously as she 
          sat there, almost blushing, her legs pulled up to her chest. "Hmm, actually, I
 think I weight closer to 112 or 115."
 For the first time, I actually 
          forgot about Sarah. My eyebrows rose. I didn't think she weighed that much,
 which really wasn't much at all. "Really?"
 "Yeah, why?" she 
          asked, tucking strands of hair behind her ear.
 "I don't know. You look 
          like you weigh less than that." "Ohh, ok." She said 
          with a perky smile, seemingly flattered.
 After about fifteen minutes 
          of silence, she spoke up. "Have you been feeling ok?"
 It took me a few seconds to 
          respond. "I've been ok, I guess."
 "You just haven't seemed 
          yourself lately. I know everything that happened with... what's her name, but
 I've just been worried is all."
 "Thanks. I think I'll 
          be ok." "Is it ok if I visit you 
          from time to time? Or do you want to be left alone?"
 "Umm, no, you can stay 
          if you want." I said. Over the next week, Katie became 
          a constant tenant in my room. After the first few days, she didn't bother to
 ask if she could come in and stay with me, and I didn't
 care that she didn't ask. For the first time in awhile,
 I actually enjoyed the company.
 Katie didn't pressure me with 
          questions, or prodded me to open up with my emotions. She just kept me company,
 showed me that someone truly cared for me, and let me
 deal with my internal conflicts in my own way. She
 merely was there for me in case I wanted to open up. To
 me, she was like a safety net, there to catch me when I
 needed to be caught.
 I felt completely comfortable 
          having her around. She'd usually just sit next to me on the bed, her knees
 pulled up to her chest, her arms wrapped around her
 legs, smiling and laughing as we watched cartoons or
 funny movies. I even smiled once or twice. Ok, I lied;
 I actually started smiling a lot. I still wasn't ready
 to leave the confines and safety of the blanket, but I
 was loosening up.
 After a couple of weeks, I'd 
          become so comfortable with having Katie around that the scars from Sarah's
 betrayal had begun to heal. I'd even kicked off the
 blanket! Now, I'd usually lie casually on the bed, on
 my side. I was now smiling and laughing more than I
 ever had since I came home. Katie made the transition
 back into normalcy easier by being my constant
 companion, there for me when I needed an ear to listen
 to me, a voice other than my own to listen to, a
 presence just to keep me company.
 It was strange being in the 
          company of another girl and having Sarah almost out of my mind. If Katie wasn't my
 sister, she'd make an ideal mate, for me, anyways. We
 were highly compatible and almost always got along
 really well. Only someone as sweet as her could have me
 feeling so good so soon based on what I'd gone through,
 and I don't even think Katie realized the effect she
 had on me.
 I'd glance up at her sometimes 
          as she watched TV in my room, watching her smile and laugh. She was caught up
 in being with me like when we were younger and
 practically connected at the hip. She was completely
 oblivious to how she was affecting me. I appreciated
 that she was just there and didn't ask for anything in
 return, even my acknowledgment that she was there. She
 was just happy to be with me and that made me happy to
 have her.
 One night, an incident happened 
          that changed my relationship with Katie forever. At the time, I was
 excited beyond measure, and then I felt regret, but now
 I realize how special the moment was.
 Predictably, as every day for 
          the last several weeks, I was still finding solace vegging out in my room. Katie
 was lying on her back next to me. We were watching some
 cartoons. The mood was light and cozy. The evening
 weather was neither warm nor cold, it was perfect.
 Outside, the air was still, save for the rare slight
 ocean breeze.
 I noticed Katie was in a heightened, 
          sunnier disposition than usual. She seemed almost blissful. Her
 smiles were deeper and richer, the look in her eyes was
 friendlier, there was just something I couldn't put my
 finger on, but she was in a very good mood.
 After the cartoon was over, 
          she turned towards me, her smile turning more serious, no doubt in respect for my
 emotional condition. "Hi."
 "Hi." I replied. "You seem better." "I feel better." 
          I said. "Thanks to you." "What do you mean?" 
          she asked. "You've really made it 
          easy to get my mind off of her, off of what happened."
 Katie scooted towards me a few 
          inches and placed a gentle hand on mine. "You know, you don't deserve what
 happened. She doesn't deserve you. You deserve better.
 I mean, you're such a great guy. You deserve a girl who
 will love you the way you should be loved. I know I'm
 not Sarah, but I know I can take care of you better
 than she can. Well, not in every way, but almost every
 way."
 I smiled. "What do you 
          mean, 'almost every way'? She blushed. "You know 
          what way I mean." I realized what she was talking 
          about. "Ohh, that. Well, I wouldn't know. I couldn't compare you two. I've
 only been with her."
 Katie got this deflated look 
          on her face. "I know." I felt guilty for saying what 
          seemed hurtful to her. I reached out to her and rested my hand on her shoulder.
 "Hey, I didn't mean it like... I've been with her,
 yeah, but that doesn't matter now. I'd never touch her
 now. I know you'd never hurt me the way she did. That's
 why I know I'll always love you in a different way, in
 a way I could never love someone else."
 She looked up at me, my words 
          having moved her. "Really? You know, I don't think you've ever told me
 you loved me."
 "Really?" I said, 
          surprised. "Yeah." We sat there looking at each 
          other for a tense moment. "Hey, can I have a hug?" 
          I asked boldly, holding out my right arm to her.
 She smiled and scooted the foot 
          or so that separated us and embraced me. The feeling was indescribable. The
 warmth of her loving embrace was so intense that I
 almost wanted to break out into tears. I held her
 close, hoping I wasn't squeezing too tight, but she was
 squeezing me so tight that I didn't think I'd need to
 apologize for the strength of my hug.
 The hug dragged on for what 
          seemed like a minute or so and then the thought entered my mind that we'd entered
 into inappropriate territory. The hug seemed to slowly
 evolve from an intense, loving one into a softer, more
 passionate one. She wasn't holding onto me tightly
 anymore, but was just keeping me up against her, not
 saying a word. Of course, I was doing the same and my
 excuse was inexcusable: it felt good.
 Having this warm, loving body 
          pressed against mine was a sensation I wasn't quickly going to abandon. I didn't
 want to pry myself away from her but I was also
 intensely curious about her state of mind. Was this
 just an innocent hug gone long or was she being a bit
 more affectionate than she'd ever been?
 In an attempt to be extremely 
          bold, I started rubbing her back in a way that could be construed as anything
 but brotherly. Her response surprised me. She clutched
 me closer, started rubbing my back the same way I was
 rubbing hers and started nuzzling her face into the
 crook of my neck.
 Being even bolder, as my hand 
          ran down her back, when I got to the bottom of her shirt, I slipped my hand under
 it and rested my hand on part of her bare back near her
 hip. With that, she seemed to tighten up and pull her
 hands away from my back. She slowly reached down, as if
 for my hand, which I gave to her, and she brought it up
 in front on her, resting my hand on her stomach, just
 below her breast. Instinctively, I ran my hand up over
 her shirt and rested it atop the soft, fleshy globe of
 her breast giving it a very gentle squeeze.
 I heard her let out a whimpering 
          gasp. I whispered. "You ok?"
 All she did was murmur "Hmm-mhh." I continued very softly rubbing 
          her breast through her shirt. After about ten seconds, she pulled away from
 our embrace just enough so that her face was in front
 of mine, her hands resting on my chest. She had this
 blissful look on her face, which was down turned ever
 so slightly. She was so incredibly beautiful that I
 couldn't stop myself from what happened next. I leaned
 forward and kissed her gently on the lips. After the
 kiss, I left my lips on her and what she did surprised
 me: she pushed forward, kissing me back.
 The kiss was painfully soft 
          and wet. I never wanted it to end. After the kiss, we laid down and she snuggled
 up next to me and we continued to watch TV as if
 nothing had happened.
 The days after the incident 
          were actually pretty nice, except for the fact that neither Katie, nor I dared to
 bring up what had happened days before. Other than
 that, I'd built up the courage and confidence to get
 out of the bedroom. So I watched TV in the living room.
 Yeah, I know, I'm slightly more active than a head of
 lettuce.
 Like a looping routine, I'd 
          be on the couch, sprawled out and taking up way too much room and Katie would
 walk in carrying a bowl of chips or popcorn or
 something, plop down on the smaller couch next to the
 sofa I was on, ask me what was on TV and start watching
 with me and we'd exchange pleasant snippets of
 conversation as we watched a show or movie. Tonight was
 no different.
 It was Friday and things were 
          lazy, like usual. I was planning to just stay in, watch some DVDs, nothing
 special. I had planned to watch some action movie, a
 pretty gory one. In fact, it had some pretty intense
 gunfights too. An all-around guy movie. I popped it in
 and sat down. I was going solo tonight because I had
 peeked in on Katie about an hour prior and found her to
 be fast asleep, cozy in her bed.
 After the previews finished 
          up, I heard that familiar shuffling and Katie wandered into the living room, her
 hair teased and tussled, her eyes tired and squinting
 from the aftereffects of prematurely awakening.
 "Why didn't you wake 
          me up, jerk?" she asked, slightly slurring her speech.
 I was taken aback a bit by her 
          slight annoyance at me not having woken her up. I made an effort not to make a
 lazy excuse.
 "I'm sorry! I saw you 
          asleep and didn't want to wake you up. I didn't think it would be a big deal. It's
 just some dumb movie I'm watching..."
 Arms hanging at her sides, she 
          drug herself over to the couch I was on and collapsed, but sitting up straight.
 She didn't look at me as she talked, her eyes still
 barely open but focusing on the TV.
 "That's lame, Kevin. 
          You know we watch movies every night. Well, almost every night. All you had to do was
 nudge me a few times and I would've woken up."
 I didn't know what to say. 
           "I'm sorry. Next time, 
          I'll just wake you up." Her agitation was more acted 
          than anything. She wasn't mad, she just liked being theatrical, at least with me.
 I think it was because I was the only person she felt
 safe being theatrical with. In fact, I had only ever
 seen her being theatrical around me.
 She kept on the charade, really 
          riding me on the guilt trip.
 "Yeah, right. I think 
          you just don't like spending time with me and any chance you can get to get out of
 spending time with me, you do. Jerk."
 Eyes still lazily fixed on the 
          TV, she never turned to look at me. I smiled and leaned over, wrapping her head
 in my arm and pulling her into a one-armed hug,
 nuzzling her head into the spot between my shoulder and
 chest.
 "Awww..." I cooed 
          mockingly. "...poor baby." She sat up and pushed me away, 
          scooting back over to where she was. She spoke in hushed tones, her mock
 anger having been tamed.
 "Jerk," she commented. I looked at her and smiled. 
          "But seriously, next time I won't start without you, ok?"
 She didn't respond. For a moment 
          I started thinking that maybe she wasn't joking and might've been serious
 about the whole thing. I straightened up, realizing
 maybe I shouldn't be so flippant about the whole thing
 and consider her feelings. I reached towards her,
 resting my right hand on her shoulder.
 "Hey, look, I'm sorry 
          if you're really mad, ok? It was a mistake and it won't happen again."
 "It's okay," she 
          responded quite plainly. She kind of shrugged her shoulder 
          a little, just slightly, as if to signal me to remove my hand, but
 without being abrupt and abrasive about it. I got the
 message and moved my hand, turning back to the TV.
 After a few minutes, she got 
          up without any pretense and walked into the kitchen, turning on the light.
 "Want something to drink?" 
          she offered in a voice not wholly awake.
 "Sure, I'll just have 
          what you're having." After a minute she brought in 
          a couple of glasses of coke and we sat down to watch the movie. I realized we
 were watching a testosterone fest and felt obliged to
 apologize.
 "Umm, I didn't know you 
          were going to be awake so I kind of threw in this action movie. It's kind of a guy
 movie so I apologize if you're not into it."
 "I like action movies, 
          Kevin..." she threw back at me, "You know that. Or, you should know that."
 I tried to be light about the 
          whole thing, chuckling a little.
 "I know mostly what movies 
          you're into. I just think that you're the type of person that wouldn't complain
 regardless of what movie is playing, unless it was a
 porno or something. I was just being thoughtful and
 making sure you we're into the movie, that's all."
 She looked at me suspiciously. 
          "If you throw a porno in, it better be in your room when you're by yourself.
 It'd be so embarrassing having to watch a porno with
 you."
 "Why?" I laughed. She smiled. "Why? It'd 
          be so awkward. What would we talk about during the movie? "Wow, she has big boobs,
 look at 'em bounce around."
 "Yeah, I know. It would 
          be pretty awkward. I'd keep making excuses to get up and leave the room."
 "Yeah, maybe to go spank 
          your monkey or something." I laughed. "What's gotten 
          into you tonight? " She stared ahead, not locking 
          eyes with me. "Nothing." I didn't know much about women 
          but I knew that when a girl told you nothing was wrong, something was
 definitely wrong. "Come on, it's ok. Tell me."
 After a few moments of what 
          appeared to be mental conflict, Katie broke down. "You know, you haven't said
 anything about what happened the other night since it
 happened."
 I knew it was eventually going 
          to come up. The mood instantly became hush. I looked down, searching for the
 words. "Katie... I..."
 "I'm sorry if you regret 
          it." She blurted out. "No..." I stammered. 
          "I didn't... I don't..." She seemed sad, lost as her 
          eyes finally wandered to find mine. "It's ok. I think I was just feeling a
 little... you know, because of my cycle. I guess we
 were just in the wrong place at the right time. If you
 think I'm a total perv, I don't blame you."
 I turned to her. "Katie, I was the one 
          that started it. With the hug, then, you know... I really shouldn't have done that."
 "So you do regret it then?" 
          she asked, this time looking me dead in the eyes.
 "No... not at all. Well, 
          I don't if you liked it." She looked down, cracking a 
          smile. "I liked it, that's why I kissed you back."
 "I don't know what got 
          into me. I just... maybe it was the time away from you, but you seemed so different
 when I came home. At that moment, I had trouble
 thinking of you as my sister. I just saw this
 incredibly sweet and cute girl in front of me and I
 couldn't control myself."
 She turned her head, looking 
          at me with a very sincere curiosity. "Is that bad?"
 "No, actually. It's great. 
          I'm just so used to you keeping to yourself but since I came home you've been
 so open and kind and sweet to me when I needed you. "
 She turned back to the TV, clutching 
          her soda close to her. "I don't know, I think I'm just comfortable around
 you and that's why I did what I did. Especially with
 mom and dad being gone, you know? I figured I could
 just do what I felt in my heart was right and you
 wouldn't make me regret it."
 I smiled. "Of course I 
          wouldn't make you regret it."  "I guess we both just 
          got caught up in the moment. I definitely don't regret it, though. You just seemed so
 hurt. I just hated seeing you like that, so I just
 wanted to do what I could to show you you weren't
 alone", she said, making me curious as to what she
 meant.
 "How so?" I inquired. She paused momentarily, her 
          eyes seeking a way to put into words what she was thinking without saying
 something that could be misconstrued.
 "Well, like when you gave 
          me that hug, that was like the first time in ages that you, you know, put your
 arms around me or anything. I've never felt so...
 loved"
 "I figured that we're 
          on such good terms that we should be able to goof off like that every now and then. I
 shouldn't be afraid to give you a hug every now and
 then, right?"
 She thought about that for a 
          few seconds then looked at me. "So I shouldn't feel weird about asking you for a
 hug?"
 "Would you feel weird 
          asking me for a hug?" Her eyes moved away, the gears 
          in her mind moving again. "Yeah, a little, but only because we'd never
 been like that before, you know, affectionate? But I
 guess I can't say that anymore, can I?" she said with a
 smile.
 "I just don't want you 
          to feel afraid around me for any reason. Like, if you ever wanted to give me a hug or
 something, don't feel like I'd reject you or get mad or
 anything, and that goes for anything. I want you to
 just feel like you can come to me, because I am your
 brother and I love you."
 She smiled. "I feel so 
          comfortable around you. I've never felt so comfortable around any guy."
 "I know, I feel the same 
          way about you. I guess that's what I was getting at, that we should just be more
 open."
 That having been said, Katie 
          sat up, curled her legs up onto the couch and turned to me, seemingly investing
 more interest in the conversation.
 "Can I ask you something?" 
          she asked. "Of course." She was clearly blushing and 
          had difficulty asking her question. "Did you like it when... umm...when you felt
 me..."
 I couldn't help but blush too. 
          "I'm so sorry about that. I know that I shouldn't have touched you like
 that..."
 She was almost whispering but 
          I could hear her clearly because we were not sitting so closely together. "No,
 it's ok. I think I was swept up in the moment too. So,
 you didn't answer my question."
 I smiled. "You never really 
          asked one." Playfully flustered, she smiled. 
          "When you felt me up, did you like it?"
 "Oh yeah, I really did. 
          You have... a really nice body."
 She giggled. "You haven't 
          seen my body." I laughed too. "Is that 
          an invitation?" All she could do was blush and giggle.
 "Well, it felt really nice. I hope it felt nice for
 you."
 She looked down. "Yeah, 
          it felt really nice." "Are you glad we stopped 
          when we did?" I asked, curiously.
 She didn't seem sure of how 
          to answer. It took her a few seconds. "I kinda just went along with what you
 did, so when you stopped I guess I didn't want to keep
 going. I figured you wanted to stop."
 "I just felt lucky that 
          you kissed me and let me hold you so I didn't want to push my luck."
 She smiled. "It had nothing 
          to do with luck." We were both now in what was 
          just about the deepest, most personal conversation we'd ever shared. We had
 completely forgotten about the movie.
 "So, how come you don't 
          have a boyfriend?" I asked. "You seem like the kind of girl who could have all
 kinds of guys on the hook."
 She smiled shyly, shaking her 
          head. "No, I don't know. I've just never thought about it like that. I mean, I
 want to be with someone, but I know how guys are. I
 know guys really just want one thing and it's kind of
 tough finding a guy I feel safe with that I know won't
 hurt me, you know?"
 "Yeah, I do." Katie's eyes shifted a little. 
          "I mean, you're really the only guy I feel safe with, but..."
