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From: an355865@anon.penet.fi (Saratonin)
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Date: Sat, 14 Oct 1995 04:20:30 UTC
Subject: The Debate Trip : Saratonin 95' [01/02] (teen,m/f,first time,pla


Story : "Debate Trip" by Saratonin (an335865@anon.penet.fi)

To start things off right, I'll say that if you are under
the age of 18, please read on.  There's nothing in this text
that you already haven't heard before, so screw Senator
Exon..thanks.

This story was written line by line with no outline, no
rough drafts, and no flow charts.  I thought it up as the
lines came, and as the thoughts came.  Some people may think
I go into a little bit more detail than necessary, but for a
story to be good for me, It must have a slightly strong
character base and a good setting, I'm not claiming I'm a
English Major, I mean, I'm only a high school student, so
read on, thanks =)

Chapter 1 - Blah.

First off, about me.  I am a 17 year old Junior in high
school, and participate in debate.  We go on tournaments
inside our state, and sometimes out, recently my regular
debate partner has been switched out of the class, and I was
stranded, I thought about moving to LD debate, which was
only for a single debater, while CX debate was compromised
of a dual person team, I wasn't sure what I was going to do.
I went up to our debate coach and described my dilemma, and
she started to tell me about some of the new additions to
the class that year.  She pointed around the room naming
names and grades, and her finger fell upon a girl with her
back turned to me, her shining black hair fell just below
her shoulders, straight and independent.  My eyes scanned
farther down her body to find her back tightly exposed by
her white body suit.  It was tucked into her jeans which
were fairly tight.  Then as if I had asked her myself, she
turned around.  Our eyes caught in an instant and she beamed
a smile at me.  I smiled back eagerly.  She reminded me of
what Kirsty Alley(sp.) would have looked like when she was
in high school.  The white lace of her bra shown through the
tightly fitting white shirt.  Soon after, her direction went
beyond me as someone called her name for assistance,
"Jessica!".
     Hmm..  Jessica I thought, and I inquired our coach
further.  "Oh, Jessica is a sophomore, and a debate newbie,
but she's shown promise, I saw her at the summer camp, she
has good speaking skills."  I told her that I would like to
talk to her some, and might consider her for a partner.
     She looked like a fairly smart girl, not to mention
beautiful, and taking on a newbie and showing them how to
debate didn't sound bad at all.
     I turned around to our coach, and she was smiling at
me, as if reading my mind, and glanced over at Jessica and
nudged me.
     I walked over to where she was, and said her name.  She
turned around, and I introduced myself, and she reached her
hand out, and I shook it gently.  I explained to her my
dilemma of my partner leaving, and wondered if she had had
any other offers.  "no" she replied smiling.  And I asked
her if she would consider being my partner for the next
tournament that next weekend.  Her mouth grew wide and she
said that would be great!  I told her that we had a lot of
work ahead of us, and would have to work hard.  She nodded
her head.
     I showed her over to the box where I kept all my CX
files, and she opened the top and started to thumb through
the files.  When she bent over to examine one on the other
end, I caught a glimpse down her shirt, and mentally slapped
myself for being so perverted.  I did notice that her
breasts must have been around the 36B area I supposed,
perfectly shaped and accented her body well.
     She pulled some baylor counter-plan files, and we went
to work, filing, chatting, etc.  She was fun to be with, and
I felt she would be a great partner all year.

Chapter 2 - Preparation.

