Caetia has been laying in bed for hours after waking up. Apius had offered her games to play or any video to watch but she has felt like doing nothing today. The guild weighing on her mind about her Dad turning himself in makes her want to sulk. Her heart felt cold, so cold that the temperature had to be warm than cold. Apius, despite being really worried, has been watching over her frequently to make sure she's alright. Making food, snacks and drinks for her in case she needed it. He sat on the bed next to her and played a game on the TV in their room. To Caetia it was so relieving to have Apius playing next to her, she didn't want or respond but she deeply appreciated Apius mutter, clicking the controller and the sounds from the TV playing. It was soothing to her like a lullaby. The new mattress was wonderful for the both of them, Apius still felt embarrassed about damaging the previous one but it did mean a new one to sleep on. It took a few days for the new one to be delivered, the delivery workers were polite alongside their punctual effort. However one did look at the two of them in a strange way. It looked like to Apius that he could tell Caetia and Apius were particularly close. He however nodded with a slight nod of satisfaction as he left to them, it made Apius quite uncomfortable. Maybe what Apius thought was wrong and the guy was just really appreciating Apius's corpse face paint alongside his sister's punk look and attire. But Apius just didn't know what it was about the worker but it made him anxious of the thought, he hoped they would never come back. He did love corpse paint on his face when he was in a metal mood, he especially loved it when Caetia did it on the account that it would look better if she did it. But more so he loved staring at her face as she concentrates and giving her the power to do anything to his face. One time she smudged "ass" on his forehead to which when he found out she thought it was absolutely hilarious, he got her back by smearing the paint across her face when she was streaming one time. The most important bit however was applying their special clan marks when it was all done. No attachments to any organization or ideology, just something for the Aldas family and it felt wonderful for the both of them when they took turns applying it to the other. With the new mattress making the both of them comfortable and the day otherwise un-special they at least got to make use of the mattress with it being so new. Eventually Caetia sat up and rested her head on Apius as he played, nearly causing him to die in the game and startling him a bit. Neither of them were wearing clothes at the time, nudity was something they were very accustomed to after living with their Dad for so long but mostly do so with all the windows one way or covered for their privacy. "I miss Dad so much." Caetia sniffed to Apius, he immediately felt troubled and slightly agitated. "I know." "But I'm glad it's just the two of us. But I miss him. He could be dead and I wouldn't even know." "I'm glad I got you too." "I just wish it was the three of us again. I wouldn't complain ever again if he could just come back." Apius sighed, feeling more bothered by the second. "I know, Cae. I know how you feel, but I don't want him back." "I know. Neither of us can win." She continued to sniffed, "Sorry to say but speak for yourself, Cae. I feel like I won." "Don't say that, there were no winners amongst us." "Dad isn't here touching me and reminding me what he has done for years, I'd say I'm a winner." "That's bullshit and you know it, you still remember it all without him." "But I don't have to keep worrying and worrying about him to make me remember it, it just-" "Happens whenever it fucking wants to without warning, that's not a win." "Fine. There's no winners." Apius couldn't believe himself getting annoyed, he wanted his sister to forget their Dad so he could move on. He couldn't blame her but it frustrated him. Caetia removed her head and sat straight, "Look... I'm sorry I'm irritated by this. I just... want to forget him, move on, forget everything and not keep thinking of what I could have been." "There's no point in that." "Exactly!" "But he's still our Dad. He turned himself in instead of killing himself, if he done that we'd get nothing from him and be stuck in some crappy hostel or home." "Yeah and he finally did something instead so we got away from him." "God dammit, Apius." Caetia only ever said his full name if it was formal or she was mad. "Are you telling me you don't care?" "Of course I care!" Apius paused his came, he could feel himself stuttering. "But at the same time I'm glad he's away from us. Every time I think I understand why you miss him you pull something out of thin air about something good he did. He didn't do anything for years except putting various things into my ass, most of which was his tongue." "...I suppose we finally have a difference that isn't gender." "Cae...," Caetia