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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      F/M
  Fandom:
      Pokemon
  Relationship:
      N/Touko
  Character:
      N_Harmonia, Touko, Touya, Belle, Cheren, Ghetsis, Concordia, Anthea
  Additional Tags:
      Angst, Tragedy
  Stats:
      Published: 2011-04-16 Chapters: 3/3 Words: 2965
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by animeheroine
Summary
     N loves Touko. He desperately wishes for her to love him back, but
     with his psychotic mood swings it's hard to believe she'll ever trust
     him enough to love him. With a greater, unstoppable force coming
     between the two, is there even a point in trying?
Notes
     Thanks for clicking on this story and I hope I don't disappoint! This
     is my first time using "Archive of our Own" and I'm still trying to
     get around with it~ Thanks!
***** Prologue *****
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                                   Prologue
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
Stupidity caused this mess.
Stupidity will make you pay.
Stupidity will hurt you.
"I am here for you.
I will never hurt you.
If you are ever lost, I will always find you."
Dark, teal and full of emotion.
Icy, blue and full of hate.
Bright, purple and full of thoughts of a new world.
"Tell me how to save a life,
When all hope is lost
And you're barely clinging on…"
A savior.
A pessimist.
A selfish being.
"Tell me how to love like you,
Because my heart is cold
And I need your warmth…"
Misperception.
Resentment.
Rejection.
"Tell me what I'm supposed to do,
Because I've never
Felt this way before…"
Memories of something created before, nowhere to be found, wandering alone in
the space above.
Memories of something created now, hoping to be destroyed, never leaving her
mind.
Memories of something to be created soon, not yet discovered, drifting in and
out of his head.
"I need you.
You need me.
Why don't you just give into this perfect harmony?"
"Perfection is a virtue.

Corruption is a vice.

But what is in between?"
                        [end of prologue: perspective]
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
***** Prologue *****
Chapter Notes
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                                  Chapter One
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
"A…B…C…D…E…F…G…H…I…J…K…L…M…N…"
"N…N…N…"
"What's…after…N…?"
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
"I'll give you another chance, Touko," N said softly. "We don't have to fight."
He had just defeated four of her six Pokémon easily.
The female trainer shook her head confidently, a huge smile on her face. "I've
been waiting for this! For the longest time, I've always wanted to beat you for
good!" She threw out a Pokéball containing Daikenki, the third evolution to her
starter Pokémon, Mijumaru.
N started laughing hysterically, an evil aura around him, overflowing like a
river with water flooding its banks. He looked like his old, familiar innocent
self, and yet, Touko noted, his dark teal eyes showed…lust and want?
"Zekrom!" the green haired king shouted. "Go, and use Cross Thunder against her
Daikenki!"
Touko's eyes widened as Daikenki, a Water-type, was shot down with ease by his
Legendary Pokémon."N! I'll return this to you!" Touko shouted, throwing
Reshiram's Pokéball out onto the field. "Don't feel like you've won yet! Go,
Reshiram!"
He blinked, her voice returning him to reality. "Reshiram," he uttered softly,
"I'm sorry." He closed his eyes and whispered inaudible words. "Why are you
doing this, Touko?" he cried back, tears welling up in his eyes as he watched
her determined expression. "I don't want to hurt you! And I don't want t-to
hurt your Pokémon…or you!"
The girl felt touched at his words, but quickly shook her head, not giving in
to his charming words. "I don't want to do this either, N!" Because I love you.
"But I have to! You're going to ruin the world!" she argued
"Ruin it? I'm changing the world for the better!" he cried in return. "You
don't understand!"
"No!"she barked. "You'rethe one that doesn't understand, N!"
"Dragon Claw!"
"You too, Reshiram! Dragon Claw!"
Both legendary Dragons attacked each other with their claws, fighting hard.
"Cross Fire!" Touko shouted, watching as Reshiram summoned an ancient fire.
N hesitated as Zekrom got smashed with Reshiram's signature move. "L-Lightning
Strike!"N exclaimed, using Zekrom's ultimate move. It's only supposed to be
used under great circumstances…he reminded himself. But I suppose I could call
this a great circumstance.
