Bitter Hindsight

Chapter 6 – Resolutions

The night was fun, and wonderful. As a spirit, along with my daddy, and big brother. It was fun and great through out the time spent as ghosts.

But it may be over soon since, there’s something we must know, and the wolf spirit confronted me once again in the other world. He about to tell me something that me, and daddy, and big brother should know.

I heard a grunting noises by both of my side, was dad, and Keino, as they seem to be in this dream with me, guessing that it may be something the spirit really needs to let us know about.

“You three. I must let you know, that. You may all can leave and move on to the next life, Or you can wish to live in this realm, this plane for as long you three wish.”

We sigh a bit, and may want to take on it to continue, but he wasn’t done yet.

“If you wish to move on, you must finish your unfinished businesses with your love ones, lingering too long could be better.. or worse.”

We wonder about that last part, and we asked.

“What you mean worse?..” As Father ask the spirit.
He looked at dad, and begin to respond to his question.

“There’s a chance… you can stay too long, but there’s a chance that you can never leave this realm, which will drive your spirits to deteriorate as so much years can pass.”

Keino looked at me as well as dad, as big brother says out loud.

“So huge amount of years pass, like 100 of years, our spiritual energy could deteriorate. But it’s a big if.”

The wolf closed his eyes, as he looks up to the light from the sky above of this world, as he says something to us.

“There are some spirits that were able to maintain their spiritual minds from giving into the deterioration, but some failed, and lost themselves to their rage and bitterness.  I know you three may surpass this, but even the strongest mind could fall.”

When learning about it, it could be true. But we don’t know what we need to do, but daddy, and Keino know what they we need to do. I know what they both thinking, and we need more time before we can choose which way we need to go.

“I will be here, whenever you all are ready, or not. But choose what your souls really desires. Farewell for now..”

The light appeared from the wolf entity, as we all were gone and somehow back in the real world.

Daddy knows what he must do, and Keino must do something on his term before he can think he could move on, but not without me, and daddy.
As I keep a eye on mommy, while daddy is staying very close to her, but daddy told me to go check on Keino and help him out so he can finish his thing.

So I followed the trail that Keino leaves sometimes for me to find him if I miss him, and worry about him. As I found him, he was sitting next to a girl, and I think I seen her before. I recalled that her name was Glory.
Even though big brother loves bonding with me, he is bi-sexual. So knowing that fact is that Glory is Keino’s girl friend, they both would spend time together at school or out and about, since it’s a better way than staying at our aunt’s place since she just plain don’t care.

Glory is a wolf girl, long black hair, with light brown eyes, as her fur is like caramel color, she’s in a good built body, as she spends time in gymnastics, and looks like she’s a fighter. Could be which is why Keino is drawn to her when they met.

Anyway, Glory was somehow a little sad, and I looked to see that she was holding Keino’s necklace, the golden rope line, with a pendent of a crescent moon. 

It seems that Glory was visited by Keino when he disappears from the house, and she misses him dearly. So I think big brother may know what he should do so his girlfriend won’t be depressed, and mourning.
He saw the chalk on the ground, as he uses his might to lift it up, and proceeds to write something on the ground, in front of Glory.
She took noticed, as the chalk was moving on it own, and writing out a message. As the chalk was finished writing a message, the expression on his girl’s face changed, from depression to lighten.

The message stated out to her, and only to her.

“Glory. You’re never alone, and I will be with you, always. Don’t give up. Keep moving forward, Keino.”

She knew that Keino will always keep her safe, and he’ll wait for her when she comes home, so Glory put the necklace on herself, and smiles as she walk into her home. Her heart and spirit was very happy, and lighten.

Keino smiled as well, as he tilted his head a bit toward my way, as he knew I was watching, and was very proud of him of what he did.

“It seems, that she’ll be ok now, huh big brother?” Keino nods to me, as he walk to me, place his hand on my head, as he snicker to me.

“She’ll be fine now, and knows I’ll always be near whenever she needs me. But now, my family needs me, especially my little brother.”

We both were heading home now, as we need to finish one more thing before we can come to a final decision on what would happen to us.
 As arriving home, we both see mom sitting at the table, sadden by something as well daddy was concerned.
Keino and I went to dad, and he pointed at a paper that mama was reading on the table, and the letter states something that could be a bit concerning to us all.

“The owners of this house, must be moved out by the 30th of January, as the tenants failed to pay three previous rent payments.”

It seems that mama had a hard time keeping up with the rent, and bills since daddy passed on before. She is going to look for another place for her and Mari to stay at, but we three will be stuck here, for many years to come.
Daddy had thought of something that could help mama and sis, so he went into his and moms bedroom and looked into the closet, as he reach for a hard spot behind the hard box, back there was a little secret door that was very difficult to see in a angle.

