Tiffany's Diaper Tales
                         Volume II
                      By BabyInDiapers
                     Written 08/01/2006
                        Chapter 047


Time was going by quickly. It was the middle of November. The 
weather was beginning to cool down. This thanksgiving we would 
be taking a special trip to where Aunt Kathy and Amy used to 
live. The radiation levels were now low enough for people to 
go back to these areas. Wednesday Amy flew in from Montana. 
Thursday we had thanks giving dinner at our house. Tammy did 
not come home for thanksgiving since she was hanging out with 
some friends at college. Teala was also busy at work and 
couldn't take off.


Friday morning we got in the truck and began our journey. 
Kevin was along with us. Daddy and mommy sat up front, and Amy 
and I sat in the back with Kathy and Kevin. Daddy's truck was 
super big so there was enough room. When we started getting 
closer to Aunt Kathy's area we saw many new buildings. Then we 
got down into the area where Aunt Kathy's house used to be and 
there was a street there instead. The entire layout of the 
neighborhood was totally different now. There were model homes 
everywhere and the subdivision seemed empty. I guessed it was 
difficult to convince people to move into an area that was 
once destroyed in a nuclear blast.


Aunt Kathy seemed to be doing okay. "I'm actually glad that 
they are rebuilding here. It looks totally different now 
though. It used to be so scenic, now it's just another 
subdivision with all the houses looking the same." Aunt Kathy 
said as we drove around. We stopped for lunch and then headed 
back home. It was 5 hours to get there, and 5 to get back 
home. We got home at 9:30 that night. We were all tired from 
just sitting in the truck all day. 


That night I slept with Amy. I asked her if she was okay after 
seeing everything today. "I honestly thought it would still be 
all flattened and burned up still. I was glad that people are 
rebuilding; but mom was right, it's not the same. Our home is 
here with you guys now. And I like knowing that when I'm home 
from school I get to see you guys." She said as she rolled 
onto her tummy. I did the same and we fell asleep together.


The next day was Saturday. I woke up with a loaded diaper. Amy 
changed me. We sat down and ate breakfast. Kevin came over 
around ten. He took Aunt Kathy and Amy out for the day. I 
called Laura to see how she was doing. We talked about a half 
hour. I was bored and walking around the house. I found mommy 
in the back yard hanging up some laundry. I sat on my swing 
for a while. As we were sitting out in the yard we heard a 
helicopter that sounded like it was really close. I looked up 
in the sky. It was hovering over a few streets away. We heard 
a bunch of sirens and then another helicopter joined.


"Mommy what's going on?" I asked as I stood next to her as we 
both gazed skyward. "Not sure honey. I think that one is a 
news chopper though." She said. We watched for another few 
minutes. Then daddy came outside. He looked up in the sky. 
"Tanya, come here." He said as he whispered something in her 
ear. "Tiffany, you wait out here ok. Mommy has to go inside 
for a moment." She said. I could tell something was up. I just 
sat on my swing and began to pray for whoever's house it was 
that the police were at.


Some time later mommy came back into the yard. She looked like 
she had been crying. "Mom, what's going on." I said. I was 
really worried now. Mom knelt in front of me as I sat on the 
swing. "The police are at Emily's house honey." She said. "Oh 
my God, are they okay mommy?" I asked. I was starting to cry. 
"Honey." Mom said while crying. "Tell me, are they okay?" I 
said as I grabbed her arm. Mom looked down at the ground. "No 
honey, its not okay." She said as she was balling like a baby 
at this point. "MOM!", I yelled as I got up and pushed her 
over onto the grass. "NO!!!" I said. "WHY!" I was screaming. I 
knew what she was trying to say. I had a sinking feeling in my 
stomach, that Emily was gone.


Daddy ran out of the house. He held me. "Daddy what happened!" 
I said while sobbing. "Someone broke into Emily's house last 
night and." Daddy paused. "Tell me!" I said through my sobs. 
"Honey, Emily and her mom were found in the house this 
morning. They were killed."  I just went into shock I was 
thrashing against daddy just screaming. Everything started 
spinning. Then everything went dark.


I woke up later in my crib with mommy and daddy next to me. I 
sat up and then threw up all over myself and I started crying. 
Mommy got out and came back and cleaned up the mess. Daddy 
just held onto me. "Not fair daddy. I love my Emily. I didn't 
even get to say goodbye." I said as I started shaking and 
crying. My head was feeling like it would explode from the 
intensity in which I was crying.