 "But I'm just your brother." She shifted to get slightly 
          closer to me, her eyes apologetic.
 "No, no, I didn't mean 
          it like that. I mean, you are my brother and I enjoy all the time we spend together,
 but..."
 "It's not the same as 
          having a boyfriend." I finished her sentence. I smiled, looking down. "Is that was you
 meant by not being able to take care of me in every
 way?"
 She nervously tucked some hair 
          behind her ear. "You know what I meant by that. Even if I could, I wouldn't
 be any good..." She laughed. "I don't even know how to
 kiss, much less do any of that other stuff."
 "I think you kiss pretty 
          well." "You're just being nice." I wanted to show her that wasn't 
          the case. I leaned forward and tried to more energetically plead my case.
 "No, not at all. That kiss was really incredible."
 She seemed surprised. "Really?" 
          she asked. "Yeah." "How could you tell? That 
          kiss only lasted like a second or two."
 "It was so nice I wanted 
          it to last longer." Katie smiled what was possibly 
          the most beautiful smile I'd ever seen, probably because it was coming from her
 and I'd hardly ever seen her smile like this. We sat
 there smiling for what seemed like an eternity but was
 only a few seconds.
 "Can I tell you something? 
          Without you thinking I'm weird?" I asked.
 "Sure." She said. "You've got such a cute 
          smile. I wish you'd smile more often."
 "I've been smiling a 
          lot more since you've been home."  "So, is it still safe 
          for us to hang out?" "Yeah, of course." 
          She said timidly, almost in a whisper.
 "I promise I won't do 
          anything silly like kiss you again."
 "You don't have to make 
          that promise." She said, trailing off into her quiet voice. "I think that from
 now on, whatever happens, happens, and I won't regret
 it, okay?"
 "'Whatever happens?'" 
          I replied. "Whatever." "Katie, that's saying 
          an awful lot." I replied. She put her finger up to my 
          lips in a strangely assertive manner. "Shh. I know what I said and I meant
 it."
 I smiled. "Okay then. 
          Whatever happens, happens." I looked at the clock and realized 
          how bleeding late it was.
 "Wow, I should really 
          get up to bed and at least get ready to go to sleep."
 Katie looked a tad disappointed 
          at that, but immediately played it off. "Yeah, I should probably do
 the same."
 I had showered, brushed my teeth, 
          changed into my pajamas and was sitting on my bed flipping through a
 magazine that had been lying on my floor for weeks. I'd
 bought it weeks ago and completely forgot to look at
 it, something that happens more than it should. One of
 many bad habits of mine.
 My door was about half open 
          and Katie happened to walk by, looking in. She stopped, looking on inquisitively.
 I looked up and saw that pretty face, too shy to say
 anything or come in and I couldn't help but smile back.
 "I thought you were going 
          to bed." She said, smiling. "I am." I chuckled. "Oh, I see, you just wanted 
          to get away from me," she joked back.
 I disputed that with a laugh, 
          stood up and opened the door, reaching out and taking her hand and pulling her
 into the room.
 "Oh, come on..." 
          I said as she allowed me to drag her in, her feet shuffling as I pulled her.
 "Take a seat, ya big baby," 
          I joked. With a phony frown, arms dangling 
          at her sides, she lazily shuffled to the edge of the bed and plopped
 down, looking at the TV. I crawled back into the center
 of the bed and sat down, resuming reading my magazine.
 After a few seconds, Katie turned around and propped
 herself up on her elbows, looking at my magazine, or at
 least pretending to be.
 Katie's eyes shifted a bit 
          until coming back to mine. "You know, I was thinking that since neither of us go
 out much and we're not with anyone, maybe we should
 just start hanging out more often?
 "Sure, why not? To hell 
          with boyfriends and girlfriends." I declared jokingly but seriously.
 She interjected. "I just 
          figured that you spend a lot of time in your room alone and I spend most of my time
 in my room, and since mom and dad are going to be gone
 for awhile, and since... that whole thing with
 whatshername... it might be nice to start hanging out
 more," she proposed.
 I looked up and she felt compelled 
          to reinforce the innocence of her proposal.
 "I mean, instead of us 
          both being alone in the house, maybe we could just be alone together."
 I laughed. "That makes 
          no sense." She smiled impatiently. "You 
          know what I mean." "I know what you mean. 
          I think that'd be fine. Great, actually."
 Her face lit up. "Really?" 
          she beamed. "Of course! Hey, if you 
          wanted, you could even sleep in here. Like a slumber party," I chuckled.
 She seemed to like the idea 
          but was hesitant to exude too much of an emotive response. Her eyes were looking
 for a deeper answer to my idea.
 "You mean, like, in the 
          same bed?" My laugh became a lonely smile 
          as I explained. "Well, no, I was thinking you could take the bed and I could
 take the floor. I don't know. If you think it's a dumb
 idea, it's ok."
 Her eyes widened. "No! 
          I think that's fine, but you don't have to sleep on the floor. We can both sleep on
 the bed, I'll just take up a little part of the edge,
 so I won't crowd you."
 "You're sure? I move 
          around in my sleep sometimes, I wouldn't want to get uncomfortably close in the middle
 of the night, you know? And have you get all creeped
 out," I smiled.
 "Uncomfortably close for 
          you or me?" she said with a curious seriousness.
 I tried to get as serious as 
          I could. "Well, I figure it'd be uncomfortable for you. I don't know."
 She smiled. "Why would 
          it be uncomfortable? We practically made out the other night."
 We both shared a nervous laugh 
          and couldn't lock eyes. She continued. "It wouldn't 
          be uncomfortable for me, unless you, like, sat on my head in the middle of the
 night."
 I laughed. "No, no, nothing 
          like that." "Ok, so, am I going to 
          be sleeping in here from now on?"
 I thought for a second. "Do 
          you think we could do that without, you know, things getting weird? I wouldn't
 want you to end up hating me."
 "Kevin, I told you that 
          whatever happens, happens. I'm a big girl and if I do something, it'll be because I
 want to. As long as you don't like, rape me or
 something, I won't hate you."
 "You know I'd never force 
          myself on you so you have nothing to worry about."
 She smiled. "I know. Ok, 
          let me go shower and change, ok?"
 "Ok," I said. Katie bounced out of the room 
          with a bit of a spring in her step. I was happy that she was happy. I got under
 the blanket and went back to looking at my magazine.
 About a half an hour later, 
          Katie came back. She was wearing some pajama pants and a tanktop. Her hair was
 still a little damp. She walked in shyly, tucking some
 loose hair behind her ear and crawled under the
 blanket, not saying a word.
 "Ya ok?" I asked. She nodded. "Yeah, just 
          a little cold." "It's a thick blanket. 
          You'll get warm soon." I smiled. Within a half an hour, we were 
          both asleep. DAYS LATER: Days went by and we both became 
          more and more comfortable around each other. Katie seemed cheery,
 bouncy, happy, playful, different in many ways from her
 former self. She was still incredibly sweet like
 before, but it was like she'd blossomed emotionally and
 was much more open to me, more affectionate and more at
 ease.
 She even started dressing a 
          little different. Instead of wearing thick, long sleeved shirts or baggy, over-
 sized pants, she started wearing thinner, short-sleeved
 shirt, tanktops and smaller-sized pants. She seemed
 more at ease around me and it showed.
 It was a Thursday afternoon 
          and, like always, I was lazing about the house in slacker-mode. I sat down on
 the couch in the living room and had switched on the TV
 when Katie walked in. She smiled at me as she walked
 in, sat down next to me and laid her head on my
 shoulder.
 "Hey," I greeted. "Hi," she replied. "You hungry?" I 
          asked. "Yeah. Want me to make 
          you something?" "No, I was thinking maybe 
          we could go out to eat?" I asked.
 She sat up and looked at me, 
          a bit surprised. "Go out? Like, to a restaurant?" I smiled. "Sure. Of course!" Her eyes darted back and forth 
          in contemplation, then found mine again.
 "Should I get dressed 
          up? Where are we going?" I thought for a second. "How about that Chinese 
          restaurant downtown?" I finally said.
 Her eyes lit up a bit. "Oh, ok!" she said 
          happily. "I guess I'll dress up a little, but not too much?" her face scrunched up,
 hoping for a suggestion.
 "I think so. Maybe just 
          a blouse and some nice pants?" I suggested.
 "Ok." She agreed. I went and showered and threw 
          on a nice looking t-shirt, red sweater and some jeans and started looking
 for my wallet and keys. I finally tracked them down
 when Katie pushed my bedroom door open a little and
 crept in. I looked up at her and was floored. She
 couldn't have taken longer to get ready than I did but
 she looked incredible. I'd never seen her looking like
 this before and for a split second I forgot she was my
 sister.
 She had teased her short dark 
          hair a little to where it was spiky in places, in a cute way. She was wearing a
 dark purple, short-sleeved and low-cut top that showed
 off more of her chest than I'd ever seen. Along with
 the top she was wearing a pair of jeans that hugged
 contours on her lower body I never knew she'd had. I
 was ogling for a second too long and had to snap myself
 out of it.
 Her head was down a little, 
          looking for me to say something. I stuttered for a moment before speaking.
 "Wow, you look incredible! 
          What lucky guy gets to go out with you tonight?" I said with an awkward chuckle.
 She had this incredibly cute 
          but shy and untamable smile on her face and could barely keep eye contact
 with me.
 "Kevin, don't be silly..." 
          she giggled. "So are we going or what?"
 I was still taken aback by how 
          incredible and different she looked. As she turned around and walked into the
 hallway, I couldn't help but check out her butt, which
 looked so perfectly round and inviting. I realized that
 in all the years we'd lived together, I'd never
 actually seen her in clothes that showed off that part
 of her body in any revealing capacity.
 Unfortunately, while I reveled 
          in the beautifully voluptuous view, lost in my wandering thoughts, I
 failed to realize how long I'd been staring. When I
 finally broke from my spellbound state, my eyes trailed
 up her back and to her eyes, which were already locked
 on mine. She had this sly smirk on her face.
 "Hey, I'm up here." 
          She said with a smile. I chuckled nervously and tried 
          desperately to cover my tracks.
 "Uh, I didn't know you 
          had that brand of jeans. I was trying to read the label. Are those-"
 "Yeah, I've had these 
          for awhile, but this is only, like, the third time I've worn them." She giggled.
 We finally got out of the house 
          and had a pleasant drive to the restaurant. I had this bizarre sensation
 as we drove to the restaurant, the same type of
 dwelling nervousness in my gut that was reserved for
 when I'd go on a date with a girl, which wasn't often,
 so the feeling was quickly identified. A conflict
 welled up within me. "How could I be nervous? This is
 Katie. My sister!"
 But the guy in me could only 
          see the unbearably cute girl sitting next to me, decked out like she was just
 trying to torture me.
 We got to the restaurant, which 
          was pretty nice. We were seated after only a few minutes of waiting, which
 was a surprise.
 After a few minutes of sitting 
          at the table, we both realized how awkward the situation was and were both
 short on words. We exchanged a few nervous glances,
 like 14 year olds on a first date, until Katie broke
 the ice.
 "This is a nice place, 
          isn't it? Fancy." She whispered. "I know." I whispered 
          back.  We whispered to each other as 
          if we were afraid someone would hear us. Having broken the ice, though, we both
 smiled at each other, almost laughing at the absurdity
 of the awkwardness of just a few minutes ago.
 "You know, this is so 
          weird. I feel like I'm on a date." She said coyly, her head down, but eyes looking
 up me.
 "I know. It's weird, 
          isn't it?" "Yeah, but a good weird." 
          She retorted. We both smiled. "I'm sorry for staring 
          earlier, when we were at the house. I've just never seen you like this. Dressed up,
 you know? You look so... different."
 "Different, as in good 
          different?" I nervously exhaled and smiled. 
          "Yeah, really good different. I just... You're really cute when you want
 to be. It just caught me off-guard is all. I mean,
 you're always cute, you're just cute in a different way
 when you're dressed up."
 "Thanks. I'd say the 
          same to you but you actually dress up from time to time, unlike me, and you're always
 cute." She chuckled.
 Another awkward silence, until 
          she broke the ice again. "I just haven't had much 
          reason to dress up before, you know?" she said.
 I replied. "Well, if you're 
          enjoying being out with me, maybe we can do this more often and you can dress up
 more."
 She smiled. "Yeah, I'd 
          definitely like to do this more if it's ok with you. Well, only if you don't stare at
 my butt so much next time..."
 I almost swallowed my tongue. 
          I did, however, choke on my ice water a little. She giggled at my stammering.
 Dinner was great. It was basically 
          a date with Katie and me. I felt so conflicted. So many times during the
 night I had to look across the table and the most
 beautiful girl, inside and out, that I'd ever known and
 had to remind myself who she was and that any feelings
 I had that were beyond innocent, brotherly ones were
 out of place and clearly misread. They had to be. How
 could I actually foster romantic feelings for Katie?
 But then the other half of me 
          couldn't help but look at Katie, and see the beauty in those eyes and what lie
 behind those eyes and feel something. She was basically
 my perfect woman. Physically, God couldn't have built a
 woman more complementary to what I found attractive:
 those beautifully dark eyes, the shape of them, her
 button nose, her lips, the style of her hair, her
 perfectly curvaceous body.
 And personality-wise, we were 
          also perfectly matched. If I was just a guy off the street who got to know
 Katie as a person and not my sister, I'd be sure she
 had no flaws.
 We got home at around 9pm. As 
          I unlocked the front door, Katie stood next to me, turned towards me.
 "I really-I really had 
          a good time tonight." She said. "Me too." We both settled down on the 
          couch, kicking off our shoes and turning the TV on. Katie sat next to me, as
 she had done a lot of lately. I looked down, built up
 some courage and then turned to her.
 "Umm, hey. Look, uh, I 
          just wanted to say I'm sorry for-for ogling your butt earlier. I don't know what got
 into me. Pretty pathetic, huh?" I said.
 She looked at me and giggled, 
          resting her head on my right shoulder. "No, it's not pathetic at all. I do the
 same thing sometimes. You just don't catch me."
 I looked down at her, but her 
          eyes were fixed on the TV. She couldn't hide her sly smile though.
 "You do? With me?" 
          I asked. She nodded, her mouth trying 
          to contain her smile. "When?" I asked. "When you're not looking." 
          She said as a smile covered her face, her attempts at masking it having failed.
 I was so pleasantly surprised 
          that I didn't have to feel so guilty about having essentially 'checked out'
 Katie earlier.
 "Wow, so then I don't 
          have to feel bad if I ever feel compelled to look at you?" I said.
 "You can look all you 
          want. I trust you. And you're my brother and I love you. I don't care if you look."
 With that I raised up my right 
          arm and wrapped it around her. She instinctively snuggled up against me.
 We were watching TV but really weren't watching TV. She
 nuzzled her head into the space between my chest and
 shoulder, her body now turned towards me, her breasts
 pressing up against my side and her right arm wrapped
 around my mid-section.
 "You know what?" 
          she said. "This is really nice." "Yeah. Who needs girlfriends 
          and boyfriends?" I laughed.
 She smiled, leaned forward and 
          kissed me on the cheek. I turned and looked down at her upturned face.
 "Hey, what was that for?" 
          I asked. "For tonight, and for 
          the last couple of nights, and pretty much for all the time I've known you. For being
 so sweet."
 I was so surprised at the frankness 
          of her confession. "Uh, Katie. I don't know 
          what to say." "You don't have to say 
          anything." We went to bed shortly after. 
          The next few days were even better than the previous ones. Katie was so
 cheerful and playful around me, so at ease. In the
 daytime, she'd prance around the house like she was
 walking on air. It was quite a sight to behold. I
 didn't know how much livelier or bold she'd get, but I
 had to admit that I was looking forward to it. She had
 seemed to loosen up in more ways than one.
 Not only was she more open emotionally, 
          imparting any decidedly important thought or emotion to me, whereas
 before she was emotionally withdrawn, timid and
 seemingly intimidated by me, but she was now candid,
 overt, and intimately communicative as well as marked
 by a noticeably outward change in her appearance...
 It was a hazy Saturday morning, 
          getting close to noon, when I awoke to a soft, inviting voice. I could hear
 her voice, but my faculties were still not sharp enough
 to respond coherently.
 "Wake up, sleepyhead..." 
          Katie said, almost in a whisper, a whisper that was so soft and loving that it
 was nearly suggestive. "I made breakfast if you're
 hungry."
 By the time I sat up I could 
          only catch Katie's shadow as she left my room and made her way down the hall.
 I got myself up, put myself 
          into the shower and cleaned up. About a half hour later I finally made it into the
 dining room wearing a new pair of pajamas. Katie was
 looking cute as always, showing slightly more skin
 today as compared to yesterday, which, if doing some
 simple calculations based on the current rate of skin
 exposure, I figured she'd be parading around the house
 nude within a week or two.
 I knew that wasn't going to 
          happen and I was initially disappointed in that truth, then disappointed in myself
 for being disappointed about that. I knew I should've
 felt bad about even doing that calculation in my head,
 but my male defenses were under constant bombardment. I
 maintained my strength whenever possible.
 We shared chatty small talk 
          during breakfast. I spent most of it with a huge grin across my face with bits of
 breakfast in my teeth. Several times during breakfast
 we made each other laugh to the point that breakfast
 projectiles were being fired from our mouths.
 We tried to maintain dignity 
          in the face of the other, secretly trying to impress with every minute mannerism
 but it was getting tough since we were so at ease with
 each other, we easily de-evolved into children within
 minutes of talking, grabassing and other assorted
 immature derring-do.
 It was another regular meal 
          for Katie and me. Much silliness was had, with the undercurrent of attraction
 buried neatly underneath the dining room table's
 tablecloth. After breakfast we collected our plates and
 dumped them into the sink to be worried about later.
 The day breezed by in a flash, 
          as had everyday since Katie and I really bonded, day became night and I
 prepared for us to settle into whatever nightly
 activities we'd be engaged in. Of course, the devil on
 my shoulder whispered a naughty suggestion in my ear
 that I responded by mechanically shooing him off. Our
 friendship was deeper than that, I thought, even though
 my male instincts blurred the validity of my logic at
 times.