Her eyes widened as his legendary Dragon-Electric Pokémon took the opportunity
to defeat her Reshiram with a huge bolt of lightning. "…W-What? Lightning
Strike is that powerful?" she exclaimed in shock. "I don't believe it…" She
blinked in disbelief. "Wh-why? Why would you do such a thing, N?" she cried,
tears welling up in her eyes. She gazed down at the Dragon-Fire legendary
beast, staring at its fiery blue eyes as her knees wobbled, causing the trainer
to drop to her knees. "T-That…th-that was too much, even for you!"
"I'm sorry, Reshiram," N and Touko murmured simultaneously, the girl fighting
back tears. The Plasma Lord strutted over to Touko, his burrow furrowed with an
apology as he called Zekrom back into its Pokéball.
"Touko," he called out, kneeling next to her as he wrapped his arms around her
waist. "This is how it was meant to be…" he started, but Touko cut him off.
"No!" she shouted back, giving him a good slap. "This wasn'thow it was meant to
be! I was supposed to beat you! I was supposed to show you that…th-that…that
you aren't supposed to hurt the Pokémon like this! It isn't supposed to be like
this…"
N touched his cheek gently, closing his eyes for a moment, his inner self
debating whether or not to retaliate. "But it is," he whispered softly, a
decision made, pressing his lips to the shell of her ear. "There's nothing you
can do about it…"
She shoved him away, crawling backwards, trying to escape the man. "G-Get away
f-from me, you monster! J-Just g-go the hell away!" she cried, tears
overflowing her eyes.
His lips formed a hard line. "Monster? Me?" he repeated in shock. "I'mthe
monster, when you, as a Trainer,force Pokémon into these Pokéballswithout
asking their permission? I'mthe monster when I ask for all your trainersto let
go your Pokémon because of what you're doing to them?" His teal eyes shimmered
and reflected the anger boiling up in his body. "Look into my eyes, Touko." He
watched her squirm away for a few centimeters, but he wouldn't let her escape.
Oh no, she caused much too much trouble for her to let go. "Touko," he barked,
reaching over to grab her wrist. N held it tightly with an iron grip, forcing
Touko to cry out in pain. "Look into my eyes and tell me I'm a monster," he
told her slowly through gritted teeth.
Touko couldn't look into those evil teal eyes without shaking in fear. Averting
her gaze, she looked at Reshiram, who was staring at Touko with pleading eyes.
R-Reshiram?she thought. What are you…?Reshiram slowly got up, spinning around
to sweep N away with its tail. "R-Reshiram!" she cried. Swallowing her fears
down, she eyed the spot N got thrown to. He was sitting in the middle of
rubble, his eyes half closed, blood leaking from his mouth. "N?" she called
hesitantly, standing up sluggishly. "N!" Touko ran towards him, fear no longer
lingering within her body. She slid to his side, the dirt scraping her knee,
and she touched his cheek tentatively.
"Monster…" he groaned softly, his eyes fluttering. In a swift motion, Touko had
her back against the wall with N pressing her against it violently. His
perspiring forehead pressed against hers, and she smelled his breath faintly –
mint? Touko yelped in pain as his hands gripped her wrists tightly again,
raising them near her head and shoving them against the wall. "You'rethe
monster!"he screeched in her ear. "You dare attack me like that? You dare to
attack a king like me with such – suchcommoner tactics?" He squeezed her
wrists, causing her to squeal in pain.
Reshiram could do nothing but watch, since it had no more power to do anything,
even though Touko's icy blue eyes were pleading the Dragon to help. "N," she
cried, "stop it! That hurts!" He cradled her chin in his soft hands, forcing
her to stare into his lustful eyes. "Please…N…I'm sorry…" she whispered
quietly.
"Sorry won't cut it," he murmured gently, sucking on her earlobe. The action
ran shivers down her spine, which caused N to assume it was a tremble of
pleasure. "…I suppose that will do."
Holding down both of her wrists with a single hand, he used his free one to
release Zekrom into the air. "Let us go, my princess," he whispered
seductively. Pressing his index finger to her shoulder, he hit her pressure
point perfectly, which caused her to pass out in his arms. "I had wished I
could have made you…fall asleep in a more…pleasurable way."