"I wish it was a bad dream and I could wake up." I said as I 
calmed down somewhat. I then thought of Laura. "Does Laura 
know yet?" I asked. "I don't know." Dad said. "I want to go 
see Laura." I said. Mom changed my diaper because while crying 
so much I had totally lost control and wet and messed myself.
Mommy diapered me so gently.


Mom and I got in the car and I laid down in the front seat as 
she drove me to Laura's.  We pulled into the drive way. "You 
wait here. I want to talk to her mommy first." Mom said. I 
just laid there trying to keep my composure. A few minutes 
later my mom and Laura's mom came out to the car. Laura's mom 
hugged me as I got out of the car. "Does Laura know?" "Yes. 
She was watching TV when she saw the news. She's laying down 
right now. She wont even talk to us. Maybe you can get through 
to her." Her mom said. 


We went in the house and I walked down to Laura's room. I 
slipped into the door closing it behind me. "Laura, it's me, 
Tiffy." There was no reaction from her. I crawled into her 
crib with her. "Laura, I know you can hear me." I said softly. 
I began to hold her and rub her back and pat her little tush. 
I was doing everything I knew how to do to comfort her.


I didn't say anything else, I just laid there with her. Laura 
began to cry after a while and I just held her close. "I'm 
here baby." I said softly while holding her tightly. I began 
to cry too. "It's okay, I cried a lot already too. It's ok to 
cry Laura. I'll hold you, and you hold me. We'll find a way 
through this somehow.


I sat up against the headboard of her crib and took off my 
shirt. I already wasn't wearing a bra. "Come here baby." I 
said. She got into my lap. "Want mommy milk?" I asked. She 
just sniffled and slightly nodded. I slowly laid her head back 
into my arms and held her close to my breasts. She began to 
suck on my nipple. My milk began to flow into her mouth. 
"Yummy mommy." She said as I switched her to the other side.


She fell asleep and pooped her diaper. I rolled her onto her 
tummy. I put my hand on her tush to feel her loaded diaper. I 
gave her a nice soft push on her diaper to mush her poo for 
her. I just sat there looking at her. I had tears running down 
my face. Laura's mom peaked in. I looked over at her in the 
doorway. "She's going to be ok. I fed her; she pooped her 
diaper and is sleeping now." I said. She then closed the door 
quietly. I laid there next to her in just my diaper and pants. 
I kept my shirt off. I was so exhausted that I laid there next 
to her and I also fell asleep.


Mom went home and got my diaper bag packed and brought it 
over. When we woke up she said I could stay with Laura if I 
wanted to. "I want you to stay with us." I said. My mom looked 
at Laura's mom. "It's ok if you want to spend the night." 
Laura's mom said to my mom. "I'll come back tonight to tuck 
you in, okay baby?" mom asked. "Otay." I said as we hugged.


We ate some dinner that night but didn't eat much. Laura and I 
were not crying much either. We were just in the denial phase 
now. We couldn't really process that Emily and her mom were 
just gone. My mom came over around 8:30. She slept on a cot in 
the room with Laura and I. I got my bath with Laura and then 
we said good night to Laura's mom and dad and little brother.


Laura and I sat on the cot with mommy as she read to us. After 
the story I asked mommy if she would feed me. She let me lay 
back and suckle. Laura wanted to be breastfed by me as well so 
I pulled off my shirt and she laid down next to me and put her 
mouth on my nipple. We were so cute. Mom giggled. "You two are 
so adorable." Mom said as she just let me suckle. I was 
becoming such a baby. Laura also was suckling on me at the 
same time. This really felt nice. Having mommy's milk and 
giving my milk to Laura at the same time. I feel asleep and so 
did Laura. Mom woke me and I helped her put Laura in the crib. 
Then I got in and fell asleep. Mommy then laid there and 
finally fell asleep.


Laura woke up in the middle of the night crying. I was also 
sad. We held each other. I slid my hand up under her rubber 
pants and felt the wetness on her tush. "Baby you're soakie 
wettie. Let momma change you." I said. She laid there and I 
diapered her. "Is everything alright." Mom asked as she was 
awakened by us. "Yeah mom. I'm just changing Laura's wet 
pants." I said as I slid her rubber pants back up over the new 
diaper. I laid there and lie on top of me. She rested her face 
between my breasts. We fell back asleep.