 I was walking to my room when 
          I passed Katie in the hallway, greeted by her beautiful smile. "Hey, I was
 going to set up a movie for us to watch. Is that cool?"
 I asked.
 "Of course, just pick 
          something. Ooh! Something scary!" she suggested excitedly, eyes bright and wide. "I need
 a shower." She added.
 I scrunched my face with mock 
          disgust. "Yeah, you do..."
 She gasped theatrically and 
          punched my shoulder, her face quickly returning to normalcy. "Wanna join me?"
 she asked, a reckless, mischievous grin on her face.
 I was taken aback by her growing 
          audaciousness. "No, I'd better not. Sounds like too much fun for me to
 handle... I had one earlier anyways."
 She didn't seem disappointed 
          by my answer as her proposal was probably made in good fun. "Ok, I'll be
 out in a few..."
 I turned away and got the movie 
          set up. I chose to pick a random horror movie for a few reasons; one, I love
 horror movies and can't get enough of them and
 secondly, on a slightly ulterior level, hoped that the
 scares might get me a few frightened embraces from
 Katie.
 After a few minutes of choosing 
          a movie, I settled into bed, lying comfortably on top of the sheets. When Katie
 made it back, we'd have a pretty graphic vampire movie
 to enjoy.
 I heard footsteps move past 
          the hallway outside my bedroom and heard Katie call out as she walked towards
 the kitchen. "I'm gonna wash the dishes really quick,
 ok?"
 I thought to myself then called 
          out to her as I stood up. "I'll come and help!"
 I made my way out of my room 
          and towards the kitchen. I could hear the sound of running sink water. She'd
 already started doing the dishes. The sight revealed to
 me as I entered the kitchen literally made me stagger.
 There was Katie, her back to me and doing the dishes
 and dressed scantily in only her panties and a small
 tank top. I stopped in my tracks at the threshold to
 the kitchen linoleum, my jaw uncontrollably hanging and
 my eyes dazed and unresponsive.
 Katie looked over her shoulder 
          at me, her arms covered in soap suds, a beaming smile on her face. My jaw
 instinctively snapped shut, my eyes flashing back to
 normalcy as I dressed my face in a mask of normalcy,
 hoping she hadn't noticed my stupefied state. I
 attempted to snap back to my witty, sarcastic self.
 "Are you wearing invisible 
          pants? 'Cause they're working great." I said.
 She laughed. "Actually, 
          I always sleep in my panties but that first night you told me I could sleep in your
 bed I didn't want to strip down and give you the wrong
 idea. When we were growing up you saw me in my panties
 tons of times, so it's not a problem if I sleep like
 this, is it?"
 I was astounded at how carefree 
          and bold she had become. Here was this sweet young girl who used to hole
 herself up in her room and when she did talk to me, it
 was always in hushed tones where she hardly made eye
 contact, was always dressed from head to toe and rarely
 showed any discernible emotional changes and now I was
 staring at this seductive Lolita washing dishes in her
 panties giving me a hell of a smile. AND she was asking
 permission to sleep next to me, decked out like that. I
 was in heaven.
 "No, I don't mind. And 
          to think I was wearing my pajama pants instead of my boxers like I usually do. Hell, if
 you wear your underwear to bed, I am too!" I laughed as
 she turned back to the dishes, still smiling. "So, let
 me help here..."
 I moved up behind her to get 
          near the sink but it was a narrow space, not big enough to allow two people to
 wash dishes, but not wanting to leave, I made the best
 of an interesting situation. I stood behind her,
 playfully reaching around her and over her, in a mock
 attempt to get to the dishes. She started giggling,
 crowding the sink and hovering over it, to keep me from
 helping.
 As my advances became more aggressive, 
          so did her giggles and her attempts to keep me from the dishes.
 She stuck her rear-end out at me to push me away, but
 all she managed to do was lodge her delectable ass into
 my crotch. I knew she was being innocent and playful,
 but that act immediately got my blood flowing
 excitedly.
 Keeping with the playfulness 
          of the moment, Katie took a handful of sink water and flung it back at me
 blindly, some of it splashing on my shoulder and chest.
 "Oh, so that's how it's 
          gonna be?" I barked. With my threatening announcement, 
          Katie's giggles became a uncontrollable fit of desperate laughter, her
 hands working quickly to fling more water at me. I
 reached past her and got a handful of water and flipped
 it up at her. Strategically, I managed to douse her
 chest, mostly, as well as her face. She yelped and
 continued her barrage of sink water, as did I.
 Realizing she'd been overpowered, 
          she turned towards me, still laughing madly and reached for the sink's
 detachable faucet sprayer. Using it like a water gun,
 she blasted me with it. I grabbed at her, pulling the
 sprayer away before she could shower me with it, and
 turned it on her. I managed to hose her down for a
 second or two, drenching her chest and face. She
 squealed and pushed past me, running for the sanctity
 of my bedroom. I made chase after her.
 Both of us were squealing like 
          four-year-olds. She blew past my bedroom door, shoving it open as she tore for
 my bed, jumping on it and hastily trying to cover
 herself with some loose sheets and a pillow. I ran in
 after her, laughing as I leapt on the bed, pouncing on
 her and tearing off her poorly laid defenses, tossing
 the blanket and pillow aside. She turned onto her back,
 covering her face with her hands, trying to muffle the
 riotous laughter, but barely managed to do that.
 "Thought you were being 
          slick, huh?" I asked as I hovered over her, tickling at her sides, playfully
 grabbing at her wrists, trying to pry them away from
 her face as she laughed.
 I finally managed to pry her 
          hands off and pinned them to the bed. I had completely straddled her, my legs
 forming a bridge over hers which were pinned together.
 I looked down at her, our laughs slowly ceasing and
 giving way to heaving, fatigued breaths.
 "You messed with the wrong 
          guy, little girl!" I declared, bouncing up and down on her, causing us to
 flop around. She beamed up at me, her tank top
 drenched, beads of sink water cascaded across her face
 and tummy.
 After a moment, my smile went 
          away when I realized how beautiful she was. She was still smiling though. "You
 jerk! You're gonna dry me off now."
 I let her go and rolled off 
          of her. "Okay, okay..." I conceded as I reached over and picked up a clean bath
 towel that was lying next to the bed. She sat up and I
 crawled over to her on my knees and started toweling
 her off as she grinned up at me. "Well, that was
 fun..." I said, then started to chuckle, as did she.
 "Yeah, but I just took 
          a shower and you drenched me, jerk. Look at my tank top!" she cried.
 She didn't have any idea how 
          that otherwise harmless suggestion affected me. Seeing her voluptuous breasts
 packed into that wet top was not easy for me, not to
 mention that the only thing separating me from her bare
 pussy was the thin layer of cotton she was wearing.
 "Yeah, you'd better change. You don't want to be wet
 all night..." I said, then instantly realized the
 indirect innuendo that could've been misconstrued from
 that. I shut my eyes in embarrassment but Katie had
 already caught on, that devilish smile rose up on her
 face again.
 "Being wet all night wouldn't 
          be all that bad, but I know what you mean. Let me go dry off real quick and
 change my top." She trailed off, her face straightening
 up as much as she could manage as she left the room.
 I tried to wrangle in what remained 
          of my self-respect, wishing my brain would've been quicker than my mouth
 when I made that remark. Luckily, Katie's response
 actually made my Freudian slip a positive.
 I dried myself off with the 
          towel I'd used on Katie, changed my t-shirt and stripped off my big pajama
 pants, keeping my promise that if Katie was going to
 wear her underwear to bed, so was I. I laid back and
 got comfortable, starting up the movie.
 After a few minutes, Katie came 
          back, this time wearing a cute pink tank top, that familiar smile still
 irrevocably plastered on her face, surely having
 remembered some of the convenient innuendos we'd just
 slung at each other. She sat down on the bed next to
 me. "So, what are we watching?"
 "You'll like it..." 
          I hinted. "It's scaaaaary." "Ooh!! Cool! Is it a vampire 
          movie?" "Yup." "Oh, I've seen this one..." 
          she said excitedly. "...I love this movie!"
 The movie started and considering 
          the fact that we were lying on top of the blanket, I was hoping that she
 wouldn't do anything to get me aroused as I was only
 wearing my boxers now and hiding an erection would be
 almost impossible. To make matter worse, about fifteen
 minutes in, Katie started to get spooked by the movie
 and scooted back, pressing her body against me. The
 position we were in wasn't favorable for me to be able
 to maintain my composure.
 She was grinding her rear-end 
          into my crotch and we were in the spoon position. "I'm cold." She said,
 blindly reaching back with her right arm and taking my
 right arm and wrapping it around her tummy.
 "Do you want to get under 
          the covers?" I asked, trying very hard to think about baseball, waterfalls, driving
 a car, anything to keep me from realizing that I was
 draped around a precious jewel of a girl, and how
 firmly and relentlessly she was rubbing her rear into
 my crotch.
 "Hmmm, sure." She 
          agreed, but reminded me with a smile. "You're not getting out of holding me, though."
 We tossed back the blanket and 
          climbed back into bed. I got into the position I was in earlier and she resumed
 hers, wrapping my right arm around her. "Mmmm, so
 warm." She noted with satisfaction.
 I really didn't pay attention 
          to the movie. My mind was just reeling, bombarded with so many emotions. I had to
 keep total concentration to control myself so I
 wouldn't get erect, since Katie's panty-covered rear
 was pressed tightly against me, she'd notice if I
 became only slightly erect.
 About forty-five minutes in, 
          I was going insane. My body was stressed, wanting to respond to the
 stimulation given to it, but my mind wasn't letting it.
 It was an internal battle of wills and my mind was
 losing. My mind began to betray me as quick snapshots
 of Katie enraptured in some torrid gyrations began to
 flash into my mind's eye. I had to say something, but
 what? If I admitted any kind of risk of stimulation to
 Katie, I didn't know what she'd say or think, but I
 couldn't rightly just lie here with Katie's round,
 firm, delicious ass pressed into my crotch.
 I figured I'd feign something 
          about being uncomfortable. Something she couldn't disprove and that
 I didn't have to prove.
 "Ouch." I blurted 
          out.  Katie turned to me, looking 
          on me with concern. "You okay?"
 I feigned discomfort in my face. 
          "Yeah, my left arm is a little numb."
 It took her a second to understand, 
          her eyes trailing off. "Is my head hurting your arm?"
 "Umm, just a little. I 
          can move i-" I said, before she interrupted me.
 "Here, put your left arm 
          under me, under my armpit. That way, you can still hold me and keep me warm, but
 your arm won't go numb."
 She sat up and took my left 
          hand and wrapped it around her midsection and laid back down, taking my right hand
 and placing it back where it was. She then pulled on my
 arms which pulled my body closer to hers, and more
 importantly and unfortunately, my crotch back into her
 rear-end. This tightened the seal between us. Only
 worse now, since my arms were crossed across her tummy,
 my hands were dangerously close to her breasts, my
 right thumb brushing up underneath her left breast
 whenever I moved it even slightly.
 I'm back where I started, I 
          thought. My plan backfired. I was up against a wall, I had little to stop me from
 getting completely hard right then and there and then
 she'd probably get freaked out. She was a virgin, after
 all. At least she said she was. I believe her, and if
 her first true sexual encounter is having her brother's
 hard-on pressed up against her ass, I might lose her
 forever.
 Part of me said, 'to hell with 
          it, if you get hard, you get hard. She might like it and maybe she'll take your
 load.' I had to instantly stamp out that train of
 thought. Then I had images of trains plowing through
 tunnels dancing through my head, which was just all I
 needed.
 I didn't even know what movie 
          we were watching anymore. The 'pain' was almost excruciating, the pain of keeping
 myself soft. Then, to make matters worse, Katie started
 squirming in her place, grinding her ass even more
 firmly into my crotch and at the same time hugging my
 arms tighter to her body, my right hand inadvertently
 moved with her, my palm accidentally brushing against
 the better part of her left breast that was covered by
 only a thin layer of her tank top.
 The combination of her pulling 
          my hand into her breast and wriggling her little ass into my crotch was too
 much. I felt the tingle begin to grow in my boxers, a
 torrent of blood rushing to my penis, making it grow.
 As I realized what was happening, the thought of it
 made my cock kick as it grew. I knew Katie had to have
 felt that. It had pulsed a few times and was now
 partially erect and pressed right against her sweet
 behind. I had to act... fast.
 I slowly pulled my arms free, 
          firmly, but also delicately and gently, so as to not arouse suspicion.
 "I'm gotta go pee really quick. I'll be right back." I
 said, as I pulled my crotch away from her ass, hoping
 that she was so naïve that she didn't know what had
 happened.
 "Okay." Was her 
          only reply, and it was one conveyed with innocence, as if she detected nothing. I said
 nothing more and went to the bathroom.
 I feverishly stroked my erection, 
          which was now rock hard. Now free of Katie's bonds, from the warmth and
 softness of her body, I used the memory of the
 sensation, the memory of her scent and her voice to
 fuel my masturbatory frenzy. I was beating off with a
 fervor I hadn't ever beaten off to. The insatiable urge
 to spurt my load was unbearable, I had to cum badly, to
 get it out of my system, but I so badly wanted to have
 this erection buried deep inside Katie, instead of it
 being tended to by my hand.
 A grimace of pleasurable pain 
          on my face, my fist was pumping at blinding speed, anxious to get the cum out
 of me, and with every stroke I imagined Katie
 underneath, impaled on my solid girth, cumming on cock
 as I buried it in her until I finally unleashed a
 tsunami of my love in torrents and gushes, flooding her
 tight canals with my seed. I felt a need that I'd never
 felt before. The desire for her was painful. Painful.
 And it scared me.
 I didn't realize it but I was 
          grunting with every stroke, possessed with a lustful madness, the beast
 within me wanting to explode outward with pulsing jets
 of desire, desire for Katie and only Katie. At this
 point I didn't really care if she heard me, part of me
 hoped she did and that further fueled my lust.
 With a final, urgent, laboring 
          groan I unleashed a gush of a warm, viscous mess. It came in surges, pulsing out
 of me in thick, urgent jets, spraying the toilet bowl.
 The velocity of the spurts was so intense that it made
 a wet, splattering sound as it hit the porcelain. I
 hadn't cum this hard in my life. Ever.
 Finally, my cock slowed its 
          lovingly violent outpour to a dribble, the ooze of cum that was intended for
 Katie's insides was now pooling in the toilet. I felt
 disappointment that my seed had not found its rightful
 home. I felt, strangely enough, that I'd let it down.
 It wanted to be inside Katie, but I'd wasted it inside
 the toilet. I was heaving like I'd run a mile and
 sweating like I just wrestled a wild pig.
 I was scared by the extent of 
          my desire, how strong a hold it had taken over me. I had scared myself,
 realizing how, in those passionate moments, I would've
 done anything, anything, to have had Katie on the end
 of my penis. It was the 'anything' that bothered me. I
 would've taken her, even against her will, in those few
 dreamy, foggy, lust-filled moments.
 I took in several deep breaths 
          and exhaled deeply, composing myself. I looked in the mirror and wiped the
 beads of sweat from my brow with a towel. Surprisingly,
 considering who had been the focus of my most recent
 masturbatory adventure, I didn't feel guilty as I
 looked at myself in the mirror. More than anything, I
 felt worrisome for myself. How was I going to let this
 continue? Was I going to allow myself to be tortured
 like this? Was I going to allow her to keep seducing me
 night in and night out before I do something I'll
 probably regret?
 She was just a sweet, virginal 
          angel. My angel, my Katie. She didn't know how badly she was affecting me.
 It wasn't her fault. I looked myself once more in the
 mirror, a lasting stare, slowed my heart rate,
 normalized my breathing, tried my best to remove the
 wildness in my eyes after the intense emotional and
 sexual ride I'd just put myself through and prepared to
 throw myself back into the storm and into Katie's
 waiting embrace.
 If I was lucky, she wouldn't 
          insist on spooning again, jamming that perfectly delectable ass into my crotch
 again. If so, though, I figured I'd probably spent at
 least a night's worth of cum and wouldn't have the
 juice to get hard again. But this was Katie, she could
 get me hard with one look and a snap of her fingers. I
 had to hope my body wouldn't betray me a second time. I
 exhaled deeply once more, prepared myself and opened
 the bathroom door.
 Walking back into the bedroom, 
          my mind and body clear of the burgeoning lust that had just minutes ago
 consumed me and was then exorcised from me, I saw Katie
 clearly and without motive. She was lying there under
 the blanket, face still glued towards the TV, eyes
 wide, mouth hanging slightly agape. She was 14 again,
 my sweet little sister. She looked so innocent. I wiped
 the bad thoughts I'd had in the bathroom about my
 possibly taking Katie in a moment of lust-induced
 weakness, even against her will, out of my mind and
 enjoyed the view set before me. My sweet Katie.
 I crawled back under the blanket 
          and moved next to her, from behind her, not as close as before, mind you, but
 still comfortably close. She reached behind her blindly
 and found my right hand and placed it on her tummy.
 With that, figuring my body was incapable of
 incriminating me, I moved up behind her again. I didn't
 jam my crotch into her rear-end and she didn't jut her
 ass into my crotch. It was safe. I felt safe, safer.
 "What did I miss?" 
          I asked, a sense of relief in my voice.
 She answered without prying 
          her eyes off the TV, her voice slightly distracted by the action flashing on the
 screen. "Like, everything. What were you doing in
 there? I heard noises but didn't know what it was. You
 okay?"
 "Oh, yeah. I just had 
          trouble with the toilet. It wasn't flushing." I answered, steering any suspicions
 of hers safely away.
 "It sounded like you were 
          wrestling a wild pig or something in there." She giggled.
 Oh, if only you knew, I thought. 
          And then a wave of horror swept over me. Had she felt my erection pressed
 against her ass earlier? Had she heard me in the
 bathroom beating off? Or worse, did she peek in the
 crack of the door while I beat off, catching me in the
 act?