     Thorough the 2 weeks before the out of state
tournament, we prepared.  We got all of our files organized
and ready to be debated, we had chosen a case, and had spent
time debating people in our own class, and she proved to be
more than formidable.  I don't know why I never even asked
her out on a date or anything non-school, guess I'll never
know.  When the day of the tournament came, we had it all
planned out.  We would leave after school Friday, we would
get there around 9 o' clock, check into our hotel, prepare,
have a meeting, and then debate all Saturday at the local
school, and we would leave Sunday morning, and get home
around 2 p.m., pretty busy schedule.
     We had stacked the van with crates and cases on the
top.  The van was BIG, don't get me wrong, one of those 5
long seat jobs, and we didn't have a large team, so it fit
everyone quit nicely, and every team got their own section
on the van.  Since we left the school, me and Jessica
reviewed our files, just as everyone else was.  But around 8
o' clock, we both started to get tired, and she laid down on
the seat and went to sleep almost immediately, I sat there
on that seat and watched all the highway signs until we
rolled up to the Radisson.
     I woke Jessica as we pulled up, and I watched her get
up and rub her eyes, and she was so beautiful as she did so,
she dutifully got up and we started to unload onto the
carriage deal.  When we got to our rooms, they were pretty
nice, Jessica and all her girlfriends were in the adjoining
room, separated by only one of those 2 hotel room connect-o
jobs.
     When we were done unloading, and just about to walk
inside.  I went up to Jessica and asked her if she would
like to join me for a swim in the hotel pool.  It just kinda
happened, under normal circumstances I'm to shy to even ask
such a thing, but something made me do it.
     She said she was very tired, and sat and contemplated
for a second.  My heart sank in those few seconds, and was
almost sure of being rejected, and had even started make the
notion that I was never going to ask another girl out on --.
She smiled and said sure.