He shrugged to himself and held Touko up to Zekrom to pull upon its back. "No
matter." A loud sigh escaped his lips. "Women, these days," he grumbled, "have
no respect for men whatsoever. When I was a young…" His voice droned on, Zekrom
flying towards the sky, ignoring the cries of the Reshiram left there, wailing
for its trainer.
The last thing she saw was his bright purple eyes…
But why purple?
                         [end of chapter one: colors]
   "That's what you get for falling again; you can never get him out of your
                                    head."
                       Pretty Girl (The Way) – Sugarcult
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
***** enharmonic: Chapter 2 *****
Chapter Notes
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                                  Chapter Two
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
"A…B…C…D…E…F…G…H…I…J…K…L…M…N…"
"N…N…N…"
"What's…after…N…?"
"Why can't I remember?"
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)

You know you want it.
His heart thumped loudly against his chest.
"Mm…Touko…"

Trust me. I know how you feel.
His body started heating up faster than he realized.
"T-Touko…"

Take her. For both of us.
A cocky smirk appeared on his face as a soft moan escaped his lips, the clever
voice inside his head obviously winning the battle.
"Yes…right there…"
Hearing a sharp intake of breath, his eyes suddenly opened, his body
automatically searching the dim light of the room. "Touko?" N uttered in
disbelief, seeing her icy cerulean eyes, full of fright.
"Yes, N?" she replied, looking indifferent. Her hand pressed against his
tightly, holding it affectionately.
N smiled to himself, his torn selves arguing whether to squeezer her hand back
or not to. I…guess she stilltrustsme... Recalling her terrified eyes, he took
back his comment, frowning. Most likely not. With my performance yesterday… He
closed his eyes and thought about it for a moment, when suddenly his hand
jerked and clenched her hand tightly without his consent.
"N?" She began hyperventilating, to his dismay.
Suddenly, N felt an incredible adrenaline rush course through his veins, his
eyes drooping as an opposite effect. "Hey, Touko?" he managed to say, staring
into her eyes with tired, teal ones. "Could you use that speaker on the wall to
call Anthea or Concordia?" A hand raised to point at the small, white speaker
with a few red buttons, reminding him of a Pokéball. "I feel…," he started, but
paused to swallow hesitantly, "sick."
She looked at him, confused, but shrugged to his words, not understanding what
was wrong.
"Touko!" N suddenly shouted, his head spinning as it pulsed, making his body
ache all over. "Get Concordia. Or Anthea. Now!" N began coughing violently, a
sickening sound filling the air. "I-I n-need m-my pills!" His breathing
quickened, just as Touko's had when she was hyperventilating.
The last thing N saw was Touko hopping to her feet, rushing for the speaker
before the darkness engulfed him completely.
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
Touko opened her eyes slowly, waking up from a grueling nightmare. Rubbing her
eyes open, she glanced around, looking at an unfamiliar room. Sitting on the
desk was a lone Pokéball and her white and pink hat that she dashed for and
slipped it onto her head. On the opposite side of the room was a huge mural of
Reshiram, Zekrom and a frosty blue Pokémon she didn't recognize. After a
moment, her eyes traveled to the door, noticed it was shut tight and had a
little button and speaker next to it.
Then she looked to the left side of the bed she was lying in.
"…N?" she exclaimed in shock, scrambling out of the bed, and hitting her head
against the hard floor. Her eyes flicked back and forth from N lying in the bed
then to the door. "W-Where am I?" Her breathing quickened and her heart raced
in anxiety. "A-Are… Are you…N? The real N?"
He began tossing and turning in the bed, breathing heavily. "Mm…Touko…" he
mumbled, his head rolling around the pillow. The female trainer swallowed
hesitantly, unsure of what to do. "T-Touko…" he continued to moan softly in
what Touko guessed were his dreams. "Yes…right there…" His eyes snapped open as
he heard Touko take a sharp intake of breath. Sitting up quickly, he instantly
stared into Touko's pale cerulean eyes. "Touko?"
Her breathing stopped for a split second, but when she saw his innocent teal
eyes, she quickly exhaled, to her relief. "Yes, N?" was her automatic reply.
She knelt down by his side and took his hand in hers grasping it tightly. It's
him,she thought, a soft smile appearing on her face. I know it. I was just
imagining that other side of him. He wouldn't hurt me. Ever.