 Did she know and was just torturing 
          me with what she knew, without coming right out and saying it? The
 torture was in not knowing if she knew. Best I could do
 was assume she didn't, that even as my erection had
 been pulsing against her ass, that she suspected
 nothing, because she was just a naïve little angel. I
 assumed this because it put me at ease.
 Relieved, my balls empty of 
          seed and the threat, for the moment, minimized, my mind and body was at ease. I
 nuzzled up behind Katie, pulling her towards me for the
 first time that night, instead of fighting her embrace
 or pulling away from her. I held her and kissed the
 back of her head. This brought her attention away from
 the movie.
 She looked over her shoulder 
          at me and smiled. "What was that for?"
 "Nothin'." I smiled. We went to bed after the movie 
          ended, tragedy and embarrassment averted. I closed my eyes and couldn't
 have been happier that the night ended up the way it
 did. I emptied my load and fell asleep next to my dream
 girl. It doesn't get any better than that.
 *** The following days were like 
          a perpetual, waking dream. Katie would wake up in the morning and roll over to
 where I was, me still asleep, and she'd straddle me and
 bounce up and down on me, trying to get me to wake up.
 We'd usually wrestle a little bit before getting up,
 going downstairs and making breakfast.
 I felt like I was living in 
          my own place with my girlfriend, rather than being at home with Katie. It
 was an exceedingly bizarre sensation, but a welcome
 one.
 Later that evening, after dinner, 
          we settled in. I was up in my room, lying down on my bed, flipping through
 some magazine when Katie knocked on my door, a smile
 stretched across her cute little face.
 "Can I come in?" 
          she asked. "Duh, we sleep in the 
          same bed and you're asking to come in?" I joked.
 She laughed too and crawled 
          onto the bed with me. She was looking tempting as ever, and the flimsy tank top
 and shorts she was wearing didn't help to quell the
 growing feeling of attraction that had been building
 for the last few weeks within me. She straddled my side
 forcing me to turn onto my back and away from the
 magazine.
 "Hey!" I chuckled, 
          the force of her weight on my mid-section causing me to grunt through my laughs.
 "Wanna wrestle?" 
          she asked as she started bouncing up and down on my stomach.
 "Katie..." I pleaded 
          through grunts forced out of my mouth by the pounding weight of her body on my stomach.
 "...please don't do that."
 "Why?" she asked. 
          "Am I too fat? Am I crushing you?" "No..." I reminded. 
          "...you have to remember that I haven't been with a girl in a long time and you jumping
 up and down on me doesn't exactly make it easier to
 control myself. I am a guy, remember?" I chuckled as I
 tossed her onto the bed next to me. She settled down,
 smiling and resting her head on the pillow next to
 mine. Her smile became sincere and then serious.
 "What's wrong?" 
          I asked. "Promise you won't be 
          mad?" she asked. Oh no, I thought. What could 
          she possibly be springing on me here? My mind surged with possibilities. Was she
 going to make some confession about loving me? Perhaps
 she was uncomfortable about our recent closeness and
 wanted to end it? No, that couldn't be it. She was just
 practically riding me a second ago. The few seconds in
 between her asking me not to be mad and her next words
 was excruciating until she finally spoke.
 "I think I'm pregnant." 
          She said. My jaw dropped, eyes froze, 
          face solidified into a mask of surprise. It took me a few seconds to reply.
 "Pregnant?" I asked. 
          "How? You haven't been out? Except with me. I don't-I don't understand..."
 Her serious face contorted into 
          a grimace and she started laughing. "I'm kidding, silly!"
 My entire being let out an internal 
          sigh of relief. I don't know what I was relieved about more; the fact
 that she hadn't slept with a guy who had gotten her
 pregnant, or the fact that if she got pregnant when I
 was supposed to be watching her, that mom and dad
 would've been so disappointed. They'd have thought what
 a shitty guardian I was for letting my baby sister get
 knocked up on my watch.
 Her smile was so relieving. 
          "The only way I could possibly be pregnant is by divine conception or by
 you." She joked.
 I laughed nervously. "So 
          you don't actually have a big confession to make?"
 "Well, there is something, 
          but it's so gross, you'll probably hate me for telling you."
 I put my hand on her left shoulder 
          and looked at her with sincerity. "Come on, Katie, don't be like that.
 You can tell me anything."
 Her eyes rolled around for a 
          moment or two of internal process. She was clearly a little uneasy about letting
 on this information. Whatever it was, it was making her
 feel a little uncomfortable. "I think I need to go see
 a doctor or something because I've been feeling itchy
 in my, you know, girl area?"
 I was perplexed for a moment. 
          I definitely wasn't the leading expert on female anatomy and physiology.
 "Itchy? Have you been fucking that football team
 again?"
 She scoffed at that, her jaw 
          dropping playfully. "I don't fuck football teams, you jerk. I don't fuck
 anyone!" She said, then punching my shoulder. "You know
 that! I'm a perfect, virginal angel." She looked away,
 demurely.
 I laughed. "You mean, 
          it's itchiness on the skin?" She was squirming in her skin 
          and clearly hadn't let on everything about her predicament. "No, dummy, not on
 the skin. It's not like crabs or something. It's like,
 inside. I don't know. I think it's a hormone thing
 because I've just been really, you know, lately."
 I was pretty sure what she meant 
          but I wanted her to suffer, so I played dumb. "I know? No, I don't know?
 What is it?"
 She sighed and rolled her eyes 
          with a pleasant smile, knowing that I was savoring her unpleasantness. "I've
 been feeling, like, you know, excited, more often,
 lately. When I get like that, it feels like I have this
 itch, down there, and inside, that wants to be itched.
 Oh gosh, I'm not talking to you about this. You're such
 a child!" she laughed.
 We both laughed and I embraced 
          her with my right arm, pulling her a few inches towards me. I wanted to
 reassure her but still couldn't keep a straight face
 and neither could she. "Ok, ok, I'm sorry. Let's be
 serious." I said, through cracks of laughter. "You mean
 you get horny?"
 She laughed, but when I said 
          the word 'horny' I could see her eyes widen for just that moment. She tried to
 not laugh but couldn't, even as she answered. "Yes,
 dumbass, I get horny. Geez."
 I thought it was so cute and 
          sexy that my little sister was admitting to me that she had been getting horny
 lately and didn't know why. It was so revealing and
 honest and a bit disturbing that she'd tell me. It was
 endearing that she'd share that with me and I wanted
 her to feel glad about doing so. But I was still going
 to tease her about it. "Aww, so baby sister's puss has
 been getting hungry lately?" I laughed.
 She knew there was no hiding 
          from my jabs so she just lowered her eyes, swallowed her pride and accepted the
 verbal jabs. "Yes, ok, yes. My pussy's been hungry
 lately."
 We were both still chuckling 
          uncontrollably. "So..." I added. "...have you been feeding it?"
 We both finally stopped laughing 
          but were still smiling at the humor of it all. Katie had to think about my
 question and make sure her answer still allowed her to
 maintain some dignity, seeing as that she'd bared her
 sexual soul to me just moments earlier. "Well, kinda, a
 few times." She answered hesitantly.
 "Like, with your fingers?" 
          I asked. "Yeah..." she trailed 
          off, still a little shy about sharing.
 It was strange, but I wasn't 
          really turned on talking about this obviously sexual topic. I think it was
 because I respected Katie so much that I was genuinely
 listening to her plight. I cared and wasn't just
 listening so I could hear more juicy details that I
 could use to fuel a ferocious masturbation session
 later on.
 "Well, hey..." I 
          said. "We all get that way sometimes. If you want, maybe I can get you something to help
 things, like a dildo or something. I don't know."
 She looked up at me and had 
          a genuine look of gratefulness on her face.
 "You mean, like a rubber 
          thingie?" she asked in a cute and naïve way.
 I looked at her and her naivety 
          spawned a question in my mind. I wondered if she was still a virgin or not.
 "Hey, can I ask you something?" 
          I asked. "Sure." She replied. "Are you still... well, 
          have you ever done it? I mean, with a guy."
 "It?" she inquired. 
          "As in, 'sex'?  "Yeah." I answered, 
          almost petrified at the prospect of an answer. If she'd confirmed my worst fears and said
 'yes', the thought of some douche bag grunting and
 sweating over my perfect angel of a sister would be
 sickening.
 She tucked a lock of hair behind 
          her ear, her eyes trying to find a way to answer without seeming to sound
 either not too naïve or not slutty, depending on the
 answer. "Well, I've kissed a few guys and a few of them
 felt me up, but I didn't do anything beyond that."
 "Are you serious?" 
          I asked . "Because sometimes girls say stuff like that because they feel ashamed if
 they're not virgins."
 Her eyes resigned to their fate. 
          "Well, I did go down on a guy once."
 "Oh, you gave him a blowjob?" 
          I asked. "Yeah." "But he didn't fuck you?" 
          I asked again, with firm resolve.
 She shook her head. I believed 
          her and was relieved. I loosened up.
 "Did you like it?" 
          I asked. "Giving a blowjob." She shrugged. "It was 
          ok. He tried to cum in my mouth but I pulled him out of my mouth and he kind of came on
 my cheek and shoulder. I wasn't very good at it. I
 think he was irritated because as he came I didn't know
 what to do and he kinda yelled at me to jerk him off
 while he was cumming. I kind of stank at it, I guess.
 We didn't really hang out after that. That was, like, a
 year ago."
 I had to admit that hearing 
          my little angel, Katie, talk about giving head and getting cummed on definitely
 got me hard and it was not only confusing for me, but
 also uncomfortable. If Katie had leaned forward a few
 inches, she'd feel my hard-on against her tummy. I
 tried to sort of arch my back and pull my crotch away
 from her without it seeming too obvious.
 I couldn't help it. She looked 
          so incredibly cute. So shy and cuddled up less than a foot away from me. She
 was irresistible. The fact that she could barely
 maintain eye contact with me while she told me about
 giving head was so adorable. I just wanted to lean
 forward, pull her towards me and embrace her, but my
 current physical state made that impossible.
 "So, what about you?" 
          she finally asked, looking up at me, with an innocent longing in her eyes.
 "What about me?" 
          I asked. The mood in the room was now far from silly and light-hearted. After Katie bared her
 soul to me not only about having urges as of late and
 about giving her first blowjob, the room just felt a
 bit warmer. My hard-on was definitely not helping
 things.
 "Yeah..." she added. 
          "Are you still a virgin?" I felt horrible about having 
          to tell those beautiful dark eyes that I had been with other girls. Not many,
 mind you, but one was just as bad as a hundred, I
 imagined. I could tell by the look in her eyes that she
 wanted me to say 'yes' as badly as I wished I could say
 it. So the best thing I felt I could do is just tell
 the truth. "I've been with a few girls, yeah."
 Like I expected, I could almost 
          see her heart sink through the look in her eyes. But she came back
 strongly. "How many? A lot?" she asked, her voice was
 being spoken in hush, very intimate tones. Considering
 we were less than a foot apart, her voice was still
 barely audible.
 We were both very comfortable 
          at this point. We were both baring our souls to each other and it was
 strangely intimate. Our barriers were completely down
 and I knew I could tell her anything and I can only
 assume she felt the same. I had to almost reminisce
 about a time when Katie was just 'my sister'. When I
 looked into her eyes now, what I saw was a beautiful
 young treasure that I felt grateful for just knowing.
 We were both sort of lost in 
          the love game and we seemed anchored to each other because we knew that even
 if we failed at finding love in the outside world, we'd
 still have each other and our friendship was more
 powerful than even a love we could ever find with other
 people. Our bond was closer.
 I remembered her question. "Not 
          a lot. Seven, I think."  Her eyes widened and she seemed 
          to not fancy the answer. "Seven? Wow. That's... a lot."
 I smiled and tried to play it 
          off. "Not really. I mean, I'm 4 years older than you so I've just had more time.
 I haven't been with a girl in almost a year." My answer
 didn't help much. Katie's expression was still one of
 indifference.
 "So, do any of those girls 
          still call you?" she asked. "Oh, no. Not in awhile. 
          I doubt I'll hear from any of them ever again. Some of them moved away. It's not
 really a big deal."
 "Mm-hmm." She muttered, 
          obviously not as cheerful or receptive as before. It was as if her cheery demeanor
 got up and walked out, leaving the rest of Katie there
 for me. I was losing her, I could tell by the look in
 her face, as her eyes wandered down. I had to think
 fast.
 I touched her left shoulder 
          and smiled. "Come on, Katie. What's wrong? So I slept with a few girls a few
 years ago. Does that make me a horrible person?"
 She slowly shrugged up her shoulder 
          to get me to remove my hand, which I did, along with my smile. She looked
 down with complete apathy. "I guess I just expected
 more from you. I don't know. So, would you just sleep
 with these girls on the first date, or what? As quick
 as you could get them into bed?"
 I stared at her for a second, 
          speechless. "Katie, listen, I'm a 
          guy, ok? A single guy. I would hang out with a girl I was interested in and, after
 awhile, if I found out she was interested in me, things
 would just happen. But every girl I slept with, I
 always hoped it would be something more. I don't sleep
 with anyone unless I care about them. Obviously,
 though, they didn't care enough about me to want to
 keep hanging out with me. Is that my fault?"
 She thought for a second and 
          then answered with a painfully calm demeanor. "I... I think I'm going to
 sleep in my bed tonight."
 Without making eye contact again, 
          she slowly slid backwards off the bed and stood up. I quickly stood up
 and made for the door, closing it before she could
 leave. She stopped, not protesting to my having closed
 the door. She just stood there, arms crossed, as if she
 was holding herself, eyes fixed to the floor.
 "Katie, wait. Look at 
          me." I said. But she refused to do what I asked.
 I put my forefinger under her 
          chin and lifted her face to mine. She finally made eye contact with me.
 "What is wrong? I don't 
          understand. Everything was so nice. It's been so great for weeks and then I mention
 about a few girls I was with years ago and you
 instantly get cold with me." I said, desperate to know
 what I'd done, but she just looked at me like she was
 afraid of me. "I've been with a few girls, yes, but I
 don't go out every weekend looking for girls to just
 have sex with. You know me. You should know me better
 than that."
 Her eyes started to well up 
          with tears. I couldn't understand it. I caressed her cheek.
 After a few moments, she spoke. 
          "I'm sorry." It was so deeply sincere and 
          heartfelt. I felt like apologizing to her for her having apologized to me. I
 turned to her and caressed her right cheek with my left
 hand, looking into her eyes. "I didn't know why you had
 gotten so mad at me." I said. "I mean, you're the only
 girl in my life, and that's how I want it to stay.
 You're my best friend, Katie. I love you. You're the
 best sister any guy could ask for. I don't want to lose
 you."
 Tears were almost welling up 
          in her eyes as she looked up at me. "I don't want us to fight like that again."
 She pleaded.
 "Come on, Katie. You know 
          how I feel about you. You're everything I want in a girl. Smart, funny, sweet, kind,
 extremely cute. But most of all you're my best friend."
 She looked down, understanding 
          what I'd meant and apparently feeling the same as I did. "I know. I feel
 the same way."
 We were both still smiling, 
          but now we were looking at each other with such a pure fondness. Strangely, the
 silence had become unbearable. The look she was giving
 me was the kind of look that led to babies. I could
 feel a stir in my boxers and had to break the ice.
 "Hey, you wanna watch 
          a movie in my room?" I asked. "Sure." She said. We went up to my room and as 
          I was setting up the TV with a DVD, Katie sat down at my computer desk and
 started randomly clicking on stuff on the screen.
 "Hey." She said. "What kind of movies do you have 
          saved
 on your computer?"
 "Nothing much." 
          I said. "Mostly some cartoons." "And a lot of porn, huh?" 
          she said with a devilish smile.
 I stood up and walked over to 
          the computer, turning off the screen. "Yes." I said smiling.
 She switched the monitor back 
          on. "Come on, I want to see too." She said. "Show me some."
 I thought for a second, looking 
          at her judgmentally, still smiling.
 "Please?" she asked, 
          with a grin I couldn't turn down. "Ok. Here..." I 
          said as I opened a video program on the computer. I opened the file folder and started slowly
 skimming through them. It showed thumb-nailed images of
 the first frame of each video. Katie was sitting
 forward, looking intently at each thumb-nailed image.
 "Ooh! How about this one?" 
          she said as she pointed at one image.
 "Ok." I said as 
          I clicked on it, opening the file, upon which the video started playing.
 "So, what happens in this 
          one?" she asked without taking her eyes from the screen.
 "Umm, well, the guy cums 
          inside the girl by the end of it." I said.
 She looked at me. "Inside?" 
          she said, scrunching her face.
 "Yeah." I replied. "But wouldn't she get 
          pregnant?" she asked, now more intently.
 "Mmm, I think they give 
          the girl some kind of spermicide stuff that she puts inside before they do
 it. Either that or she takes one of those morning-after
 pills. That or both." I said.
 "So that kind of thing 
          works? Makes it so you can't get pregnant?" she asked, deeply inquisitive.
 "Sure. Well, like 99% 
          effective, I think." I said, and then had a thought. "Hey, this better not be giving you
 any ideas. I don't want you banging guys right and left
 without protection because of something I said." I said
 with a laugh.
 "No..." she said, 
          chortling. "I was just wondering is all..."
 I was sly to her curiosity. 
          "Yeah, wondering is what gets a lot of cute girls like you in trouble."
 "Oh, stop it..." 
          she said, gently pushing on my leg with her hand.
 I smiled and walked away, lying 
          down on my bed and turning the DVD on. I sat and watched my movie while
 Katie was glued to my computer screen. She was now
 leaning forward, her head propped up by her right hand,
 her arm resting on the computer desk.
 "You can use my headphones 
          to hear it if you want." I suggested.
 "Oh, ok!" she said, 
          reaching for the headphones and putting them on.
 I went back to watching my movie. 
          The porno she was watching lasted about 15 minutes. As I glanced over at
 her over the course of the duration of the porno, I
 noticed her legs would squirm slowly and she'd rub her
 knees together. Very gently and very slowly, but she
 was definitely squirming in my chair as she watched it.