Chapter 3 - The Pool

     A couple of minutes later we both arrived out of our
rooms.  Unknown to our disapproving judge of course!  We
went off to the top floor to find the pool.  While we were
walking she took her towel and swatted me in the ass once.
It surprised me so much I jumped in the air, and turned
around to see her laughing at me.  So, to return the favor I
popped her, which brought her towel down, and I saw her body
for all it was worth in her bikini, a pure black skimpy job.
Her breasts fit into the top perfectly, tied in a cute
little bow in the back, and the bottom glided up into her
ass, just the way a thong should, her skin was pale and
totally free of any kindove blemishes, scars, or anything.
She was like a young super model.
     We noticed a sign that said POOL .  And we followed it.
It seemed like we had climbed 40 flights of stairs before we
finally reached the top, and we were both huffing.  We
opened to door to reveal night air, and we both glanced at
each other strangely.  She got a wild look in her eye and
ran past me.
     I sat for a second, dumbfounded, and ran after her.  A
LARGE pool sat in the middle of beautiful shrubs and plants,
obviously professionally land scaped, and we were all alone!
As I looked around I saw buildings as far as I could see.
Seattle was beautiful in the night air, and we were among
one of the highest buildings!  I walked over to where
Jessica was, testing the water with her toe.  "Perfect
temperature!" she said excitedly.
     "Isn't this beautiful?"  I gawked.  I then walked over
to the hot tub and turned the knob on 40 minutes, and got
in.  She got the idea and followed me.
     We sat on opposite sides of the steaming hot tub,
looking around, it was breath taking, who ever knew that we
would be sitting on top of the Radisson, in a hot-tub,
looking out over the city of Seattle, it was just bliss.
     We talked about debate, life in our small little town,
government, and all sorts of things.  She was really
entertaining company.  She looked around, and spotted
something on the dimly lit concrete, and called me over.  I
half walked-swam over to where she was.
     There on the concrete were two ladybugs, walking around
together.  She was fixed on them, and smiling, it was a very
pretty sight.  She caught me looking at her, and looked deep
into my eyes.
     Before I could even control myself, I reached out and
kissed her.  It started as a simple peck kiss, I didn't want
to go to far, but then her own tongue shot out of her mouth
and entered my mouth.  My mind raced, and so did my heart,
as we sat there with only our mouths touching, it was
wonderful.
     She reached a arm out underwater and grasped my waste
and hoisted herself up on my knee.  Bringing her to my
level.  I broke the kiss and started to kiss along her chin
and cheeks, and worked my way to her ear lobe.
     She moved her left leg around and wrapped it around my
waist underwater.  I kept kissing her around her neck area.
She leaned her head back in pleasure, and she wrapped her
other leg around my waist also.  My hard-on started to poke
through my swim trunks.
     I then reached my hands around and pulled on the string
on her bikini, and her top fell into the raging water, where
it was washed to the other side of the hot-tub.  I proceeded
to kiss along her neck, and down toward her breasts.  I
raised my knee up a little, and her chest came above the
swirling white water.
     I leaned down farther and started to kiss along her
breasts, and sucking lightly on her nipples.  I heard her
moaning and whimpering in compliance.
     I was totally lost at this point, and really didn't
care about anything else besides her.  I had never really
felt like this before.  Suddenly her hands came up to my
hair and pushed me away.  I got a disappointed thought, and
she grinned at my evilly.
     She started to lower down into the water, until her
body was again emersed, and then her head.  My eyebrows
cocked strangely and wondered what the fuck she was up too??
     Then I felt a tug on the draw string of my swimming
trunks, and they were briskly pulled away from my body.  My
eyes opened wide as a hand grasped on my rock hard cock, and
soon after I felt Jessica's hair brushing against my thighs
as she settled into a comfortable rook.  Before I knew what
happened, her mouth encircled my throbbing cock underwater.
     My hands grasped the sides of the concrete, and my head
flew back.  She was sucking as hard as she could on my
head..  and nibbling gently at my shaft.  Her other hand
came up and grasped my balls, moving them around gently.
She started to moan, creating an acoustic effect around my
cock, intensifying to pleasure by 100%.
     Argh!!  My mind woke up and the adrenaline started to
flow as I heard a door open.  I grabbed her underneath her
armpits underwater, and she rose from the water with a
strange and frightened look in her eyes, I winked at her,
and pointed towards the door.
     I found her black top floating around in the water and
gave it to her quickly.  She understood immediately, and had
just tied it, and moved to the other side of the tub when
Kevin came around the corner in slacks, ranting how we
should be down in the hall sorting through our files, and
how he couldn't find the Burma counter-plan, and was in an
uproar.
     "We'll be down in a minute Kevin, ok?"  A passionate
filled female voice said behind me.  Kevin grunted and ran
practically through the door.  I turned around and sighed
heavily, exaggerating greatly.  She swam over to me, and
wrapped her hands around my neck, and kissed me gently.
Then she raised up out of the water.  I turned around and
watched her intently as she strutted to go get her towel.
     I got up out of the water, and walked to where she was
drying off.  She glanced down and started to giggle and said
"You had better cover that thing up before the tournament
tomorrow, big boy".  I glanced down and saw a my cock
pushing through the fabric.  We both laughed and dried off.
     We found the elevator this time, and went down to our
floor.  At the junction, she said good night, and as she
turned around, I grabbed her by the back of her bikini, and
pulled her closer, and kissed her deeply one more time.
When we were done, she looked into my eyes and said "good
night" one more time before she knocked on the door, and was
let in.
     I did the same, and crashed on the bed.  And
slept.well, hard.

Continued in next post - debate2.txt

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Message-ID: <042304Z14101995@anon.penet.fi>
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From: an355865@anon.penet.fi (Saratonin)
Reply-To: an355865@anon.penet.fi
Date: Sat, 14 Oct 1995 04:13:25 UTC
Subject: The Debate Trip : Saratonin 95' [02/02] (teen,m/f,first time,pla


Chapter 4 - The Morning After.