started crying. "I can't help how I feel, Api. I have to live with the constant guilt of him being gone, pushing him over the edge and that I didn't keep my act up. EVERYTHING went wrong when I snapped and I dream of it almost every night of seeing him being taken away from my grasp. You dream of hands and fingers all over you at all times, well I see them pushing and keeping me away from him. Now don't say 'have you forgotten what he has done to us' because of fucking course not!" She was startling to tremble. "But I fucking miss my Dad- our Dad. He was all we had when Mum disappeared. I know you have been lying to me about caring for Dad now that he's gone and worrying about him with me I'm not fucking stupid. I still, and I swear by it, if I had to put on an act for the rest of my life just to have him back I would and I'd do so for you as well! I'll not be myself for the rest of my life just so I can have my family together. Being fucked and touched was neither here nor there for me, I guess I just don't have the hatred you have for him!" Apius watched and listened to his sister's heartfelt rant, he hated seeing her in distress and just wanted to agree with her to calm her down. Put on an act and pretend that he fully gets what she is saying for her to feel understood. But as she went on and more he couldn't bring himself to do it. He knew she blamed herself but he didn't know she was this upset. He cried tears paralyzed with fear, fear of his sister no longer wanting to be close to him. Afraid that she's put on an act this whole time to be with him for him and not doing anything for her. He covered his mouth and started to involuntarily shack in fear. Caetia, even in her upset anger, had noticed her brother starting to break. "I'm so sorry, Cae." Said Apius muffled in his hand and tears. Caetia reached out to Apius, retracting her hand in guilt but then embracing her brother. "I'm sorry, Api. I d-don't know why I said all that, I'm sorry! I'm wrong and I know it." "No, Cae. No you're right...," Apius sobbed, dropping his controller and embracing his sisters. "Please don't leave me I'm sorry, I wish I could know all that's going on. Please don't go I need you." "I'm not going anywhere, Api." The two of them cried together for a few minutes. The both of them didn't feel like teenagers anymore, it felt like they were 7 and 10 again. "I wish I knew before what your nightmares were and how much you really missed Dad. I want to miss him more, I do. Bu-b-but I don't want to be reminded anymore!" Apius's voice was so emotional he could barely pronunciate his words. "I just want to be with you and forget everything!" "I'm sorry, Api! I'm so sorry!" "But you're right, Cae! You aren't wrong! There's no winner with Dad being taken away. You're right that we'd get nothing if he killed himself, fucking corporations and their legal bullshit." "Yeah fucking Azio...," "And he stopped us being through into the army as well, I know that. He's done things for us that I don't want to admit! All because of all the things he's done to me- to US, how he broke us. I don't want to admit that I miss him and his bullshit after all he has done. But I don't think I can EVER be with or around him ever again, I just can't Cae... I wish, no I want to not be that way but I can't! I just can't...." The two of them held each other tighter than any other time they've ever done. "Please don't change, please nothing change! I don't want us to stop being close, oh god I fucking need you Cae and I don't want anything to change!" "I won't, Api! This doesn't change what's between us, I need you just as much Api! I'm sorry I got angry!" The two Turians eventually laid on the bed still holding each other crying and unable to detach from each other, they quivered together. After an hour the two had calmed down enough to stop repeating "I'm sorry" to each other and their tears had dried up. Eventually falling asleep locked into each other refusing to let go. It took several hours until Apius woke up, his arms felt tired and worn from holding his sister consistently. He felt incredibly hot, more hot than he's comfortable dealing with. The warmth of his sisters body against his however was something he was willing to ignore though, refusing to let go. His thoughts kept running and running on what happened, what was said. He was still worried about what had happened and he breathed heavily, he didn't want to think of his father but Caetia's words stung him. He was making excuses of hating his Dad more than he should. Yes he was touched and fucked as a child, he never really liked the feelings from that. But his Dad was just broken, so broken that he put he and Caetia on edge for so long just so he could function. He heard stories from abuse survivors and how a lot refuse to ever come to terms with the abuser. He wanted to be like them because they came out alright in the end. But what if his Dad was just broken, unable to