 I wondered "Was she somehow 
          masturbating?" I tried not to survey her too long in case she turned around.
 After the clip was over, I noticed 
          her close the program. She spun around in my computer chair.
 "Hey, I gotta go to the 
          bathroom. I'll be right back." She said as she got up and walked out of the bedroom.
 "Ahh..." I thought. 
          She was probably doing the pee dance when here I thought she was rubbing her thighs
 together to masturbate. I felt a bit ashamed, but only
 for a split second.
 I sat and watched TV for awhile 
          until I realized that Katie had been in the bathroom for over ten minutes.
 Just as I pondered that, Katie came in, seemingly light
 as a feather. She exhaled deeply, then smiled, and
 jumped onto the bed next to me. She was lying on her
 tummy, propping her upper body up on her elbows. She
 looked down on the magazine I was flipping through.
 "So..." I said. 
          "Did you like that porno?" She looked perplexed for a moment. 
          "Yeah, but I kind of wondered why he came inside her. You couldn't see him
 cum or anything." She said.
 "I know. But you saw it 
          drip out at the end, right?" I asked.
 "Yeah, but they didn't 
          show him actually shoot it out." She said.
 She thought for a second. "Is 
          that the sort of thing you're into? Seeing the guy cum inside the girl?" She
 seemed genuinely concerned, but in a sexually
 inquisitive way.
 "Umm, yeah. Kinda." 
          I answered. "Why?" she asked 
          boldly and bluntly as she laid on her side, facing me. We were only inches apart on the bed
 now.
 I didn't have an answer that 
          wouldn't have come off as strange. For some reason, I like watching videos like
 that because of the potential risk of the girl getting
 knocked up. It's some weird fascination with me, don't
 ask why. I figure a lot of guys probably have it, which
 is why there are all these babies crawling around. It's
 probably something programmed in the male psyche, to
 help proliferate the species or some primal
 evolutionary programming thing. I tried to answer her
 as best I can.
 "I don't know, I just 
          do. Maybe it's because of seeing the guy and the girl risk doing that and that the girl
 might get pregnant. I don't know. It's like people who
 like NASCAR, that thrill that there might be an
 accident." I said, in hopes that would quell her
 curiosity.
 "So you like the idea 
          of possibly getting a girl pregnant when you have sex with her?" she asked again,
 still curious.
 I was treaded dangerous waters 
          again. I didn't want to say something to have her disgusted in me and storm out
 like before. I took a deep breath before I answered and
 when I did I did so with a soft, restrained tone.
 "Katie, I don't want 
          you to get mad and think I'm a pervert and storm out because of something I say..." I
 said before she put her right hand on my left hand,
 assuring me.
 "Kevin, I'm past that. 
          I'm not going to freak out. I'm just curious about you, that's all."
 Hmph, I thought. Well, that 
          makes this easier. I felt like I could just speak my mind, so I did.
 "Well, to answer you question..." 
          I said. "...yeah, it is kind of a turn on to think that that would happen. A
 pregnancy. I think it's an issue of closeness. To me,
 it's like, if a girl let's you get her pregnant, she
 must have an extreme amount of love and trust in you,
 so I think that's what the turn-on is. The idea that
 maybe a girl would love me so much that when the time
 came for me to, you know, that she wouldn't tell me to
 pull out. I don't know, I'm probably just a pervert." I
 laughed. Katie laughed with me.
 "No, you're not a pervert. 
          I think it's a cute and sweet reason. So, to you, a girl letting you cum inside
 her is like an admission of true love for you?" she
 asked.
 "Yeah, I think it's because 
          I don't have a lot of trust in girls and a girl can tell you anything and be lying,
 but if she entrusts her body with you that much to just
 completely give herself to you and allow you to get
 inside her defenses and give her a child, it's like her
 saying 'I trust you and have faith in you, do what you
 want with me.' It's special and not the kind of emotion
 that can be faked because a baby is something that is
 life-changing and the baby represents the joining of
 the guy and the girl and kind of a symbol of love, or
 something." I said.
 She was looking into me so deeply. "Does it sound like I've 
          been thinking a lot about this?" I joked. She smiled back.
 "Can I ask you something?" 
          she asked. "Sure." I said. "Do you trust me?" 
          she asked, her words deep and true. "I sure hope so. I'm 
          admitting all this perverted stuff to you." I said with a laugh.
 "It's not perverted. 
          It's sweet. So I guess I can assume you do trust me?" she asked.
 "Yes, I do trust you." She smiled again. "Can I ask something again?" 
          she asked, her face scrunched up like it had been before, as if she thought
 she was annoying me, which she wasn't.
 "Of course." "Well, if you could have 
          your girlfriend dress up, what would you have her dress up as? What would be your
 fantasy?" she asked.
 "Oh wow..." I said, 
          wondering if I really wanted to reveal anymore of the inner workings of my mind,
 knowing how I, at times, felt ashamed at what I found
 sexually exciting. Even though, I'm sure my tastes were
 somewhat banal and common, I still felt naturally
 ashamed about them.
 Katie goaded me on with a keen 
          smile. "Come on, you can tell me. I'll answer whatever question you want to ask
 me afterwards, then, to make it fair."
 I sighed with a smile and tried 
          to make my answer and my delivery as straight-forward and uneventful as
 possible. "Well, I don't know. A girl in a Catholic
 school uniform is never a bad thing." I chuckled.
 She smiled. "You mean, 
          the one with the plaid skirt and high socks?" she asked.
 "Yeah." I said. "That's a cute uniform! 
          I like the socks they wear."  "Yeah." I said. 
          Even though the topic we were discussing could have been very uncomfortable, the mood
 in the room was very calm and friendly, intimate. Three
 words that basically summed up the last several weeks
 between Katie and I.
 "I think dressing up for 
          my boyfriend would turn me on if it turned him on." She said.
 "Wow, that's actually 
          a really generous way to look at it. Whatever guy gets you is definitely going to be
 lucky and happy in the bedroom." I laughed.
 She giggled. "Well, does 
          that make you lucky and happy, too, since we're in your bedroom?"
 I did genuinely feel lucky and 
          beyond happy. Here I was lying in bed with my dream girl and everything was
 perfect and deep down in my heart, I knew that I
 couldn't follow it. I couldn't do what my heart was
 telling me to do which was lean forward, take her face
 in my hands and give her the most gentle, passionate
 kiss I'd ever given any girl in my life. I so wanted to
 do that, so much that the willpower it took not to do
 it made my body ache. I had to fight against myself and
 my urges to keep from doing it.
 The longer I looked in her beautiful, 
          angelic, dark eyes, I wasn't sure how much longer my better judgment
 would be in control of my baser instincts, my urges. It
 was like a violent, needy body of water building and
 forcing itself against a dam, the dam being logic and
 sense, the surging waters being desire and passion. All
 I could do was smile.
 "Yes, I do feel very lucky 
          and very happy. You make me very happy." I gently brushed a few strands of hair
 from her face. I wanted to kiss her so badly.
 As I touched her face, she inched 
          towards me even closer, we were now mere inches from each other.
 "You know, if and when 
          I ever get a boyfriend, I hope he's like you." She whispered.
 "Gimme a hug." I 
          boldly demanded, and gave her a big, strong hug and as I did, I whispered into her ear. "Did
 you go finger yourself after watching that porno
 earlier?"
 Katie burst out laughing as 
          we broke the hug just enough for me to see her face. "Did you go peek in the
 bathroom door or something?"
 I chuckled. "I didn't 
          have to. I noticed your legs rubbing together when you were watching it, then you
 conveniently went to the bathroom after so I figured
 you either had to pee badly or you were getting 'itchy'
 while watching that porno and had to go relieve
 yourself."
 She had this devilish grin smeared 
          across her face. "So, everyone does it. With all those pornos you have,
 I'm sure you do too, right?"
 I laughed. "Yeah, I was 
          just messing with you. But, from now on, anytime you want something to help get you
 in the mood to finger yourself, you can watch my
 pornos, ok?"
 "Gee, thanks, Kevin." 
          She stated sarcastically. "Just don't start fingering 
          yourself while I'm in the room..." I said, laughing still.
 "Oh, shut up, you'd probably 
          like it." She joked. "I probably would..." 
          I joked back.  There was an uncomfortable silence. 
          It seemed like Katie was building up courage to say something. There
 was hesitancy in her mannerisms, in her eyes.
 "Is that what got you 
          so hard the other night?" she blurted out innocently.
 I look at her dumbfounded, my 
          jaw agape. "Did the thought of me 
          playing with myself get you like that?" she added, curiously, still soft and unassuming.
 I stuttered. My brain raced 
          to cook up a phony excuse but Katie was hypnotizing me with her eyes and my mind
 was rendered incapable of complex thought. I tried to
 muster up some form of explanation.
 "Katie... I'm sorry. 
          It wasn't intentional. I-you felt that?" I asked.
 She looked down coyly, tucking 
          her hair behind her ear. "Uhh, yeah. I could feel you get hard against my, you
 know, my... butt." She giggled childishly.
 I looked down, swollen with 
          disgust for myself. "Katie, I'm so sorry..."
 She saved me from destroying 
          what little was left of my dignity. Placing a caring hand on my hand, she looked
 into my eyes with those deep dark pools of hers.
 "Kevin, it's ok. It's not like you're the only one that
 gets turned on."
 "Yeah, but it's easy 
          to notice if I get turned on, especially if your butt is pressed up against my
 crotch." I laughed.
 She giggled bashfully. "Can 
          I ask you something?" "Uh-oh, I don't know..." 
          I chuckled nervously. "When you got out of bed 
          the other day and you went into the bathroom and I asked you if you were ok, did
 you... you know?"
 I smiled, trying to goad her 
          onto say something naughty. "No, I don't know. What?"
 She smiled, rolling her eyes 
          and sighing. "You know... did you... beat off?"
 She looked so incredibly cute 
          as she struggled through that question. I figured I'd let her off the hook.
 "Well, what do you think?"
 She feigned offense, tightening 
          her face in a cutesy grimace. "I don't know... you tell me."
 I laughed. "Yeah, I didn't 
          do a real good job of keeping quiet, did I?"
 "No, I knew you were probably 
          doing something." She teased.
 "I hope it didn't gross 
          you out too much." "No... not at all." 
          She said candidly. "Actually, I kinda got turned on by it and I... oh gosh..."
 I was drowning in anticipation, 
          waiting for her to confess.
 "My hands kinda started 
          to roam before you walked in and when you did, I stopped."
 "Wow, really?" I 
          asked, stunned. "Yeah." "See, you got it easy 
          though, if you get turned on, I'd never know. I get turned on and I have to walk funny
 and cover my crotch." I laughed.
 "That's sooo not true. 
          It's not easy for me either. Whenever I get wet, you're usually around since we hang
 out so much and I have to just sit there or lie there,
 afraid that it might show on the outside of my shorts
 or panties or something... It sucks." She chuckled.
 That got me very curious. "Really? 
          Like, how often are you wet? I know you mentioned before about having that
 'itchy' problem but do you get like that a lot?"
 "What? Wet?" she 
          asked. "Yeah." Her eyes scanned down and away. 
          She didn't want to come out and confess anything and I could tell. I kind of
 wished I could've taken back that personal question,
 but we had been so close I didn't think she would take
 offense to it.
 "Yeah, kind of a lot. 
          I don't know, maybe it's because I'm not used to being around guys and you're a guy and
 we've been so affectionate lately and I'm not used to
 that either. It's no big deal. I don't want to bug you
 with that kind of stupid stuff."
 "Like I want to get hard 
          while we're spooning? That's humiliating, Katie!" I jested.
 She didn't laugh, but instead 
          was solemn. "You shouldn't feel humiliated, Kevin. I actually..." she
 paused, wondering if she should continue. "I actually
 thought it was sweet. The thought that maybe I had
 somehow got you turned on."
 I joined her solemnity. "Well, 
          what else could've turned me on? Unless I'm one of those sickos who gets
 turned on watching horror movies..." I laughed.
 She smiled but the conversation 
          was too serious for her to break her solemnity.
 "So, was it me that turned 
          you on that night?" she finally asked, her eyes beaming into mine.
 My eyes widen, surprised by 
          the question, having been caught off-guard. That was a major question that, if
 answered, would be of major consequence. I answered as
 best I could: honestly. "Well... yeah, I can't lie to
 you. Yeah, you turned me on."
 Her face didn't move, still 
          focused with steely resolve, her eyes still searching mine for further
 details within my brief answer. She didn't seem
 appalled by my answer, or disappointed, she seemed
 genuinely fascinated by it. I knew my answer wasn't
 enough. She wanted more, and part of me wanted to tell
 her more.
 "What can I say? I guess 
          it was tough lying there with you in that position, considering we were both in our
 underwear and that I hadn't been with a girl in ages. I
 forgot what it was like to be so intimate with a
 girl..." I admitted.
 There was a slight revelation 
          in her eyes. "Ohhh, I see. So it's just because you haven't been with a girl
 in a long time. Okay." The deepness in her eyes was
 ebbing away. I had to reassure her.
 "Katie, no, no, that's 
          not it at all. Should I feel bad because you get wet around me and assume that the only
 reason you do is because I'm just a guy and you'd get
 wet around anyone?" I proposed.
 That got Katie thinking. The 
          look in her face confessed to me that she felt wrong for the recent accusation.
 She looked back up at me.
 "I'm sorry. I don't 
          get wet around you just because... I do because you're you."
 "And that's why I get 
          turned on around you, because you're you, okay?"
 She nods, conceding to my theory. "Goodness, Katie..." 
          I joked. "...what are we going to do with each other? I'd better move out before we do
 something we'll regret." I said, letting out a hearty
 chuckle.
 Katie giggled at my comment, 
          but straightened up quick, grabbing at my hands. "You'd better not ever move out
 or I swear I'll hunt you down and beat the heck out of
 you!"
 She got more aggressive and 
          start assailing me, tickling my chest and arms. I fended her off. "What?
 You'd beat me off?" I teased.
 She feigned being shocked and 
          attacked me even fiercer. "Yeah, you'd like that, wouldn't you?"
 I still couldn't refrain from 
          laughing under the barrage of her clawed hands. I was shuffling around,
 giggling like a kindergartener. "If we didn't know each
 other, of course! And I wouldn't even yell at you or
 cum on your shoulder."
 Still smiling, she slowed her 
          tickling to a stop. "Well, where would you then?"
 "Where would I what?" "Cum. Where would you 
          cum?" "Where would I cum? Like, 
          in what situation? You beating me off? Us having sex?"
 "Making love." She 
          corrected. "What?" I asked, 
          confused.. "We'd never 'have sex', 
          if we did it, it'd be making love."
 "Oh... ok. Well, if we 
          were making love?" I asked. "Yeah. If you didn't 
          know me and we were making love and you had your choice of where to cum, where would
 you?"
 "You mean like face, mouth, 
          tits, ass...?" I asked. "Anywhere." I pondered the most endearing 
          and painfully beautiful question I'd ever been asked. I put my finger to my
 lips as my eyes wandered off, I sarcastically played as
 if I had been asked the great Question of the Universe.
 "Where would I cum if we were making love?..."
 Katie's eyes were wide and 
          set firmly on me, waiting for an answer.
 "Well..." I said. 
          "I'd probably wait until you were extremely lost in our lovemaking and, without warning
 you, I'd just squirt it in you." I burst out laughing.
 Again, she feigned shock and started poking and shoving
 at me.
 "You jerk! I can't believe 
          you'd do that! If you ever did that, you better either be prepared to drive me to
 the doctor's office for one of those 'morning after'
 pills or get ready to be a daddy." She smiled, dropping
 the masquerade and showing how much fun she was having.
 "Or an even smarter thing 
          to do would be to get the pills before so, just in case of a slip up, you've got
 a backup plan."
 "Wow... so you must've 
          plotted something like this before, huh, since you love the idea of cumming inside
 girls?"
 "Oh, stop, Katie..." 
          I laughed. "That weird, sick thing I'm fascinated with only works when the girl gives me
 permission. I'm not some scumbag who knocks up girls
 and runs for the hills..."
 "I know, I was just playing 
          with you..." she said, touching my chest.
 "You're playing with 
          me?" I joked sarcastically. "Ugh!" she grunted 
          with fake outrage, punching me again.
 We were having too much fun, 
          so much so there should've been a law. Technically, there were laws against the
 sort of stuff I'm sure we wanted to do to each other.
 "Kinda sucks to think 
          that if one of us had only had a different set of parents we could be having an awful
 lot of fun right now..." she imagined, a playful scowl
 on her face.
 "Yeah, but if we didn't 
          have the same parents it's doubtful we'd know each other or that we'd be here
 right now. And if we had different parents and were
 both here right now and had our fun, within a year or
 two from now we'd be juggling a nursery of kids." I
 joked.
 "So you'd have me barefoot 
          and pregnant constantly?" "Probably..." I 
          chuckled. "I think if we had kids 
          you'd make a great daddy." "You think so?" 
          I asked. "Yeah." She said 
          as she crawled towards me, wrapping her arms around me tightly. I returned her embrace as
 we lay there cuddling.
 Overcome with elation, wrapped 
          in our warm embrace, we glanced over at the TV. There was a baby food
 commercial, a cherubic infant cooing and giggling.
 Katie held me closer.
 "Awwww..." she cooed. 
          "...how cute." Then she frowned in a cutesy way. "I want a baby."
 I felt a tinge in my crotch. 
          She said that in such a seductive way, I was spellbound. Her delivery sent a
 shiver down my spine and made my penis thump and swell,
 bringing me back to a few days ago with the infamous
 spooning incident. We weren't quite so close together
 to engender panic in me, but I had to try and tame the
 wild beast fighting to grow in my boxers. Katie looked
 up at me with those big, doe eyes which didn't help.
 "Kevin, aren't babies 
          cute?" her eyes still on mine. "Of course. But before 
          you start wanting a baby, you'd better find a good man and be in a long-term
 relationship. I don't want you letting some scraggly
 creep knock you up and then him running." I smiled.
 "Kevin, you know me. Besides, 
          the way I'm going, by the time I meet a decent guy and have been in a long-term
 relationship, my eggs will have dried up." She laughed.