     The next morning I was abruptly waken by the phone,
screaming into my world of dreams.  I picked up the phone
fast before 2 other boys in the beds beside me woke up.
"Wake up sleepy head.."  A bouncing female voice resonated
on the other end.  Jessica I thought.  I immediately smiled.
     "Ok, I'm gonna go shower, and then you want to meet me
for breakfast perhaps?"  I said in a rough morning tone.  "I
would be glad to, even though I'm not much of a fan of those
cheap ass continental breakfasts that hotels put on.." she
said.  I smiled, I couldn't wait to be with her again.
     I got up and went into the dark bathroom, showered,
shaved, and all that jazz.  I called her room number when I
was done, and she picked up almost immediately.  "I'm done,
want to meet me outside of my door?".  "Allright, cya.".
     I opened the heavy hotel door to reveal Jessica,
waiting for me intently.  Her shining black hair was up in a
pony tail, and she was smiling as always.  She was wearing
long jeans, and a plain white T-shirt.  She stepped up on
her tip-toes and pecked me on the lips and took my hand.
     We chatted and walked down to the lower floors until we
reached the lobby, and there was a table against the wall
with a juice machine, fruit, donuts and such.
     We went and got plates, and got our breakfast and sat
and talked over in the far corner.  All that was on my mind
was what happened last night, and I was hoping she was
thinking the same thing.
     Soon after we were just getting ready to eat, she
leaned back in her chair, and her foot made contact with my
crotch and started to grind!  My eyes flew open and she
giggled a bit, but she persisted.  I reached down and
unzipped my zipper and my hard cock flung out underneath the
cheap covered table.
     We sat there staring at each other, in a loving trance,
eating and drinking, our actions underneath the table
unknown to the few other early-risers eating breakfast.
     Her foot movements quickened as she moved all over my
cock with her toes, pinching, stroking and pushing.  She
looked so erotic sitting in that chair, leaning down a bit
so she could reach me.
     I looked down at my watch and alerted her that we had
better get back up to our rooms and get ready for the debate
this morning.  She smiled, and said yes.
     We walked back up to our rooms, and parted once more
with a kiss.  Inside I dressed in my suit, and remarked on
how handsome I looked in the mirror!  When everything was
ready, we all gathered in the Radisson lobby.
     There was Jessica once again, her hair in a business-
like yet seductive bun.  She was wearing a nice looking
brown business suit with a slip.  Her pumps made her only
about an inch below my height, she was beautiful standing
there.
     We all loaded in the van, and made our way to the local
high school.  On the way over we prepared files, and talked
about topicality strategies and things.
     It all seemed so different, we were all just mere boys
and girls, 16 to 17 years of age, dressed in men's and
women's attire, everyone looked a little out of place,
except Jessica, she looked in her domain, where she should
be.  I was honored to have her as a partner, and as a
girlfriend.  I was proud of the advancements she had made in
the last couple of weeks, where she had become a formidable
debater, and a great friend.  I wasn't sure if I felt love
for her, I mean, I had only first laid eyes on her 3 weeks
ago, I thought about that a lot.
     When we got there, we loaded our stuff into the room
they had designated for our school, and we all went up to
the sheet to see what we were going against.  Jessica and I
were Affirmative against a team from Texas.  We went to our
designated room, and set up.  The two boys showed up and set
up also.  We secretly reviewed our Drug trafficking in china
case, and waited for the judge to arrive.
     Previously, we found that I was a 4% faster speaker
than Jessica, so I went up to read the case while the other
team flowed my case.  I read perfectly, w/o any errors, and
even had time enough to glance up at Jessica grinning at me,
and shot me a wink.
     When I was done, the Texas team came up and cross
examined me.  I answered their questions to the best of my
ability, and some of their evidence was strong.  And they
tried to pull a topicality issue.  I could tell that this
debate wasn't going to be a breeze, but we should be able to
win.  When the CX was over, we all sat down and prepped.
     The Texas team gathered their evidence and DA's while
me and Jessica feverishly tried to pull up proof of our
claims.  Then the negative went up to do their speech.
     The rest of the debate went smoothly, and since they
dropped topicality after the first negative constructive,
and were not able to supply enough evidence, we won the
