Ding! Pulling up my phone, I see a new notification. “FireDragon69 sent you a new message.” Blinking, I blush and run up the stairs to my apartment door. I’d been out with friends so I hadn’t been expecting a new message from my “daddy.” Closing the door behind me, I glance into the hall mirror. I mess up my gray fur a bit. The wolf in the mirror grins back. I hope it’s asking to video chat. I’m not really built like most, I’m what most furs call a “twink”, thin body with that youthful look still. My blue tank top does nothing to hide my thin waist, and my tight pants show off my ass immensely. “Hey Niko!” Looking up, I see my roommate, the tiger has his running shoes on, purple hoodie, blue shorts, and a purple ball cap. Grinning, I sheepishly wave at him. “Hey Sam.” The tiger put his hands on his hips, looking me up and down. “Going on a date, or just checking yourself out?” A pang hits my chest. Dating… I can never date, nobody would accept me. Hell, how could they even like me if they found out about the real me? “No… Just got back from hanging out with Jericho and Elisha.” The tiger raises an eyebrow before winking at me. “Oh? Did you guys go ‘play’ some?” Snorting, I push on Sam’s shoulder. “No, we just hung out.” The tiger waves me off before moving toward the door. “Well, you know my doors always open, but first, I gotta do my daily jog. Catch ya later cutie!” The tiger opens the door and starts running in place before closing it. Shaking my head, I pull out my phone. Opening the messaging app, I see FireDragon’s name highlighted. Biting my lip, I start walking to my room, opening the message as I go. “Hey pervy pup found a group you may wanna check out. Your Daddy’s got your back.” Below the message was a link to a peer-to-peer chat program. Biting my lip, I close the messenger. We’ve discussed a lot of things, shared kinks, interests, photos of his cock, me, my ass. Walking faster, I rush into my room and close the door behind me. Walking over to my computer, I turn it on. The LED inside turns on, a deep blue illuminates the inside. The monitor comes to life as the computer turns on, booting up. Taking a seat in my chair, I nervously glance back at the door. I’m alone, I know it, Sam just left but… in the back of my mind, I feel a twinge of fear. Is this the end? Are our private conversations public? Will police be pounding on my door? Is FireDragon real or just a sting? He’s my daddy but he keeps telling me to be myself but.. myself is horrible. The desktop comes to life, an image of a tree in my background. Biting my lip, I open my desktop version of the messenger. The link hovers there. FireDragon already had me install the app and create an account but I never thought I’d use it… Shivering, I click on the link to join the group. The program opens, our private chat between FireDragon and I the only chat in it. A new icon suddenly appears, my heart beat quickens. The group’s icon is innocent enough, a happy husky cub waving a pride flag in a red speedo. Holding my breath, I click on the group. The chat quickly populates showing my entry as the most recent event. “Otter0824 has joined the chat.” As images and videos fill my chat, my eyes open wide. I can’t believe I’m doing this, I’m so sick, this is fucking messed up. I can’t believe Fire invited me to a chat like this. Images of nude cubs fill my screen, some being fucked, some crying, some with looks of bliss. It’s a smorgasbord of perverted porn. Everything from foxes, to dragons as I scroll up. My fear and disgust are fighting hard against my excitement. Bondage, piss, armpits, undies, is that girl being knotted! I can feel my breath in short pants, I’m scared, I’m not supposed to see this, its wrong but… I’m so turned on. Reaching down, I unzip my pants. Looking over my shoulder at the door, I bite my lip and reach in, pulling my own red rocket out. Grasping my cock, I throb in my hold as I see an image of a sloth in his undies looking away bashfully. Slowly stroking myself, I rub my thumb over my tip as I continue scrolling. It feels so wrong, these cubs are being abused, taken advantage of... but my member spasms as I continue to look. As I scroll, a video of a small bunny in an orange dress comes up. Clicking play, I lean back in my chair and start to openly stroke myself. I watch as adult fox lifts up her dress, pink panties hide her jewels. My eyes widen as I watch the fox slowly pull them to the side. The bunny whimpers as her privates are unveiled. The fox says something to her, but I don’t recognize the language. She speaks back but all I can see is him gently poking at the girls pussy with his claw. She squirms and goes to move. A paw stops her and he continues to probe. She whimpers, says something else. He’s quite forceful in what he says next and pokes a full claw in. She yelps and squirms. I’m mesmerized, slowly stroking myself. The video cuts, the girl is now on her back, a red rocket already inside her. He pushes in and the girl screams as the man above her groans He pulls back, she whimpers and cries, saying more words. The fox chuckles and pushes back in faster, she screams again before her voice stops. I can see her mouth open, air is escaping, but no sound comes out. My paw is moving