 "Nah, you'll find a guy 
          long before then. If you went out and just started hanging out with people, a guy
 would snatch you up in no time."
 "To be honest with you, 
          I don't really want to find someone. I'm happy the way things are." She confessed
 her eyes warm and loving. "I'm happier with you than
 some guy that I'm not sure if he'll hurt me or not. I
 know you'd never hurt me." Her eyes looked up at me
 with a longing.
 Another uncomfortable silence 
          before Katie spoke up again, this time a bit uneasy, trying to find strength
 as she spoke each word.
 "Kevin, I was thinking 
          something, and if I sound crazy, just tell me and I'll shut up and never mention it
 again, ok?"
 "Okay." I said, 
          my curiosity having been peaked. She spoke as if she was walking 
          on eggshells. Very delicately. "Well, I was thinking that if, after
 awhile, like say, five years, if I don't at least have
 a boyfriend that maybe you could... donate... some
 stuff so I could have a baby. Before I get old and
 can't have any, that is."
 "Donate?" I asked, 
          not quite sure of what she meant initially. Then, my brain kicked in and the thought was
 almost too unbelievable that I had to make sure she was
 thinking what I thought she was. "As in..."
 "You know..." she 
          said, her eyes hopeful and innocent. It still took a moment to sink 
          in. "Donate? Like... sperm?"
 Katie seemed overcome with regret, 
          shaking her head childishly. "It sounds so stupid. I'm sorry, just
 forget I said it. I don't know what I was thinking."
 Without letting her drag the 
          conversation down, I interrupted. "So, would I go to a lab and give them a
 sample or would I be 'donating' the old fashioned way?"
 She stopped her downward spiral 
          of regret, my words pulling her back into her initial mindset, her eyes met
 mine again.
 "What's 'the old fashioned 
          way'? she asked with such naïve cuteness.
 "Duh. What do you think?" 
          I laughed. She cracked a reflexive smile. 
          "Okay, okay, now I know. I was actually thinking that, especially since I know
 now that you probably would get some enjoyment out of
 it, we'd actually be helping each other in a way, you
 know? You'd get to create a life with someone who loves
 you and you'd be giving me a baby."
 I couldn't believe what I was 
          hearing. Katie basically confessed, in a way, that she wanted to have my baby.
 Well, as a last resort, but even still. She wanted to
 make my fantasy come true, but based on the rules of
 the proposition it might not ever happen. I knew that
 someone would realize Katie was a jewel and would
 snatch her up, but I was flattered nonetheless.
 "Katie, of course I'd 
          be willing to help you, but I don't want you asking me to do this for you when I'm
 sure tons of guys would want to be with you." I
 offered.
 "Unless a guy comes along 
          who is exactly like you, I wouldn't want to have a baby with anyone." She said.
 "So, would you want me 
          to help you with the baby?" "You wouldn't have to 
          help me raise the baby, but it'd be nice if you'd want to see it from time to time."
 "Of course I would!" 
          I said with a joyous chuckle. "I want kids someday and I'd rather it be with someone I
 love rather than a mistake with someone I'd regret
 having slept with afterwards."
 She smiled and looked away. 
          "I was hoping you'd say that."
 "Although I doubt that'll 
          ever happen because in no time some guy is going to stumble onto you and realize
 what a find you are and is going to scoop you up for
 himself." I exclaimed.
 "Not if I don't go outside." 
          She joked with a mock seriousness.
 "Oh, you'll go outside 
          eventually. I'll make you." I chuckled.
 "So what, you want some 
          other guy to take me away from you?"
 I could tell she was serious 
          that time. The look in her eyes was deep and fierce.
 "Katie..." I said. 
          "Of course not, I love having you around. I think you'd make a great mother. But I want
 you to be happy, that's all. I just want you to make
 sure you test the waters before settling on me."
 "Kevin, I've had boyfriends. 
          I've known lots of guys and none of them compare to you. I'm a big girl and
 know what I want."
 "And you want me?" 
          I asked with a stone-cold, unmovable sternness.
 She looked at me for a second 
          or two and then with the softest, gentlest voice, she spoke. "Yes."
 I raised my hand to her face 
          and caressed it. "Ok then. I guess it'd be a waste of time to wait if you've
 already made your decision."
 "So then, we don't have 
          to wait five years?" "Not if you don't want 
          to, but we should wait for awhile to at least save up some money, plan where we're
 going to move because we can't live here if we're going
 to be making babies." I chuckled.
 "Ok..." she said, 
          her voice trembling, almost brought to tears.
 I held her close. "I love 
          you, Katie." Her eyes closed, head buried 
          into my chest, she whispered back. "I love you, too."
 Out of nowhere Katie leaned 
          forward and gave me a quick peck on the lips. It was painfully soft and wet. She
 couldn't look at me after that, she didn't have the
 courage. Still facing me, her eyes looked away, not
 knowing what to say. Hell, I didn't know what to say,
 but I knew what I wanted to do.
 I just looked at her with an 
          adoration I'd never felt up to this point. I felt the dam of will power breaking
 within me. I reached up and caressed her cheek and then
 I leaned forward boldly, traveling those few inches
 that felt like miles. My lips were hungry for hers.
 I whispered, "Katie..." 
          and then I gave her a gentle kiss. We both closed our eyes and enjoyed the moment,
 savored it.
 At first my mouth was closed, 
          but with the next kiss I opened my mouth slightly and as our lips met again, I
 heard that beautiful sound of our lips meshing. I never
 wanted to stop hearing that sound, but the sensation,
 the feeling was impossibly even better than the sound.
 Katie was a little more than 
          limp at first, but as we kissed, her passion gained fervor. I felt heaven as she
 kissed me back. Her lips were so soft but her mouth was
 so excruciatingly wet and hot and inviting. My lips
 would brush against the insides of her lips as we
 kissed and I tasted that nectar, the warmth and heat in
 her mouth.
 The more we kissed, the more 
          passionate it became, even though it was still slow, soft and gentle, the desire
 behind each kiss gained in intensity, our mouths
 opening more each time. The first kiss was a peck but
 now we were passionately entwined. Our arms came up as
 we held each other close, wrapping ourselves into one.
 I could feel the gentle and 
          pure craving in her embrace. By now, I had a full erection, rock hard and
 hungry and pressing against Katie's tummy. Now I didn't
 care if she noticed it or not. In fact, I gently pushed
 forward, pressing my hard-on into her belly, making
 sure she felt it.
 She pulled away from our kiss 
          and then looked down between us at the rigid, throbbing meat growing in my
 boxers and nuzzling up against her tummy. She looks
 awestruck, her mouth slightly agape, her eyes focused
 on it. Then she looked up at me. "Kevin, you're hard?"
 I only nodded as no words were 
          needed. We were both writhing against each other, stroking, caressing and
 rubbing. She returned the motion, pushing back on my
 erection with her tummy.
 Curiously and precociously, 
          she reached forward and rested her left hand atop the apex of the tent that my
 erection had built out of my boxers. I could feel the
 pressure of her little hand on the tip of my cock and
 let out a low groan. It felt incredible.
 "Can I touch it?" 
          she asked with such inquisitive wonder.
 "Uh huh." I blurted 
          out. I knew she'd seen a cock before, 
          even had one in her mouth, but the naivety in her voice and her delicate,
 carefully measured gestures as she hovered over mine,
 asking to explore it were so mesmerizing, so
 seductively overpowering that I didn't dare imagine
 what the next hour or so would entail or I'd risk
 blowing my load right then and there before any fun
 could begin.
 With my permission given, Katie 
          began to free my hard-on from its confines, undoing the buttons on my boxers
 one by one until they were all undone. And with a look
 of exquisite anticipation on her face, she delicately
 wormed her hand into my boxers. I felt her wrap her
 lithe, warm fingers around my pulsing girth and attempt
 to pull it from the restraining fabric. With a bit of
 gentle pressure, my cock popped out. I heard her utter
 a faint gasp as she saw it.
 She playfully admired it; slowly 
          running her fist up and down its length, studying it's every nuance. I
 shifted in place, my body involuntarily reacting to
 every minute sensation that her tiny hand on my cock
 presented. It was so sensitive that with every inch she
 explored, she'd brush a nerve that'd send electricity
 down my spine, causing my body to twitch. I could feel
 the contours of her fingers on my cock and it was
 incredible.
 She looked at me with those 
          big, beautiful eyes, her lip hanging so innocently. I could've blown my load all
 over her tank top right there. She was begging for
 instruction as her eyes explored mine. She wanted to
 please me, to give me release, to reward me for every
 nice thing I'd ever done for her. She wanted to repay
 me for being the guy that every other guy wasn't. She
 wanted me to teach her how to be a woman, the type of
 woman who knows how to please the man she loves.
 She had drawn me into her naivety 
          and my mind was clouded with thoughts of her. I'd forgotten every other
 sexual act I'd ever shared with a woman, every act,
 every orgasm. I was a virgin again, with her, and we
 were going to lose our virginity to each other. When
 the time came that I penetrated her, I would claim her
 virginity, but she would also claim virginity from me,
 my first time for being truly in love in a way I never
 imagined was possible.
 "Does this feel nice?" 
          she asked, hoping for instruction.
 My eyes were finding it hard 
          to stay open. I was in ecstasy and could barely speak coherently. I could only
 whisper a 'yes.'
 She looked back down on my cock, 
          still very slowing exploring its length. In fact, she didn't even have a
 firm grip on it, her fingers only very lightly made
 contact with my cock as she went through the motions.
 It was intoxicating. I could feel my eyes rolling back
 in rapture.
 "Am I doing it right?" 
          she asked, so sweet. I caressed her face. "Yes, 
          sweetie." "I love you." She 
          responded. "I love you too." She leaned forward and I took 
          note, leaning forward and gently kissing her. Our mouths began to merge, our eyes
 closed and we were melded together in bliss. We began
 to kiss more passionately as Katie's strokes became
 more firm, her hand wrapping more tightly around my
 cock. She began stroking with increasing vigor and
 intensity.
 My tongue made its way into 
          her mouth and met hers as they tangled. Our exchange was wet, hot, sloppy and
 passionate. It was heavenly. Her taste was so
 addictive, so soft, pure, and sweet and the attention
 she was giving my cock was intimately aggressive. She
 was willing to be taken, to completely lower her
 defenses in hopes that I'd lower mine as well so we
 could share ourselves willingly and completely.
 She was still the perfectly 
          angelic girl I'd known and loved my whole life but the dynamic to which our
 relationship was based had blossomed, transformed into
 something wholly different and beautiful.
 There we were, in love, engaged 
          in a lovingly familiar embrace, our mouths entangled, and her hand feverishly
 stroking my rock hard cock.
 Her stroke slowed as she pulled 
          away from our kiss. "I want to get something so I can stroke you off better,
 ok? Be right back."
 She leaned in and stole a quick 
          kiss before getting up and leaving the room. I heard her rifling around in the
 bathroom before coming back less than a minute later.
 She had a bottle of baby oil in her hand. I welcomed
 her with open arms as she lay back down in front of me
 and we instantly began kissing again.
 Her hand went right back to 
          my cock, stroking it again. "You like stroking my 
          cock?" I remarked. "Yeah, it's so hard and 
          big. When we make love, do you think it'll fit in me?"
 "Oh yeah, I'm sure of 
          it." I groaned. We went back to kissing as she 
          kept stroking. After a minute or so she pulled away to look down as she
 dribbled a trickle of baby oil on the length of my
 cock. I began to kiss her neck as she lovingly applied
 the oil, spreading it over my length with her free
 hand. She then put the bottle aside and went back to
 kissing me. I felt her wrap her left hand around my
 oil-covered cock and shuddered at the intense pleasure
 of it as she began to stroke me again, still slowly but
 this time with a much firmer grip.
 As her fist beat my cock in 
          a pumping motion, I could tell she hadn't done it a lot, but she was at least
 eager to satisfy me, that much was sure. And that was
 just as good as having a more experienced girl do it,
 more so even.
 Our tongues explored our mouths 
          with growing passion. I wanted nothing more, now, than to spurt a full load of
 hot cum all over her chest. Strangely, I never even
 considered laying her down and penetrating her fully, I
 was just enjoying the feel of my mouth wrapped around
 hers and feel the moist heat flooding into mine from
 hers. I was also addicted without apology to the
 feeling of her little, girlish fingers fondling and
 stroking my rigid member, urging it to spurt loving
 ropes of joy for her.
 It had been forever since I'd 
          been in such an intimate exchange with a girl and all past rendezvous paled in
 comparison to the fire I felt with Katie. It was then
 that I realized how deeply in love with her I was. She
 had only been jerking me for several minutes when I
 felt the tickling, swelling urge grow from inside my
 stomach and flow from my crotch and into the narrow
 canal of my cock.
 The only time we spoke was to 
          whisper 'I love you's in between kisses. We were so tightly bound, it was if we
 were in a cocoon. You couldn't tell where one ended and
 the other began.
 The love that had began in my 
          stomach and funneled into my cock was building and was anxious to make an
 explosive exit. I could feel it and wouldn't be able to
 hold back much longer.
 "Sweetie, I'm getting 
          ready. I'm gonna cum soon, ok?" She looked at me with urgency, 
          almost panicking. "Do you want me to keep stroking as you cum?"
 "Yeah. I'll tell you 
          when to stop, ok?" "Ok." She said, 
          wanting desperately to do it right. I felt the deluge of cum building 
          within me; I couldn't hold it back any longer. A dribble of cum trickled out
 of the tip of my cock, running down the shaft,
 lubricating it and Katie's hand.
 "Katie, I'm gonna cum." 
          I urged. Finally, I erupted, launching 
          thick, warm ropes of jism that splattered on Katie's tanktop. She jerked in
 response, flinching as spurt after thick spurt gushed
 onto her. She kept pumping my cock goading on each
 explosive jet of semen. The feeling was so intense that
 I stopped breathing as I watched my baby sister fisting
 my cock, my hot cum splashing on her tank top, ruining
 it.
 She just looked on in awe as 
          squirt after squirt came out. After six or seven powerful blasts, the cumming
 slowed to a dribble, trickling down the shaft of my
 cock. Her hand was coated in cum.
 "It's ok, sweetie, you 
          can stop now..." I offered, which she did.
 She was like a student being 
          taught by a mentor, eagerly obeying my every command. She looked down at my
 only partially erect cock.
 "Wow, you came a lot. 
          Did I do ok?" she asked. I leaned in and kissed her deeply. 
          "Yes, sweetie. You did great."
 She looked at the cum on her 
          hand. "Can I taste it?" "Do you want to?" 
          I wondered. "Kinda." "Sure, go ahead." 
          I said. She stuck her tongue out and 
          dipped it into a glob of semen on her hand. Her eyes scanned about as her tongue
 tasted the cum.
 "It's kind of salty..." 
          she said. "It is? Is it ok?" "Yeah, it's ok." 
          She said, then licking her hand again, licking up another glob of cum and studying the taste
 with her eyes.
 "Is it okay enough that 
          you'd swallow it if I came in your mouth?" I dared.
 "I'd try." She 
          said without pause. I was starting to get hard again. 
          Her tank top was drenched in cum.
 "I'm so sorry, sweetie. 
          Look what I did to your top?" She looked down at it. "It's 
          ok, I'll wash it later..." I noticed her nipples were fully 
          erect through her wet tank top. I put my finger under her chin and raised her
 head to where our eyes met. I kissed her deeply again,
 my tongue probing her mouth. Her tongue instantly met
 mine.
 As we kissed I rested my right 
          hand on her tummy. After a few moments I felt her hand take mine and guide it
 onto her breast. With permission given I began to knead
 and squeeze her tit through her top. She moaned with
 approval into my mouth as we kissed.
 As I gently massaged her left 
          tit, I could feel her nipple, erect under the attention of my hand. For
 several minutes we laid there kissing, my hand gently
 and softly caressing her breast, her hands rubbing my
 chest lovingly. At this point I was rock hard again.
 "Can I take this off?" 
          I asked, referring to her sweater.
 "Mm-hmm." She purred. She helped me pull her top up 
          and off, tossing it aside. She covered her breasts at first, still a bit
 shy.
 "Katie, it's ok." 
          I reassured, caressing her face. "Okay." She said 
          as she lowered her hands, revealing her bare breasts to me.
 They were beautiful, silky smooth, 
          milky white like porcelain, plump handfuls of flawless flesh. I had seen
 her one of her bras in the wash recently and knew she
 was a 32c. They were perfect.
 She looked up at me with a look 
          so innocently seductive that I wanted to beat off right there.
 "Are they big enough for 
          you?" she asked. "Of course. They're so 
          beautiful, so perfect." "Do you think they're 
          big enough to feed our babies?" That was the most endearing 
          question I'd ever been asked. I kissed her. "Of course."
 We started making out again; 
          my hand now caressing the bare flesh of her breast. I rubbed her nipple between
 my thumb and forefinger in between cupping her tit. I
 could tell it was taking effect on her, as her kissing
 became more passionate, her tongue lashing out against
 mine, begging me not to stop.
 "Are you wet?" I 
          asked in between quick, excited breaths.
 "Yeah..." she exhaled, 
          her eyes shut, enraptured. Her hips were writhing, her 
          thighs grinding together as she said this, the same way she was rubbing her thighs
 together that night she was watching my pornos. I moved
 my hand from her breast, down her leg and reached
 around to her ass, squeezing it. She groaned in
 approval
 I ran my hand up and down her 
          ass, resting my thumb on the elastic band to her panties.
 "Baby, can I take these 
          off?" I asked with bated breath.
 Her eyes still closed, she nodded. 
          I glanced up at her as I began to pull down on her panties and noticed her
 lick her lips. She wriggled her hips to allow me to
 pull her panties past her ass and thighs. When they got
 to her ankles, she kicked them off.
 I leaned in and we began kissing 
          again, my hand going straight for her ass again, squeezing it. She moaned as
 I ran my hand up and down her ass. After giving her ass
 some attention for several minutes, I snaked my hand
 down on the inside of her left knee, gently lifting it.