debate hands down.  The judge even disclosed at the end.
     Jessica and I walked back to our room, smiling in
victory, not able to wait to tell our coach.  Jessica
entered the door first, and I dropped a crate on the ground
foolishly, but the lid kept all the precious files from
spilling everywhere.  I gathered myself and the crate up and
entered the room.  As I sat the crate down on the desk,
Jessica grabbed my waist from behind and pulled me close to
her.  I could feel her breasts against my back, and she
wrapped her left leg around mine, and she flicked her tongue
out and traced my ear, and whispered "You did such a good
job, I'm very proud of you.." she said in such a seductive
silent tone that resonated in my ears because she was so
close.  "You did a great job for your first ti---, " I was
cut off when she reached her hand around and kneaded my dick
though my slacks.
     My knees turned into loose joints as my dick started to
grow, and I fell down a bit while she played with my dick
though my slacks.  We heard voices of joy outside of the
door, and she reached away quickly and turned me toward her,
and kissed me.  Then she went back to filing some of our
used files.
     I wanted so bad to close the door on our teammates
faces and lock it, and take Jessica right there on the
teachers desk.  I wanted to rip that business suit off of
her, and watch her let her hair down while she wrapped her
legs around me, I would drop my slacks and raise her slip
up.  I dreamed of how I would enter her virgin hole there on
that table, and hear her whimper softly, I could feel her
wetness clamping around my hard cock, and I would pump into
her again and again, until I came into her over and over
again.
     "Hon, where do these 3 Gorges DA's go?"  I woke up from
my trance as Tim and Rebecca entered the room, commenting on
how well they did.  I walked over to Jessica and helped her.
We chatted with Tim and Rebecca about their first negative
victory, and how good it felt to crush someone else's case.
     The next debate, we were Negative, and went up against
2 guys that had tubs that had countless Harvard and Baylor
camp stickers.  I looked at Jessica with open eyes, and she
sighed.  We put up a battle, but the New York team brought
up so many points in such a short amount of time that we
were hardly able to flow all they said.  We attempted a
counter-plan, and a few DA's, but it was hopeless, and we
lost, bad.
     I told her that we really did well, and that those guys
really belonged in Varsity instead of JV, and she agreed.
Now it was time for lunch, and we ate at the McDonalds
across the street, at least this was something that stayed
static with home.
     When it was time to go back, we put on a good show and
won both of our matches, utterly destroying a newbie team on
the affirmative side, that totally dropped our topicality
argument, and lost it on the second affirmative
constructive.  Our next win was well fought for against a
Californian team, which knew what they was doing, but our
case was strong, and we made it.
     We had hopes of breaking into the semi-finals, but our
hopes were crushed as we looked on the board and found that
there were too many 4-0 teams, and that only 1 3-1 team was
let in, and not us.  Ugh, well, you lose some you should
win, and win some you should lose I told her.  And we went
back to our staging area.  No one broke to the semi's that
tournament, but we did bring home one xtempt trophy, and
maybe that was worth the whole deal.
     We went back to the hotel, since it was too late to hit
the road, and everyone was very tired.  On the way back we
all talked about our successes, and all our defeats.  That
was the first time in my life I felt real companionship for
all my teammates, we were all linked in some way, my closest
link being that of Jessica.  I had only known her little
under a month, and she was such an important part of my
life.  My only hope at this point, was that she felt the
same about me, how was I to know?  Asking her was a little
easier said than done.
     When we got back to the hotel, our coach announced a
meeting for those that wanted to go in her hotel room.  We
all raised our hands, except Jessica, and soon she reached
out and grabbed my biceps and pulled it down, and looked at
me intently.  We got back to our rooms, and got out of our
stiff clothes, and sat on the bed and watched TV until it
was time for the meeting, and all my friends left the room,
leaving me alone.  I went to the door adjoining the girls
and boys room, and knocked.  I heard a door opening on the
other side, and opened mine.
     There she was again, in all her beauty, staring at me.
She came in and we sat on the bed, and talked a little about