faster, at the bottom of the screen, I can see his knot pressing against her vagina. His member is bare as it struggles. Finally he pulls back, and her voice returns, sobs taking over for the screams. “Destroy her… Cum in her... Ruin her…” My own voice giving those inner demons a speaking part to my masturbation. I stroke faster, is this pervert going to unload in her? Is he going to bareback this sweet innocent rabbit? Filling her full of his evil cum? The video cuts again the fox’s knot is pressing hard against her, the girl is crying, hugging a stuffed animal. Suddenly her eyes go wide and I realize, he’s in. The camera pans down showing that yes, his knot has entered her. “Fuck! Good man, good monster, fill her up, give her your pups!” The fox barely pulls back before he groans out and the girl sobs again. You can see her shiver as he unloads his thick, evil, cum into her. I can see globs of it leaking out of her tiny pussy around his knot. I bite my bottom lip, my tail is wagging behind me, I can feel my own knot growing. More, I need more. Exiting the video, I scroll up, another video, a dragon’s dick is deep into a little otter boy, his teal shirt still on him. Pressing play, it opens with a slow pull back, showing how large the dragons length is. It this what FireDragon wants? Is this maybe him? Or someone he knows. Slowing down my hand, I keep moving as the boy giggles when the dragon tickles him, before thrusting back in. The boy mumbles something. “Can we play something else Daddy?” Oh gods, I start stroking faster, the pervert has this innocent boy calling him daddy. He’s going to grow into such a slut, like me. Moaning, I close my eyes, the video ends as the dragon pushes in again, the boy’s chest visibly bulging. More. Scrolling up, I find another video of a rhino, tip poking at a male fox’s hole. The boy couldn’t be more than seven. Pressing play, the boy cries can be heard blasting from my speakers. The man’s tip starts to push in slowly. My breath catches as I stroke fast, hand gliding up and down as my precum spurts out. Seeing that he can’t get in, the rhino pulls back and starts jerking himself off. The video stops abruptly. No! What happened? Scrolling again, I find a video of a small dragon, on the floor in a changing room. A similar looking dragon is standing over him. Clicking play, I feel my eyes widen as I realize the boy on the floor is crying. The larger dragon gasps and suddenly the boy on the floor is being covered in piss. Slamming stop, I move, scrolling again. A new video, panda fucking his little baby brother. The boy’s diaper is barely off as his brother stuffs the large length in. The boy cried out loud and trying to crawl away, the older panda holding him in place. Scrolling, a raccoon woman is sucking her son’s small penis, the boy moans and humps against her face. “Come on baby, give her some of that juice.” Stopping the video I move on, hitting play on another video, a small husky is licking at a horses balls. The stallion moans above her, pushing the girl down. “Lick those musky balls girl, get em nice and clean.” The girl giggles and keeps licking. Stopping the video, I move on, I can feel my orgasm being played along an edge. This is horrible, I could lose my life for giving in, to watching any of these, but I can’t stop. It’s so hot. A video of a goth wolf teen sucking a demon comes up. Pressing play, I realize their in the back of his truck, the boy is gagging as he’s pressed forward. “It’s just a bit of cheese boy, swallow.” Shivering, I grin, blushing. My hand races along my length, brushing and rubbing against my exposed knot. When I was a teen I wanted to be a trucker’s slut… How lucky for him… No! Wrong, all of this is so wrong. I’m scrolling again, pictures of cubs in underwear, some tribal cubs, swim suits, family trips, diapers, my eyes are racing over the page as I scroll. I need my next hit, I need something good. I’m enamored with it all, I cant stop stroking as I scroll. Finally another video, a teenage donkey sits in a chair wearing a basketball hoodie saying 21. A young hyena pup sucks on his balls. I stroke faster as the donkey reaches down and starts stroking with me. The hyena licking and sniffing at the large balls. The donkey moves faster, standing up. The pup looks up surprised and tries to keep up, licking at the bottom of the donkey’s balls. I stare wide eyes as the donkey tenses up, stepping back from the hyena. The boy tilts his head before cum blasted out of the donkey, coating the hyena. My own paw rapidly pushes me over the edge, release follows, cum coating my shirt and pants. I’m in shock, but so turned on by the boy being coated in cum. My brain is a haze as my cum covered paw reached forward, exiting the video. At the bottom of the chat app, I see new notifications, blinking, I go to the newest message. I stare dumbfounded as by now multiple people in the group have been welcoming me. Welcoming me to their perversions, telling me to enjoy. Calling me brother. My gut falls out as what I did reaches my hazy brain. I feel grossed out. These people get off on this, see no issue with it, have no qualms with how evil they are. I got off on it, so easily. I’m not, like them, I’m better, I have restraint, I’d