 She got the message and raised her knee, exposing her
 pussy to me. It was shaved clean.
 "Baby, you shaved it?" 
          I inquired. "Is that ok?" "Yeah... it's great." I licked my fingers as my lips 
          returned to hers. My brought my wet fingers down to between her thighs
 caressing her leg starting at her raised knee, then
 down to the back of her thighs then down finally to in
 between her legs. I ran my fingers down the crack of
 her ass as they led to her virginal sex. As my fingers
 touched her labia, Katie gasped, breaking our kiss.
 As we began to kiss again, I 
          ran my middle finger up and down her slit. The slight pressure caused several
 drops of moisture to pool around my finger. As I ran my
 middle finger up and down her crevice I could feel the
 wetness within. I sank my middle finger into her pussy
 about a half an inch before discovering that she was
 sopping wet. She gasped.
 "Baby, you're so wet." 
          I said. "I know. You make me wet." "Baby, I don't want to 
          risk making love right now because I know I'll get you pregnant tonight."
 "Okay..." "But I can still make 
          you cum..." Katie closed her eyes and bit 
          her lip as I sank my middle finger deep into her wet pussy. I started
 pumping my finger in and out as she squirmed beside me.
 Her pussy emitted the natural wet squishy sounds as I
 fingered her.
 I maintained a steady finger-fucking 
          rhythm, listening to the pace of her breath to know when she was going to
 cum. After several minutes I could feeling her
 breathing become more rapid. At this point, her pussy
 was gushing juices and she was clawing my shoulder,
 deeply entrenched in the sensation of having my finger
 buried deep in her my sensitive and delicate of places.
 Her face twisted into a mask 
          of ecstasy as she inhaled deeply, thrust her crotch into my finger, tightened the
 grip on my shoulder and froze in place. I kept pumping
 my finger and then felt her pussy tighten and start
 convulsing as if it was milking my finger. Katie let
 out a shuddering exhale, her body shook as she lowered
 her ass back onto the bed and she began to violently
 tremble, her lips quivering as she had her orgasm.
 I accommodated her, slowing 
          the motion of my finger within her, decreasing the speed as she orgasm lessened
 in intensity. After a minute or so of her body gyrating
 around my finger, she finally loosened up, her body
 lowering onto the bed. Her breathing, while labored,
 became less erratic. Katie was sweating heavily and she
 had a look on her face like she'd run a marathon.
 Pained, fatigued, her body racked with pleasure and
 exhaustion, traumatized by the mental and physical
 experience of it all.
 I slipped my finger out of her 
          pussy, it being covered in coats of her viscous juices, juices made by the
 passion of our love.
 Deeply emotional after what 
          we'd shared, Katie, still a pained look on her face, leaned over to me and kissed
 me deeply, plunging her tongue into my mouth.
 "I love you..." 
          she purred as she wrapped her arms around my neck.
 As she embraced me, she felt 
          my erection poke at her belly.
 "Oh, baby, you're hard 
          again..." she said. She reached down and wrapped 
          her left hand around it, tugging gently on it. The feeling was fantastic.
 Just like that Katie slid down 
          and hovered over my hard cock, positioning her face over it, admiring it. I knew
 what she was going to do and braced myself for the
 incredible sensation, knowing what pleasure I was in
 store for.
 Like a kitten, I felt Katie 
          lick the tip of my cock, lapping at it like it was a bowl of milk. Her tongue
 panned across the head, enveloping it. I could only see
 the top of her head as she serviced me, but that made
 it even more intense, to be able to only see her head
 as her tongue worked its magic.
 She clearly wasn't a pro at 
          it but that too made the sensation that much more enjoyable, knowing that this
 sweet virgin didn't know what she was doing but was
 willing to forego her pride to give me pleasure. I
 wanted to pay her back by burying my face in her snatch
 it felt so good.
 After a few minutes of her lapping, 
          I finally felt the sensation that almost put me over the edge. I felt the
 intense warmth as she wrapped her mouth around the head
 of my cock, her tongue twirling around it as she
 suckled it. Slowly but surely she lowered her head
 taking a little bit more of it in as she bobbed her
 head. She was going extremely slow, taking her time
 partially to please me I assumed but also out of
 inexperience.
 With each downward motion she'd 
          take a little bit more of me in, making sure to suck hard on her way up,
 making a loud suction sound as she reached the tip. I
 placed a hand lightly around the back of her head,
 rubbing it as she kept bobbing up and down on my cock.
 Her tongue was coating it with 
          saliva which was now running down the shaft and pooling on my crotch. After
 a minute or so she was now sucking me off in earnest.
 She could only take a few inches into her mouth but I
 wasn't complaining. It was easily the best blowjob I'd
 ever received and not because it was the best but
 because it was from Katie, the woman I loved.
 Her head bobbed up and down 
          at a frenetic pace, the loud slurping sounds coming in such a consistent
 frequency that it was like a symphony. It was music to
 my ears. All I could do was lie there, looking down in
 awe at my sweet sister as she gobbled at my cock. With
 her right hand she held my cock at the base while she
 rubbed my thigh with her left hand.
 It had only been a few minutes 
          but I felt the hot reserve of cum building within my cock, stirring, ready
 to erupt. Katie was sucking me hard and at this point
 I'd be hard pressed to tell if she knew what she was
 doing or not. If she didn't, she surely played the part
 well. I could feel it coming. I was going to cum and
 soon.
 "Sweetie, I'm gonna cum..." 
          I blurted out. Katie didn't respond at all, 
          she just kept plunging her head up and down on my cock, sucking without
 reservation. I had to warn her again that if she kept
 it up she was going to get a mouthful of cum.
 "Sweetie, I'm gonna cum. 
          Baby..." I blurted out again, more urgently now.
 No response. No moans, no groans, 
          no signal that she was going to pull off of me, she just kept pumping and
 sucking away. I felt the reservoir of cum rush up my
 cock like lightning and knew I wouldn't be able to
 contain it.
 "Baby..." I uttered, 
          gritting my teeth as my cock exploded inside Katie's mouth.
 With my hand still on the back 
          of her head, I felt Katie gag slightly, pulling back but still keeping her
 lips clamped tightly around my cock, guzzling my seed
 as I poured it in pulsing spurts down her throat.
 Savoring the feeling as I ejaculated, my lower body
 went numb. I could feel my balls empty themselves throb
 after throb into Katie's eager mouth. My legs felt like
 all the blood was draining from them. I tried to let
 out a groan it felt so good, but all that came out was
 silence.
 After several powerful jets, 
          my cock slowed its salvo to a dribble. Katie pulled my cock out of her mouth
 with a loud slurp, leaving little evidence of my orgasm
 behind. She'd swallowed most of it like a trooper.
 There were a few drops on her lip that she licked up.
 I could only react to the aftermath 
          letting out a deep groan, that being the earliest moment that my body
 would allow me to make a sound.
 She smiled up at me with those 
          beautiful eyes. "Was that good?"
 I pulled her up to me and took 
          her in my arms, kissing her. "That was the most incredible blowjob and orgasm
 I've ever had."
 She looked happily amazed. "Really?" "Yeah!" I exclaimed. We kissed deeply. "Sweetie, I'm sorry for 
          suggesting that we not make love tonight. I just don't have any protection and I
 was afraid we'd get carried away... Plus I knew that
 even if I had a condom I wouldn't want to wear one with
 you..."
 She looked down disappointed 
          but understood. "I know. But maybe we can get some of those 'morning-after'
 pills you had mentioned before. Then we don't have to
 worry?"
 "Definitely. We should 
          make an appointment to see a doctor."
 "Okay!" she said, 
          eyes wide. "I love you." I 
          said. "I love you too." Katie and I hopped in the shower, 
          made out for fifteen minutes before getting turned on again. She sucked me
 off for ten minutes before I blew my load all over her
 face. Good thing we were already in the shower.
 A thought struck me as we stepped 
          out of the shower. "Katie..."
 "Yeah?" she asked. "Why did you want to know 
          what kind of costumes I'd want my girlfriend to dress up in?"
 She looked at me. "I don't 
          know. I guess I just wanted to know what you like...in girls. What makes you happy.
 You told me about the schoolgirl thing, remember? I
 said I liked the socks they wear."
 "Yeah." I said, 
          thinking. "Do you think I'd look 
          cute in one of those uniforms?" she asked.
 The mental picture of Katie 
          prowling around the house in a Catholic schoolgirl uniform was enough to get me
 almost fully erect within five seconds. I didn't know
 what was behind these questions but the deeply perverse
 nature of my mind compiled myriads of colorful
 scenarios almost instantly.
 "You'd look incredible." Katie coyly looked away, she 
          probably didn't know what she meant by what she'd said since she wasn't very
 sexually experienced, which was good, but I was still
 extremely aroused and curious.
 The most prevalent image that 
          came into my mind was Katie decked out in a cute Catholic schoolgirl uniform,
 her hair done up, make-up conservatively applied to her
 face, on her knees on the floor in front of me gently
 and passionately servicing my full erection as she
 glared up at me with those perfectly virginal eyes.
 I thought I was going to cum 
          right there and had to get that vision out of my head.
 THE NEXT DAY Katie got a call from her friend, 
          Tricia, the next day, asking Katie to help her shop for a baby shower gift
 for one of Tricia's aunts that were expecting. Before
 leaving, Katie gave me a big hug and a kiss on the
 cheek and promised to be back in a few hours.
 It was 11:30 in the morning 
          so I had the house to myself. I tidied up my room a bit, putting things in
 order, cleaned up the living room, did some dishes and
 took a hot shower after cleaning up.
 It was around 3pm when Katie 
          finally arrived home. She walked in bagless, but wearing a huge smile on her
 face. She ran over and jumped into my arms, wrapping
 her legs around my waist as she peppered my neck and
 face with kisses.
 "I missed you..." 
          she said. I smiled. "I missed you 
          too. You come up empty-handed?" "Umm, kinda. I just watched 
          Tricia shop mostly." "Oh, ok! Well, do you 
          want something to eat?" "Sure!" she replied. After dinner, we settled in 
          to the living room, cuddling on the couch.
 "Kevin..." Katie 
          said. "...was it good? Last night?" I looked at her. "Of course..." "Did you want to make 
          love last night?" she asked. "Of course, but I didn't 
          want to risk it since we didn't have condoms. Shit! I should've went out and
 bought some. I can go out and get some if you want..."
 Katie leaned in seductively, 
          resting her hand on my crotch. "No, you don't have to."
 She drove her tongue into my 
          mouth and we began making out on the couch, her hand was intently rubbing my
 crotch luring my cock to full rigidity in no time.
 I took her face in my hands 
          as we kissed and she stroked my cock through my shorts. I badly wanted to
 get my shorts off so she helped me as I tugged them and
 my boxers off, kicking them away. Her hand instantly
 went back to my cock, her hand running up and down its
 length. I moved my hands down and started kneading her
 tits through her shirt as she stroked me. After a few
 minutes of making out, Katie pulled away, still
 stroking me.
 "Let's go to your room." 
          She said. "Okay." I was beyond excited. I jumped 
          up and took her in my arms. We embraced tightly, kissing as we made our way
 clumsily towards my bedroom. Upon reaching the bedroom,
 we collapsed on the bed, me on top of her. As I landed
 on her, my hard cock flopped onto her tummy. She
 wrapped her legs around me and my hard cock
 instinctively went for her pussy, which was
 unfortunately covered by her shorts. The sensation of
 dry humping her was immense and we both groaned
 passionately. Katie closed her eyes and laid her head
 back as I pressed my cock against her shorts-covered
 hole.
 "Wait..." Katie 
          said as she gently pushed me off of her. "I'll be right back, okay?"
 She kissed me then scampered 
          out of the room. I laid there in the middle of the bed, my cock throbbing,
 aching, eager to bury itself deep into her, condom or
 not, and Katie had run out of the room, leaving me
 hard. I wondered if she'd gotten scared. No, she kissed
 me before she ran out. What was she doing?
 "Katie, you okay?" 
          I called out. "Yes, I'm fine! I'll 
          be out in a few minutes, okay? I love you!" she yelled, her voice muffled by the walls.
 She sounded like she was coming from the bathroom.
 "I love you too!" 
          I called back, a bit confused. After several minutes I became 
          worried but I could hear her in the bathroom moving around so I went back to the
 bedroom, laid down and switched on the TV.
 About fifteen minutes later 
          I heard the bathroom door open and could hear Katie walking towards the room. I
 sat up, anxious to see her, and switched off the TV. I
 saw her shadow loom up near the door until finally she
 poked her head into the room just enough to where I
 could see her eyes. I noticed she was wearing dark eye-
 shadow and that peaked my interest.
 "Kevin?" she asked. "Yeah, sweetie. Are you 
          ok?" I asked, smiling? "Yeah... I went out and 
          bought something for you so I hope you like it..."
 "I'm sure I'll like 
          it, sweetie. Come here..." Nervous and timid, Katie stepped 
          slowly into the doorway. My jaw dropped as I saw what she was wearing;
 a full catholic schoolgirl uniform complete with shiny
 black dress shoes and knee-high socks. She had put
 makeup on and brushed her hair. She was the living
 embodiment of every fantasy I'd ever had. I couldn't
 speak. She just stood there bashfully, shuffling her
 feet, her hands behind her back as she presented
 herself to me.
 "Do I look ok?" 
          she asked timidly. I had to force out the words. 
          "Katie... you're so beautiful."
 She smiled and slowly walked 
          over to me, my erection having been fully restored. She glanced at it as she
 stood before me. I stared up at her, a completely
 dumbfounded look on my face and like that, she got on
 her knees and put her hands on my thighs, my cock only
 inches from her face. She looked at it and smiled,
 tucking a tuft of hair behind her ear and took my cock
 with her right hand and took the head in her mouth.
 She was wearing glossy red lipstick 
          and the image of her glossy red lips wrapping around the head of my cock
 as she maintained eye contact with me was almost enough
 to put me over the edge.
 She lovingly and slowly ran 
          her tongue up and down the shaft, never looking away. When she reached the head of
 my cock she'd take it into her mouth and lean forward,
 taking a few inches of my cock in her mouth.
 After a few minutes of slowly 
          working my throbbing hard-on she pulled her mouth away from it and in the
 softest, most seductive voice, she spoke.
 "Kevin, when I was out 
          today I went to the doctors and I got a prescription for morning after pills..." she
 said.
 My eyes bulged, my jaw hanging. "...so when we make love 
          right now and you get ready to cum, I don't want you to pull out. I want you to cum
 inside me, ok?"
 I nodded. With that she crawled 
          up on me like a wild cat preparing to attack its prey and pushed me onto my
 back onto the bed. She shimmied up to my chest as we
 began making out. My hands roamed down her back to find
 her delectable ass tucked underneath her skirt. When I
 firmly squeezed her ass I felt her moan into my mouth.
 I rolled over and we switched 
          places, she was now on her back and I was on top of her. I started kissing her
 neck as she wrapped her legs around my back and I could
 smell the perfume she'd put on and it was intoxicating.
 Feeling the petite little angel underneath me, her legs
 wrapped around my back leaving her pussy exposed, I
 pushed my pelvis forward, pushing the tip of my cock
 against the thin fabric of her panty-covered pussy.
 Katie clawed at my shoulder 
          as I did so, moaning and shutting her eyes. I'd passed the point of no return
 and wanted more than anything to bury my aching cock
 into the soft, virginal canal of her pussy. Knowing
 that I didn't have to worry about pulling out, all my
 inhibitions were gone. I was going to make love to
 Katie and give her all my love. She'd fulfilled so many
 of my fantasies already and was now going to fulfill
 another.
 After a minute or so of lying 
          on top of her, our body clenched together, writhing, licking, nibbling,
 kissing, my cock pressing against her crotch, being
 denied entry by the thin fabric of her underwear, I
 started to slide down her chest. Reaching her tits, I
 buried my face between them, unbuttoning the uniform
 dress shirt she was wearing. She wasn't wearing a bra
 so I pulled her shirt open and her 32cs popped out and
 my mouth went straight for her nipples.
 As I licked and sucked her nipples, 
          alternating from one to the other I let my right hand wander down to her
 hips, hiking up her skirt. My hand snaked between her
 thighs, rubbing her bald gash. Through her panties I
 could feel her hot dampness, she was sopping wet.
 She looked up at me with large, 
          frightened eyes. She had thrust herself confidently into this situation but
 was still a virgin, and a scared one. "Katie, we don't
 have to do this..." I said.
 She reached up at me and ran 
          her fingers across my lips, her eyes still scared and inexperienced. "No, I
 want to. I want you." She said.
 I nodded. "Ok." 
          And I started to rub her little gash again, very slowly at first. The sensation of my
 fingers running gently up and down her panty-covered
 pussy made Katie squirm, clutching her tits with her
 hands. She reached up and took my face in her hands and
 pulled me towards her. She kissed me fiercely and with
 her right hand she reached down and began and feel for
 my cock. She found it hard and pulsing through my
 boxers.
 "Take these off." 
          She commanded, which I did within a few seconds, kicking them off.
 The feeling of my hard-on exposed 
          to the warm air, mere inches from the home it wanted to be nestled deeply
 into was excruciating. Katie, sensing my urgency,
 reached down and wrapped her thumbs around the elastic
 bands of her underwear and tugged them down past her
 hips. I scrambled for them, helping her pull them down
 past her thighs. My eyes shut and our lips sealed
 together, I flung her panties across the room with my
 left hand.
 As I lay on her body, which 
          was now naked from the waist down, I felt the indescribable feeling of being
 invited in between her cold, soft thighs. She wrapped
 her legs around me again and I could feel her bare
 thighs pressed against my lower torso. They were milky
 smooth, untouched, unexplored by anyone else, and more
 importantly, I could feel the barren, warm dampness in
 between them. My cock was lodged between us. It was
 warm and throbbing, wanting inside.
 The feeling of being naked and 
          being on top on Katie, who was naked from the waist down, was addicting. She
 was grinding her hips up at me as we kissed, as if her
 pussy was hungry and needing to be fed.
 "Baby, are you wet?" 