the debate, and how well we did.  On impulse, I reached out
and kissed her passionately, she complied, and we laid down
on the ruff hotel comforter.
     We were kissing rigorously, and she climbed up on top
of me.  She then raised herself and sat on my lap, and took
her T-shirt off, revealing her perfectly formed breasts, and
then she reached up and undid her hair, and it fell down
around her shoulders.  I felt my cock growing in my pants,
and it pressed up against her.
     Jessica reached behind herself, and unbuckled her bra,
revealing her naked breasts, she tossed the clothing aside
and came back down to me and we kissed some more.  My hands
found their way down to her ass, and I gently caressed it.
She started to unbutton my shirt, and it was off.  Then she
started to kiss down my neck, and to my mid chest, and
started to lick and suck lightly on my nipples, and then
began to trace her way down to my stomach, kissing as she
went.
     She reached her hands down and unbuttoned my pants, and
pulled them off of my feet in one swift movement, then she
pulled my boxers off.  My cock sprung free and pointed due
north.  She smiled contentedly and brought her hand up and
encircled the base of my dick, and brought her mouth down to
its level, she started to plant small kisses all over it,
the feeling of her hair laying down on my navel and legs was
exquisite while she planted kisses all over my swollen
shaft.
     Then she brought her mouth up to my head, and placed it
into her mouth.  My hands shot up to the back of her head,
and my back arched as her hot wet mouth capture me in her
mouth.  She possessed control of my whole body by having it
in her mouth, she went down as far as she could, and I could
feel my cock straining against the back of her mouth.   I
started to moan uncontrollably everytime she came back up to
my head.  She reached her other hand up and started to play
with my balls lightly.
     She started to strongly concentrate on my head while
her other hand stroked the length of my shaft, I was guiding
her into my rhythm with my hands.  After a while, I felt
that familiar feeling start to brew in my stomach.  She came
up from my lap and wiped the saliva off her lips, and
brushed her hair back with her hand.  "Not yet, I'm not
though with you by damned.."  She smiled evilly and removed
her pants and her panties.  Then she came beside me and laid
down.
     I maneuvered myself on top of her, and she reached her
hand down and grabbed my dick and positioned it at the
center of her vagina.  "I've never done this before" she
timidly said.  "Me neither, but I think I have some idea."
We both laughed momentarily, and she tugged on me sharply.
I pushed my hips in and my head entered her lips, and I
pushed farther keeping our eyes locked.
     She gasped for breath when I was half way in, and
squeezed a hand on my arm, and I stopped.  A look of relief
came upon her face and she smiled.  She released her grip,
and I continued on.
     The feeling was ecstasy, her cunt was gripping my cock
so tightly, it was just what I had imagined it to be, and I
was glad it was with Jessica.  I was sure now that I had
fallen in love with her.  "I love you."  I whispered.  Her
eyes flew open and she said in a sweet lovely voice, "I love
you too.".
     With that I started to slide into her faster.  She had
me in a death grip on my back, pulling me tightly, and her
legs were wrapped around my ass, pulling me deeper into her.
     "Ohh.  I'm go-ooing, I'm going to cumm.." she whimpered
inbetween labored breathes.  I took this as my queue and
started to pump harder, and she dug her nails into my back
and gripped my ass with her legs even tighter.  Her breath
ceased and she held it in tightly, then she let it out in
one long gasp, and her head fell back on the pillow.
     I soon after started to feel the first signs of my own
orgasm, and told her, "Keep going, I'm on the pill."  A
moment of relief and pleasure blew over me as I started to
shoot inside of her, I was finally finished after, it was
positively the best orgasm I had ever had, and when I was
done I came out of her and we slipped underneath the hotel
covers and she wrapped her arms around me, and I did too.
     We snuggled close and she kissed me, and said she had a
great time, and I did too.  I asked her how long she had
been on the pill, and she said not long, that when she laid
eyes on me that she thought something might happen, and she
took no chances.
     That was the first time I had ever really felt like a
man in my life.  This trip had brought me to so many
conclusions about my life, and laying there in that hotel
room, with Jessica at my side, I felt like I could do no
wrong, there was a certain aura emitted from us there
together.  I couldn't help myself and I fell asleep, holding
Jessica.