change like he said so often. Apius couldn't help but think of how simple it would have been to change, just simply stop doing it. Then he finally remembered something his Dad had said. "What I feel is one of the most conflicting feelings I've ever had. I still have them to this day, Apius. See it like how you love lollies, the flavour and the enjoyment of eating them. What I suffer is an addiction, someone who is addicted to... you know. God I hate every time I try to talk about it, anyway. I don't see you as lollies but imagine having an addiction to lollies, I know you love them especially the snake ones. Imagine not being able to go for a week without eating one, just one. Imagine it in front of you every single day and everyone tells you to not to eat it because it's wrong, it's bad and you know it is. That... that's how it is for me, Apius. God I wish I could change that part about myself, how much I'd give to just be your Dad without fucking you and everything up. God I want to be the father you deserve and that's why I suffer, because I can't. Everyday I look at you and your sister and I'm struggling, craving for that 'lolly' and it kills me so much inside because I don't want to but I need to. I hate it, I truly do and don't ever forget it for the moments of me enjoying it is only when I'm getting my lolly, my fix. I don't want to see you or Cae as a lolly, I want to see my children who I love so much and to provide everything in the galaxy." He just simply remembered it all, he shed tears as he remembered his Dad's heartfelt plea of desperation. His face breaking up as he explained it all. He whined to himself softly as the words stuck into him strongly. Because it didn't feel like it was entirely his fault anymore, despite how much he said it was. He then was overcome with fear, grief and regret. "Cae... please wake up." Apius cried softly. He got no answer so he repeated, "Cae... please wake up. Please wake up...," still getting no answer. "Cae I'm scared, please! Please wake up!" He finally felt her move slightly, a groan and a sudden body jerk. "Oh-my-god oh-my-god are you okay? I'm sorry, sorry I didn't mean to sleep. Are you okay?" Caetia woke up feeling groggy but was in a panic, she hated hearing her brother in despair. Apius let go of his sister and laid on his back while Caetia sat up. "I remembered something Dad told me, I remember how it hit me. I'm sorry I hated him so much." They eventually sat up holding hands and leaned against each other looking down, they felt exhausted despite sleeping so much. Caetia looked up and noticed the TV was still on with the game on pause, "Oh right. I forgot you were playing something." "What? God dammit. You know you would have thought the sound would be still playing but I forgot sound actually stops when paused. Where the hell was I even up to?" He let go of Caetia's hand to crawl down the bed to the controller, he resumed the game and noticed he was in the middle of a boss battle. "Dammit it was during the rabid rapid human mutant boss and I have bugger all health." After a short moment his character died and he got a game over screen for a COUNTINUE or EXIT. "Dammit! Uuurrrg it is such a pain to get back to that bastard." Upon hearing bugger from Apius's mouth Caetia's fingers twitched, her abdomen ichy and her pelvis feeling needy. She couldn't help but feel excited at the mere mention of bugger out of sheer need; she threw Apius backwards to his back making him drop the controller again. "What the hell, Caetia!?" Caetia in a swift and fluid motion she mounted on top of him in cowgirl position; her heavy breathes and quivering arms over him. "Oh...." "You said bugger." Caetia huffed with a slight smile, quivering slightly more by the second. "Ah... sorry." Apius smiled chuckling slightly; Caetia bent down and kissed her brother on the cheek. "Nothing to be sorry for this is a good thing. Now I know what you're thinking, stop that and don't ruin this for me. It's a bad good thing and it's you so I love it." "Heh alright, sorry. So er, same place?" "You know it!" Caetia still only wants it up her ass, she says it's because it's the only spot she was use to but Apius felt convinced it was for another reason. She certainly loved it there and not caring for her girlhood, that hasn't changed at all. "You are ok with this?" "Yeah I am, Cae." "I can do all the work!" Caetia said with glee, her mandibles making out a cheeky grin. "Only if you want to." Caetia got up and started to suck her brother off wasting no time at all. Caetia strangely loves the very beginning part when the member isn't erect or only partially. She wasn't comfortable with the reasoning exactly but for the most part she didn't care. Eventually Apius's cock had hardened and Caetia's grip hardening around it, she pressed her face to it looking to her brother. They both smiled sweetly at each other with the difference of the tip in Caetia's mouth and Apius's finger in