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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Alliance-Union_-_C._J._Cherryh
  Relationship:
      Ariane_Emory_II/Catlin_AC-7892/Florian_AF-9979, Justin_Warrick/Grant_ALX-
      972
  Character:
      Ariane_Emory_II, Catlin_AC-7892, Florian_AF-9979, Grant_ALX-972
  Additional Tags:
      Threesome_-_F/F/M, Yuletide_2007
  Collections:
      Yuletide_2007
  Stats:
      Published: 2007-12-25 Words: 1079
****** Realizations ******
by yuletidefairy
Summary
     The shift in bias was one Ari forced herself to follow to all its
     logical conclusions. She took it into her own psychsets, made herself
     examine how she acted with men, how she acted with women.
Ari was sixteen years old when she asked Justin to take her to bed, and Justin
glitched, and Grant led Justin out and propositioned her in Justin's place. At
sixteen, she didn't understand why, didn't understand why any of it--why Justin
refused her, why Grant made her that offer. In time, she learned some of the
why, found out what her predecessor had done to Justin that made her image so
repellent to him, thought it was monstrously unfair that she should be blamed
for what Ari Senior had done, but understood--
But she didn't understand Grant for the longest time, and that was Ari Senior's
fault, too, because Ari Senior, in her notes and lessons, left Ari with a
prejudice it took her a long time to see.
Grant loved Justin. And Justin loved Grant.
Ari knew that they were sexually involved, of course, there was no avoiding
knowing that, but Ari Senior had managed to teach her that that was an
aberration. She wrote of Jordan (who had the same sort of relationship with his
azi) that he was afraid of women. She wrote about her uncle's abuse of her
Florian, and neglected to mention that it would have been as aberrant for a
grown man to take advantage of a child azi if that azi had been Catlin instead
of Florian. She wrote of the needs of budding colonies, how batches of azi
would have to breed, and breed again, generation after generation, to fill the
stars.
Cyteen was a budding colony when Ari Senior was young, but no more. No one at
Reseune was designed to breed like animals, not Justin, certainly not Grant (an
experimental; he couldn't breed all), definitely not Ari herself. She might
have a baby from the birth-labs, some child she designed or a clone to be
raised in her own image, again, but to be born from a womb-tank, not her own
womb. That was too great a risk for someone as important as herself.
So all of Ari Senior's prejudices became moot, and what she had done to
scramble Justin's brains with sex was the greater aberration than what Grant
did to fix him, out of love, even if it was azi-love, azi-devotion, a
programmed response to Justin's need. (Who had programmed it? Justin wouldn't;
Ari Senior would have been too arrogant, she thought; but Grant himself--maybe.
It was hard to know.)
But the shift in bias was one Ari forced herself to follow to all its logical
conclusions. She took it into her own psychsets, made herself examine how she
acted with men, how she acted with women. She found that for the most part it
didn't matter, not for how she interacted with CITs, because most CITs had the
same biases as Ari Senior. (Could she bind her female friends to her more
tightly with sex? Maddy, and 'Stasi, and the rest? Maybe, and maybe it would
only drive them away, because they would be afraid. So it didn't matter.) But
with azi--
With azi--
That was the thing about azi; your azi loved you unconditionally. Catlin loved
her as equally as Florian, but Ari had only ever slept with Florian, and she'd
known, from the first morning after, how close she came to messing things up,
with their partnership, with their service to her.
And there was a very simple fix that she'd been blind to.
Ari had sex with Catlin alone first, to try to even out that early disparity,
the upset when she'd had sex with Florian and left Catlin out, when they were
all very young.
(Twelve. They'd been twelve. Pushing thirteen hard, she'd thought at the time,
in the way of children counting every half-birthday and extra month to prove
how mature they were. She had moved out of Uncle Denys's and into Ari Senior's
old suite, and lived there with her two azi and no one older to look after her:
legally speaking, she hadn't had anything left to prove about her maturity. But
she'd known in her own heart how immature she still was, so twelve-pushing-
thirteen-hard it was.)
At least Ari didn't make the same mistake she did then, making it mysterious,
making them confused. She told them upfront that she wanted Catlin to have a
special time with her, just the two of them, the same as Florian had, and that
afterwards Catlin could tell Florian all about it, the same as Florian had, and
then they would do it all three of them together, no one left out.
"Yes, sera," said Florian.
And, more quietly, "Yes, sera," said Catlin.
Ari put her hand out for Catlin's hand and said, "It's all right, isn't it? If
you don't want--"
"I want to," Catlin said quickly. "Sera."
Ari knew a little of what to do with another girl's body, but Catlin was ill-
equipped to deal with it at all. Her azi training in sexuality had consisted
largely of the basic rut. Ari wasn't sure her tape had assumed she'd ever have
real sex at all, only reward tape, but Florian had transmitted that knowledge
to her, in the wake of Ari initiating him. Catlin had said, of sex with
Florian, that it was like a good work-out. Ari wasn't quite sure what to make
of that, how much joy Catlin had gotten from it.
So the first thing Ari wanted to do was make sure Catlin knew what an orgasm
was.
It ended up being rather unlike most sex with azi. Both in Ari's experience and
that of her friends, the primary selling point of sex with azi was their
willingness to do anything to please one's CIT. And here Ari told Catlin to lie
back and spread her legs and say what felt good and what she wanted more of,
while Ari licked and fingered her until she gasped, "Sera--sera--" with no more
words.
Ari felt very pleased with herself, and very powerful. Sex was power, she knew
this, but it was more basic than that, because she didn't want anything from
Catlin except to make her happy, make them all happy.
And then Ari called Florian in, and he kissed Catlin, and kissed her, and Ari
kissed Catlin.
The next day, Ari said, "Thank you," to Grant when she passed him in the hall.
"For what?" Grant asked her, looking alarmed.
"You made me realize something," Ari said. She smiled mysteriously, and left
Grant wondering.
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