Anonymous Fri 12 Jul 2024 22:08:38 No.67340443 Report

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Anonymous Sat 13 Jul 2024 00:06:38 No.67343765 Report

Quoted By: >>67343833 >>67343879 >>67344179

>>67340443

>I watch in hollow and empty rage as Melissa and that asshole from the swimming team walk, hand-in-hand down the hallway. I snap inside. The last bastion I had has turned on me.
>Fine. You all win. I turn and walk out, the empty ringing of the world all I feel now. I find my way home, my feet simply carrying me there via routine. Mom tries to talk to me as I return home but it doesn't reach me. Probably just another scolding about my schoolwork or nagging about chores.
>I don't even plan it. I just dump my backpack out and pack it with a couple of necessities. A bottle of water, a handful of food I have on hand and the big ticket item, right from where dad keeps it. I know exactly where I'm going. A funny thought crosses my mind. If anyone actually knew me, cared about me they'd know where I was.
>I finish packing and march straight out through the front door. No one sees me go. Not that they'd even notice I've gone.
>I head right out to the woods nearby, the little place I hang out when I need to be alone. Need to think. The last place I want to be. No control over my life but at least I get to chose the final few moments.
>A wave of relief comes over me as I find my spot, undisturbed. A little grove, a clearing with a stump of a felled tree. Who knows who logged this but it makes a great seat. I plop right down ad close my eyes, taking in nature.
>My mind runs through the shitshow I call reality.
>Cynthia hates me after I ratted her out for the torrenting. Like hell I'm taking the fall for that. Didn't mean for her to get sent off like that, though. Her own fault.
>Sera won't speak to me either after I snapped and cursed her out after her little engine debacle almost lit me on fire.
>Mel... I don't even want to think about that. Guess she really meant what she said when she put her foot down about actually going out on dates. I kick myself one more time about that.
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Anonymous Sat 13 Jul 2024 00:18:53 No.67344179 Report

Quoted By: >>67344232

>>67343765
>Maria's still in the hospital. A thought lingers in my mind if it had gone better had I relented and went with her on that joyride. Maybe I could've at least pulled her out of the car fire. Maybe I would've just bit it there beside her.
>Amber... is just Amber. I live in her shadow and got pretty damned good at hiding there. I at least have her to thank for keeping the heat off me for as long as she did. If I miss anyone it'll be her.
>Mom and dad, too. They mean well but the way they lay into me just makes me want out. Want something else. I'll never be anything they want from me. Just a failure. At least I won't burden them anymore.
>I thumb the little firearm in my hand. A 1911, personal favorite of dad's. Picked it up not long after he got back from service. A story he loves to tell. I feel a bit guilty staining it like this.
>The smooth grooves of the chiseled steel are comforting, final. I pop in my earbuds and put on whatever is on my playlist. I'm not here for something meaningful, just comforting.
>I get into the flow, music pumping, the gentle twilight coating me. The time rises I swallow and reach down, taking the safety off. My hand slowly and carefully pulls the gun up to my head. I rest my finger on the trigger and-
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Anonymous Sat 13 Jul 2024 00:20:08 No.67344232 Report

Quoted By: >>67344266 >>67344349 >>67344410 >>67344429

>>67344179
>"GREENE!" I snap my eyes open.
>Amber's standing in front of me, panting.
>Her eyes are wild and crazy, staring unbelieving at me as I sit her. I waiver a moment.
>"Look away."
>"Greene please jus-"
>"LOOK. AWAY." I command, deeply bellowing.
>She doesn't. She just stands there, gawking.
>"I-I'm not going to look away so you can do it."
>I feel a rage in me. Now? Now's the time you care?
>"Fine. You want to watch? Enjoy." The adrenaline surges as she dives forward. I clench every muscle in my body. Including my hand.
>The bang rings in my ears and I feel the searing pain. It's not instant. I fucked even this.
>I start to feel a calmness about me. It's still happening. I look up as I feel everything relax.
>All I see is Amber's face, tears streaming as she holds a hand to my head. I can barely feel the pressure. The world fades slowly to darkness. It's calm as I go.

Fin. Well I'll see ya /snoot/ Might lurk a bit but I'll be out for a weekish before I can take reqs again.