his mouth. Caetia tugged it a bit and started to massaging Apius's cock. "I love you, sis." Apius said sweetly in reminiscence of being young and innocent. Caetia giggled and started playing with her piercings on her mandibles. "I love you too, Api. God you're such a sweet heart, you're just so fucking lovable." Apius huffed amusedly as Caetia climbed back on top of him. "Could you get the lube from the draw?" Apius nodded and reached to the draw on his right, he grabbed a bottle of 'Moon's Delight Lube' and passed it to Caetia. As Caetia got the bottle she started to applying it rubbing up, down and all around Apius's cock. "I won't lie Cae but it still feels amazing when we do this. Like... my breath is taken away at how much I love you and you are such a great comfort, love and fun for me. You also enjoy this so much, heh." He sounded nervous but he didn't actually feel it, Caetia has heard him like this a lot and it melted her heart; a sweet brother in both sex and out of it and she couldn't ask for more. "Dammit Api you are too cute at times, stop it or I'll have to start slapping you." Caetia giggled playfully as she covered her mouth to hide it. "I'm joking of course." "Yeah?" "Because!" "Oh god-" "The only thing, "Don't say it- "that will be slapping," "Oh noo-" "is your cock in my ass!" Caetia started laughing as Apius covered his face. "Rrraaaahhhhrrrrgg the cringe!" he eventually joined in the laughter but kept his hands over his face. "I'm done lubing you up, bro." Caetia said trying to hold her laughing back but failing to, Apius moaned and looked at his sister with a 'why?' expression and sighed with a nod. They stared at each other for a bit more causing the two of them to start laughing once more. "Do it already dammit before I go soft." Apius laughed, "Alrighty!" Caetia took no time to press down and slide Apius's cock into her, rigorous anal play, toys and training makes it an easy job but always the enjoyable experience for Caetia. For Apius the feeling of Caetia's ass warmth was soothing, arousing and an incredible sensation that he couldn't put to words. It was most certainly good- no it felt incredible, he thought that it was his little sister and it made it all the more better. Maybe this is what his father felt so much during the old days. Caetia leaned back as she moved pushed up and down on Apius's member, enjoying the addicting deep feelings. Her legs were on each side of Apius's head but not touching and her arms placed on the bed splayed behind her for support. Apius watched as his sister went on and stared at her pelvic piercings, or what Caetia called it 'chastity piercings'. When she got them done Apius never heard of them before in his life, she got it when she was 12 by a Salarian that Fidius met and was originally a surgeon or some kind of doctor. He was on parole and doing service as Fidius oversaw his days and the two got along. At the time Caetia wanted something done down below to 'lock' or 'shut access' to her pussy as everyone she had sexual times with at one point or another wanted to fuck or put toys in there. She got sick of the attention she got there and asked the Salarian alongside all the other piercings to apply a simple chastity piercing to not restrict her ability for urinating but made it impossible for her to get vaginally fucked. The Salarian was eager to help but didn't get a chance to feel her up with her father and Fidius standing next to him. Since then she has maintained it and got new piercings since the original installment but it has served her well and happy. Apius loved staring at it as the sense of it being 'locked' without any lock on it was deeply intriguing. Something about how it was kept together so neatly with some extra bauble piercings in a symmetrical fashion, he felt lucky that he was allowed to touch it all. He did so as Caetia was in the slow bouncing phase. "I seriously love your piercings, like... all of them." Apius said as he reached down to rub his finger across them one by one. "I love them too. So glad Dad allowed me to get all of them, frankly I want to get more done." "Down here?" "No, well unless you can think of a spot. But I'm thinking broadly, I just want to get more done." "You can never have too many holes in your head." "Exactly!" Caetia sighed and breathed deeply as she started to speed up. "Are you feeling nice? I'm feeling so good like, I really need this." "Yeah I feel great, Cae. Thanks." Caetia giggled at his response, Apius often said the words 'Sorry' and 'Thanks'. Caetia loved this feeling so much, to feel something down there to give her brother pleasure. She liked the aspect of it disregarding her cunt and it being neglected over anal sounded and felt hot to Caetia. Plus that feeling, that slick and tight feeling as it went in and out. The feeling of it in the moments of her colon empty and wanting, to full and satisfied. She occasionally would plop her brother's dick out to feel the emptiness