never hurt a cub. I’m no brother, I report these perverts, I tell the internet how much I hate them. Scrolling up, I find some of the comments, there are discussions of them wanting to do things with cubs, horrible things, someone admits to doing it with their son, another his sister as a teen. My cock spasms with excitement, aroused by what I read. They’re disgusting, I’m disgusting. We’re all the worst. Closing out the chat, I see the man who invited me to this perversion. I go to FireDragon’s direct messages. “That’s disgusting, I hate all of them, this is horrific, I can’t believe you sent this to me. What sort of freak do you think I am.” I grin to myself, this is for the best, this will help my mental health. Push it down, hate it, it’s gross, It’s wrong, disgusting, that side of me needs flushed out, killed. It’s not me, it’s not right. I’m a nasty freak, I only deserve death… but maybe... I mean, if I’m going to die why not choke a cub out on my cock as I go… no! I’m nothing like them! I’m better. My friends support me, they wouldn’t ever be into this stuff, if they found out they’d hate me. My roommate would get me arrested, I’d die in prison. Or maybe they’re into cubs too? FireDragon was… If my daddy is into it, maybe it’s okay? No! I need to leave this behind, forget what I saw, go back to being normal. I am normal! I’m a good guy! Good guys don’t like that. Maybe I’m lying to myself… am I really that bad of a person? It’s not like I was taught to like cub, I’m just this way… I just like it, it’s like leashes and being called a good boy. I just like this stuff, it doesn’t make me a bad person. Liar! I’m the worst, I’m trash, I should be killed on sight. Maybe I should tell Sam, then he can report me and I can go away and the world will be safe. Or… Keep this to myself, I won’t harm anyone, I can keep a secret, I’ve done so before... No! I need to die, kill the beast before it can harm… But if I’m going to die, why not let the monster free? Let it be what everyone sees. Rape a cub, feel that tight ass around me, revel in what the world sees me as. If I’m going to die, at least go out like the monster they see. No! I would never, cubs are innocent, they don’t deserve that. Even those begging for more, that’s abuse, they don’t know what they want. This is manipulation, no kid could ever want that. Looking down, I see that my member is slowly rising again. I let out a shaky breath as I rub my growing hardness. I’m a freak, the worst, but I really enjoy hearing them cry, hearing the moan… those dominating me. The panda with his baby brother was delicious, the boys squeals as he’s violated. His older brother not caring, just pushing in… This obsession will ruin me, I’ll go to jail, I’ll die... no, I’m better than this. I will not fall. Just delete my account, don’t be tempted to go back, block Daddy, escape. I won’t come back here, I wont do it again, I would never do this again. I look back at the groups icon. I continue stroking my cock as I stare at his red speedo. A small voice in the back of my head chimes in... “You’ll be back, you’ll relapse, because this is what you are... hate it as you may, you are…” Tears threaten to fall. No, I have to resist, I need to be good. I’m a good boy. Moving to settings, I see the “Delete Account” button. My paw hovers over it. I have to do it, I’ll be back, I can’t be that guy. I click delete. My breath catches as I watch my account disappear, gone to the ether, like I was never there. The temptation purged, the fear of being found out waning, the fear of it all riding high. The devil and angel war out on my shoulder for who is right but my brain wont tell me which is which, they both look like devils and angels. Arguing it’s natural, unnatural, normal part of our world, society says it’s bad, gods don’t make mistakes, maybe I’m not a gods child. Looking down at my chest, I see my load, the cum I shot being worn like a blood at a crime scene. I go over to the chat where I first met ‘FireDragon’, I stare at our chat. I could block him, end it all here… but I liked my daddy, he helped me through so much. Maybe… maybe we can keep talking, just keep that out of it. Set that as a boundary. My claw itches as I hover over that block button. But if he entertained it once… whats to say he won’t again? This isn’t natural, this isn’t me, no matter how much I’m told this is me, it can’t be. Why am I so wrong, so evil, so bad? It’s fine, I won’t have such thoughts again. We can laugh it off and move on. Closing our messaging app, I leave him for now. If he tries to convince me it’s okay, I may block him, but for now… I like my daddy, I don’t want to lose him. Besides, I’m better, I got off, I won’t go back. That voice from before, itches the back of my mind. “You will. This is who you are, this is natural and so are you.” Looking down at my rocket, I can see my member receding into my sheath. If this is natural… why does the world hate us? Why is it considered evil? Who profits from our death? Shaking my head, I stand up and start to get undressed. I need new clothes and then I can play some games and put this behind me. Enjoy my time with friends, never boyfriends or girlfriends, just… friends. Because nobody would love me. A monster.