His hand squeezing hers violently brought her to the sick truth. But he did
attack me yesterday... And he probably will, again."N?" she mumbled, her lungs
failing to give her air.
"Hey, Touko?" he mumbled, looking at her with tired eyes. "Could you use that
speaker on the wall to call Anthea or Concordia?" His voice was soft and low,
croaky with sleep. "I feel…sick…"
Touko cocked her head to the side, wondering what was up. Just a moment ago,
she felt like the sheer strength of his hand was going to break her fingers,
but now, N was asking for her help. She shrugged. It was confusing, with the
way he was.
It seemed as if he was fighting something on the inside.
"Touko!" N shouted. "Did you hear me?" She quickly turned to him, looking into
his now purple eyes. "Get Concordia. Or Anthea. Now!" He started hacking out a
loud, raspy cough. "I-I n-need m-my pills!" His breathing quickened, as if he
was having an asthma attack.
Scrambling to her feet, she rushed to the door side, obviously flustered. She
hit the button and cried, "Um, C-Concordia!" Touko hesitated for a second. "A-
Anthea? N…N needs his pills…"
The speaker was silent for a minute, a minute too long, but finally, the voice
of one of the Plasma "Queens" spoke up. "Of course," Anthea replied calmly, a
quiet rattling sound coming from Anthea's side of the speaker. "I'll send a
grunt up right away."
(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
Touko's breath slowed as the grunt clothed in an outrageous outfit finally
appeared with N's "pills." The female trainer wasn't sure what those pills
were, but in her mind, she told herself she didn't want to know. The grunt
looked at her and shrugged and told her N would be out for a few hours. "And
one last thing," the grunt recalled, frowning, "don't make N angry."
"Why?" Touko asked, cocking her head to the side in confusion. "N gets angry?"
she added, more shock threading her voice. Anymore surprises wouldn't be very
surprising,she thought to herself.
The grunt chuckled, shaking his head. "Looks are deceiving," he quoted,
frowning at Touko's stupidity or trust. He eyed the clock hung on the wall and
groaned. "Crap, it's past the curfew…" His eyes pierced Touko's angrily. "Get
to sleep or Ghetsis will have your rump on the wall to prod at."
As the grunt left the room, Touko held her butt, feeling self-conscious about
the size. "Is my ass really that big?" she asked herself, blinking in
confusion. Touko sighed and reached over to hold the Pokéball sitting on the
desk. "Who are you, my little Pokémon?" she wondered hesitantly, running her
thumb over the little button in the middle.
Reh…,it groaned softly.
"Hope," Touko realized, suddenly smiling. She strode over to the window and
lifted the curtains, letting the moonlight to pour in, but saw bars attached to
the windows, knowing that she wouldn't be able to escape. If she released
Reshiram inside the castle, she knew the Pokémon would break something or hurt
someone, which was something she didn't want. Biting her lip, she aimed the
ball against the open parts of the bars, clicking the button and letting
Reshiram go.
"Hope…you're free," she whispered softly as the huge Legendary Pokémon
appeared. The Pokémon whimpered quietly, pressing its head against the bars
tenderly. "No, Hope…" Touko told it, pressing her hand against its head,
frowning as she rubbed its fur affectionately. "I'm sorry..." Behind her, she
heard the sound of footsteps on the floor, so she quickly looked at Reshiram
urgently. "Please, Hope, you're free! I release you, Reshiram…" she suddenly
said without thinking, throwing the ball down onto the grass below Reshiram's
feet.
The Pokémon made another whimpering sound, but without another complaint, it
turned around and spread its wings. Its head turned for a moment, but looked
back up to the full moon in sadness, taking flight and shooting off into the
air like a rocket.
Touko closed her eyes and sighed, wondering if she had done the right thing.
Glancing at the unconscious N, and then to the securely closed door behind her,
what she had to do was suddenly clear.
Save N from this living nightmare.
She slowly raised her head up to the sky and saw a lone star, twinkling its
light to Touko, as if it knew what was troubling her.
                      [end of chapter two: starlit night]
  "I looked up into the sky for salvation, but all I could see was the lonely
                                 star above."
             The One Star - Cameron Strothe and Takeharu Ishimoto
                             (X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)(X)
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