just to pop it back in. The squishes, pops, clicks and sexual onomatopoeias just felt like music to the both of them. The two of them weren't making any sounds though. A mixture of odd shame and embarrassment has the pair to bite down on their fingers or any appropriate objects and brace themselves to minimize any sounds they would make. The only sounds were just the sounds of Apius's cock being slammed by Caetia's ass. Even after Caetia took to a medium-high speed the two of them contained themselves to some slight heavy breathing. Caetia paused momentarily to lean down close to her brother, they kissed making their mandibles touching each other. "I love you, Api." Said Caetia sweetly. She could see the happiness and warmth in his eyes and stroked down the lines of his clan marks with her finger. She could feel him shiver from her touch but she also could feel his member harden more inside her. "Fucking hell, Cae." Apius grabbed his sisters face and kisses passionately, they kissed, and kissed, and kissed. Apius stopped their kissing spree to breathe and marvel at his sister's piercings, he suddenly remembered the 'sex' part. "Maybe we should finish off 'spelunking your cave' and then continue to kiss." Caetia giggled as she stretched and got into a more comfortable posture while nodding. She went hard and fast like a wounded animal being spooked, she even caught Apius off guard. But she slammed hard and fast on his meat to feel the burning pleasure take over. She could feel her anal ring burn but that sensation was amazing to her. The deepness of it all was incredible... and it made her feel even closer to her brother after all the times he's had it. More importantly anal felt like the closest she'll ever be to her brother, not like vaginal in all those videos she's seen; she often felt those videos were fake just to serve the population who cared for it. It was anal that felt like true, intimate love to Caetia. As she got more rough and fast her breathes got heavier. Apius's was covering his mouth to contain his mutters of pleasure. The pleasure got too much for Caetia as she started cumming on her brother. She made a softened squeal of pleasure tremoring on her brother. It was only then that Apius cummed inside his sister's ass. He bit down on his hand hard enough to contain himself to make no noise. They didn't say anything for a few minutes, only tremoring, quivering and heavy breathing. Caetia rubbed her cunt gently after a highly requested and necessary sexual episode; feeling the piercings along the slit of her mound. She sighed. "Fuuuuuck.... that... was so good. God I love you, Api." Caetia said out of breath. Apius felt his sister's cum along his chest, looked up to her and with an exhausted smile he nodded back. "I love you too, sis." Caetia lifted herself up for her brother's cock to eject, his cum poured out of her asshole in a smooth fluid, congealed fashion. She reached down to rub and finger her asshole, sighing in delight. She fingered in deep, swishing around to stretch it open and to rub her anal ring. She loved digging into her own ass after sex to try to get all the cum out. "Would you... mind if I eat your ass out? Like to clean it for you?" Apius asked, feeling slightly embarrassed. "Oh! Of course you can! I didn't even think of for some stupid reason. Here!" Caetia swung her body to stick her posterior to Apius, sliding her self a bit close for him to be all nice and close. "Thanks Cae. I don't know I just get a bit nervous to ask of it." "It's ok, Api. I understand. Just know you are more than welcome to my body within acceptable reason. Now have at it, I'm going to enjoy this." Caetia stretched forward and rested her head on Apius's wet and sloppy junk. "Oh and please no touching of my pussy, at least minimize it. Please?" She asked sweetly to Apius, he affirmed back. "Of course, Cae. I'm sorry that I just want to touch it at times." Apius grabbed his sister's small and tight turian buttocks. As he pressed his mouth to her anus he kissed, licked and sucked it. He rubbed the back of his sister's thighs as he grooved himself to clean his juices from her back passage. Caetia moaned softly as she bit into her finger to weaken it. The feeling of her brother cleaning their sexual mess up felt so dirty and so erotic; she especially loved hearing and feeling the slurpings behind her coming from Apius. She stroked his legs as he did his work. Apius actually enjoys licking up his own cum, either it be from his sister's ass or otherwise. His father gave him the weird quirk as he often did it himself, something Apius actually liking to do when he was finally able to ejaculate. After 15 minutes Apius was done and Caetia rolled over to the otherside of the bed to face her brother. "Thank you so much, Api. Sorry for, er, how sudden I am with this requests. Just gotta be careful with 'bugger'." Caetia laughed to herself. "It's ok, really. I just want you to feel comfortable or