Anonymous Wed 19 Jun 2024 20:52:26 No.66739720 Report

>>66739368
Schizo and Anon route E1

Anonymous Wed 19 Jun 2024 23:25:29 No.66744373 Report

>>66739720
>"L-look Schizo we'll still be in contact j-just not in person!" Judee says trying to calm me down. I feel the rise coming like a wave. The anxiety coming. It can't be stopped now.
>"You'll be fine, sweetie. Anon's here." I blink and the wave pauses. He is. He's here.
>"Yeah...yeah you're right." I think to him. How much I need him. How his name can still the crashing waves of my condition. I need to speak to him.
>The two pat me on the back, impressed at how well I'm taking their abandonment. At least Anon won't abandon me. I need to talk to him. I exit our little club room and take my phone out. I offer to go something this weekend to my boyfriend. He accepts quickly. My heart flutters and I feel the wave of anxiety peter our into nothing more than a gentle tide. Good.
>Home now and I mom stops me as I get home.
>"Sweetie, we need to talk." My heart in my throat again.
>"O-okay mom. What's up?" I can feel the anxiety returning. I start to panic.
>"Your therapist called me and... he tells me you're not doing too well." Fucking narc I swear to god.
>"And Tarja just called. Judeee and Heather aren't gonna be around any more. Without your support network I'm afraid-"
>"Shut up."
>"Sweetie please I just-"
>"SHUT. UP!" I shout at her. She reels.
>We stand in silence a moment in the doorway. I can feel my heart beating harshly.
>"Don't... please don't put me in there." I lose some composure and have to lean against the wall. Mom steps forward and hugs me.
>"We'll talk about it in a week, okay sweetie?I just want you to be safe and happy." I clench my fists hard. She's abandoning me too.
>I go to bed that night restlessly. The thoughts of being alone and afraid assault me. I think on Anon and they abate. I'm able to rest a bit but there's something in the back of my mind.
>"What if he goes too?" My heart stops cold in my chest. No he wouldn't
>"And if he did?"
cont. Im sorry schizobros.

Anonymous Wed 19 Jun 2024 23:34:20 No.66744669 Report

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>>66744373
>No. Nonononononono. Stop it.
>"Wait till he hears about your mom throwing in the loony bin. You won't even see a dust cloud.
>STOP!
>I shake and shudder, the images of him walking away from me playing on repeat. No. No please. I beg and plead and he still leaves.
>I fight the thoughts the rest of the night. I get no sleep. Dawn comes and it's Friday, the day of my date. I slide out of bed exhausted, mind still racing and open my bathroom cabinet. I spy my medication. The voice speaks again.
>"If you were normal you could be with him"
>It's right and I hate it.
>"You deserve him."
>I do
>"You need to keep him."
>"You have to hold onto him.
>"You must stop him from leaving you."
>"He won't run. You'll make sure of that"
>I slowly close the cabinet. I'm calm. Calmer than I've been in a long while.
>I step downstairs, changed and ready for the day. I walk into the kitchen and meet mom.
>"Oh, good morning sweetie. You okay?"
>"Yup!" I cheerily chime back. Mom turns back to breakfast and I retrieve what I came in here for.
>"I'm glad to hear that honey. I'm sorry for springing that on you yesterday. We'll talk to your therapist first and only go that route as a last resort."
>"It's okay, mom. I get you were just worried. Oh and don't wait up tonight I got a date with Anon." I bubbly state
>"Oh that's great! Tell him I said hello." she turns to face me again.
>"I will. Love you mom" I get a quick peck on the cheek and face the day.
>It passes in a flash, the only thing on my mind is our date. I can't wait.
>School ends and I make my way to the park. Our usual meeting place. It's quiet and no one else is around. It's just starting to get dark.
>I see him on our bench. I smile. I approach and he notices me.
>"Oh hey Schizo." he stands and we embrace.
>"Still got your backpack?" he notices I've yet to go home today.
>"Yup, didn't want to drop it off." I plop down beside him on the bench. I lean in and we share a quick kiss as drop my backpack at my feet
hate this

Anonymous Wed 19 Jun 2024 23:40:50 No.66744846 Report

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>>66744669
>"Anything on the docket tonight?" Anon asks.
>"Just enjoy ourselves. A few questions first though." I state. Anon tenses slightly.
>"O-oh?" he stammers out
>"Oh nothing serious, just wondering what your plans are after high school." I state to him
>"I'm not certain. Dad said it was college or the service. I think I might be able to tough it out in college. That's if I can land some sort of scholarship." My head rings
>"Likely out of state, huh?" I ask reaching down to my backpack.
>He sighs "Unfortunately yeah. I guess we'll have to j-" he's cut off as I put my mouth to his.
>We pull away.
>"Schizo?" He looks into my eyes. His face suddenly goes wide with extreme worry.
>"Sorry Anon, you don't get to abandon me too." I plant the kitchen knife into his chest.
>He goes white in shock, one of his hands grabs my arm, the other goes to the knife.
>He starts to try to speak. I don't let him. I go for another stab. Out then in. Then another.
>After a few he goes limp. The crimson red staining his white shirt and spilling all over me. Not long now and we'll be together forever. I finally pull the thing out of him, running my hand up and down the blade, playing with his blood. I straddle his cooling body. I roll my sleeve up and press the blade into it, the repeat with the other, dragging down fiercely each time. I lean forward and kiss him one more time.
>"I love you." I whisper and shut my eyes as the world starts to fade out.

Fin. Why do I do this to myself? Last for today too