Chapter 5 - The Trip Home

     "Wake UP!!" a harsh male voice sounded into my ears.  I
sprang awake in a hotel room to see 3 boys around my bed,
snickering.  My heart skipped a beat as I came to the
realization that I was surely naked underneath those covers,
and that Jessica was laying beside me, asleep and being
gawked at by my teammates.  I looked over to my left and saw
a bare spot, and found I was in my boxers.  A gush of relief
overwhelmed me, Jessica must have left right after I fell
asleep.
     "Hey knuckle-fuck, what the hell do you think you're
doing, you totally missed the meeting!"  Tim said, "Mrs.
James spilled a whole fucking bowl of picante sauce on her
lap!"  The boys giggled some more.  66"Looks like you had
fun in here, sheesh, you missed ALL the fun, go back to
sleep."  I snickered to myself, and started to remember the
events this evening.
     The only thing that hit me to do was to call Jessica.
I picked up the phone, "483", Rebecca picked up and I asked
her if Jessica was there, and she said that she was in the
shower and she would tell her to call me when she got out.
I said OK, and laid in bed and waited for her to call me
back.
     RING!!  RRRRIINNGG!!  I smiled and picked up the
receiver, "hello Jess.."  "hi baby, how are you doing?  Bet
you got a shock when you woke up eh?" she giggled.  "Yeah,
how about I tell you all about it on the roof?"
     "ok, I'll meet you up there in 10 minutes, deal?" she
said.  "ok", and I hung up.  I got dressed in simple attire,
jeans shorts and a "CyPhErPuNk" t-shirt.
     I made my way to the elevator, and went up to the roof,
when I got there, I opened up the door and saw her standing
near the edge.  Her hair was blowing in the Seattle air, and
she looked so beautiful contrasted against the black night,
and the city.  She heard me shut the door and turned around,
and I smiled.
     I saw tears in her eyes, streaming down her face,
tainting it.  I walked closer.  "Please don't come any
closer." she half cried-said.  "I don't understand Jess,
whats going on?"
     "I'm sorry, I didn't want it to come to this, I-I, I,
nev", she broke down and started to sob, I thought of
running to her and pulling her close to me so I could
comfort her for whatever reasons she was so distraught.  She
whipped her head up and said "Yo-uu, you may not und-er-
sstand, most of the time, I don't, but I don't want to be
here anymore, don't you see?" she blurted out.
     "No, I don't understand Jess, come here so I can hold
you, we can work this out, please?"  I said.  I was starting
to well up in tears myself, I hated seeing her like this.
"I'll tell you right now, that if you come any closer, I'll
jump off this roof." She cried.
     "Jess, NO!  I don't want you to jump, please, I don't
want you too, why, why-hy are you doing thhis, I don't
understand, why?"  I screamed.  "You don't understand what
it's like to be me da-damnit, you just don't un-understnad."
She cried.  "I never wanted it to be like this, I love you
so much, you know that don't you?" she cried once more.
     "NO!  Please don't do this."  I knew what she had in
mind as she brought a bare foot up to the short stone
railing, and the wind increased as she became the highest
point on the rail.  I had no more time, I had to save her, I
would risk anything, I would give my own life to save hers.
     Before she got any higher, I bolted out for her, maybe
I had a chance of keeping her, she's all I ever wanted, I
would give anything to have her in my arms right now,
anything.
     I ran as fast as my heart would pump out adrenaline, my
eyes never broke away from hers as she raised the other foot
up and I knew from there, that it was her decision now, I
had no more pull.  "I love you." She said, but I barely
heard that above my own footsteps, "NOOOO!!! PLEASE!  I LOVE
YOU! GODDAMNIT!"
     Her balance gave way to the night and she fell
backwards.  I lunged out and my hand fell a foot short of
her right ankle, and I smashed on the tile hard.
     The only sound for a few seconds was the bubbling of
the hot-tub and the rattle of the heater on the pool.  I
picked myself up and looked over the edge, just in time to
hear a heart shattering scream, echoing up into the pitch
blackness of Seattle, and a thud on the concrete.
     I afforded a quick glimpse down and saw her body
sprawled out on the ground, and my mind caught to what
actually happened, and I started to bawl uncontrollably.  I
sat on the ledge and held my face, and was crying.  I
glimpsed over toward the hot-tub and started to think of
what we shared there, I thought of the van where we laughed
and joked, I thought of where we shared our most intimate
experience together, on that bed.
     I stood up determined and looked over the edge at the
few people starting to gather around her, and I too climbed
up onto the ledge, and looked over.  A million things raced
through my mind at that moment, I considered jumping, I
considered falling, and I considered going back to face the
world, like a man would.
     I painfully stepped off that ledge and walked to the
door, and went back down to the hotel room, knocked on Mrs.
James's door, and told her to go outside to the ground
floor.  "What's the matter???" she said, noticing my tears.
"Just go, please."
     She ran past me, and I curled into a ball there in
front of her hotel room, and I thought of Jess, I thought of
myself, and I thought of my future, but probably most of all
my past.