happy. If anything I feel better doing this with you to make up for before." Caetia crawled over to Apius and hugged him tightly around the waist, she sighed sadly. "Don't worry about before, please? I think we've said what was needed to be said." "Ok then." Apius rubbed his sister's back sighing with her. The two of them held hands; Apius used his right and Caetia used her left. Apius started humming softly in a long, continuous, drawn out somber fashion. Caetia joined in, the two of them humming together. Neither of them remember why they started this trend of humming like this but they did know they enjoyed doing so. When they were either too awake to sleep, trying to drown out the silence or they were in a depressive mode. It felt soothing when they both did it. Caetia looked up at her brother smiling, Apius smiling back with his mandibles twitching softly. After what felt like 30 minutes Caetia sat and then stood up stretching with a yawn. She looked to the clock on her bedside table, "Oh wow. It's 4:30." Apius sat and stretched, "Wow, I didn't know we spent that much time in here." "Yeah.. sorry about that. Wanna shower?" "Hell yeah, should probably get the sheets washed as well." "Oh yeah, I'll help out with that." Apius nodded back and got off the bed so they could strip it together. The two of them carried the pillow and bed sheets to the laundry of which a washing machine looking like a fancy aquarium like container was installed. The planet they live on has washing machines like this all over, there is actually fish and tiny jellifish-like specimen in the aquarium that fed on muck, dirt, dust, a large variety of stains and did so eagerly. The native species on the planet trained the fish and the jellyfish-like specimen to do this and is one of their greatest achievements. Offworld species did at first find it uncomfortable with the thought of living creatures cleaning laundry but no one could deny that it worked and gave a nice cycle to the environment. The fish were so little and had glowing zig-zag stripes across it; when it was hungry it was bright green and when they were full they turned a calming blue. Caetia loved seeing the fish in action like a muck crazed piranha that actually and the jellyfish-like specimen that were so incredulously small that you only can see them if they're in a large group. Unlike normal jellyfish these ones ate entirely on the same stuff as the fish as well as their excrement. They were bred to be small to thoroughly clean things that their fish buddies couldn't get; the original origin of the species comes from a staggeringly large jellyfish species that are so light, despite how solid they are, that flies around the mountain ranges. They feed on pollution from the native species colonization as well as the pollution from the volcanoes that once were very active in the past. The volcanoes as now extinct and the giant flying jellyfish would have died out if it weren't for the native people stepping up to save them. Unlike Caetia, Apius loved the large jellyfish flying in the distance. He found it surreal and majestic seeing them fly at a size that looked like they were right in front of them; he dreams that someday he can sit on top of one for a day. "Look at the little fellas go, they look really hungry." Apius said peering into the washing tank. "Yeah! Damn they're so cool!" "Which ones?" "All of them! Gah we should have a shower quickly, I feel some of your cum leaking down my leg." "Dammit I thought I got it all." "It might be saliva I dunno but we should go anyway!" They quickly walked off to the showers and stood close together as the waters turned on. They had their hands on the other's shoulders bracing themselves for the sudden temperature shift of the water coming crashing down on their bodies. They gritted their teeth with bemusement as they loved making a game of keeping each other strong. After a minute they chuckled at their small success and proceeded taking turns cleaning each other. Apius still loved cleaning his sister, as did Caetia to her brother. But to Apius it was a tradition since he was a child, he wanted to make sure she was clean but he couldn't break the tradition. They acknowledged that it was probably really weird to other people if they found out but after everything else they did together would give off the same vibe as well; they agreed to stop caring or mentioning how weird they would be to outsiders and decided to focus on doing what made them comfortable. These were still the early part of their days together alone and both felt like no one else would come between them. Because neither one of them wanted anyone else, just each other. As Apius cleaned Caetia he would occasionally hug, hold and stroke her. When it was Caetia's turn she returned the favour, hugging, holding and stroking him. Getting rid of the dirt, muck, shame and fears together. This was their life and they were going to make it, for both of them.