          I asked. She could only nod. I ran my 
          hand up her shaven crotch, cupping her pussy with my right hand. She was drenched.
 "You're so wet, baby." 
          I remarked. "I know." "Are you ready?" 
          I asked. "Yeah." She whispered, 
          her head turned, eyes shut, ready to accept me into her.
 With her permission given I 
          took my cock in my hand and nestled the head up against Katie's labia, groaning as
 it made contact.
 Katie started to bite her lip, 
          a faint moan coming out of her as I started rubbing the head up and down her
 dewy slit. I leaned forward, slowly forcing my cock
 into her. Her pussy was so incredibly wet but so tight
 it was almost impenetrable. I grimaced at the pressure
 of her tightness refusing to give way to my cock. I
 could only imagine Katie was grimacing in the same kind
 of painful ecstasy as me, but I was so caught up in the
 moment, I was unable to open my eyes to check.
 I maintained pressure, just 
          keeping my cock there, allowing her pussy to envelope my girth and swallow it.
 Just as I hoped, I felt her tight wetness slowly budge
 and loosen just enough for my cockhead to sink into
 her. We both gasped at the sudden and almost orgasm-
 inducing sensation of penetration. Her virgin pussy was
 slurping at my cock, trying to devour it one inch at a
 time.
 "Sweetie, you ok?" 
          I asked, opening my eyes to peek at her. She was grimacing, her arms up over her head,
 clutching the bed sheets in pain.
 'Yeah.' Was all she could 
          mutter to me. Assuming she was willing and able to take more, I very slowly eased
 myself into her, inch by inch. I was so emotional and
 my cock so sensitive that I knew that I could blow any
 moment if I wasn't careful. Then, surprisingly, her
 tight love canal loosened and I sank in completely.
 We both groaned loudly as I 
          collapsed on top of her, her legs instantly wrapping around me. Katie whimpered,
 throwing her arms around me and pulling me close to
 her, my face nuzzling into her neck. I felt my cock
 puncture her maidenhead and she was no longer a virgin.
 We laid there for a few seconds 
          and I could feel her pussy adjust to the cock that was buried deep within
 it. It was a beautiful feeling, the sensation of her
 soaking flesh stretching millimeter by millimeter to
 accommodate me.
 After about a minute I slowly 
          began to withdraw until I was almost all the way out of her, then I slowly
 plunged back into her until our pubic bones were
 pressed hard together. I could feel Katie's body
 writhing under me, her entire being begging for me to
 continue. She was so incredibly cute, her eyes shut and
 head turned to the side, enjoying the almost
 excruciating pleasure that was emanating from between
 her thighs.
 After a few slow, deep strokes 
          I began to pick up the rhythm. My dream girl was underneath me, dressed as the
 ultimate Lolita, her thigh-high socks rubbing against
 my sides as I pumped her deep, hard and increasingly
 fast. I was licking and kissing her neck as she moaned
 and groaned, bucking under the force of my powerful
 thrusts.
 The only words we spoke was 
          to whisper 'I love you' to each other in between kisses, nibbles, grunts and
 groans. She was so wet, hot and tight that I had to be
 careful not to blow my load too soon, but I knew that
 regardless of my willpower I wouldn't be able to hold
 back for long, considering Katie had given me
 permission to cum inside of her.
 I had every conceivable wet 
          dream/jerk off image in my head at that exact moment and the stunning realization
 suddenly hit me as I was dripping with sweat, pounding
 away on my sweet and luscious Katie's tight, once
 virginal pussy that not only did I have these vivid
 images in my head, I was actually experiencing them.
 I smiled a huge smile in my 
          mind at the thought that I'd achieved my ultimate fantasy and I loved Katie for
 loving me enough to allow me it.
 By now, Katie's pussy was flooding 
          with a thick, warm flow of juices created by her insatiable passion. She
 was thrusting up at me as I sunk my cock down into her.
 I could tell she'd lost all her inhibitions and wanted
 nothing more than to feel my cock pulsing inside her,
 releasing a powerful torrent of warm juices and I
 wasn't far from granting her, her wish.
 "Katie..." I moaned. 
          "...I'm getting close, baby. I'm gonna cum soon."
 Katie, for the first time during 
          this first beautiful act of lovemaking, turned to me, opened her eyes with
 the most innocent and inviting look, pursed her lips
 and spoke. "Ok, sweetie. I love you."
 I was so relieved that she was 
          enjoying the moment. "Katie, are you sure you want me to cum inside you?"
 "Gawd, yes. Cum inside 
          me." She begged. "Ok..." I muttered 
          as I leaned forward and kissed her deeply, resuming a hard, fast and deep fucking rhythm.
 Katie wrapped her thighs tighter around me, pulling me
 even deeper into her. I could feel my body preparing to
 take nature's course, a tingle that began in my toes
 and surged up my back. I was going to cum and soon.
 The feeling began to creep into 
          my crotch and seep down the narrow vessel of my cock, building like an ocean
 rising against a dam. I kept fucking, wanting to
 prolong my release for as long as possible. The sound
 of my crotch pounding into hers, my balls flapping
 against her sopping wet bottom was too sweet to want it
 to end.
 My cock swelled as it filled 
          with cum, each pounding stroke inside of her filling it even more. I could feel
 it leaking, dripping a few drops of cum in preparation
 for the gushing overflow to come. I couldn't hold back
 any longer. My body seemed to become enveloped in this
 wave of electricity. I had never felt anything like it
 before, the most intensely pleasurable experience
 imaginable.
 "Katie..." I muttered 
          as I fucked away. "Kiss me." She pleaded 
          urgently, knowing I was about to cum.
 Feeling like I was going one 
          hundred miles an hour without moving, I plunged forward and wrapped my lips
 around hers, our tongues instinctively lashing out at
 each other. Then it happened, at that most perfect
 moment as our mouths and crotches were sealed together:
 I thrust forward, pushing my cock as deep up into her
 pussy as I could, causing Katie to groan into my mouth,
 and my cock exploded.
 A powerful, copious load of 
          hot cum spurted hard into her womb, followed by a rapid fire burst of several
 equally copious ropes of jism. The cum, seemingly
 anxious and urgent to escape, flooded her pussy.
 I thrust forward harder, grinding 
          against her pubic bone, wanting to get every drop into her. Katie, not
 only having sex for the first time but getting cummed
 in for the first time seemed euphoric. Reacting purely
 on animal instinct, her pussy guzzled at my cock,
 swallowing each successive squirt as if it hadn't ever
 been fed. All she could do was whimper with each
 thrust, with each jet of cum that poured into her, and
 take it all
 Her nails dug into my back as 
          her tongue flailed inside my mouth, wanting me to bond with her in everyway.
 After several more spurts, I was spent. I laid on her
 and we spent the next 20 minutes exploring each other's
 mouths. I licked, nibbled and kissed her lips, chin,
 nose and neck as she did the same to me.
 My cock, sucked dry and now 
          only partially erect was still lodged inside of her, the results of our
 lovemaking dripping out of her pussy and down her ass
 and onto the bedsheets. We laid there lovingly enjoying
 the afterglow, gently kissing and exchanging sweet
 nothings. I must've told her I loved her twenty times
 within the time we spent lying there on the bed.
 Finally, I sat up and prepared 
          to pull my flaccid girth from out of her. I looked down between us and saw I'd
 done: her pussy was a frothy, gooey mess, drenched in
 cum. We both had looks on our faces as if we were about
 to yank band-aids off of a particularly hairy place. I
 pulled my cock out of her with a slurpy plop. We both
 sighed at the release.
 My cock was covered in her juices. 
          Looking at it, I chuckled. She looked up at me and smiled, her hair
 beautifully and seductively tussled.
 "Look what you did to 
          my pussy!" she exclaimed jokingly.
 I laid down next to her, looking 
          at her pussy with a smile on my face. She hadn't closed her legs yet. She
 was still splayed out, almost admiring the sticky mess
 that had been made between her legs.
 "I'm sorry!" I 
          chuckled. "You told me to cum inside you."
 She closed her legs and rolled 
          towards me and I took her into my arms. I had so many thoughts spiraling
 around in my mind.
 "Sweetie... you're not 
          a virgin anymore." I noted. She looked up at me, serious 
          and happy. "I know. I couldn't be happier."
 We kissed again. "Were you serious when 
          you said you got those morning after pills?" I asked.
 "Yeah." She whispered 
          in between kisses. I ran my hand past her skirt 
          and between her thighs, running my fingers up into the cum-drenched wetness of
 her pussy, her tongue sliding into my mouth as I did
 so. "I think we should make love a few more times
 before you use that first pill."
 She smiled. "Ok." Katie closed her eyes and kissed 
          me passionately as I started to run my finger up and down the cum-soaked
 trench between her legs. I could tell if she was still
 wet or if it was the cum I'd so eagerly injected in her
 a mere half hour before.
 "Ooohh..." she purred. "You want more cum in 
          your pussy?" I asked. "Yesss..." she purred 
          again. Her hand ran down my stomach 
          and to my crotch and she wrapped her little fingers around my cock to find it
 already almost fully erect. She opened her eyes in
 surprise and looked down at the rigid shaft pulsing in
 her hand. Her eyes darted to mine.
 "You're hard already, 
          baby?" she asked. "Yeah. See what you do 
          to me?"  She giggled as I mounted her. 
          I rubbed my cock up and down the juices that had settled at the mouth of her
 velvet trap. Once again I felt the indescribable
 feeling of slipping my turgid member through that firm
 tightness; wholly resistant at first, then at the right
 amount of pressure, it swallowing my length to the
 hilt, smothering it in that sweet warmth, suffocating
 it in that loving embrace.
 We both groaned aloud feeling 
          that sweet feeling again and in no time and I was pumping into that tight slit,
 overjoyed and entranced. Slobbering all over each
 other, our mouths locked in a sloppy exchange, I pumped
 into Katie's pussy for another thirty minutes before my
 body stiffened and I released a gush of semen.
 We kissed passionately afterwards 
          for several minutes, then my cock, which was still lodged deep inside of her
 grew erect once more, and without hesitation I began to
 move in and out of her. I came in her seven times over
 the next several hours, at the end of which, she popped
 one of the morning-after pills.
 Afterwards, as we laid naked 
          in bed, cuddling, kissing softly, whispering 'I love you's I knew that we were
 bonded in a way that I would never be able to define or
 explain. Regardless of what happened between us from
 then on, the feeling I felt at that moment would be
 indelibly branded onto my mind forever. Katie would
 always be my first true love.
 I wanted her to be my wife, 
          to have my children, but I didn't dare say it yet.
 "I think we should get 
          cleaned up." She said. I agreed and rolled out of bed, 
          offering my hand to help her out of bed. Seeing her get out of bed, her
 tussled hair, her disheveled Catholic school uniform,
 cum trickling out of her pussy and down her leg, I
 almost got another erection.
 She slipped out of her plaid 
          skirt and kicked it aside and took off her blouse and thigh-highs and shoes and
 we went to the bathroom. We made out some more in the
 shower, bathed each other, giggling as we did so until
 we were done.
 An hour later we were sitting 
          on the couch in each others arms. We had just resigned to the fact that we
 were madly in love with each other, that we'd found our
 life partners and were understandably glowing. We moved
 and spoke as if we were in a constant state of
 euphoria: softly, calmly and completely at ease. Given
 the fact that we'd had sex for almost four hours
 straight may have contributed to us 'walking on air'.
 Katie was the world to me now. 
          I had had suspicions about the weakness of my own heart and how it seemed
 Katie was taking control of it, but now there was no
 doubt. I was completely entranced by her. Her every
 movement, every word, every smile transported me to
 another place. Whenever we were together I felt like we
 were the only ones on Earth, and I didn't want it to
 end.
 Mom and dad called the day after. 
          We exchanged pleasantries. Mom and Dad said they were getting ready
 to hop on a plane to Dublin. We have some family there,
 an uncle or aunt, if I remember correctly, and they
 were going to be staying in a hotel there while they
 visited.
 Just like Mom and Dad to bustle 
          from beautiful locale to beautiful locale without a care in the world. I'm
 just so glad that they're able to travel and see the
 beauty in the world and are still young enough to enjoy
 it. You'd be hard pressed to find a pair that deserved
 it more than they did. With all the charity work and
 money they'd donated over the years, it seemed to be a
 work of cosmic karma at work that they were rewarded as
 they were.
 Of course, I didn't dare tell 
          them about Katie and I. They'd have probably jumped on the first plane back
 home had I told them. There was a growing feeling in my
 gut that told me we'd eventually have to tell them.
 There was no way Katie and I could have a relationship,
 a marriage and eventually children without just coming
 out and laying the truth out on the table for our
 parents to take in.
 We'd tell them in due time, 
          I'm sure. They'd most likely be back in a few months and hopefully Katie and
 I wouldn't already be expecting so the truth wouldn't
 be so obvious. It's tough trying to hide something when
 it's bulging out on what should otherwise be a flat
 belly.
 After I got off the phone with 
          Mom and Dad, Katie came up behind me and wrapped her arms around my stomach. I
 turned to her and we kissed. After a few moments, we
 pulled away, still in each other's arms.
 "Kevin, what are we going 
          to tell mom and dad?" she said, her eyes worried and concerned.
 "Eventually, we'll tell 
          them the truth, ok? And everything will be fine."
 "You sure?" she 
          asked. "Yeah. We just have to 
          make sure you're not pregnant when they come home. I think that would push them over
 the edge." I laughed.
 That broke Katie's concerns 
          and she smiled. "Aww, no fun. But we can still practice, right?"
 "Everyday. You still have 
          some morning-after pills, right?" I asked.
 "Yeah, a bunch..." 
          she smiled rascally. "Then, what are we waiting 
          for? Let's make use of those pills..." I said as I reached down and squeezed her
 ass.
 She pulled away from me and 
          ran to my bedroom, giggling and tossing off her shirt as she said so. We were
 wrapped in a perpetually writhing embrace for well on
 into the night and early morning. I came in her
 probably seven or eight more times before she popped
 her pill. She wasn't dressed like a schoolgirl this
 time but that didn't make the lovemaking any less
 intense.
 We lay in bed cuddling afterwards, 
          sweating and coated in each other's love juices, just enjoying being in
 each other's arms.
 "Katie, do you like the 
          feeling of me cumming in you?" I asked.
 She looked up at me and smiled. 
          "Of course. It's like a drug. I'm addicted to your cum, sweetie."
 "Do you think that if 
          you hadn't taken the pills, you'd be pregnant already?"
 She thought for a second. "Yeah, 
          I think so. I mean, you've already cum in me so much and so hard. I can't
 imagine I wouldn't already be. Why?"
 "Nothing, just wondering 
          what it'd be like to know you're already pregnant."
 "Do you want me not to 
          use the pill next time, because I won't." she said.
 "Really?" "Yeah." She said 
          boldly. "No, I don't think it 
          would be fair for you to get pregnant so fast. We should wait a little while, to
 save money and find our own place to stay, you know?"
 She buried her head into my 
          chest. "Okay. You're right."
 She sat silent for a few moments. 
          "So... I guess getting married is out of the question, huh?"
 I turned to her. "You 
          want to get married?" "No, I guess not." 
          But it was plainly evident that this was a moment of obvious contradiction in her words.
 "Katie..." I gently 
          lifted her chin with my finger. "Of course I want to marry you. I know now there's no one
 else I want to spend the rest of my life with."
 Tears started to well up in 
          her eyes. "You sure?" "I've never been more 
          sure of anything in my life." "Okay." She reached 
          up and wrapped her arms around my neck and began to cry.
 "Don't cry, sweetie." 
          I said with a playful chuckle. "How can you laugh?" 
          she said with frustrated bliss. "Because I'm happy. I'm 
          here with the girl of my dreams, my future wife and mother of my children. What
 I see in your eyes is a long and happy life. Why
 wouldn't I be happy?"
 She looked at me with those 
          big, swollen, teary eyes and was trembling, happy beyond containment. "I love
 you so much." She said as she pulled me down and kissed
 me.
 *** The next day Katie and I went 
          shopping. To make her feel a little more safe and secure I drove us out to a
 mall about forty miles out of town to assure that no
 one who knew us would possibly see us there. After
 picking up a few cute outfits for Katie and some
 clothes for me, we went to an ice cream parlor and
 shared a huge banana split, then we caught a movie and
 even stopped at a flower shop where I bought her some
 flowers.
 I knew I was probably taking 
          it a bit fast but before we left I took her to a jewelers and we looked at
 engagement rings. At first, Katie was so surprised and
 shaken at the fact I'd brought her to the jeweler that
 she was too timid and frightened to go inside. She was
 so happy and scared and swept up in disbelief that she
 couldn't believe I was actually taking her to choose
 her engagement ring.
 Her adrenaline was racing and 
          her hands were so shaky I knew she was terribly nervous. She couldn't make a
 sound decision. She kept insisting that I not spend too
 much money on it and to just get something subtle and
 inexpensive. She was clinging to my arm the whole time
 and as we looked into the glass cases at the rings, she
 was nervously cringing like we were looking at some
 exotic insects on display or something. It was so cute
 that I was smiling the entire time, chuckling at the
 fact she seemed to be teetering on the edge of panic.
 Sometimes she would apprehensively 
          point with a trembling finger at a ring and her voice would
 stabilize and soften as she would show her interest in
 a particular band of gold, but that interest would
 subside and shift to another ring. After about thirty
 minutes she wasn't trembling or nearly as scared
 looking, but she was still clutching my arm like a
 vice. She seemed decidedly more interested in the
 prospect of choosing a ring and as she looked up at me
 with those dark entrancing eyes, she'd ask for my
 opinion in that soft, docile voice.
 She finally chose a modest and 
          simple gold band. It wasn't expensive but that seemed to be the last of her
 concerns. She was so spellbound by it. She couldn't
 take her eyes off of it as we left the jewelers and
 didn't seem to mind that most of the rings she passed
 up were far more expensive than the one she'd chosen.
 One of the many, many reasons why she'd bewitched me. I
 couldn't have chosen a more perfect girl.
 To be continued? 
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