It happened when I was three
Going to the doctor's office to get some tests
I thought nothing of it at the time
They looked like ordinary tests at first
And after what seemed like an eternity 
They got the information they needed
After an hour of waiting
They come back with the results 
They tell my parents that im autistic
In otherwards, it was just a fancy way of them
Telling me that i was broken
I really wish that i never learned what that meant
Because that would follow me 
And transform my life into complete chaos
It was the first day of starting school
I was put into a special education class
since i had difficulty learning things
Things were alright 
And i was happy where i was at
Two weeks later the school needed to do some IQ tests on me
I did the tests and a few minutes later
They tell me that i scored high enough to be placed in a regular class
The news spread quickly like a wildfire 
And soon every student knew about it
While the teachers welcomed me with open arms
The students did not
I became an immediate target 
and all the students had their sights on me
They loaded up their insults 
Like guns getting prepared to fire at will
And they fired away at me
This would go on until I reached High School
Many things happened during that time
My grades started to decline 
And the insults got worse
Many students saw what was happening to me
But none bothered to come in and help me
Instead they would laugh along with the others
So they could belong with everyone else
If you tried to stand up for a person that was a target
You would instantly become an outsider, an outcast
I couldn't stand it
Everyday was a battle
Some mornings I would wake up and lie to myself
That everything would be alright
But there were days that when I woke up
That every breath that I took
Became painful and became harder to breathe
Like if somebody had their hands around my neck
and was choking the very life out of me
It was worse when I was in school
Every insult, every humiliating remark
Stupid, Dumbass, Freak
The list would go on and on
It went nonstop 
Like knifes stabbing away at a lifeless body
I became so scared 
of showing my emotions to everyone
It started to turn me into a nervous wreck
Like rabid dogs attacking a person
They chewed away at my sanity 
Tearing it piece by piece
Barely holding on by a thread 
My soul bloody and wounded
Screaming out in agonizing pain
I started to get suicidal thoughts
That would occur every minute
Every second
Constantly slamming me with disturbing ideas
Either it be from trying to obtain a gun
And pointing it at my head and firing away
Or jumping in front of traffic 
And let oncoming vehicles run me over from top to bottom
There were days I wished I could go to the hospital
Asking doctors to amputate my heart 
Give me a pill
And replace it with a battery 
So I would no longer feel emotion
There were also days that I wished i could take out my soul
And replace it with with a copy of a perfect image of themselves
I thought this would go on for an eternity
But after 4 years of high school
After all that abuse and cruelty 
It finally came to an end
And as I look back 
I see the road that was taken
So rough and bumpy 
It's a surprise that im still alive 
I see the sun rise up once more
And walk towards the light moving forward.