The next morning we got up and we all went to church. Mom took 
me home to get dressed and then we game back and Laura and I 
got to ride together with dad in the car, while mom and Aunt 
Kathy and Kevin took the truck. Laura's parents and Joey were 
in their own car. During service, we all prayed and cried and 
just tried to bring our broken hearts before God. I was 
somewhat mad at God, but I knew that He still loved me. Laura 
was so upset that her mom held her through most of the service 
as she cried. 


After church Robert came by my house. I was over at Laura's. 
So mom told him where I was. He came over to Laura's and rang 
the bell. "Hi Robert." Linda said as she let him in. Linda 
came into the room. "Tiffany, someone is here to see you." She 
said. "Who is it?" I asked. "Robert." She said. "Oh." I 
replied. I didn't seem to interested in seeing him. "Honey, 
why don't you go say hi to him." I got up and went out to see 
him. Laura was still in her room with her mom.


"Hey." He said. "Hi." I said as I sat next to him on the 
couch. There was a long silence. "How are you and Laura 
holding up?" he asked. "Okay I guess." I said. "I broke up 
with Alicia." He said. "So, I don't care. It's not like you 
can just come up in here and pretend everything's okay; 
Because it's not ok ROBERT!" I said as I glared at him.


"I miss you thought." He said. "Well you should have thought 
about that before you up and left me with that ho!" I said 
while standing up and slapping him in the face. All of a 
sudden like a ton of bricks hitting me, I just hit the floor 
crying and screaming. Laura's mom ran over to me. She had 
already been standing in the hall when she heard me yelling at 
Robert just moments earlier.


I was hyperventilating and I lost control and loaded my 
diaper. Laura's mom knelt down and held me from thrashing and 
breaking stuff. "Tiffany, honey, stop it. You're going to be 
okay." She said while practically holding me down. Laura came 
toddling out of her room and found her way over to where I 
was. "Tiffy." She said as she knelt down next to me and 
touched my face. Robert just stared at us. 


Linda looked up at Robert and said, "Maybe this isn't such a 
good time for you to talk with Tiffany. Why don't you give her 
some time. She's got a lot to deal with right now honey."  
Robert headed for the door. He looked back at us on the floor 
by the couch and then left, closing the door behind him. He 
sat out on the steps. He lit up a cigarette and just sat their 
chain smoking.


After I calmed down I got Laura back to her crib. I saw 
through the window that Robert was sitting their on the steps 
smoking. This made me mad. I went outside. "Since when do you 
smoke!" I said as I smacked him up side the head. "Why do you 
keep hitting me!" he yelled. "Because you're acting like a 
jackass!" I said as I sat next to him.


We just sat there for a while. "Robert, I can't deal with you 
right now. Emily's dead and you act like it doesn't even phase 
you!" is yelled. "Tiffany, I do care. Okay, Emily was my 
friend too. You don't think it hurts! We'll never play in the 
band again without thinking of her. We wont have her to sit 
with at lunch at school anymore!" he yelled back at me.


I started crying. He put his arm around me. I pushed him away. 
"Don't touch me! I'm in love with Laura now! We're together. 
It probably would have happened anyway, so I'm glad you dumped 
me. I'm glad I didn't have to dump you." I said. "What do you 
mean you and Laura are together?" "You know, we're together; 
like I love her, I make out with her, she's my girlfriend 
Robert!"  "Oh, well that's just great! So I make a mistake and 
you start dyking out with Laura?" he yelled. "Fuck you 
Robert!" I screamed as I got up and ran into the house 
slamming the door hard.


Linda held me as I cried on the couch. After I calmed down I 
took a shower. I then got in the crib with Laura. I was 
staying the night again. We would not be going to school 
tomorrow. Laura's mommy checked on us and then she also went 
to bed. Ralph and Joey were already asleep. 


Laura and I clung to each other that night. Being with each 
other helped us to feel somewhat better. We tried not talking 
about or thinking about Emily. It was not easy though. Her 
viewing was Wednesday night, and funeral Thursday morning. I 
woke up in the middle of the night. Laura was also awake. We 
talked quietly for a while. "I heard you and Robert fighting 
yesterday." She said. "Yeah, he made me real mad." I said. "Do 
you still love him?" she asked. "No baby, I don't, not 
anymore. I love you though; and you're all I care about now."


We cuddled and fell back asleep. Mom had brought over Mr. 
Fluffy, but I was cuddling with Laura instead. Mr. Fluffy was 
by my feet. I felt his nice soft fur as I moved my feet under 
him to keep them warm. Lately my feet got cold a lot more than 
they used to. It was probably because the weather was getting 
cooler. Finally around four in the morning I fell asleep.