Alarm Clock Fri 31 May 2024 23:12:11 No.66215435 Report

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>>66215388
Anon talks about Rock bottom

Anonymous Sat 01 Jun 2024 00:24:52 No.66217515 Report

>>66215435
>"...you ready to talk?" Fang asks gently, trailing her hand up and down my chest doing her best to avoid the bruises generously donated to me by Volcano High's stairs and Bollards.
>"About?" I ask, dreading the answer.
>"Your old school. I get why you left but I want to know the whole story.... if you're ready." she says, honey and warmth emanating from her.
>Her sweetness melts my heart and be it the weariness from the whole ordeal or her defusing words I feel I'm ready to talk to her, at least a little.
>"Used to live in a place called Rock Bottom." I start, Fang listening intently.
>"Like the namesake, the place sucked. Royally. Nothing to do, no real things of note just mountains and shitty weather." I sigh, remembering the place.
>"Born and raised there, parents moved there a few years before I was born. Claimed it was a nice quiet place to raise children." I continue, my mind starting to drift into remembering my sophomore years.
>"As you already know I was kind of, well not kind of, I was a loser. Weeb, loner the whole nine-yards." as I say this Fang grasps my hand, as if to hold down my self-hatred.
>"Had a few friends." I wince, remembering how those pictures got around in the first place.
>"Had." I put extra emphasis on the word.
>"We shared video game interests. Rock Ring and whatnot." I gesture blindly towards the Xrox on the ground,not wanting to meet Fang's gaze. Not wanting to see the tears forming in my eyes.
>I swallow to give my voice a second to regain it's composure. "One of the guys, Levi, I'd known for a few years."
>"Been to each other's houses, talked online, ate lunch together. I'd wager he might've been my best friend." The story takes it's toll on me, my voice cracking as I continue, face dampening as the tears have now escaped their ducts. I sniffle unconsciously and wipe my face before I continue.
cont. this hurts to write

Anonymous Sat 01 Jun 2024 00:34:44 No.66217846 Report

Quoted By: >>66218009 >>66218024

>>66217515
>"I had found this new anime and showed him. Saturnia. Really liked it." My sentences get shorter as it's getting harder to not break in the middle of them.
>"He shared my interest. We got into the community, sort've." I waffle a bit, my hand still being squeezed by Fang. I take a breath and manage to hold on.
>"We looked up stuff online. Read about what people thought and decided we wanted to join the discourse. He floated the idea of doing some thing with image editing and I agreed, and well..." I close my eyes, the memory vivid in my mind. The joy of really living in that moment still a deep pit
>"Well you already know what I did." I sigh
>"And I had fun, thought it was cool." the past tense rears it's head again
>"A few days go by and I hear less and less from Levi, not sure why. I reach out and he's distant, assume he's just busy or maybe a bit down, no worries." anger starts building as I continue
>"Then I see him at lunch, and he's hanging out with some of the kids that were not so nice to us. Namely a guy named Mike. Was a little confused but I thought that maybe he'd cooled off and was hopeful the rest of the year was gonna be smooth sailing. How wrong that turned out to be." I clench my fists, noting I've still got Fang's hand in mine I relax a bit, not wanting to hurt her.
>"The next day my locker is covered in the pictures I'd made. My heart sunk." I say, my mind seeming to exit my body. I view the world as if I'm a million miles away, watching as my mouth recounts the tale.
>"I didn't see Levi until lunch again. Knew what had happened already and was in denial I guess." my voice becomes mechanical. The story comes with or without me willing it now.
cont. good lord.

Anonymous Sat 01 Jun 2024 00:41:26 No.66218024 Report

Quoted By: >>66218164

>>66217846
>"I didn't find him at lunch. He came to me. Mike and group in tow. They were mean before, but this was something else entirely. It didn't hurt very much from Mike but when Levi started it... broke me. I coasted the rest of the day, unable or unwilling to grasp what had happened. The small group of friends I'd had vanished. The only anchor I'd had ripped from the ground and deposited right on my head."
>I'm shaking now
>"It felt like I wasn't really alive anymore. A ghost of myself wandering through life wearing my shoes. I wanted a way out. Anything. I ended up begging my parents to ship me anywhere else once the break started. I just wanted out. If they said no I don't want to think what might've happened." I sigh deeply, returning to my body, devoid of any energy I'd had left that day, spent in this one conversation.
>I wordlessly turn to see Fang's expression. Her face is marked with streaks where her mascara has run, beautiful amber eyes locked onto mine, empathetically sharing my pain. She leans down and pulls me into a warm embrace, no words needed to be spoken. I close my eyes again and relax.
Fin. yeesh. Small break then another

>>66217333
Trish is built for rough loving unfortunately. Maybe a post ending would have her be gentle.

>>66215466
>>66215470
Combo of these 2 next, small water break first.