He could open it, but someone must open it in the physical plane to gain access to the money that daddy saved up for my college fund, and this was new to me, never knew daddy want me to go off to college, as a book worm. Nice..

So we went back to mom, and it’s going to be hard to let her know about the hidden money, but then I saw a notepad on the table in front of mom. I told dad to try and write something on it to let mommy know.

As daddy sees a pen on the coffee table, he slowly picks it up as it seen that it’s floating, mom noticed it in the corner of her eye, she was little spooked that this is happening out of the blue. But she’s paying close attention to it that it was heading toward the notepad on the table.

It begin to write something as soon it touches the paper of the notepad. She was kind of off about it, and she awaited till the pen finished writing. 

Daddy was writing carefully, since being a spirit and writing  something precisely with a physical pen, even making sure the writing makes sense nicely, but papa knows what he’s doing.
As well said, the pen finished writing, and mom lends over a bit, and she started to read what daddy wrote for her and she’s in for good news.

“Korina, my love. I’m near you as always, and I wrote this to let you know, that there’s a hidden door behind the boxes in our closet, it contains something that may help you, and our girl. 

Please live on, and enjoy your life, new adventures, and a new journey. 
I will be waiting for you when you come, and I’ll be there for you. The boys are all right, and safe with me. 

We all will be waiting for you, and Mari. Good bye, and never be sad. Your husband, your sons, Always.
•	Perdo, Keino, and Joey”

Mother was happy, as her worries turn to calm and relief, her tears were coming out a bit, as she held the notepad in her hands, like she’s holding it close to her heart.

We all held her, as she felt our touch while she was crying in happiness, knowing that we will be all right, and she, and Mari won’t be alone and sad.
The feeling that flowing within us soothes the pain, and we feel that we could leave our family and know they will be strong and survive.

The later days passed, and Mom and Sis were packing their stuff, and the house as they found a nice apartment to move to, to live better till better opportunity arrived in their path. The rooms were cleared, and cleaned. 
It’s very strange to see the house so empty and silent. Big brother, and Daddy were waiting outside till Mother and Mari leave.

They finally loaded the truck with the last stuff, and mommy went to the front door of our old home, and locked the door. 

She was walking toward the car, and she looked back at the house, with her expression that she’ll miss the house, and us.

“Good bye, our wonderful home. Good bye, my love, my boys.. I will miss you all.”

As she said that, she had gotten into the car, as the movers drove the truck and went ahead. Mommy turned on her car, as Mari sit in the passager seat. 
Mother drove off, as me, Keino and Daddy gave our goodbyes to them, and we started to head off to the sunset, as we moving on to the next thing in this circle of life. Heaven, or rebirth. I don’t care as long those I care about are with me through and through.

At that moment, Mom looked in the mirror, and I think she saw us leaving, moving on to the next life, she smiled and continued to drive off. Her heart was in good grace, and things will be ok for everyone. Even us three.

To the end of this story, it was sad, but deep hearted through and through. But to this, it was maybe all a dream..

I had woke up in my bed, I think it was a dream, but damn… it was a dream about that horrible incident when I was 5, and yes. Now. I’m 16 years old, and I was in my boxer underwear only.

I looked at the photo on my little side table, and see that its…. Its me, Keino, Mari, Dad, mom, and Glory.. and wait. She has a baby boy… It’s Keino and Glory’s son. 

But still, that dream did made me sad, but I was very glad that it was just a dream. In being said, I got up and put on my clothes on, and walk into the living room. Keino was sitting on the sofa with Glory. Big brother looks so bad ass, and hot for a 24 year old dude.

Their boy is in his crib, and his name was Damien. While Mari was laying on her stomach on the floor, watching tv. 

I turn to the kitchen, and I see mom cooking breakfast, and Daddy was sitting at the table, guess he going to go to work as soon he finishes his meal. So I sit down at the table, guess I got to head to school soon. But I’m good to know that everything is ok.

“Well, good morning my boy, had a good sleep?” I closed my eyes and smile.

“Yes, sir. I’m just glad to see everyone in the morning, and a ok.” As said, mama brought my breakfast, and she smiled at me as she place my food on the table.

“Well morning, my little one. You ready for a new day?” when mom said that, and started to eat my breakfast, but not before I said this.

“A new day sounds great to me, and I’m glad everyone is here to enjoy these days with me. Always.”

Everyone was ready to head out and start their day. Big brother, and Glory were driving me to school, as Mari head off with mom to go to her job. As Daddy pet my head before he has to head off to work.

“Have a good day, my son. I’ll see you when you get home from school, ok?” I nodded and tail wag, as then I rush to Keino’s car and started to head off to school before I become late.

I always know that day was a bad thing for me to go through, but I was very happy to survive that faithful night, and live on. With scars included. I hope that everyone I care for will be with me, and never give up. Always and forever. 

Everyone… I love you all, from the bottom of my heart.

The End