                                      -- THE END --

by Saratonin, started at 8:00pm on 09/16/95, and finished at
8:35pm on 09/17/95.

This is really my first attempt to write any kindove story,
or literary work.  Hope it was good.


AUTHORS NOTE, PLEASE READ..

Some say that every teenager has a dark underbelly, I guess
this is where I express mine, or is this my dark underbelly,
or is it not, and my dark underbelly lies somewhere
underneath all this?  I'm not sure, maybe I'll find out
later.  Is what I'm doing wrong?  Why do I write this
anonymously, so that I mask my true identity from the world?
Am I afraid I will be persecuted for having these thoughts,
that I will be an outcast from society?
     I am different from everyone else, I am an outcast, or
do I feel as others feel, do I think as others think, or am
I this outcast that thinks of these demeaning and degrading
things?  Am I glorifying this sexual act that I have had
limited contact with, or am I burying it in grime?
     We as the internet community have been deemed as
perverts since TIME released that cyberporn issue, maybe it
is not my place to say, but I don't see anything wrong with
what is going on here.  Writers on alt.sex.stories and of
the like are expressing our feelings, and I don't think we
are ruining or putting young children in any danger.
Cybersex, Netsex, and of the like.  No one gets hurt, keep
that in mind.  All these little innocent electrons race
though phone lines, touching our lives, and exciting us.  No
one gets raped, no one gets pregnant, no one has abortions,
no one's heart gets broken, no one gets diseases, besides
the occasional virus.  In real life, all of these are
cautions, please protect yourself.
     Am I not a sick little boy, hiding behind this computer
monitor that fills my room in a phosphorus glow, which is my
porthole to society.  Am I sick?  Do I need help?  The
outside world disgusts me, and I don't like the people
around me, am I just a scared little teenager sitting in my
room, thinking thoughts that are forbidden?  Shout I be out
interacting with my peers?  I much more prefer this world of
anonymous faces, where no one judges me except for my
thoughts, and my ideas.
     You don't know who I am, I could be that nerdy kid that
sits beside you in English, I could be that tall handsome
kid that mows your lawn on Saturdays, I could even be your
boss, living behind this monitor.

Thanks for reading this far, and if you need to get in touch
with me, feel free to e-mail me at an355865@anon.penet.fi.
It would really entertain me to hear your responses on what
you thought of the story, and how I could improve.  If there
is many replies, I may even write another =)  Sorry about
the abrupt kinda sudden ending, but it just hit me =)  Bye
guys..

Another note to the posters and readers of alt.sex.stories.
I want to say that in the short amount of time that I have
been on that group, that it has become a wasteland, probably
only 1 out of 100 posts are true stories!  Please take your
non-story crap to alt.dumbass, or alt.sex.stories.d, try and
keep that place clean, thanks.

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